
TIME WITHOUT END
By
Linda Lael Miller
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TIME WITHOUT END



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Las Vegas, Nevada
1995
A hush fell over the audience as the full-sized glass coach rolled onto the
stage, drawn by six perfect white horses with golden manes and tails. Dense fog
tumbled and spun along the floor, rising slowly, encompassing the silent, gilded
wheels of the carriage, swirling around the black iron pillars of the
old-fashioned streetlamps lining the wings.
Daisy Chandler had been on a stakeout until half an hour before, and she'd
arrived in the theater of the new Venetian Hotel just in time for the finale.
Even though she'd lived in Las Vegas all her life, and knew more than a little
about trickery and sham, she held her breath as the carriage door opened.
The magician stepped out of the coach onto the stage.
Tall and very broad in the shoulders, he stood just behind the fog-dimmed
footlights, regarding the audience in imperious silence for a few moments, as
though deciding whether or not these particular people were worthy of his
presence, let alone his performance. He wore a plain tuxedo, exquisitely
tailored, beneath a flowing black velvet cape embroidered with glimmering
threads of every conceivable color, and his chestnut hair was thick, slightly
too long over his collar, and faintly shaggy. His features were patrician, his
complexion pale with a pearlescent glow to it.
Although Daisy could not see his eyes in the darkness, she would have sworn
his gaze touched her, passed by, and then returned to cast some subtle spell.
Daisy felt an immediate wrench of sorrow and joy deep within herself, a
recollection of great love and even greater tragedy. A fury of faded pastel
images fluttered in her mind, like antique valentines…
Memories.
Daisy tried to shake off the fanciful impression. She was a cop, and an
especially pragmatic one at that. She didn't believe in magic, or in memories of
things that had never happened to her in the first place. She'd been having
spooky dreams, on and off, ever since she was eight years old, but that fell
into another category entirely.
She shifted in her seat, wondering why she'd come to see a magic show instead
of going home to her apartment for a Lean Cuisine, a hot bath, and some badly
needed sleep. Hell, she'd even laid out the seventy-five bucks for a ticket…
Daisy bit her lower lip. She'd heard about the magician, who billed himself
simply as Valerian—with no Greats or Magnificents or Incomparables tacked on for purposes of
pizzazz—from her friends. They said his tricks were impossible, that other
sleight-of-hand specialists were flying in from the world over, hoping to figure
out how he did it all, and Daisy had wanted to see the act for herself.
It was as simple as that. Wasn't it?
She realized she was holding her breath, and ordered herself to take in air,
but her hand trembled as she reached for her glass of diet cola. Her gaze never
left the commanding figure dominating center stage.
Daisy was enthralled, like all the other spectators, as Valerian raised his
arms high in the air, turned his back to the audience, and faced the team and
carriage. The metallic threads in his cape seemed to ripple and undulate under
the stage lights, and Daisy shook her head, overwhelmed by another flood of
footloose, whimsical remembrance.
The magician lifted his hands slowly, gracefully, from his sides, palms up,
and as he did so, the fairy-tale coach and all the horses rose a few inches off
the floor, then a foot, then several feet.
The silence in the room was explosive, absolute. No one spoke, or coughed, or
cleared a throat. The horses seemed unconcerned with the fact that their hooves
weren't touching the floor; they moved in place, as though they were trotting on
top of a cloud, and the carriage wheels spun accordingly.
Valerian turned, in a swirl of shimmering color, and glared fiercely at the
audience, seeming to challenge them to question the trick. Then the fog
dissipated, and Cinderella's coach-and-six were still jostling along in mid-air,
supported by nothing at all.
Daisy scooted to the edge of her chair, frowning, her practical cop's mind
racing even as her emotions wrestled with the lingering sense of poignant
recognition. She knew razzle-dazzle when she saw it. No matter how polished the
magician, no matter how sophisticated the trick, illusions were illusions. There
could be no question that her eyes were fooling her, but she was more than
mystified by what she was witnessing—she was unnerved.
The wizard gestured, and a half dozen of the requisite dancing girls pranced
onto the stage, three on one side, three on the other. At another silent command
from Valerian, a trio of the skimpily clad women moved to sit cross-legged under
the suspended coach. One of the three seated beneath the horses glanced upward
with a thoughtful expression, then produced an umbrella.
A twitter of nervous laughter rose from the crowd, but that feeling of
collective breath-holding remained.
Having proven, ostensibly, that there were no wires supporting the
coach-and-six—an idea Daisy had already dismissed as preposterous anyway—the
dancing girls scrambled out from under it.
Valerian raised an arm, and the coach door opened again. A glittering gold
ladder stretched with soundless grace to the stage floor, and the girls
ascended, one by one, into the carriage. The door closed behind them.
There was a sort of psychic drumroll, something felt rather than heard. Then
the great deceiver raised his arms again, and the onlookers cried out in wonder,
Daisy included, when the team began to move, still suspended, pulling the coach
out over all their heads, making a grand and glorious sweep before returning to
the stage.
Daisy's mouth dropped open. She closed her eyes, then opened them again.
The coach-and-six settled gracefully back to the floor of the stage, then
rolled out of sight.
The audience soared to its feet, clapping and cheering wildly. The magician
bowed deeply, a small, ironic smile lifting just a corner of his mouth, then
vanished in the proverbial cloud of smoke.
Daisy sank back into her chair, still in shock. The horde of tourists
straggled out, murmuring among themselves, speculating. Soon, the theater was
empty, except for a few waiters, and the stage, with its tiered curtain of ivory
silk, was dark.
Daisy remained, her heart in her throat, inexplicable tears burning in her
eyes, obeying some unspoken command because she could not find the strength to
defy it. Waiting.
For Daisy, the show was far from over.
1
Dunnett's Head, Cornwall
September 1348
"You've ruined both of those lads," Noah Lazarus groused from his position
next to the table, mallet in hand. His wife, Seraphina, stood gazing out of the
shop window, looking for those scoundrel sons of hers. He spat in an effort to
gain her notice, knowing beforehand that he would fail. "The names you gave
them, Sera—Krispin, Valerian—names fit for the sons of princes and kings. And
me naught but a bootmaker!"
Seraphina turned those extraordinary violet eyes on him at last, and even
though they flashed with contempt,
Noah was glad of her notice. He knew he was pathetic, but in such moments he
couldn't make himself care.
"They are fine lads," she said acidly. The late afternoon sun came through
the thick, bubbled glass of the window, playing in her rich chestnut hair. Noah
marveled that such a creature had bound herself to the likes of him, under the
laws of God and man, that she'd lain with him, borne the children he sired.
Just then, Noah caught a glimpse of the boys, returning from the keep
overlooking the small seaside village and the wild Irish Sea. Valerian, the
elder, was seventeen, tall and straight as a ship's mast, with powerful
shoulders and his mother's dramatic coloring. He had strong bones, unblemished
skin, and straight white teeth, Valerian did, and he was so physically perfect
that Noah could hardly believe he was the get of his own loins. It was as though
the boy had willfully taken all the best of his parents for himself, leaving
little or none for the children who followed.
Krispin, smaller than his brother, fair-haired and as delicate as a girl,
came next. He'd managed to survive, at least—that was more than could be said
for the others.
Poor little Royal had been born three years after Krispin, only to have his
mother confer that embarrassment of a name upon him. He'd been a blue and
spindly twig of an infant; hadn't even survived a fortnight. As for the two
girls, well, those wretched creatures, twins they'd been, had both
given up the ghost before they could be christened.
The door of the shop swept open, and Valerian strode in. He wore the plain
garb of a tradesman's son, leggings and a tunic of the cheapest wool, and yet he
looked out of place, as he always did. More like a dandy down from London Town
than the pauper he was. He kissed his besotted mother on the forehead, and she
glowed as if she'd just been blessed by John the Baptist, or one of the lesser
saints.
Valerian's eyes met Noah's, and the old knowledge passed between them; they
had always despised each other. That day the whelp carried an unbelievably rare
and precious item—carelessly, of course—in the curve of one arm. It was a book,
bound in leather, and Noah knew without looking that its parchment pages would
have been painstakingly inscribed by one monk or a succession of them, and
exquisitely illustrated with vivid colors and fragile brush strokes.
Noah's heart clenched, and he felt a thin sheen of perspiration dampen his
forehead and upper lip. "Where did you get that?" he demanded in a hoarse
whisper. Jesus, Joseph, and Mary, the manuscript was worth more than the shop
and all its contents—more, probably, than the whole village of Dunnett's Head.
If such a treasure were to be damaged, or lost, there would be hell to pay.
And it would be Noah who paid, not his son. It was always Noah.
Valerian—God, how he hated that pretentious name, hated even more that it fit
the young rogue so well, in its innate elegance—smiled in that way that made his
father want to box his ears. Noah had done exactly that often enough, as it
happened, and relished every blow, but Seraphina invariably coddled the rotter
afterward and made the rest of them suffer.
"It belongs to the baron," Valerian said, following a short silence. It was
as close as he'd ever come to explaining anything he said or did; he seemed to
have some personal rule against giving reasons.
Krispin, that nimble shadow of a boy, spoke at last, in a quavering and
earnest voice. "Our tutor told us we could take it," he burbled. "Just until we
go back for our lessons…"
Noah felt the blood pounding under his right temple. Lessons. Books. That had
been the start of it, Seraphina's foolish insistence that her sons be taught to
read, to yearn after poetry and art.
The older man fixed his gaze on Valerian. "Take it back to the keep," he
commanded in a tone of coldness and thunder. "Now."
Valerian's look, indeed his whole manner, was one of purest insolence. "I
will not," he replied very quietly.
Noah closed one fist—he was a big man, and stronger than his son, and he
wanted with all his soul to strike the impudent pup over and over, to force him
to his knees, to make him bleed and whimper—but Seraphina was beside her husband
in a trice. She gripped Noah's hard arm in her small hands, their tiny bones
fragile as a bird's skeleton beneath her silken flesh, and looked up at him with
both a plea and a warning in her strange purple eyes.
He could bear no more of it, her choosing this whelp over him, her own mate.
It was an abomination! "This is still my house, my shop," Noah said evenly. "And
I, God help me, am still your father. I am the master here, and you will do as I
tell you or take a hiding the likes of which you've never imagined."
"Noah!" Seraphina whispered, horrified, clutching at him again.
"Enough!" he rasped at her, wrenching his arm free and nearly oversetting her
in the process, glowering all the while into Valerian's magnificent, hateful
young face. After a few deep and tremulous breaths, he managed to speak more
calmly. "Now. What shall it be?"
Valerian spat onto the rush-covered floor.
His behavior was beyond enduring; Noah wrenched the precious manuscript from
the lad's grasp, shoved it into Seraphina's, and struck his son with such force
that Valerian stumbled backward and collided with a wooden support beam. Blood
trickled from the corner of his mouth, and the fires of deepest hell blazed in
his eyes.
He didn't say that he hated his father, for there was no need to speak of it.
Noah knew a moment of torturous despair, and wondered if things would have been
different if he'd made Seraphina call the boys by solid, ordinary names, such as
Thomas or John, Gideon or Joseph.
Seraphina screamed, but Noah could not stop himself. He cuffed the lad again
and entangled a meaty peasant's hand in that mass of chestnut hair, pulling
hard, forcing his firstborn to his knees.
Valerian did not fight back, even though Noah could feel the strength surging
inside the youthful, granite-hard body; he endured each blow, each kick, each
slap and wrench, all the time gazing upon his father with that ancient,
murderous contempt in his eyes. Only when it was too late did Noah realize that
this very passivity was Valerian's greatest weapon; by suffering the punishment
without struggle, he had assured his mother's undying devotion. At the same time
he had sealed Noah's doom, robbed him of the last shreds of Seraphina's esteem.
He, this changeling with the face of an archangel, had at last destroyed that
which Noah valued above all else.
He drew back his foot, with a mighty moan of sheer agony, and kicked the
crouching Valerian as hard as he could.
Seraphina shrieked, kneeling in the rushes to gather her bleeding and
now-unconscious offspring into her arms, cradling his head on her bosom. When
she raised her eyes to Noah's face, his worst fears were confirmed; the hatred
he saw in her gaze would outlive them all.
Though she might lie beside him every night, and even suffer his gropings and
groans in the darkness, though she might sit across the board from him for a
hundred meals, nay, a thousand, Seraphina was eternally lost to him.
Noah felt tears burning in his eyes, for he loved his wife the way a saint
loves God, with fevered and unutterable devotion. He held out one hand to her,
unable to speak, and she stared at the twisted, calloused fingers for a long
moment, then turned her head away. She buried her face in Valerian's hair and
spoke not to Noah, but to their second son.
"Take your brother to his bed," she told Krispin in a bleak, distracted tone.
"I'll get a cloth and some water."
Only then could Noah manage one desperate word. Her name.
She rose, helping Krispin lift an insensate Valerian to his feet. She did not
look at her husband, and her words sliced through him like a reaper's scythe
honed for harvest. "May God curse you, Noah Lazarus," she murmured. "May all His
angels despise your name, now and on the Day of Judgment.
Valerian
I remember clearly, even after six hundred years, that I awakened sometime
after sunset, in the dark, cramped little cell I shared with my brother, feeling
as though I'd been trampled by the baron's horses. The straw in my pallet
rustled when I moved, and I heard Krispin breathing softly in his own bed,
against the opposite wall, but there was another noise tugging at the edges of
my mind. It was several moments before I realized what else I was hearing—the
sound of my father's drunken, disconsolate weeping.
I closed my eyes, as if to block it out, for although I had never loved Noah,
I was not immune to his suffering. I did not revel in his injuries as he did in
mine.
"Do you think she's left him at last?" Krispin asked.
"No," I replied, unable to withhold a small groan as I shifted on my bed,
disturbing bruised muscles and broken skin. "She'll never leave him. Where would
she go?"
There was a brief silence, within the room at least. Without, Father's wails
grew louder and more desolate, like the cries of a wounded wolf, and I wondered
if his agony would drive him to come after me again. Although he was not a cruel
man in any other respect, there could be no denying that he enjoyed taking off
strips of my hide.
"You're not his get," Krispin speculated, with no emotion whatsoever coming
forth in his voice. "That's why he hates you so much."
The words wounded me sorely, although they shouldn't have. Certainly I'd had
the same thought myself more than once, and I'd often pretended, when I was
small, that I had sprung from the loins of someone far more interesting than
Noah Lazarus, bootmaker, of Dunnett's Head, Cornwall. A smuggler, for example.
Or a poet. Or one of the pirates who plagued the coasts of both England and
France.
Alas, I had the boot-maker's broad shoulders and powerful, long-fingered
hands; I had his temper and his oddly aristocratic nose, though he probably
hadn't noticed the similarities. Oh, I was Noah's seed all right, but he
couldn't have despised me more if I'd been begotten by the devil's great-uncle.
And rather than try to make peace with him, to win his affection, I had always
mocked him instead. Even now, after all these centuries, I'm not sure why I had
to defy my father, to constantly rouse his ire; I only know that I could sooner
have ceased breathing and stilled my own heart than begged him to love me.
"Valerian?" Krispin sounded slightly irritated; it always annoyed him when he
spoke to me and I failed to reply straight away. "What do you think? Are you his
son, or are you a bastard?"
I smiled in the fetid gloom, even though I ached in every conceivable part of
my anatomy, even though I wanted, on some level of my being, to weep and weep
until my body was dry as sun-parched straw. "I am his son," I replied, "and I am
most assuredly a bastard."
Krispin did not laugh at my jest, and I was sorry for that. It would have
been a comfort to me, his amusement.
Things began to crash against the walls and floors in the outer part of the
house where Father kept his shop. He was overturning cherished possessions now,
flinging them in rage, and I shuddered inwardly, praying he would not remember
me.
"He might have loved us," Krispin said at length, "if we'd wanted to be
bootmakers."
I was weeping silently by then, and I didn't want my brother to know, so I
didn't speak. But I knew it wasn't our rebellion that made our sire hate us,
most especially me. It was the fact that our mother had always taken our part
against him.
After a while Father was quiet. Krispin drifted off to sleep, and so
eventually did I. On the morrow Mother gave me the book that had started the
latest battle, carefully wrapped in her best shawl, and spoke to me in a subdued
tone.
"You bring it upon yourself, Valerian," she said, pouring water from a ewer
into my wooden cup. Father was not in the shop, and Krispin had gone down to the
sea at daybreak to watch for ships, the way he always did, so Mother and I were
alone. "Always baiting him, always defying him. Why do you do it?"
I was ashamed, for I knew she had endured much because of my willful nature.
"I don't know," I answered glumly, tearing off a piece of coarse brown bread for
my breakfast. My lower lip was swollen, and it hurt to chew and swallow. I did
not express my fear that if I ever stopped rebelling against Father I would
instead grovel at his feet, pleading with him to love me.
She looked upon me sternly, then touched my hair. "Be gone. He'll be back
soon, with the things he needs to put the shop to rights again, and he mustn't
find you here."
I nodded, snatched up a second piece of the hard, dry bread, took the
manuscript shrouded in poor brown cloth, and started for the door. Matthew
Challes, Brenna Afton-St. Claire's tutor, whom she generously shared with the boot-maker's
boys, disliked laggards and dealt with them severely.
I was the first to enter the schoolroom, that hallowed, light-filled place,
with its rush-scattered floors and windows opening onto a vista of the wild sea,
and Challes gasped audibly when he saw me. He was a tall man, taller than I was
by the span of my hand, with deep-set brown eyes, a poet's sensual mouth, and
pale skin. There was a faint smattering of pockmarks across his right cheek.
"So Noah's been at you again, has he, lad?"
I simply nodded and held out the book.
Challes set it aside, with less reverence than I would have expected, and
stooped slightly, eyes narrowed, to study my battered face. "Good God, it's
barbaric. How do you bear it? Why haven't you run away to London or gone to
sea?"
I could not go from Dunnett's Head, though I dreamed of it, because I knew my
mother would perish if I abandoned her, and because there was someone else I
could not bear to leave, but of course I had too much pride to admit the truth.
Blessedly, before I could be compelled to make an answer, the Lady Brenna
breezed into the schoolroom, and as always, I felt my steady heartbeat turn to a
violent thud-thud-thud when I saw her.
She was fifteen that year, nubile and womanly, and it was generally known
that her father, the baron, was seeking far and wide for a suitable husband. He
had only two requirements in a prospective son-in-law, as I recall—social rank
and a respectable fortune. The contents of the baron's coffers, never
remarkable, had been dwindling rapidly for a generation or so.
I remember quite clearly that I would have given my immortal soul to be her
mate, to bury my hands and face in that wild cascade of lush, red-gold hair, to
see myself reflected in those jewel-like green eyes, to press my body against
hers, my masculine frame moving in sweet, intimate concert with her soft, lithe
one.
To this day I recall that she was wearing a velvet frock that morning,
rendered in a deep blue, and that it was no less beautiful for its shabbiness.
Seeing me, and my wounds and swellings, she winced in mingled amusement and
sympathy. "My poor Valerian," she said, touching my cheek with a light, cool
hand. "When will you learn to steer around trouble instead of sailing straight
into the heart of it?"
I had no answer for her question; I was too busy wondering if she knew what
even so innocent a caress did to me. Although my tunic fit loosely and hung to
the middle of my thighs, thereby covering any involuntary evidence of my desire
for milady, a sidelong glance at my tutor told me he'd guessed the true state of
affairs.
I blushed and pretended I hadn't seen the mating of mirth and censure in his
gaze. I was just opening my mouth to babble something inane to Brenna when
Krispin came in, bearing an armload of autumn wild-flowers and grasses and
beaming.
"For you, milady," he said, holding the gift out to Brenna and following up
with a courtly bow. He adored her, as I did, and I wondered if she knew and
returned his esteem in even the smallest part.
The light of pleasure blazed in her eyes, and I was bludgeoned by jealousy.
It was Challes who interceded, clearing his throat loudly. "Here, now, no
more of this nonsense. Sit down, the lot of you, and we'll begin our lessons."
I couldn't concentrate; the sun was bright and the wind coming up from the
sea and swirling through the gapped wooden walls and high windows of the old
keep smelled of salt. I dreamed of grand adventures in faraway, exotic lands,
with the Lady Brenna at my side, and paid scant attention to my Latin.
When we were through with our studies, Krispin vanished, as he often did, to
explore one of his sea caves or walk the shore, and I lingered just outside the
great, sagging gates of the keep, looking at the sea. Being a lad of seventeen
summers, I was in no significant hurry to return to my home and spend the
remainder of the day helping my father in the shop.
I had not heard Brenna's approach, and I was a little startled when she
suddenly appeared beside me, holding some of Krispin's now-fading bouquet of
flowers and sea-grass to her freckled nose. "Do you dream of leaving here
forever, the way your brother does?"
I smiled, even though I felt an infinite sorrow stir in the depths of my
spirit. Yes, I thought. And I dream of taking you with me.
"I'd like to see France and the lands beyond," I conceded, cautious in her
presence as always, because her opinion of me meant everything. "What about you,
milady? Do you imagine being married and bearing children?"
A brief, troubled silence followed, during which I suffered the proverbial
agonies of the damned, fearing I'd said the wrong thing. She gazed out toward
the sea, squinting against the brightness of the late afternoon sun, her
expression so solemn, so mournful, that I wanted to take her into my arms and
promise to protect her from dragons and devils and all else she might fear.
Finally she looked up into my face. "I'm to go to Northumberland," she said
at last. "Father has found me a husband there. Word reached us yesterday, and he
told me as we supped."
I felt a great wail of grief and protest rise in me, pulsing painfully in my
throat, but I did not release it. It would have frightened Brenna, and otherwise
changed nothing.
Brenna linked her arm through mine. "I don't want to leave you, Valerian,"
she said. "You love me, don't you?"
I merely nodded, for I would not have dared to speak even if I could have
managed it. Without Brenna, my life would be unendurable. And there would be no
more lessons in the keep, no more Challes, no more books and poetry and music.
For the first time, I truly wanted to die. In retrospect, that seems an
exquisite irony.
She rested her head against my shoulder, and I could smell woodsmoke in her
hair, and the sea, and that scent that was, and is, peculiar to her. "I've
always pretended," she said in a voice so small that the wind nearly carried it
away, "that I would marry you one day. I knew it couldn't happen, and yet…"
I turned, staring into her face, bewildered and full of wild, impossible
hopes. "What did you say?"
Brenna smiled that same unbearably sad smile that had rested upon her lips
moments before. "Is it so difficult to believe," she countered, "that I should
love you?"
I swallowed hard, full of sadness and ecstasy. How wrenching it was, knowing
that she wanted me as I wanted her and, at the same time, being aware to the
depths of my soul that we could never be together.
She interlaced her fingers with mine. "How will I bear it?" she murmured,
asking herself, not me. Asking the sea and the hard, brittle blue of a September
sky.
By then it was all a blur to me, the water, the village, the grassy slope
leading down to the shore, for I was blinded by tears. I could not answer her
question, or my own, which was exactly the same.
Brenna stepped in front of me, raised her hands to my face. "Perhaps Father
would let us be married if I told him how much we care for each other."
I laughed, and the sound was jagged, seeming to tear the flesh of my throat
as it passed. "The baron? Bless a marriage between his daughter and the
bootmaker's son? Good God, Brenna, he'd have me in chains before day's end, and
on the rack not long after!"
She rested her forehead against my chest, and I wanted to push her away, for
there were always servants and others about, watching, interpreting what they
saw and heard to suit themselves, passing it along to all who would listen.
Still, thrusting her from me would have been like expelling the breath in my
lungs and never drawing another. I felt her tears dampening my tunic, and laid
my hands lightly, reverently, on her slender shoulders.
At last she drew back, sniffling, and her attempt to smile rent my heart.
"Perhaps he will be a good man, my husband. Perhaps he will be gentle and think
me pretty."
I closed my eyes, remembering the sounds I'd heard so often, through the
daub-and-wattle wall that separated my parents' chamber from the one I shared
with Krispin. Those were primitive times, and that particular brand of modesty
was in short supply in the countryside and the village alike. I had seen men
take their wives in the fields, like dogs mounting bitches in the street.
"Jesu," I whispered, shattered by the image of Brenna lying in
another man's bed. In that moment I wanted to go to the high cliffs south of the
village and fling myself off them, into the sharp rocks clustered below. "Yes,"
I said finally. "He'll think you pretty. How could he not?"
We parted then—surely it was Lady Brenna who broke away first. I descended
the hillside toward the village without looking back. I was still half blinded
by tears and thus didn't see Krispin until I'd practically collided with him.
"There's a ship on the horizon!" he cried, fairly dancing with excitement.
I pushed him aside—perhaps I was a bit too rough in my despair. I didn't gave
a sacred damn if the shore was lined with Viking vessels, brimming with
spear-waving invaders. Brenna was going away, probably before the winter snows,
and I would never see her again.
Krispin was not content to let me pass; he clutched the sleeve of my tunic
and wrenched me back. I swung at him without thinking, catching him up alongside
the head and dropping him to his knees.
I barely noticed the flush of fury in his fine-boned face, or the venomous
spark in his eyes. He raised himself and came hurtling at me like a snarling
dog, and I cuffed him again, more out of surprise than anger.
He went sprawling once more, in the chilly grass, and then sat up, wiping
blood from the corner of his mouth. His face was utterly expressionless as he
sat there, looking up at me, thinking God only knew what.
"I'm sorry," I said, extending my hand to him, making no effort to hide the
mark of tears on my face.
Krispin allowed me to help him, though oftentimes when we'd had such a scrap,
he'd slap my hand away when I offered it. "What's the matter with you?" he
demanded, dusting off his leggings and tunic. Like mine, they were poor and ugly
garments, rough to the touch and virtually useless against the chill of a cold
night. "I was only trying to tell you about the ship—"
I was already striding toward the village again, and the shop, where my
mother would be keeping her pitiful vigil, watching for Krispin and me as if we
were sailors just home from the sea, while my father watched her, in turn, and
seethed. My brother scrambled to get into step with me.
I dragged one arm across my wet face, and we talked no more of ships. We
could not have guessed, in our innocence, what monstrous suffering that vessel
would bring to us all.
That night Father was in a mood, and Mother had taken to her pallet with some
ailment born of the strain between them. Krispin slipped out to mingle with the
men from the ship and hear their tales, while I sat in my chamber with my back
to the wall, brooding over Brenna's impending departure.
In the morning there was no sign of Krispin. I shrugged at the realization,
filled a basin with water from the ewer my mother kept filled, and washed as
best I could. During the night I had conceived a plan—I would go to the Baron
Afton-St. Claire, Brenna's father, and ask for her hand. If he had me clapped
into chains or pulled me apart on the rack for getting above myself, so be it. I
had to try.
As it happened, Challes was waiting at the schoolroom door when I arrived,
his eyes red-rimmed, fairly bursting with tidings. Dire ones, I could tell.
He grasped my arm, hard enough to leave bruises, and growled, "What in God's
name have you done? The baron is demanding to see you, and he is in a towering
rage!"
I wrenched free of my tutor's hold, drawing myself up in fury even as terror
seeped into every part of my being. In our village and in all the barren lands
surrounding it, Afton-St. Claire was the most powerful of men, and my fate was
most definitely in his hands.
When I did not answer his question immediately, Challes leaned in close and
spat, "Damn you, bootmaker's son, what have you done?"
I remembered holding Brenna the day before, while she cried over our parting.
Even though I might die screaming for daring to touch her, when I searched my
heart I could find no regret. "The Lady Brenna was weeping. She laid her head
against my shoulder."
"And you touched her with your hands?" Challes cried in a strangled voice.
"Fool! Arrogant, willful fool!"
I straightened. "Where is the baron? In the great hall?"
Challes ran one narrow hand over his face. "We're all finished, you know. Not
just you, you young peacock! The Lady Brenna will be locked up until her husband
comes to claim her, and Krispin's education will be come to an end, as well as
your own. And I will lose my position!"
I wanted to apologize, I truly did. I couldn't bring myself to proceed,
though, because in my deepest being
I knew I had done nothing wrong. If others suffered because of the situation,
it would be by the baron's decree, not by mine.
"Where is he?" I asked again. Stiffly.
Challes's sigh contained all the misery of that difficult and unjust world we
lived in. "You'll find him in the inner courtyard—practicing with his sword."
I was no fool, though Challes had called me one. I wanted to bolt from that
keep, to run for my life, but there was nowhere to go.
I made my way to the inner courtyard, careful to keep my shoulders straight
and my head high. When I arrived, the baron, a muscular, thick-chested man, was
indeed wielding a sword, battling a knobby-kneed squire who was plainly
terrified. It was little wonder, given the baron's earnest dedication to his
task. The nobleman was drenched in sweat and bellowing like an outraged bull.
I stood waiting, and beyond the clanging flash of the swords I saw the Lady
Brenna huddled in the shadowy arch of a doorway, watching me.
I was destined to lose her, I knew, and the realization gave me a strange,
desolate sort of courage. Facing a lifetime apart from her as I was, years of
knowing another man was laying his hands to her, in love and perhaps in anger, I
could not but think that death would be a mercy. Any sort of death.
2
Valerian
Las Vegas, 1995
She was there.
Even before I walked onstage that fateful night, to regale the baffled masses
with my illusions, I felt her presence in the grand showroom of the Venetian
Hotel. The knowledge that she was nearby left me so shaken that I could barely
concentrate on the performance.
Brenna. Dear God, my Brenna…
My lusty Elisabeth. And sweet, fragile Jenny. And Harmony. And Sarah.
But of course she had a new identity now, and those other names, all of which
had been her own at one time or another, would mean nothing to her. Nor would I,
I was certain.
I'd be lying—not that I've ever hesitated to bend the truth should it serve
my purpose to do so—if I said I took no joy in the prospect of another encounter
with my elusive beloved. Just the thought of speaking to her again, of touching
her, was rapture, but there was fear, too, and I already felt the weight of the
sorrow that would inevitably follow any bliss we might share.
For my darling and me, the story, played out over and over on the stage of
six centuries, had never had a happy ending. Not once.
Invariably, except in her first incarnation, the ruby ring had arrived, out
of nowhere, a mysterious thing of splendor and antiquity, and precisely a
fortnight later I had been bereaved again. And always, try though I did to
discover who had sent that glittering jewel, and with it the curse, the thing
vanished while I was caught up in my mourning. The tragic puzzle was no closer
to solution that night, when I found Brenna once more, than it had ever been.
I used my powers to hold her in her seat, there in that large and otherwise
anonymous audience, sensing her desire to bolt as well as her fascination with
my legerdemain, but even after the carriage trick had been completed and all the
others had straggled out, I lingered backstage.
I remember wishing I could simply walk away—each time I found her, I
entertained that same futile notion, of course—but I am neither fine nor noble
enough to make such a sacrifice. I was starved for the sight and sound and feel
of her, just as I had always been. It would have been easier to forgo the taking
of blood than to turn my back on that particular woman.
So it was that I stood in the wings as the silence lengthened in that great
room, watching her fidget at her table, seeing the shadows play in her coppery
hair, for some fifteen minutes before one of the dancing girls appeared at my
side. Her name was Jillie, and she was still wearing her delectably inadequate
costume.
I do enjoy the many and varied facets of my work.
"Someone you know?" she asked with a slight edge of envy to her voice. Jillie
was more than passing-curious about me, and I suspect she saw me as a romantic
challenge. Being older, to say the least, and infinitely wiser, I didn't
encourage her; she could have no way of guessing she was flirting with a bona
fide monster.
"An old friend," I said softly, never taking my eyes from the woman sitting
alone in the auditorium. She had finished her drink and begun chewing ice cubes,
and the crunching sound made me wince.
Jillie lingered a moment, cast a venomous glance toward the object of my
attention, and swept off toward the dressing room she shared with the other
women in the act.
I allowed myself a fraction of a smile. I'd done Jillie a favor she could not
begin to comprehend or appreciate by spurning her naive affections. Would that I
could be so gracious with my Lady Brenna.
I had shed the cumbersome cape as soon as the show ended, but I was still
wearing my tuxedo when I finally forced myself down the steps at the side of the
stage and along the aisle.
If I'd had a living, beating heart instead of an atrophied vestige of one,
that organ would have twisted at the sight of her watching me approach. She was
helpless, like an animal dazzled by light; I knew that and used it to my
advantage.
Fate is cruel, in my experience—except for the modern haircut and clothes,
she looked just as she had in each of the previous lifetimes in which our paths
had crossed. Her hair was a coppery-gold color, thick and lush, and her eyes
were green. Even her face, with its delicate bone structure and impertinent
little chin, was the same, right down to the faint smattering of freckles across
her nose.
I closed my eyes for a moment, caught up in a spindrift of emotions, and when
I looked again, she was staring up at me. Her throat worked, as if she'd
attempted to speak and failed, and she offered me her hand. She seemed
bewildered, afraid, and perhaps just a bit enchanted.
Her introduction was woven of pure bravado. "Daisy Chandler," she said,
offering me her hand. '"I'm a homicide detective with the Las Vegas Police
Department."
I was taken aback by this flood of information, and arched one eyebrow as I
enclosed her hand in my own. I wondered if she felt the chill in my flesh, and
puzzled over it. Although I can usually read a mortal mind with embarrassing
ease, hers has always been veiled from me, except for a few shifting flickers of
discernment here and there—perhaps because I care so much. Creation can be
perverse in that way, so often withholding from us the very insights and objects
we desire most.
"I am pleased to meet you," I managed to reply, though I have to admit I was
as nervous as Daisy. I was just better at hiding what I felt than she was, that
was all. I'd had a long time to practice.
She frowned, her pretty brow knitting for a moment in consternation. "Do I
know you?"
The answer to that question was better saved for another time. "No," I
replied, missing a beat or two. I knew that, deep in her subconscious, she
remembered me, and everything we'd been through together, in minute detail. The
human mind is a superlative scribe, missing nothing, trundling its uncountable
impressions from one lifetime to the next.
Daisy rose, somewhat shakily, and only thought to remove her fingers from
mine after she'd gained her feet. She was wearing tight jeans that had seen
better days, and her white summer top was airy and ruffled, inviting the eyes to
her finely shaped breasts.
I felt a rush of jealous irritation, a downright silly desire to fetch one of
my capes and cover her with it. I had had to share her with others when she was
Elisabeth Saxon; I could not do so again.
"Your show was fantastic," she said with a tentative smile.
I merely inclined my head once, in acknowledgment of the compliment. There
was—and is—no false modesty in my makeup. The performance was indeed
"fantastic," and more; my audiences paid for magic, and they got their money's
worth.
She looked about, noticed as I did that the waiters and bartenders were gone,
replaced by the cleaning staff. "I guess I should be going," she said with a
sort of cheerful desperation, and I felt a pang of regret because I knew Daisy
wasn't normally a timid person. I was frightening her, and I hated that.
"Yes," I said quickly, at last releasing the mental hold I had taken on her
earlier. "Good night, Miss Chandler."
She studied my face, and for a breathless moment I thought she consciously
remembered me. In the next instant, however, the pensive expression in her
beautiful eyes vanished. Daisy waggled her unmanicured fingers in farewell and
dashed out of the showroom without looking back.
I went to my dressing room, where the mirrors were draped and the lights were
dim, and stood in the middle of the floor, struggling against the rage and
frustration that had arisen in me. I didn't want to go through it all again,
loving her, wanting her, losing her, and suffering the soul-crushing
consequences once more, but I knew the curse some passing devil had cast over
both of us would run its course. The ring would arrive, and Daisy would die.
I was standing there, outwardly still, but with all hell breaking loose
inside, when a soft tapping sounded at the door.
My first reaction was fury; I was grieving and did not wish to be disturbed.
But then the door opened, and I saw my caller.
Daisy had returned, looking uncertain, as if she'd reached the end of some
invisible tether and been drawn back by it. She gripped one of my colorful,
printed programs in her right hand and wore a determined if still-fragile smile.
There were no photographs of me in the publication, of course, only
reproductions of paintings, and she had the booklet open to one of these.
"I was wondering…" she began, her eyes straying around the dressing room,
taking in the shrouded mirrors and muted lights.
I was so glad to see her that it required the utmost restraint on my part not
to wrench her into my arms. "Yes?" I prompted, perhaps sounding the least bit
patronizing. My friends, as well as my enemies, tell me that a certain arrogance
is native to my manner.
She shoved the program at me, along with a cheap plastic pen. "Would you
autograph this, please?"
I did so with a flourish and handed both the booklet and the pen back to her.
Daisy bit her lower lip, and I felt a rush of arousal so keen that I writhed
in the core of it, like a man in flames. "'Thanks," she said. She hesitated,
then went on in a tumbled hurry of words: "I know magicians never tell their
secrets, but that carriage trick was—well, it was impossible. You couldn't have
used wires or platforms. So it had to be some sort of mass hypnosis—"
"Or," I interrupted gently, "it might have happened exactly as you saw it. By
magic." I smiled and spread my hands.
She frowned, and I wanted to kiss the place between her brows where the skin
creased prettily. "Something weird is going on here," she finally blurted out.
"Who are you?"
I wanted to tell her; it would have been the most delicious relief to explain
it all, but I couldn't. For one thing, the story would have taken hours to
relate, and for another, I didn't want to frighten Daisy off forever. "You'll
understand it all in good time," I replied with resignation. I was beginning to
feel restless, agitated; I needed to hunt and feed, and perhaps prowl a bit,
before retiring to my lair.
"I'm coming back," Daisy announced, still frowning.
I took a printed pass from the top drawer of my dressing room bureau and
handed it to her. "Be my guest," I said.
Daisy accepted the special ticket, nodded her thanks, and left, looking as
befuddled as ever. I suspect it wasn't me or my magic that made her thoughtful,
but her own unexpected captivation with both. She was clearly not a person given
to obsessions and strange fancies.
After she'd gone I mourned her, for even when we parted briefly, I was
invariably bereaved. I stood with my forehead touching the door and my hands
gripping the woodwork on either side, remembering. Suffering. Loving.
The Lady Brenna
Dunnett's Head, Cornwall, 1348
They were facing each other in the courtyard, Brenna Afton-St. Claire's
father, the baron, and Valerian. The autumn sun, though fiercely bright, felt
cold, and Brenna shivered.
Her father had been practicing his swordsmanship, though it was unlikely the
king would ever again call upon him to serve as a soldier, given his age. For
all his four and forty years, however, the baron was strong.
"The bootmaker's son," the baron said, assessing Valerian and at the same
time using the hem of his tunic to polish the steel blade of his sword. It
caught fire with daylight and flashed like a mirror.
Brenna held her breath, watching Valerian's face. Jesu, she prayed
silently, make him hold his tongue. If he doesn't my father will surely kill
him, and with pleasure.
Valerian only inclined his head, and Brenna nearly swooned with gratitude.
The baron's anger was violent, burning hot as the fires of perdition, but it
died quickly when it was not fueled.
Sweating profusely from his exercise, the baron held the sword up, between
himself and the bootmaker's son, and then pressed the point to the pulse at the
base of Valerian's throat.
Brenna gasped and started to bolt toward them, intending to intercede, but
Challes, her tutor, gripped her hard by the arm.
"Stand fast," he warned in a whispered hiss, his grasp tightening when she
struggled.
Valerian stood still, surely aware that the baron could kill him easily, with
no penance forthcoming, looking almost insolently calm. Even from several feet
away, Brenna could see that the expression in his eyes was fearless.
With a silent wail of despair Brenna realized that Valerian was courting
death—he wanted to perish! She tried to cry out, but the only sound
that came from her throat was a hoarse, senseless whisper.
The baron broke the awful silence, his words as cold and hard as the blade of
the sword he held. "Why did you lay your hands to my daughter, peasant? How dare
you touch a noblewoman?"
Brenna squeezed her eyes shut, terrified.
"I forgot myself," Valerian replied. There was no trace of subservience in
his tone or manner, but no mockery, either. He was simply stating a fact.
Brenna put one hand over her mouth and swayed slightly in Challes's
now-gentled grasp. Her eyes burned with tears as the full measure of her ardor
for Valerian Lazarus came down upon her, crushing her spirit as surely as a
fallen wall would have done her body. In that terrible moment she knew that she
had loved Valerian as long as she had known him, which was all her life, and
that they had been together before the stars were born.
"You are bold," the baron remarked, lowering the steel only to beckon to his
squire, who was yet trembling from his own encounter with the nobleman. "Fetch a
second sword," he told the servant.
Brenna's heart seized with the knowledge that her father meant to challenge
Valerian. There could be no contest—despite the lad's youth and strength, he had
no experience with weapons. The baron, on the other hand, had wielded heavy
swords daily, from earliest childhood. He was a seasoned warrior.
"No!" she managed to shriek. Challes tried to hold her, but in her
desperation of fear, Brenna broke free. Her face streaked with tears, she
clutched at the sleeve of the baron's tunic. "Don't do this, Father," she
pleaded. She dropped to her knees then, grasping his clothing with both hands
now, her knuckles white with the effort. "Don't kill Valerian," she pleaded.
"Oh, please—I'll do anything—"
Her father's face was terrible, flushed with rage and chagrin, and Brenna did
not dare to look at Valerian's. She knew, too late, that she should have
listened to the tutor, that she had made a grave mistake in revealing the extent
of her devotion.
"You would beg like a street whore," the baron seethed in a vicious
tone, "for the life of this—dog?"
Valerian stiffened; Brenna felt it, though she still lacked the courage to
look into his eyes. It was bad enough meeting her father's condemning gaze.
"I love him," she said.
The baron backhanded her then, so hard that she went sprawling backward into
the dust of the courtyard. Valerian made a growling, inhuman sound and lunged at
her father.
A furious bellow spilled from the baron's throat, and over it all Brenna's
own sobs could be heard, as well as the frantic peace pleas of poor Challes.
The baron raised his sword and neatly sliced open Valerian's poor garment,
along with the flesh beneath. The baron laughed, the sound echoing off the inner
walls of the keep, like the ravings of a madman. "So you dare to go for my
throat, do you?" he roared as the squire returned with the extra sword. "You are
brave, as well as insolent, like so many fools." At a gesture from his master,
the servant handed the second blade to Valerian. "Well, upon this day, you shall
die."
"No!" Brenna screamed, clawing at the ground with spread fingers in her
effort to get to her feet and fling herself upon her father. But this time
Challes succeeded in forestalling her; he wrapped an arm around her middle and
dragged her backward into the shadows. When she shrieked in protest, the tutor
slapped her, but it was the words that followed that quieted her, rather than
the blow.
"God save us all, my lady, you've already doomed your beloved with your
imprudent ways! Will you see him sundered at the joints as well, like a fowl to
be served at supper? In the name of all that's holy, be still, and
perhaps some passing angel will show us mercy!"
Dirty and broken inside, Brenna sagged against her teacher, weeping softly,
and he held her.
Valerian took the sword, and though he was not experienced, he was strong.
The battle raged for an eternity, it seemed to Brenna. Her father prevailed for
a time, then Valerian. Both men were bloodied, their clothes drenched with sweat
and gritty with courtyard dirt. At last the baron swung his blade in a mighty
arch, and Valerian went down with nary a cry, with a deep, crimson gash in his
middle.
He did not rise.
Brenna screamed inwardly, silently.
The baron, unsteady on his feet, breathing hard and bleeding copiously from
wounds in his upper arm and one shoulder, looked down upon the half-conscious
lad and raised his sword for the kill. For a long time he stood there like that,
prepared to run Valerian through and finish it, and for Brenna all of creation
stopped, as motionless as a painting.
The baron glanced at her, and she saw the utter absence of love in his eyes,
and then looked down at Valerian again. Finally the nobleman spat on the lad and
flung the faithful sword aside, sending it clattering across the stone pathway
that wove through the courtyard.
"He shall rot awhile in my dungeon, and then hang," the baron decreed,
pointing one bloodstained, filthy index finger at Brenna. "You, Daughter of Eve,
shall be witness to the fruits of your whoring, and so shall the bootmaker and
his wife, and everyone else in the village who cares to witness the spectacle."
"There was no whoring, Your Grace," the tutor said quickly, stunning them all
by what he risked. "The Lady Brenna was weeping, and the tradesman's son
attempted to comfort her. It was no more than that."
The Baron assessed the scholar he had engaged some years before, at the
behest of Brenna's late mother, whom he had loved with a slavish devotion. "Get
out," he rasped. "Or you shall swing from a gibbet with this dog's get." He
kicked Valerian's prone body once, eliciting the first and last moan from him,
then stalked away.
Brenna ran to Valerian and placed his head in her lap, stroking his
blood-streaked hair. "I won't let him part us," she whispered, cold with shock.
"I'll die with you—I vow it by all I know of heaven—before I'll say farewell."
Somewhere, deeper within the keep, she heard her father shouting orders. Too
soon, men came, wrenching the dazed Valerian from her arms, roughly hauling him
away. Brenna did not fight them, because she was afraid of doing Valerian
further injury.
Challes crouched beside her briefly, where she sat in the dust like a beggar,
and spoke in a quiet but stern voice. "Go to your quarters, Lady Brenna. Wash
yourself, and brush your hair, and don a clean gown. When your father summons
you, and he shall, answer his questions respectfully and keep your opinions to
yourself. Do you understand me?"
"Yes," she whispered. She didn't see what any of it mattered; all she cared
about was saving Valerian.
Then even Challes was gone.
Brenna rose after a while and was met at the edge of the courtyard by her
lady's maid, Moll, who clucked and fretted at the sight of her charge. Like a
sleepwalker, Brenna let herself be led inside the keep, across the great room,
up the broad stone stairs, and along the passageway to her own chamber.
There she stood still and endured while Moll stripped away her gown, along
with the shift beneath it, and scrubbed her with chilly water and a rough cloth.
Brenna's hair was brushed, then thick tendrils at either side were plaited, with
narrow ribbons made from cloth-of-gold woven through. She was powdered and
perfumed, like a bride being prepared for her husband. Then, finally, she was
laced into a green frock, just a few shades darker than her eyes, and steered
across the rushes to the looking glass.
Brenna did not connect herself to the beautiful image wavering upon the murky
face of the mirror. She was numb, as insubstantial as a ghost, with no more
depth than her reflection.
She turned to look into Moll's eyes and clutched the maid's work-worn hands
in both her own. "I must go to him," she said. "Where is he?"
Moll's plain, earnest face paled. "The bootmaker's lad? I would imagine he's
in the dungeon still, mistress, where the baron had him put, but—"
Brenna's mind was beginning to work again. The servants lived in a world all
their own; they knew each other's habits, had their own feuds and romances.
Without their help, she could not hope to reach Valerian. "I know Father has
already ordered that I am to be closed up in my chamber, after tonight. But you
must bring the key and let me out, Moll, as soon as the moon is high."
Moll swayed slightly with fear. "Milady!" she rasped. "Do you know what
you're asking of me? Why, if I were found out—"
"You won't be caught," Brenna interrupted, knowing the promise was a rash one
even as she spoke. "Please, Moll—I must go to Valerian. Tonight!"
"It's no use, your putting yourself into such danger!" Moll rarely argued,
but she did so now, with fervor. "He's to die one day soon, with the sunrise, is
Noah Lazarus's son! And nothing you can do will save him!"
Brenna would not, could not, turn away from her course, though she knew as
well as anyone that it was a deadly one. If these were Valerian's last days on
earth, then they would be hers as well. If she must see him step into eternity,
in the first flowering of his manhood, then she would follow on his heels, and
cross the unseen river knowing what it was to pass the night in her beloved's
arms.
She tightened her grasp on Moll's hands and looked deep into her old friend's
troubled eyes. "My father will have me whipped if he catches me at this," she
said softly. "If I can risk that, can you not chance letting me out of my room
when the time is right?"
Moll was in anguish, but she nodded just before she turned and left the room.
Brenna's evening meal was served in her chamber, by the light of tallows, for
she was well and truly banished from her father's table as well as his heart. He
would not forgive her, and the knowledge grieved her sorely, but that night her
status in the household was the least of her concerns.
She didn't even pretend to eat; the food on her trencher had grown cold, and
she was pacing nervously back and forth at the foot of her bed, her hems
whispering in the dry rushes. Moll did not return, and the hours dragged past,
with Brenna still a prisoner in her chamber.
She slept in her beautiful gown, and no breakfast was brought when the morrow
came. She was given water, that was all, by a servant who would not meet her
gaze or answer her questions.
A week had passed, during which Brenna had eaten nothing and heard not a word
spoken by another human being, when a burly manservant came and summoned her to
her father's chamber. Still wearing the green gown, now much crumpled, she
finished the last of a cup of water before stepping into the passageway to
follow her silent escort across the stone floors to the other side of the keep.
The baron stood at an open window when she entered, gazing out at the dark
sea, and he did not turn to greet her.
Brenna herself heard the song of the tides and felt the cooling mist on her
face. She took courage from those things, and straightened her back, for she
loved the sea.
"You sent for me," she said with simple dignity. She was light-headed with
hunger and worry, but her sense of injustice sustained her. "I am here."
Her father's broad back stiffened, and she felt a stirring of pity for him.
He was bound by what and who he was, she realized, and even if somewhere inside
himself he truly wanted to show mercy, he would be unable to do so. He had been
born to a rigid code, he knew nothing else, and it was not in him to change.
"You have broken my heart," he said starkly, and still he did not face her.
"Tell me, have you lain with that devil's spawn or simply lusted after him?"
Brenna swallowed. Tread carefully, warned a voice in her giddy mind,
one with the timbre and substance of Challes's. "I want him," she admitted
without the slightest remorse. "But, no, Father, I have never lain with Valerian
or any man. You knew that before you asked me."
At last the baron turned, very slowly, and Brenna's heart quailed behind her
rib cage. She was not effortlessly, foolishly bold like Valerian; she had seen
her father punish servants and errant villagers, and she knew the ferocity of
his rages. Now she was utterly stunned to see that his face was wet with tears.
"Perhaps," he whispered, "your body is indeed pure, just as you say. But
yours is the soul of a whore. You have fused yourself to that filthy peasant as
surely as if he'd taken you to his bed. And now there is nothing to be done. He
must die, and you must go to your new husband in shame."
Brenna interlaced her fingers and bit her lower lip for a moment, trying to
think calmly. "There is something that can be done," she said quietly,
and at length. "Banish us, both of us, Valerian and me. We'll make our way to
London, or—"
"Silence!" the baron roared. "Do you argue for him still, when you know I
cannot bear any reference to the scab?"
A shrill commotion in the hall beyond the baron's heavy door stopped Brenna's
impulsive reply in her throat. It was undoubtedly for the best.
"What in the name of—?" her father muttered as the great door crashed inward.
Seraphina Lazarus, Valerian's mother, filled the chasm, beautiful even in her
frenzy. Her flawless skin was white as a corpse's, her violet eyes wild, her
chestnut hair loose and untamed, like a witch's tresses, and her simple gown was
streaked with ash.
Brenna felt ill, and would have retched if her stomach hadn't been shrunken
and empty, as she watched the woman rush to the baron and kneel at his feet.
"My firstborn," Seraphina pleaded, clutching the nobleman's hand and kissing
his knuckles and fingers and wrist, frantically, feverishly. "Oh, sir, I beg
you, spare my boy—allow me to die in his place—take all of us, my husband, my
other son—" The bootmaker's wife paused and made a pitiful, strangling sound,
far down in her throat. "There is pestilence abroad in the land," she blathered.
"Set Valerian free, I pray you, sir—if it is the will of Heaven that he perish
for his sin, then surely the plague will take him—"
Plague. Brenna barely registered the word on a conscious level, weakened by
her confinement as she was, and sharing Seraphina's agony as she did, but she
felt a ripple of fear all the same.
"Damn your indecent soul, woman," the baron seethed, glaring down at
Seraphina. "You utter one travesty on top of another, arguing and bargaining for
the life of this young devil as if he were a lover!"
Brenna flinched at the cruelty of the words. "Father—" she began in protest,
starting toward the pair, but there was no stopping fate.
The baron's rage mounted visibly; he went crimson, temples pulsing, and
raised a swordsman's hard fist to strike Seraphina a savage blow. Even after
he'd struck her, the bootmaker's wife scrabbled through the rushes to clutch at
his garb again, sobbing now, and wailing piteously.
Brenna's father tore himself free with a great curse, and he might have
kicked the poor woman if his daughter hadn't stepped between them.
"Her only crime is love," Brenna reasoned with a tranquility that surprised
her as much as it did the baron. "Oh, Father, turn from this—please. I'll do
anything you say, anything at all, if you'll just unbend this once and show
compassion."
The baron eyed her coldly, and then the woman groveling on the floor. He
raised his voice to cover the sound of her anguish; she babbled something
unintelligible and then fell to whimpering. "Valerian dies," he barked.
Seraphina gave a great, bubbling shriek and fell unconscious onto her side,
and a spew of bright red blood burst from her mouth.
Brenna tried to go to the woman's aid, but the baron took a bruising grip on
his daughter's arm and flung her out the door. He was shouting for the servants
when Brenna started for her chamber, paused, and then slipped into the shadows
and made her way to a rear passageway.
The dungeon was unguarded—the baron knew Valerian was injured and probably
considered him unworthy of a bailiff's time. Carrying a tallow she'd stolen from
the kitchen, along with some cheese, a basin, and a piece of soft cloth, Brenna
moved from cell to cell until she reached the last and most cramped of them all.
A rat scuttled out of the gloom before she could work the lock. It stopped at
her feet to rise onto its haunches and whirl about in a macabre little dance,
before falling dead on its side.
A chill trickled down Brenna's spine, and she crossed herself hastily and
offered a prayer to the Virgin. Then she stepped over the small, furry corpse
and into the cell where Valerian lay.
He was a shadow, curled in the fetid straw. The dank walls dripped with
water, and the faint, panicky twitter of other rats reached Brenna's ears.
"Valerian," she whispered urgently.
He stirred. "Milady?" Valerian moaned the word, then sat up, blinking, one
arm clutching his wounded middle. "Jesus, Joseph, and Mary," he marveled on a
long breath. "Leave me—now—before they find you here!"
Brenna set down the cloth and tallow on a crude bench and knelt beside him in
the straw, giving him water from a cup and the morsel of cheese. "This is where
I intend to pass the night," she answered. "Here, with you."
He managed to eat just a little, and Brenna went back for the basin. Then,
kneeling beside Valerian in the fowl straw again, she began to bathe the blood
and dirt from his flesh. Even in the dim glow of that one candle, she saw the
tears shimmering in his eyes.
"Oh, God, Brenna," he whispered. "How did we get ourselves to this place?"
"Shhh," she said and went on washing him. Her own hunger and weakness floated
somewhere above her, suspended.
Presently the loving task had been done as well as it could be, given the
circumstances. The tallow guttered out, and Brenna laid herself beside Valerian
on the cell floor, and gathered him close with one arm. With the other hand she
undid the laces at her bosom and, baring her breasts, offered him the only
intimate comfort she knew about.
He was half dead of his wounds, but the blood in his veins was youthful, like
the sap in a fierce young tree, and he drank hungrily from her breasts, and
kissed her, and spoke pretty, disjointed words while he nibbled at her earlobe.
Finally he raised her skirts and took her, with a hard, greedy thrust.
Brenna felt searing pain, followed swiftly by a treacherous pleasure, and she
gave herself up to her forbidden lover with all the passion pent up in her
innocent soul.
3
Daisy
Las Vegas, 1995
The victim was a showgirl, no more than twenty years old, and she lay
sprawled on the living room floor of her cramped apartment, wearing nothing but
a short sea-green robe. Her shoulder-length blond hair spilled over the cheap
carpeting and partially covered her face.
She was impossibly pale, even for a corpse. Daisy thought of Snow White
waiting for her prince, and shuddered. There was no blood anywhere.
Daisy had been promoted to detective six months before, after the requisite
four years on the street, and she had seen her share of murders. No matter how
many she investigated, the bile still rushed into the back of her throat, and
sometimes she had to run to the nearest bush or bathroom to throw up. On other
occasions, especially when the victim was a child, she wept.
This time she felt an ugly sort of shock take hold, deep inside her. Even
before her partner, O'Halloran, started filling her in on the details, she knew
they were dealing with some kind of monster.
"Look at this," O'Halloran said, crouching beside the body, which had already
been outlined and photographed. In fact, the coroner's people were hovering,
ready to do their grisly duties. He brushed back a tendril of the dead woman's
glossy blond hair with remarkably gentle fingers to reveal a pair of neat
puncture wounds, set about two inches apart, in the victim's neck. "If I didn't
know better, Chandler, I'd say this was the work of one of them vampires. You
know, like in the movies."
Daisy felt a chill trip down her spine. "I know what vampires are," she
snapped.
O'Halloran, a wiry, graying man of medium height, with twenty-eight years on
the force to his credit, sighed loudly and stretched to his feet. His eyes were
either pale blue or pale green, depending on the weather and how things were
going at home. This was a blue day. "What's the matter, Chandler—you suffering
from PMS or something? Well, take a pill. I got enough problems without you
flashing an attitude."
Daisy didn't apologize, though she knew O'Halloran was right. She was
off track—her meeting with the magician had occupied her every waking thought
since she'd left his dressing room the night before. When she had managed to
sleep, she'd been plagued by strange, vivid dreams of a medieval courtyard and
two men fighting with swords…
"Chandler," O'Halloran prompted, poking her with an elbow.
Daisy jumped and shook her head once in an effort to clear her head. "Yeah,
I'm with you. Sorry. What's her name?"
"Jillie Fairfield," O'Halloran answered, consulting his notes. "She was
nineteen and worked with that hotshot magician over at the Venetian. What's his
name—?" He began flipping pages.
"Valerian," Daisy said, feeling jolted.
"Yeah," O'Halloran agreed, tapping his pocket-sized notepad with the end of
his stubby pencil. "That's him. You ever catch his show?"
"Last night," Daisy managed.
"I've heard it's really something. According to the papers, there are
magicians flying in from all over the world just to see the act and try to
figure out how he pulls it off. And he won't let anybody take his picture,
either."
"He's good, all right," Daisy said, glancing at the body again. She
remembered the dancers coming out of the coach while it was suspended in midair,
then sitting underneath, smiling and posing. She wondered if Jillie had been the
one who'd brought out the umbrella and gotten a chuckle from the audience. Even
to Daisy's trained eye, the performers had looked very much alike.
The older cop led the way toward the gaping front door of the apartment, and
Daisy went along gratefully. She'd never gotten used to the smell of death, or
the clammy feeling it gave her.
"You look a little peaked," O'Halloran remarked. "You have a bad night?"
She drew in a deep draft of desert air as they descended the wooden stairs
outside. The Las Vegas sun was bright, and for Daisy it dispelled some of the
chill that had settled into her spirit. "Me? I never have a bad night,
O'Halloran," she said with a manufactured smile. "And I never get PMS, either.
What's your take on this? What happened to the Fairfield woman?"
O'Halloran shrugged. "I don't know. The coroner will fill us in, though." He
paused beside his car, a battered sixty-seven Mustang on its fourth engine, and
scratched the back of his head. "This one's different, I can tell you that much.
There ought to be blood, and we didn't find a drop. No blow to the head, no
visible wounds except for those punctures on her throat. You'd better haul it
over to the Venetian and see if you can track down that magician character. See
what he can tell you."
Daisy had hoped to encounter Valerian again, though certainly not under those
circumstances. "I'm off to see the wizard," she said, heading for her own car, a
sporty blue convertible. "Meet you back at the office later."
When Daisy reached the Venetian, Las Vegas's newest and most elaborate
hotel-casino, she left her car in the outer lot and stood looking at the place
for a few moments, marveling. It was a spectacle in and of itself, bigger and
gaudier than the Mirage or Excalibur or even Caesar's, an elegant palace with
pillars and fountains. There was a maze of canals in front, traversed by sleek
gondolas with costumed attendants.
With a shake of her head Daisy went to the quay and allowed herself to be
helped into one of the boats, along with several tourists. Sunlight flashed on
the water, dazzling her, and she slipped on her sunglasses, turning her thoughts
from the conspicuous consumption that surrounded her to the magician.
Her first reaction, when she'd learned of Valerian's connection with the dead
woman, had been to wonder if he'd had something to do with Jillie Fairfield's
death. In cases like this one, the murderer often turned out to be someone the
victim had known fairly well.
The gondola coursed along the narrow channels, making its way toward the
hotel entrance, and Daisy propped her elbow on her blue-jeaned knee and rested
her chin in her palm. If Valerian hadn't killed Jillie, and there was no reason
to believe he had, he probably wouldn't have heard about her death yet.
Daisy hated being the one to break news like that. She and O'Halloran usually
alternated, and when they couldn't remember whose turn it was, they flipped a
coin.
Daisy murmured a curse as the gondola struck the dock in front of the hotel.
It was O'Halloran's turn, damn it. She'd told a woman, just two days before,
that her fifteen-year-old son had been shot in a gang fight.
Inside the hotel was a massive casino, filled with noisy slot machines,
blackjack tables, and other accoutrements of gambling. The light was dim, the
temperature pleasantly cool. Cigarette smoke made simple breathing a game of
chance.
Daisy hurried through, toward the nearest bank of elevators. She hated
casinos; they reminded her of when she was a kid. Her divorced mother, Jeanine,
had been a cocktail waitress, and every once in a while she'd gotten the
gambling bug. When that happened, Jeanine either left Daisy and her younger
sister, Nadine, to fend for themselves, often for days at a time, or dragged
them along with her. In some ways, that was worse, because Jeanine would either
park them on the curb with a hamburger and a bag of french fries to share, or
point out the pinball room and order them to stay there until she came back.
Only later did she allow the girls to stay with their grandmother for a short
time before wrenching them away again.
Snap out of it, Daisy scolded herself as she stepped into a sumptuously
appointed elevator and pressed the button for the third floor. The business
offices were there, along with a number of conference rooms and hospitality
suites.
The receptionist looked Daisy over coolly when she asked where to find the
magician. The main entrance to the theater would be locked at that hour, and
there were probably big guys posted outside the stage doors.
"You a fan?" the girl asked. Her name tag read "Tiffany."
Daisy wondered how Tiffany could see, since her false eyelashes were the size
of whisk brooms. In answer to the girl's question, she pulled her badge out of
her handbag and showed it with the appropriate flourish. "Where do I find him?"
Tiffany tapped acrylic nails on the surface of the desk while she thought.
From the looks of her, that was no small accomplishment, but a feat involving
many wires and gears. "How should I know?"
Daisy braced her hands against the desk's edge and leaned in close. "Look it
up," she said evenly.
The receptionist flushed, and her plump lips, no doubt pumped full of
collagen, quivered. She left her desk, disappearing into a nearby office, and
returned a few moments later, looking resolute.
"We're not supposed to tell," she announced.
"Do I have to get a warrant?" Daisy muttered.
Tiffany vanished again, and when she came back, she brought a man in a
three-piece suit. He smiled and offered a manicured hand.
"My name is Jerry Grover," he said. "I'm the assistant manager. And you're
Officer—"
"Daisy Chandler," Daisy said. "Look, I don't see why this has to be a big
deal, Mr. Grover. I want to talk to your headliner—" She pretended that the name
had slipped her mind for a moment. "Valerian. It's police business, and it's
important."
Grover smiled sleekly. He reminded Daisy a little of a lithe, vicious fish,
gliding smoothly through his environment, hunting weaker prey. "If you'll just
step into my office, Ms. Chandler…"
Daisy shrugged and followed him. Jillie Fairfield had had a connection with
the hotel, although she'd been employed by the magician. She might as well clue
management in before somebody saw it on the news.
Tiffany gave her another haughty once-over as she passed. A look was nothing
to Daisy—the names gang members, streetwalkers, and other misguided souls had
called her had hardened her sensibilities a little.
"We found a body this morning," Daisy said without preamble when she and
Grover were inside his office. Apparently the casino brass believed in looking
after middle management—the desktop was black marble, and the view from the wall
of windows at the opposite end of the room was panoramic. The carpet swallowed
up the lower half of Daisy's purple Keds. "The victim was identified as Ms.
Jillie Fairfield. She was one of the dancers in the magic show."
To his credit, Grover paled and sagged bonelessly into the leather chair
behind his desk. He recovered quickly, though, and gestured for Daisy to take a
seat. "Damn," he said. "What happened?"
Daisy settled herself in the cushy leather chair she'd just pulled up. "We're
not sure," she admitted readily, but she had no intention of discussing the
details. "Ms. Fairfield was a hotel employee before signing on with Valerian,
wasn't she?"
A thin sheen of perspiration appeared on Grover's upper lip. "I wouldn't know
that, Ms. Chandler, without checking further. We employ a great many people, and
as you probably realize, the Venetian hasn't been open all that long. In either
case, the publicity won't be good for the Venetian, will it? Any hint
of crime or scandal can be devastating financially…"
Daisy felt the old impatience surface inside her. A woman was dead, damn it.
Jillie Fairfield was never going to dance or laugh or make love again; somebody
had put her out like a candle. And all Grover was worried about was the
publicity.
"You didn't meet Ms. Fairfield personally, then? Ever?" she asked in a taut
voice.
"No," Grover answered quickly, flushing. "And I don't know the magician,
either. He's an eccentric—in fact, he gives new meaning to the word weird."
Daisy leaned forward, intrigued. "In what way?"
Grover spread his hands, clearly flustered. "There are rumors, that's all.
It's probably just a lot of hype, to bring people in to see his shows…"
"What rumors?" Daisy pressed. There it was again, that odd quivering
in the pit of her stomach; her own instincts were telling her, as they had the
night before, after the show, that there was something very strange about
Valerian. Something far beyond the ordinary mystique of a magician.
"Well, he won't come out in the daylight, for one thing. And for another, he
refuses to be photographed—ask our publicity people if you don't believe me."
Daisy thought of the program she'd brought. The text was accompanied by
drawings and paintings, but there had been no photographs.
"I believe you," she said, wondering if she should go and get Grover a glass
of water or a paper bag to breathe into. He looked really upset.
Grover wrenched a wad of tissues from a box in the top drawer of his fancy
desk and daubed at his face with them. "Murder," he muttered to himself. "Oh,
Christ—"
Daisy took a deep breath and let it out slowly. "Is there anything else?"
"Yes," Grover burst out, after a moment of consideration. "Even the people
closest to Valerian have no idea how he performs his tricks. He has never
revealed even the smallest detail."
Daisy was irritated and not a little disappointed. "Of course he doesn't.
He's a magician—everyone knows how carefully they guard their secrets." She
stood. "If you'll just give me Valerian's home address," she said, nodding
toward Graver's computer, ''I'll be on my way."
"We don't have one," Grover said.
"What about a Social Security number?" Daisy pressed.
Grover spread his hands again. "Too personal. I don't have to give that out
unless you can show me a warrant."
Daisy bit back a nasty remark. Grover was right. "At least get one of your
security people to let me into the backstage area, then," she said. Maybe
Valerian was in his dressing room meditating or practicing his levitation or
something like that. Or perhaps he was onstage, rehearsing.
"All right," Grover agreed at length and with the utmost reluctance. "Come
on. I'll let you in myself."
Valerian
Dunnett's Head, 1348
Today, I thought when I felt a shred of cold sunlight touch my face, I am
going to die. I was in such pain, both physical and emotional, that I could not
help thinking death would be a mercy.
Then Brenna stirred beside me, in the stale straw, and I remembered all that
had transpired the night before, with rising horror as well as desperate love.
She had come to me, washed my wounds, and finally lain with me.
We had both been virgins, and for me at least, the experience had been one of
almost unbearable bliss. Before Brenna, I had known only the usual furtive
satisfactions a lad discovers on his own. Now, having entered her sweet body,
moved upon her supple softness in that ancient rhythm, and cried out as she
rendered my seed from me, I was a man. And I was more aware than ever that life
is precious, poignantly so.
"Valerian?" She raised herself, rumpled and mussed, her lovely hair filled
with straw. That same skimpy light that had awakened me, infiltrating that dark
hole through some chink in the dungeon wall, played over her face. "I love you.
And if you die today, you must wait for me on the other side. I'll soon follow."
I felt tears fill my eyes. The pain of my wounds was nothing to that of
loving her, of knowing that an irrevocable parting lay ahead. I cupped her face
in my hand, and brushed the pad of my thumb over the lips I had kissed so
thoroughly, so hungrily, during the night.
"No, Lady Brenna," I said hoarsely. "You must live."
She shook her head wildly, but I stilled the motion with my hand.
"Listen to me," I growled as we heard an outer door opening, far off in the
distance. We both knew that the day had arrived, they were coming for me, and I
would soon mount the scaffold. "You must hide, over there in the shadows, until
they've taken me out. Don't move until you're certain they've all gone. Return
to your chambers when you think it safe, make yourself pretty, and pretend
you've never heard of the bootmaker's son—"
She was sobbing by then, incapable, I think, of responding.
"I will find a way to be with you," I vowed, and I meant it with all my
youthful soul. "I will curl up in a corner of your heart, and all you'll have to
do to find me is turn your thoughts inward. Please, Brenna. Give me this one
gift—a living heart to hide in."
Brenna was silent, and the voices grew nearer. Finally she nodded and hid
herself in a pile of straw, off in a corner of the cell.
Two of the baron's men arrived to collect me only a moment later. They were
murmuring to each other in fearful tones, and I could not make out what they
were saying.
Finally they reached the cell door.
"Come along, then, bootmaker's son," said Tom, the largest of the two. He'd
often come to my father's shop; they'd been friends, in a manner of speaking,
and Tom, like the rest of the men in the village, had enjoyed watching my mother
as she went about her daily tasks.
"The baron says you're to be set free. Or at least that's what his manservant
told us he said."
Brenna moved, rustling the straw slightly, but I made a surreptitious
gesturing, bidding her to be silent. There would be no freedom, and no mercy,
for either of us if her father learned what we had done, lying together in the
straw.
I stood, painfully, for though my wounds were superficial, they burned like
fire. I felt as if I'd been trampled by war horses and then set ablaze, but
beneath it all was a thrumming sense of satiation. Brenna had done that with her
lovemaking.
"If this is a jest," I said, "it is a cruel one."
Tom opened the cell door, never noticing, it would seem, that the lock wasn't
engaged. "It's no jest," he replied. "The baron fell ill two hours ago. Black as
a Moor and spewing blood, he is. And there are others, too."
I shivered, despite the wild relief I felt. "What others?"
"Your mother for one," Tom said. "You'd best go home and look after your
family. Both Noah and Seraphina are both off their heads with fever, according
to that brother of yours."
Alarm mingled with the ineffably sweet knowledge that I was going to live. I
would find a way to be with Brenna forever—after the events of the night before,
we were certainly bonded, in God's eyes as well as our own hearts—and we would
both put Dunnett's Head behind us.
In the meantime, though, I had to go to my parents.
I made my way back to the shop as rapidly as I could, while the sunrise
spilled a golden glow to light my way. The village was unnaturally quiet, even
for such an early hour, and rife with a hideously putrid stench. There were no
dogs barking in the streets, no housewives throwing pots of slop from windows
and doorways, no fishermen going down to the sea.
It was eerie.
When I reached the shop, I entered by the back way, peering first into the
little room Krispin and I had always shared. I had never expected to see it
again, and, humble as it was, my heart lifted at the sight of my pallet, my
blankets, my spare tunic and leggings.
There was no sign of my brother, so I went on to my parents' chamber. It was
a squalid cell, barely larger than the one Krispin and I shared, and when I
stepped over the threshold I was struck by a smell so much viler than the one
pervading the village that it sent me stumbling backward a few steps.
"Mother?" I said, speaking to the shadows.
I heard a moan from within, and knew it for my father's cry, not my mother's.
I squared my shoulders and forced myself to take a step inside. "Father?"
"No—" he said hoarsely. "Don't—come any closer. We—it's plague. Save
yourself. Save—Krispin."
Yet again I wept. And for once in my life I obeyed Noah Lazarus, the
bootmaker. "What of my mother?"
"Dead," my father answered. "For your own sake, and hers, you must not look
upon her. Please. Flee this—place—"
I turned, unable to bear the stink any longer. My father could not be saved;
I knew that. I would find Krispin, if I could, and Brenna, I decided, groping
numbly through a welter of disjointed thoughts. We would take horses from the
baron's stables and ride away to a new place—London, perhaps.
I stumbled back into the street and encountered Mistress Jane, the cooper's
wife. Her face was contorted with grief. "God have mercy on us!" she cried,
seeing me and, at the same time, not seeing me. "My Will, and my
babies—all dead—"
I wanted to offer the poor woman some comfort, but there was nothing I could
say that would alter the grim realities in any way. I took her shoulders gently
in my hands. "Have you seen my brother?" I asked.
She looked at me without recognition. "All dead," she said again. "Little
Mary, and Sam, and my Will, too. All dead, with their skin all black—"
I embraced her for a moment, on impulse, and went on.
All through the village, it was the same. Death raged in every hut and croft,
and among the living there was naught but chaos. I didn't find Krispin, though I
searched everywhere, and once I stopped, enthralled, to watch two rats rise onto
their hind legs in the path and twirl, in a horrible and graceless pirouette,
before toppling over in death. Blood spilled, thick, from their muzzles.
Finally I returned to the keep—the shock of all I'd seen waking instilled a
new prudence in me—and I entered through a servant's gate in a rear wall. After
a considerable exploration of the place, I found Brenna in her father's room,
kneeling beside his bed and holding his hand.
He was blackened, like a statue burned in a fire, his flesh grotesquely
swollen, as if his skin would split like a sausage. He stared sightlessly at the
beams high overhead. He, like so many others, was dead, and the stench was
overwhelming, causing my empty stomach to pitch and my eyes to water.
I hesitated a few moments, then took hold of Brenna's shoulders and raised
her gently to her feet. "He's gone," I whispered, and she turned and burrowed
into my embrace, burying her face in my tunic and weeping.
I held her until the storm had passed, and spoke to her only when her sobs
had turned to soft, heartrending sniffles. "We must take ourselves from this
place," I told her. "By some miracle, we've been spared, but if we linger, the
plague will surely find us."
She nodded against my chest.
"We'll need horses and food and coin."
Brenna drew back and looked up into my no-doubt bruised and dirty face.
"Let's go, Valerian. Now. Let's go and never look back."
I kissed her then. It was just a light, moist touch of our two mouths, but
how I treasure the memory of that innocent contact. I hadn't learned, even then,
how infinitely precious, and how profound, the simplest expression of affection
can be.
"I'll fetch some food from the larder," Brenna said when we drew apart. "And
my father won't be needing his purse." She glanced woefully back at the body
lying on the bed. A light flickered in her weary eyes; perhaps it was hope for
our future. "Hurry, Valerian. I'll wait for you at the servants' gate."
I nodded and hurried out.
At noon Brenna and I sat on a knoll east of the village, our horses nibbling
at the sweet grass, saying our own silent goodbyes to the only home we'd ever
known. We watched, dry-eyed, beyond horror, while the lucky ones carried corpses
into the square and hurled them into a great, roaring fire. Later, I supposed,
thinking of my mother and father, already beginning to accept the fact that my
brother's body was surely there among those others as well, the charred
skeletons would be properly buried. Prayers would be said, and absolutions
granted, and heaven would enfold them all.
Please God.
"What of Challes?" I asked, hours later, as Brenna and I rode slowly along
the inland road, passing no one. It was the first time either of us had spoken
since we'd watched the bodies burn. "Did you see him?"
Brenna, who wore a cloak over a plain kirtle, shook her head. "No. He is
probably dead, like Father. I wonder if Moll fell sick."
I knew Moll was her lady's maid, and that she had loved the woman devoutly.
Moll, I suspected, had overlooked much mischief in her time at the keep. "It
won't serve us to look back," I said quietly, reaching across to squeeze her
hand where it grasped her mare's reins. "We have each other."
She looked at me with wide eyes, eyes void of innocence and girlhood fancy,
and haunted by inconceivable horror. "Yes."
I reached out, grasped the mare's bridle—I was riding one of her father's
geldings—and stopped both horses there in the middle of the road. "I love you,
Lady Brenna," I said. It was all I had to give her—a few words, a fragile
assurance. We both knew how easily fate could part us—the roads were dangerous
in those days, and there was no guarantee that one or both of us would not fall
ill with the pestilence at any moment.
Tears pooled along Brenna's lower lashes. "And I love you," she said. "It's
enough."
I nodded, and we rode on, but there were clouds gathering on the horizon, and
I had a feeling of foreboding. I tried to shake it off, telling myself the
events of the day just past were reason aplenty for my gloom.
I was only partially right.
That night Brenna and I slept in an abandoned crofter's cottage, with straw
for a bed. We made love, as much to give each other solace and consolation as to
appease any physical need, and this second time my thrusts were pleasurable for
Brenna. She strained beneath me, offering herself, crying out in her delight,
and finally arched like a supple bow, quivering, her eyes sightless, her fingers
clawing at my bare back.
I groaned, transported, and spilled myself into her. Soon afterward we
tumbled headlong into sleep. It was raining when we awakened, and Brenna seemed
uneasy, distracted.
"I want to be near the sea," she said.
I didn't question her, for I knew the waves of a sheltered cove near the keep
had been her playmates—she loved the water, and took solace from it. So we ate
our poor breakfasts of stale bread, and washed ourselves, running naked in the
rain like pagans, and finally turned back, through the gray drizzle, in the
direction from which we'd come.
I have tortured myself for centuries with a single question. Would things
have been different if we'd pressed on toward London Town instead?
4
We rode hard all that day, through the gray drizzle and the chill, until we
reached the sea. Brenna gave a soft gasp when first she glimpsed that steely,
white-ruffled expanse, and drew up on her mare's reins, plainly struck by the
harsh beauty of the scene.
The shore was narrow and littered with great stones, and the surf battered
the land with such ferocity that huge and glittering scallops of spray arched
high against the charcoal sky. The shiver that slipped down my spine like the
tip of a dead man's finger had little to do with the cold; no, it was born of
the terrible, nameless dread stirring in the darkest reaches of my being. Had I
possessed the powers that were conferred upon me later,
I would have taken Brenna far from that place, be she willing or unwilling,
but I could do nothing then.
She spurred her mare onto a steep, treacherous path that led down to the
water, and though I lunged for the reins, I was too late. There was nothing to
do but follow—and shout her name.
If Brenna heard my calls over the roar of the surf, she paid no heed. Instead
she quickened the mare's pace, driving the frightened beast skillfully between
boulders and churning pools toward the jagged shore. My own mount balked at the
top of the path and would go no farther.
I sprang from its back and ran after Brenna, stumbling and falling several
times before I gained the beach.
I screamed again; I can still feel that cry, swelling sore in my throat,
lodging there like the pit of some large and bitter fruit. Brenna looked back at
me over one shoulder, and I saw intense joy in her face as she rode, splashing,
into the thundering waves. She threw back her head and laughed, and though I
could not hear the sound, I saw it, and felt its echo in the very center of my
soul.
I dashed toward Brenna, meaning to grasp the mare's bridle and haul the pair
of them back to safety, but my sudden motion only frightened the horse, causing
it to rear and toss its head in even greater panic. Brenna fought to calm the
animal, but there was no fear in milady's magnificent face, only the purest
concentration. I don't believe she regretted her recklessness; she surely hadn't
guessed what was about to happen. To my torment, for that moment and all of
eternity, I foresaw the event with sudden and brutal clarity.
I stood sodden in the cold tide, buffeted by it, blinded eyes stinging from
the salt, and I was full of horror. My very breath was battered from me, and
when I finally caught sight of Brenna again, she was far beyond my reach. The
horse reeled and pitched, and Brenna went hurtling from the beast's back, her
slight figure disappearing beneath the relentless waves.
I scrambled toward her, only to be swept back toward the shore by the sheer
elemental force of the water. I struggled through the tide once more and was
nearly trampled by the terror-stricken mare as it battled its way back to solid
ground. I had a glimpse of Brenna's red-gold hair in the surf, and somehow, by
strength of will, I reached her and gathered her into my arms.
I wept as I carried her ashore, for I knew, even before I laid her out on the
sand, well away from the grasping, murderous water, that she was gone. I knelt
beside her, the stony ground biting into the flesh of my knees, and emitted a
great, wailing sob that shaped itself into her name. Then I fell forward, my
forehead resting against her bosom, and gave full rein to my grief. My cries
were wrenching and hoarse and seemingly without end.
Night came; I did not venture far from Brenna's side, even to search for the
horses, which had both bolted long before. Instead I gathered what twigs and
bits of driftwood I could find and managed to make a small fire—I still
believed, in my bewilderment and sorrow, that I might offer my beloved some
degree of comfort and protection.
I felt the too-rapid beat of my heart and the raw rasp of my breathing, but I
cared nothing for those things. My tunic and breeches clung to my flesh, soaked
and icy, and that did not matter, either. Physically I was numb.
I kept my vigil throughout the frigid night, holding her small, still hand in
mine, and with the dawn came the devastating realization that this was no
nightmare, but the cruelest reality. My Brenna was well and truly dead, and
needed burying.
I lifted her into my arms once again and started off toward the place where I
had glimpsed smoke rising between the gentle green hills the day before. I did
not think beyond the hope that I would find a village, with a churchyard to
receive Brenna's fragile remains and a priest to say the holy words that might
secure her place in heaven.
I don't know how long I staggered over that barren, windswept terrain,
holding my perished angel close against my breast, and I have no memory of
reaching the small cluster of huts where I came groping and flailing to my
senses some days later.
By that time, according to the aged and crowlike woman who had, by her
account, dragged me back from the threshold of death, Brenna had already been
laid to rest. Lucky she'd been, too, my nurse proclaimed, not to die of the
plague like those other poor souls. They'd been flung onto a blazing
pyre as soon as they'd breathed their last.
As I lay on my pallet, drenched in the sweat of a recently broken fever and
smelling of all manner of base things, I wished with all my being that I, too,
might be taken by the pestilence. I realized even then, however, that I was
condemned to live, and to my great and secret shame, I also knew I hadn't the
courage to put an end to my own misery. I believed too little of my father's
grim theology to follow its dictates, and too much to risk the fires and
pitchforks of hell.
I turned my face to the dank, daub-and-wattle wall and mourned in silence.
After a while a holy man came to see about me. I would not look at him.
"I am Brother Timothy," he said.
I did not reply.
"You must be grateful and repentant," he persisted. "God has chosen, in His
infinite mercy, to spare your life."
I spat, though my mouth was dry.
The man of God sighed and left me to my private damnation.
I might have lain in that wretched hovel forever, despising everything that
was holy, waiting to perish of despair, if the crone hadn't finally grown
impatient one foggy day and put a foot hard to my ribs.
"Get up, you," she commanded, having apparently passed the outermost bounds
of Christian charity. "I can't abide the smell of you, and I'm that weary of
spooning gruel and goat's milk into your mouth as if you was a sickly babe. Go
on, take yourself out of here."
I groped to my feet with her none-too-gentle help and swayed dangerously
before finally catching my balance. I staggered out of the hut with its thatched
roof and hard dirt floor into the cold glare of sunlight. For a moment or two I
was blinded by the dazzle and raised one arm to shield my eyes.
Mortals are damnably resilient, even when they don't choose to be. Within a
moment or so I could see clearly, and my weakened frame supported itself with a
shaky determination that came from some unexplored part of my mind. I looked
about and saw other huts—pigs and dogs and chickens wandering in their midst—and
a few gaunt humans in poor clothes. Not far from the edge of the village was a
great firepit, encircled with stones, black and acrid at its center. I was drawn
to the place by a horrible fascination that shamed even as it compelled me to
take the next step toward it, and the next.
Blackened bones and skulls lay scattered, haphazard, through the ashes, and I
recognized a single charred arm, muscles clearly defined, sooty fingers curled.
I wretched convulsively and reeled away from that grim sight and the other
helter-skelter leavings of death. I could be grateful, at least, that Brenna's
mortal remains had not been cast into the pit. That none of those hideous pieces
and parts were hers.
I nearly collided with the small, rotund monk who stood behind me.
"What is your name, lad?" he asked, and I was struck, even in my welter of
confusion and agony, by the serenity in his expression. I knew this was Brother
Timothy, the holy man who had visited me in the witch's hut.
He wore robes of undyed wool, a narrow, frayed rope girding his middle, and
his tonsured head was fringed with brown hair. The flesh of his face was tight,
but the eyes were old, and I could not begin to guess his age; he might have
been seventeen or seventy.
"Valerian," I answered hoarsely. I did not speak of my dead father, nor did I
offer the name of my village. I had no home now, after all, and no kinsmen. For
me, there was only one question, one concern, in all creation.
"Where did they bury milady?"
Brother Timothy gestured toward a copse of naked birches on top of a small
knoll nearby. The branches of those trees looked like white cracks in the
smooth, chilly blue surface of the sky. "There," he said. "On the hill."
I moved past him, awkward in my weakness, near collapse, but desperate to
look upon Brenna's grave.
"We did not know her name," the monk hastened to inform me. "But there is a
cross to mark her resting place. Was she your sister. Your wife, perhaps?"
At his words, the loss of Brenna cut through me anew, fresh and sharp,
seeming to sever not just muscle and marrow, but other, less tangible parts of
me as well. I locked my knees to keep them from buckling and forced myself to
keep moving. "I have no sister," I said. "And the word wife is too
feeble to contain all that Brenna was to me. If I could have died in her place,
I would have done it."
"Such decisions are not ours to make," Brother Timothy replied. "Perhaps that
is a blessing in itself. Nor is such a desire unselfish, for its root is merely
the cowardly wish to escape your own pain."
A surge of contempt swelled within me and, somewhere deeper, where I was wont
to look, shame. "Pray, do not speak to me of blessings," I said without meeting
his eyes. "There is no mercy in your God, and I seek no favors of Him."
How glibly I uttered sacrilege in those days of innocence and sorrow, and how
very little I knew of damnation and devils, gods and angels! I was yet a lad,
after all, with a child's blithe certainty of a multitude of things.
Brother Timothy laid a hand on my shoulder, and though he was smaller in
stature, his grasp was forceful enough to stop my progress. "Your grief makes
you bitter and angry," he said with a tenderness that made me yearn to sink,
weeping, to my knees. "Those feelings will pass one day. The wounds will heal.
In the meantime, though, you must turn your heart toward heaven, where comfort
and absolution lie."
I shrugged free of his grasp and went on, propelled by stubbornness, not
strength. I ached with frailty and fatigue. "No more talk of heaven," I growled,
blinking back the stinging moisture in my eyes. "No more."
I knew which plot was Brenna's, even before Brother Timothy pointed it out.
My beloved rested beneath a gentle mound of newly turned earth, with a crude
wooden cross to mark her passing. It was a peaceful place, though the sea
churned in the near distance, like some tempestuous gift seeking to ungive
itself. Light would dance among the shimmering leaves of the birch trees, come
summer, and in other seasons the wind and the rain and the sea would sing their
varied choruses.
I pressed my palms into the raw dirt and dug my fingers in deep, as if to
find her, drag her upward, resurrect her somehow. "Brenna," I whispered. What I
wouldn't have given, facing the finality of her death yet again in the moments
that followed, to be as she was, unaware, empty of emotion, immune to suffering.
Hidden from the gazes of man and God.
I trembled, light-headed from my exertions, and might have pitched forward to
lie sprawled across the grave if Brother Timothy hadn't grasped my shoulders and
raised me to my feet.
"Come away," he said quietly. "You can do no good here."
I had risen from my sickbed not even an hour before, and I had no power to
resist. I allowed that tenacious and good man to support me as we moved away
from the village, descending the opposite side of the hill.
Below lay an ancient structure, surely a monastery, with low stone walls and
a single crumbling tower. From that height I saw garden plots, a well, a narrow
courtyard without fountain or bench. I stumbled, and Brother Timothy tightened
his grasp, and once again kept me from falling.
The interlude that followed lies strewn through my memory like dried bones,
disjointed and strange. I was taken to a cell, furnished only with a cot and a
crucifix, and able hands stripped away my ruined garments. I was bathed in warm
water, garbed in a clean, if coarsely woven, robe, given stout wine and broth by
spoonfuls.
I slept, wandering in the dark mists of my dreams, searching tirelessly and
in vain for Brenna.
When at last I returned to full awareness, body and mind rallying to a
semblance of their former vitality, I discovered myself to be a dry, hollow husk
of a man. My grief had vanished, but so had my conscience, my better graces,
and, indeed, my soul.
I was empty.
"Stay with us, your brothers," Timothy pleaded when, after days of gradual,
painstaking recovery, I was well enough to rise from my cot and move about the
monastery and the grounds. We were in the courtyard that afternoon and the
weather was bright and crisply cold. "Surely it was a sign, our finding you—"
"I am grateful for all you've done," I said, though in fact I felt
nothing—not gratitude, not hatred, not grief or joy. What followed, however, was
purest truth. "I am not suited to this life, Timothy. I was born a sinner and I
shall remain one for all time."
Would that I could have known how prophetic those rashly spoken words really
were. But then, I do not believe anything short of Brenna's return from the dead
would have changed my course.
Timothy looked pained; tears filled his kindly eyes, and he spread his hands
in a gesture of pleading. "Valerian—"
I was unmoved by the monk's sorrow and held up a hand to silence him. In the
next moment I looked ruefully down at my borrowed robe. "Have you no breeches in
this dreary place? No tunics or belts or boots?"
He drew an audible breath. "We keep a store of such garments, yes," he
admitted slowly. "Each of us arrived here as an ordinary man, after all. Our
possessions are part of our sacrifice, and as a rule they are either sold for
the benefit of the order or given to the poor."
"No one," I said, laying my hands on my chest and looking at Timothy with
gentle impudence, "is poorer than I am."
Timothy nodded sadly and left my cell, returning minutes later with a stack
of colorless, somewhat ragged garments, neatly laundered and folded. He said
nothing as he held them out to me, and I confess that I snatched them from his
hands.
I was eager to be gone from that place and those people.
I left the following day, wearing the ill-fitting tatters Timothy had brought
to my cell. I also had two coins, of very modest value, that he had provided.
Thus began seventeen years of searching, not for Brenna now, but for that
vanished part of myself that had enabled me to love, to laugh, to weep, to
mourn.
All hope of that soon perished, and I sought only to meet a merciful death. I
was, like the Prodigal, a libertine, a liar, a heretic, and a thief. I wandered,
and I committed every sin I could think of without compunction, and a few that
were suggested to me. I consumed what wine I could beg or steal, and awakened in
pigsties and gaols and the beds of strangers. I cared for nothing and for no
one, least of all myself.
Then one momentous gloomy night, when I was five and thirty, and the most
devout of derelicts, my old tutor, Challes, quite literally stumbled across me
where I lay sprawled, stuporous with drink, upon the filthy floor of a stable.
It was soon after that the dark miracle occurred, and I was forever changed.
Daisy
Las Vegas, 1995
Daisy was not the whimsical type, but it seemed to her that a faint echo of
magic lingered in the silence of that empty auditorium. When Jerry Grover
flipped on some of the interior lights, the multicolored tinsel curtain threw
off a blinding dazzle, and Daisy winced.
Grover smiled, obviously pleased by her discomfort. "You won't find Valerian
here," he said with a combination of indulgence and condescension in his tone.
"As I told you, he never appears during the daylight hours." He paused to smirk,
then added, "Perhaps he's a vampire."
Daisy thought of Jillie Fairfield and her bloodless body and felt a quiver of
fear. She quickly squelched it. "No doubt," she answered dryly, widening her
eyes, "he's tucked up in a coffin somewhere, fast asleep."
Grover sighed. "Where Valerian is concerned," he said, "nothing would
surprise me." He paused to consult his watch, a sporty Rolex, and Daisy didn't
miss the point of the gesture.
She folded her arms. "I won't keep you—I can find the dressing rooms on my
own," she told him. "In the meantime, I suggest you take another look at your
computer files. For a start, I'd like to know where you send this guy's
paychecks."
Color seeped up Graver's tanned neck, and he spoke with exaggerated slowness,
as though addressing an idiot. "That's easy, Officer Chandler. Like most
performers, Valerian has an agent. There are contracts."
"That's Detective Chandler," Daisy said, undaunted. "What's this
agent's name?"
A pulse pounded in Grover's temple. "I haven't the vaguest idea."
"Then I'd suggest you find out," she answered, turning to start down the
nearest aisle. "I'll stop by your office for the information before I leave."
Grover spared her a slight nod, whirled on the heel of one Italian loafer,
and strode away.
Daisy lingered for a moment, recalling the events of the night before. She'd
never seen a trick that even remotely rivaled the carriage bit, and the mystery
of it both intrigued and frustrated her. And there was something else, she
admitted to herself, walking toward the door at the right of the stage.
Valerian had touched her, not with his hands, but with his mind. She'd been
downright mesmerized by him, and the realization was profoundly irritating. If
for no other reason, she wanted to face the magician again and prove to herself,
as well as to him, that he had no power over her.
Very little light reached backstage, and the ornate carriage Valerian used in
his act loomed in the shadows, ghostly and somehow ominous.
"Hello?" Daisy called out. "Anybody here?"
No answer.
She left the wings and proceeded into the area behind the stage. She
immediately encountered a ponytailed young man in jeans and a T-shirt, pushing a
rack of costumes along the hallway.
"Hi," she said, pulling her badge from her purse and offering a glimpse
before stowing it again.
"Hi," he replied, looking uncertain and slightly flustered. "Can I help you?"
"I hope so," Daisy replied, smiling in an effort to put him at ease. "What's
your name?"
He flushed, perhaps with relief. "Joe Fitch. Is—is something wrong?"
Joe hadn't heard about Jillie Fairfield's murder, then. Daisy wished she
didn't have to be the one to break the news.
Joe went pale as he took in Daisy's words. "Oh, my God," he whispered when
she'd finished, clasping the clothes rack with both hands to steady himself.
Daisy put a hand on his arm. "Would you like to sit down?" she asked.
"I'm okay, really," Joe said, but he fell into a folding chair next to the
wall all the same. "Oh, God," he murmured again. "Oh, God—I don't believe it."
Dragging up another chair, Daisy sat down facing Joe. Between the two of them
and the clothes rack, they blocked the hallway. "Did you know Ms. Fairfield
well?" Daisy asked.
To Daisy's disappointment, Joe shook his head. He looked sick, and he was
trembling. "Not really. Neither of us have been here very long. You know how
Vegas is—people move around."
Daisy nodded. There was a watercooler a few feet away, with a stack of paper
cups on top. She rose to fill one and bring it to Joe. "How about Valerian?
What's he like?"
Joe took the cup in both hands and drained it before answering. "He keeps to
himself."
"How about the other women in the show? Were any of them friendly with Ms.
Fairfield?"
"I think I'm going to puke," Joe confided. Then he bolted, overturning his
chair with a metallic clatter, one hand clasped over his mouth.
Daisy followed him to the door of the men's rest room and waited, leaning
against the wall until he came out. His skin, starkly white before, had turned
to a greenish shade of gray.
She let her folded arms fall back to her sides and straightened, then reached
into her purse for a dog-eared business card. "Here," she said. "Give me a call
if something comes to you."
Joe took the card and stared at it like a foreigner trying to read a strange
language. "Okay," he agreed. Then he turned and fled back into the men's room.
Daisy heard him retching as she turned away. It was a good thing Joe had
gotten the bad news secondhand, she reflected. If he'd actually seen the body,
he would have hocked up his socks.
She rapped at Valerian's dressing room door and, when there was no answer,
tried the knob. To her surprise, the lock wasn't engaged. She stepped over the
threshold and turned on the lights, frowning.
What did you expect, Chandler? she chided herself. An open casket? Maybe some
cobwebs and a pair of six-foot candelabras?
"Vampires, indeed," she scoffed aloud, recalling Grover's smart-ass remark
and what O'Halloran had said that morning at the crime scene. She backed into
the hallway, even though she didn't believe in monsters, and her pace was a
little faster than usual as she made her way toward a rear exit.
Valerian
Las Vegas, 1995
I awakened promptly at sunset, as usual, after a troubled sleep. I'd been
tormented by dreams of Brenna—now called Daisy Chandler—throughout the daylight
hours, and the terrible images followed me into full consciousness.
I sat up and took in my immediate surroundings, and I was oddly surprised to
find myself in my desert lair, even though I distinctly remembered retreating to
it just before dawn.
My subterranean palace had been built by a paranoid billionaire with a
bizzare imagination and a taste for luxury. I had always found it ironic that
the survivalist had not survived, but had succumbed to some relatively minor
ailment. I had purchased the place from his widow, who evidenced no desire to
live in a rabbit's burrow, however splendid.
The soft strains of Mozart poured into the master suite as I rose from my
silk-covered bed. My beloved had returned to me, and I could not help rejoicing
in the knowledge, but I felt terror, too. Through the centuries since Brenna's
drowning in the treacherous waters off the coast of Cornwall, we had found each
other no fewer than five times.
On each occasion, in each new incarnation, Brenna had succeeded in winning my
heart, no matter how I resisted. Oh, and I did resist, with all the
might I possessed, for there was a curse upon milady and me, and it followed us
mercilessly, relentlessly, down through the years.
Always, in every lifetime, Brenna's soul remembered our bond, but consciously
I was always a stranger to her, a wayfarer who could only come to her in the
night. I invariably fell in love with her all over again, and more deeply then ever
before, and she returned my affections—for the most part. What bliss it was to
hold her, to look upon her face, and what hell to know that she would soon be
gone.
It mattered not what efforts I made to protect my darling; my powers were
useless against this hex, whatever it was. We were doomed, Brenna and I, to
relive the torment of parting, over and over. I could only conclude that it was
divine punishment, meted out to me because I had accepted Challes's evil gift
all those years before, and used it to the fullest, without the slightest
hesitation.
But what sin had Brenna committed, to deserve such a fate? The question
angered me, as it had always done.
I went into my glittering bathroom and groomed myself, then selected a
starched shirt and a perfectly tailored suit from my wardrobe. A smile, faint
and fleeting, touched my mouth. It puzzled the mortals of my acquaintance that I
never suffered from the desert heat, no matter how formally I dressed, and I
enjoyed their consternation.
Usually.
I affixed my cufflinks and wandered into the vast living room, where the
stereo system spilled soft, vibrant notes of music into the air. I silenced the
machine with a sort of mental nod and by the same means caused another
contraption, an enormous television screen, to fold down from its hiding place
in the ceiling.
The set flared with light, and a scene took shape. The images I saw were not
being broadcast by any station or network, however. I knew well enough that they
sprang from the secret realms of my own mind.
I saw a corpse lying on a matted carpet. The body was that of a woman, and I
knew what had killed her even before I focused on the tiny puncture marks on her
throat, knew there wasn't a drop of blood left in her veins.
Jillie Fairfield. One of the delectable young creatures who had added so much
to my act.
Suddenly weak, I sat down in a soft chair and stared at the horrific vision.
This was no ordinary murder, no crime of vengeance or passion. It had been
committed by one of my own kind—a vampire. And because of Jillie's connection
with me, I could be certain the gesture had been meant as a challenge.
I closed my eyes and willed myself to the scene, materializing in Jillie's
small apartment only moments later. The place was dark, a fact that was of no
consequence whatever to me, and the body, of course, had been removed.
The corpse had been emptied of blood, but there were traces of that precious
stuff everywhere, glittering in the gloom like tiny points of blue light. The
scent of it, stale now, and wasted, filled my nostrils.
"Who are you?" I demanded aloud. "Show yourself!"
There was no sound besides the ordinary doings of nearby mortals, which came
to me through the walls and the floor as a low murmuring. And yet there was
something beneath it, a deeper silence, and not an empty one.
I tried to go back to the moment of the murder—vampires travel through time
as easily as men and women pass from one room to another—but my way was blocked.
I heard poor little Jillie's muted scream, I felt her terror and then the unholy
ecstasy that is a hallmark of a blood-drinker's fatal kiss, but I could not see
her killer, and I was unable to help her.
I was swamped by despair, then fury.
The woman's death was the work of another night-walker, a powerful fiend. But
who was this monster? I knew of many other vampires, of course, but of all
those, only Maeve was stronger than I. She was a regal creature and did not feed
on harmless chorus girls—her prey fell into two distinct categories: those who
took pleasure in evil, and those who were already on the brink of death. Lisette,
the former queen, would have done just such a murder, sparing no thought for the
victim's youth and relative innocence, but she had been destroyed long ago.
Dingdong, the witch was dead—but something else, something equally pitiless, was
very much alive.
5
Valerian
England, 1363
Forceful hands gripped the front of my tunic, and I was wrenched, half
insensible, out of the stinking straw where I'd collapsed earlier, and onto my
feet. I recognized Challes, my former tutor, in spite of my wine-sodden state.
"By the gods, it is you!" he rasped. "What in the name of heaven—?"
I swayed, and he steadied me. I felt a rush of drunken sentimentality,
followed by an emotion I had not acknowledged in a long while—hot, searing
humiliation. I had liked my teacher and sought his approval, and I found that I wanted it
still. My normally quick tongue failed me, and I could say nothing at all.
Challes cursed and released me with such force that I struck the stable wall
behind me. The shock cleared my head a little.
"You were the brightest pupil I've ever had," he said furiously, waving with
both hands, so that somehow the gesture took in both my disheveled person and my
disordered soul. "Now look at you—dissolute, filthy, wasted! Why have you
allowed yourself to fall into this shameful state?"
I swallowed, clinging to the last rotted shreds of my pride. "I want nothing
but to die," I said in an undertone that was both truthful and defiant.
He stunned me again by slapping me hard across the face. "Weakling!" he
whispered vehemently, and when I tried to sidestep him, he grasped my shoulders
and thrust me back against the wall once more. "Every day and every night brave
men and women beg whatever gods are listening to let them live. And you, you
sniveling, pettish little whelp, dare to throw away your powers and
your gifts like so much rubbish! Well, I won't have it, do you hear me? By God,
I will not allow you destroy to yourself!"
Tears burned in my eyes, shaming me anew, and I looked away in a vain effort
to hide them. "It is too late," I said in a bare whisper. "Too late."
For a moment I thought Challes would strike me again. Instead he tightened
his grasp on my shoulders just briefly, then spoke in a gentle, broken voice.
"When was the last time you had a decent meal or a real bed to sleep in?"
I had been stealing food, sleeping in ditches and horse stalls, and begging
coin for wine for so long that I could barely recall any other life. My
childhood in the village of Dunnett's Head seemed unreal, and my brief happiness
with Brenna was naught but a pretty tale.
I spread my filthy hands. "When I was with the brothers, I suppose. They took
me in after milady died." I didn't remember the old woman and her rough
ministrations until much later, and therefore failed to mention her in my hazy
account of those wretched days.
"And you've wandered ever since, like some savage lost from his tribe?"
The answer came hoarse from my throat. "Yes." Only then did I notice that
Challes was finely dressed—much too finely for a poor tutor. His
tailored garments and exquisite opera cape would have been more suited to a
London theater or a gentleman's club; to say he looked out of place in the
stable of a disreputable country inn would constitute an understatement of gross
proportions. Odder still, he had not aged in the years since I had seen him
last; there was a subtle vitality about him, and yes, he'd acquired an
attractive air of quiet menace that made me think of wolves prowling stark and
snowy downs.
Challes laid a hand to my shoulder. "Come," he said. "I have a splendid gift
to offer you, my misguided friend, but first you must be made ready to receive
it."
The strangeness of the remark did not penetrate the dense muddle drunkenness
had made of my mind. I believed he was offering food and shelter, perhaps wine,
too, and I wanted all of those things. Especially, I am ashamed to admit, the
latter.
Challes led me to a carriage, waiting axle-deep in mud on the road. The moon
rose around it like a huge and silvery halo, and I felt a shiver at the sight,
one more akin to excitement than to fear. A footman opened the door for us, and
I sensed the look that passed between him and my tutor rather than saw it.
"How did you know where to find me?" I asked, once settled in the sumptuous
leather seat across from Challes.
He sighed. "I will explain that at a later time. For now, it is enough to see
that you are fed, scrubbed clean, and rested."
I was already beginning to feel thirsty, and hoped the impressive improvement
of Challes's circumstances meant he kept a good stock of wine. Even though I was
not particularly alert at that point, I know I didn't give voice to the thought,
for I'd guessed that it would not be well received.
Challes heard it all the same, for he responded as if I'd spoken aloud.
"Foolish knave. You will crave another nectar soon, but the questionable
pleasure of drunkenness is behind you."
I folded my arms, still too fuddled to sort out the fact that Challes had
just read my mind. What was clear to me was the absolute conviction
that I could not bear a lifetime without wine. Such a sacrifice would lay bare
my every nerve, physical and spiritual, to agonies beyond my ability to endure.
"Nonsense," Challes said, though again I had not spoken. "You are not about
to die, Valerian. You are on the verge of a glorious rebirth."
I frowned. "You sound like my father now, God rest his soul. If it's religion
you're peddling, I'll go back to the stable. And how did you do that?"
"I assume you're asking how I interpreted your thoughts. Alas, the divination
of mortal minds is the least of my powers. Hardly a challenge at all."
If I'd been sober, I believe I would have been insulted. I started to ask
Challes what he was talking about, but he extended an imperious hand in a demand
for silence, and I obeyed. My dedicated debauchery had reduced me to less than
nothing: I had all the dignity and self-possession of a slat-ribbed hound
snuffling through garbage.
"I live near here," Challes told me after a brief silence, during which he
gazed pensively through the carriage window, his oddly beautiful face drenched
in moonlight. "Our journey will not be a long one."
I studied him, struck by the differences he evidenced and yet unable to
define them. "What's happened?" I said. "You've changed."
For the first time my tutor smiled. "So have you," he answered. "Do not
trouble me with questions tonight, Valerian. It is enough for now that I have
found you."
We traveled the rest of the way without speaking. I closed my eyes and
pretended to sleep, and although I was still thoroughly inebriated, I was well
aware of Challes's gaze upon me. I knew, somehow, that his regard was pensive,
and that there was a certain strange hunger in it.
His home was grand, for that desolate part of England, a small, square keep,
made of gray stone and lighted from within. Surely there would be wine in such a
place.
I had recovered some of my spirit, so buoyed was I by the mere prospect of a
bath and the knowledge that I would not be required to share my bed with vermin.
I glanced warily at Challes as a new and disturbing possibility struck me.
My tutor was just alighting from the carriage, tugging at one immaculate
white glove as he did so. "Pray do not pursue that ridiculous and insulting
thought any further," he said dryly. "I have no designs on your virtue—such as
it may be. In point of fact, I shall ask nothing of you behind the joy of seeing
you find and exercise your own magnificent powers."
That was all Challes would say, and I had neither the energy nor the will to
press him for more. I simply followed him up to the arched wooden door, which
was promptly opened for us by a servant bearing a flickering tallow.
He nodded deferentially to Challes, but gave me an oblique look as he stepped
back to admit us.
My wits were not about me, so to speak, but I did take note that the place
was very clean, and not in the least gloomy. Indeed, moonlight streamed through
the high windows in one wall, illuminating the foyer with a glow that was no
less beautiful for being eerie.
It seemed that I had been expected. A spacious chamber awaited me
abovestairs; there was a cozy blaze snapping on the hearth, and a table had been
laid for a meal. A large metal tub steamed in the firelight, and the counterpane
on the featherbed had been turned back to reveal linen sheets of the purest
white.
I went to the table and checked its contents. There was bread, cold meat,
boiled turnips, and even fruit, but alas, no wine.
I sighed.
Challes laughed. "Reprobate," he said, tossing me a bar of hard soap. "You'll
find nothing there to fog and foul that splendid mind of yours. I've told you—no
more wine."
Not troubling to answer, I raised the soap to my nose; the scent reminded me
of my beautiful mother, Seraphina, and for a moment I missed her keenly. I
turned from Challes, seeking to disguise my emotions—I had not yet learned that
I could hide nothing from him.
"I shall not stay long, then," I answered.
"We'll see," Challes replied. And then he left me.
I bolted the door—in my sorry travels I had learned that what seems like good
fortune is often a trap instead—and then stripped off my pitiful clothes and
stepped into the tub. I gave a low groan of pleasure as the warm, clean water
lapped against my flesh.
I soaked for a long time, then scrubbed my shaggy, red-brown hair and every
dirty inch of my hide. When I was clean at last, I rose and stood naked on the
hearth, letting the heat of the crackling fire dry the little glittering beads
of water that trembled like jewels upon my skin.
A nightshirt of some fine, shimmering fabric—I know now that it was rare and
priceless silk—lay spread upon the bed. After I had enjoyed the fire for a time,
I pulled the garment over my head and took myself to the table. I ate with
remarkable appetite, given the shrunken state of my oft-abused stomach, and no
semblance of grace. When I'd finished, I was dizzy with fatigue.
Sated, and able to tolerate my own company for the first time in recent
memory, I fell into the lush depths of the bed and gave myself up to sleep. My
rest was absolute; I kept no vigil and dreamed no dreams.
It makes me smile to remember that I felt safe.
Daisy
Las Vegas, 1995
Daisy was waiting in Valerian's dressing room when that night's performance
ended to thunderous applause and shouts of approbation, and he did not seem at
all taken aback to find her there.
So much, she reflected, for the element of surprise.
The magician was a spectacular specimen, not only onstage, but up close as
well. Something fast-moving and intangible came to a lurching stop, deep in
Daisy's middle, when he looked at her.
She reminded herself that show-business types didn't impress her, and he
smiled slightly, as though he'd heard the thought.
But that was impossible, of course.
Daisy's face felt warm. "I'm Detective Chandler," she said.
"I remember," Valerian replied smoothly. He was wearing a majestic black silk
cape, lined in red, and he loosened the ties and slipped the garment off, laying
it almost tenderly over the back of a chair. There was something intimate and
sensual in the way he performed that simple task, and Daisy had taken a hot,
dark pleasure in watching him.
"I'd like to talk to you about Jillie Fairfield's murder."
She saw a flicker of grief in the aristocratic face. There was something so
regal about the man, she thought, something old-fashioned and almost courtly.
Valerian took his sweet time replying. "What do you want to know?'" he
finally asked in an abstracted tone, his gaze fixed just above her head as he
unfastened his cuff links.
"Several things. Starting with this—did you kill her?"
He met her gaze then, and both pain and annoyance moved in his eyes. "No," he
said, and the chill in his voice went straight to the marrow of Daisy's bones,
like a wintry wind. "Of course not."
Daisy was unnerved, even disturbed by this guy, though she could not have
said why. Even if he had done the murder—and practiced instincts told her he was
innocent—she had no reason to be afraid of him. She was a good cop, and she'd
learned to take care of herself a long time before.
"Do you know who did?"
Valerian raised one eyebrow and flung his gold and onyx cuff links onto the
vanity table, where they landed with a clatter. The wall above, where there
should have been a lighted mirror, was empty. "No," he bit out. "It's your
responsibility to determine that, isn't it?"
Daisy was stung, and it made her damn mad to catch herself feeling that way.
She couldn't afford that kind of vulnerability. "I'm trying to do my job, Mr.
Valerian," she seethed. "Unfortunately, that usually involves a lot of spade
work."
"Just Valerian," he said, and the very calmness with which he spoke made
Daisy feel like a raving hysteric. "Sit down, please," he went on, gesturing
toward a velvet-upholstered antique chair, which Daisy promptly took. He drew up
a high stool and perched on the seat, arms folded, looking art-deco elegant in
his tails, tuxedo pants, and white pleated shirt. "I didn't know much about
Jillie," he confided. "We worked together, but that was the extent of our
association. I am not a social animal, you see. The other women in the act might
be able to tell you something more, however."
Mentally Daisy awarded Valerian a point for referring to the dancers as women
and not girls. And it struck her that, although he'd been working under hot
lights for a couple of hours, wearing a full suit of clothes and a cloak, he had
not broken a sweat. Odd, indeed, she thought.
"I've talked to some of them already. They're pretty upset, though I've got
to say they performed well tonight."
Valerian loosened the collar of his shirt, which had probably cost more than
the new engine O'Halloran had just put into his car. "I'll pass along the
compliment," he assured her. There wasn't a trace of sarcasm in his tone, and
yet Daisy knew he was needling her.
Or was she just being oversensitive?
"Where can I get in touch with you during the day, just in case I need to
question you again?"
There was a wry twist to his mouth, and a weariness in the set of his broad
shoulders that seemed ancient as well as profound. He produced a card, by some
sleight of hand, and held it out to Daisy.
"Call my answering service," he said. "I usually spend the daylight hours
perfecting my magic, but if you leave a message, I'll be in touch."
Daisy had no reason to linger, and yet she longed to stay. A fragment of a
dream she'd had stirred somewhere in her brain, and she heard the terrifying
clang of swords clashing in battle. She eased toward the door.
"Well, thank you," she said. "And good night. It was a terrific show."
Valerian bowed. "Sleep well, Miss Chandler."
Daisy went home to her apartment in a complex at the edge of town, heated a
frozen entree, and curled up to watch a news channel. The state of world affairs
left her thoroughly depressed, as usual, and she went to the kitchenette and tossed
the rest of her dinner into the trash, box and all.
"Maybe I should get out of this business," she said aloud. She was talking to
herself more and more these days, but she figured it would be okay as long as
O'Halloran "didn't find out. He was a good guy and a first-class cop, but he saw
it as his mission in life to give her a hard time. That, according to him, was
what partners were for.
Daisy kicked off her sneakers as she crossed the gray carpeted floor of her
living room, checked her answering machine, and saw that there was one message.
She reached for the Play button and then drew back when a vague sense of menace
brushed the back of her heart.
She was being silly, she chided herself. The message was probably from her
sister, Nadine, who lived in Telluride and was expecting her first baby. Or
maybe O'Halloran had called to ask about her interview with the Great Valerian…
Daisy touched the button, and one ominous word swelled from the machine like
an evil genie from a lamp.
"Soon," the voice said, and Daisy could not tell whether the caller
was a man or a woman.
"What the hell?'* she demanded, stabbing the button again.
That time the tape dragged, making the warning, if indeed it was a
warning and not a prank, that much spookier.
"Damn," Daisy whispered, more irritated then afraid. Was this somebody's idea
of a joke—O'Halloran's, for instance? Even as she framed the thought, she knew
her partner wouldn't try to scare her. His sense of humor ran toward whoopee
cushions, plastic vomit, and hand-buzzers, bless his tacky and totally
uninspired heart, but he wasn't cruel.
While Daisy was still standing there, gnawing at her lower lip and wondering
whether to worry about this development or have a light beer and go to bed, the
telephone rang. It was an ordinary sound, but she almost jumped out of her
sneakers, and her hand trembled when she reached for the receiver.
"Hello!" she barked.
"Soon," said that same genderless, robotlike voice she'd heard on the tape
only moments before. "Soon you—will—die—again. And again—and—"
"Who is this?" Daisy demanded, furious.
"—again and—"
Daisy slammed down the receiver and shoved a hand through her hair. "Take a
breath, Chandler," she told herself in a whisper. "It's just some smart-ass kid,
or one of the guys at the station—"
She closed her eyes for a moment, deliberately making her mind a blank, until
she was calmer. She started to dial O'Halloran's home number, then stopped in
the middle of the process. She had worked damn hard and taken a lot of scary
risks to get where she was. She didn't want her partner, or anybody else on the
force, to think she couldn't take care of herself.
Daisy went back to the front door and made sure the deadbolt was turned and
the chain in place. Then she checked the windows and, on a roll, peeked behind
the shower curtain and under the bed.
Finally she washed off her makeup, brushed her teeth and hair, and went to
bed. The telephone on her night-stand rang once, but by the time she'd groped
for the receiver and put it to her ear, the line was dead.
"Damn," she said again. Then she turned over onto her side, yawned twice,
wondered whether or not Nadine suffered from morning sickness, considered
getting a big dog, and dozed off.
The dream was remarkably real.
She was wearing strange, simple clothes—medieval, perhaps—and riding a horse.
She could hear the roar of the sea and taste its salt in the mist, and suddenly
she felt a surge of wild, ebullient daring. With a laugh, she spurred her mount
toward the water.
Someone shouted at her to come back, but she had suffered much in recent
times, and she had grown up beside the sea, playing chase with the tide. Now the
vast ocean seemed to beckon. It was a siren's call, one she could not resist.
She rode down a steep path, wending her way between giant stones, urging the
little horse onward when she knew it wanted to bolt.
Another cry found its way over the roar of the waves and made her turn,
laughing with delight, to look toward shore. She saw him then, her companion. In
that strange way of dreams, she recognized him as the magician, Valerian. And
yet he was much younger, hardly more than a boy, and his clothes were
ill-fitting and strange.
His face was a mask of terror as he lunged down the rocky path and raced
toward the water.
Poor silly darling, she thought indulgently. He's afraid for me. I must tell
him that I've ridden into the sea many times before without harm.
She smiled, tossing her head, and raised one hand to wave him back. He was no
swimmer, after all, and the sea was more fractious than usual that day.
He shouted to her again, foundering through the surf, and she lost control of
the horse. The animal shrieked and reared, and she was flung off, striking her
shoulder hard against a rock.
Pain thundered through her. She tried to scream, and water filled her mouth,
drove her under, held her there, flailing. The weight of her gown and kirtle
pulled her deeper into the smothering darkness, and then a current caught her up
and twirled her around.
There was another blow, this time to the head, and then she saw nothing, felt
nothing, knew nothing—except for the name she'd been screaming before she died.
Valerian.
Valerian
England, 1363
When I awakened that first morning, to find myself in the place I would later
know as Colefeld Hall, I am ashamed to say that my first conscious sensation was
a craving for wine. My mouth was as dry as straw, my stomach felt as though it
had withered within me, and every bone and sinew ached in merry time with the
slow thud of my heart.
I rose from my bed, relieved myself in the chamber pot provided, and unbolted
the door to peer into the hallway. The taciturn serving man was almost to the
threshold, his arms laden with folded garments of exquisite quality. Raised in
the home of a poor bootmaker and residing, until very recently, in horse stalls,
abandoned dovecotes, and pigsties, I had never dared to dream of such things.
"Good morning, sir," said the quiet fellow. "Milord instructed me to provide
you with whatever you required." He actually smiled, taking in my nightshirt. "I
see I was correct in assuming that proper garb would make a good beginning."
I was delighted and forgot for a moment my deep-seated yearning for the fruit
of the vine. I reached out for the garments with a nod of gratitude, barely able
to keep myself from donning them right there in the doorway.
"Where is Challes?" I asked, turning away. "I must thank him personally for
his generosity."
"I am afraid His Lordship is engaged this morning. He'll be quite busy for
the remainder of the day, as it happens. In the meantime, I will look after
you—my name, by the way, is Abelard."
I might have been curious about Challes's "engagement" at any other time, but
I was still sick and half starved, and those splendidly embroidered tunics and
closely woven hose held me rapt. Oh, I was a greedy creature, even then.
Abelard went away, and I put on dark blue hose and a multicolored tunic. When
I stepped into the hallway again, intending to explore—and, yes, I confess it,
to find Challes's store of wines and spirits—a pair of soft leather boots waited
by the door. I snatched them up with joy and paused to pull them onto my feet
before proceeding downstairs.
The great house had a curiously expectant air, it seemed to me; as though the
very walls and floors and rafters in the ceiling were awaiting some momentous
event. I found the kitchen and purloined the leg of a roasted fowl of some sort
before continuing to acquaint myself with my tutor's domain. ' He owned many
manuscripts and even a few bound books—envy flared inside me when I saw those
tomes—row upon row of them, brimming with secrets and with magic. I touched
their spines reverently, but even I did not dare to take even one down from the
shelf to examine it. Those volumes were holy to me in a way crosses and relics
and statues had never been, and one does not touch sacred things thoughtlessly.
Besides, my fingers were greasy from the food I'd consumed.
I left the books, albeit reluctantly, and went in search of the wine. Abelard
appeared to be occupied elsewhere and did not bother me for the whole of the
morning.
The cellar was empty, except for a heavy iron door that would not open when I
pulled on the latch. I tried several times and even kicked it once—for I had a
more than ordinary dislike for things that thwarted me—but to no avail.
After that small defeat, I searched the pantries, the storerooms, and even
the stables and the carriage house. I found nothing except my friend's tidy
possessions, all neatly tucked away in their proper places.
Abelard produced a venison stew for the midday meal—he was, it appeared, the
only other occupant of the house besides Challes and myself—and sat on the other
side of the trestle table talking with me while I ate.
"Has Mr. Challes—his lordship—always lived here?" I asked. It had occurred to
me, as my throbbing head cleared, that the gentleman might have deceived us all—Brenna,
the baron, her late father, my brother, Krispin—every one of us. Perhaps he had
never been a poverty-stricken tutor at all, but a dilettante, merely amusing
himself among the poor. Experimenting, perhaps, to find out if country folk were
as stupid as mules or if they could learn to reason and work sums.
"He came into an inheritance quite recently," Abelard replied, obviously
uncomfortable with the line of questioning. "We have been in residence for
perhaps five years."
My mind, ever fitful, had returned to thoughts of Krispin. I did not often
let myself remember my brother, for when I did I always imagined how the plague
would have changed him. Had his skin turned to a dark, bruised color before he
died? Had he risen from his pallet and spun about in a hideous death dance as I
had heard of others doing?
I pushed my stew away, my appetite spoiled.
"Where is this engagement of his lordship's?" I asked with an impertinence
that causes me to wince when I recall it. "I've looked through practically every
window in the keep, and there's naught but empty moors in every direction."
Abelard's patience was not easily strained. "Not empty," he said, drawing a
trencher of bread close and tearing off a piece. "There are wolves abroad. Gaunt
ones, with ribs showing through their hide, that like nothing better than to
happen upon an arrogant fool of a man with more bravado than good sense."
Everyone in England was afraid of wolves in those stark, brutal days, when
vast forests still covered the land—the creatures had been known to leap,
snarling, into carriages and even to creep into huts and crofts and carry
children away in their teeth. The stories about the beasts were rife, told at
every cradle and fireside in the country, used, as fear has ever been used, to
control those who might otherwise take it into their heads to wander.
Just the mention of the beasts made me go bloodless with dread. In the next
instant I blushed furiously, embarrassed by my first reaction.
"We saw no such animals last night while riding in the carriage," I pointed
out. The unpleasant images of a dying Krispin had faded from my mind, and I
reached for my half-finished stew again.
Abelard made a production of chewing his bread, swallowing, and biting off a
new piece. "I suppose they were busy elsewhere, then," he said at long last.
"They're out there, though. You can be sure of that, sir."
I could not hide my shudder. "Have you seen them?"
"Oh, yes," Abelard confided in a low voice. "And any man with ears can hear
them howling of a night. Calling and calling they are, wanting the unwary to
come out and play their dreadful games."
I shifted the conversation away from the subject of wolves. "Is his lordship
here, in this house?"
"He might be," Abelard said speculatively, though it was plain, even to me,
that he knew exactly where his master was and what he was doing.
"It's damn rude," I blurted out, "making such a mystery of things and leaving
a guest all on his own. I didn't ask to come here, after all."
Abelard smiled. "Didn't you?" he asked.
I was completely confused. "By the saints, man, I wasn't so drunk that I can't recall what I said with my own mouth!"
The servant finished his bread and then rose from the table. "There's no need
to be afraid, lad," he said gently. "This is where you belong, and you're
welcome here, and safe, too, if you mind your manners."
I wanted to point out that I was not some witless youth, that indeed I had
lived five and thirty years, but I realized as I shaped the protest in my mind
that I would sound foolish if I uttered it.
"Have you any wine?" I wanted to know. Blustering bluff was one of my stock
traits; I had relied upon it, among other deceptions and ruses, for a long time.
Abelard sighed. "No," he told me. "And if I did, I would not offer it to you.
The stuff might have been your destruction, if his lordship hadn't found you
when he did."
I was yet considering the wine, and resenting my host's lack of charity where
strong drink was concerned, so I did not stop to wonder how Challes had known
where to look for me, or what business he had with me in the first place.
By the gods, I was not only mortal then, I was an idiot. I might have been
deaf and blind for all the notice I took of the terrible and magnificent drama
unfolding around me!
Abelard brought me one of the precious books that afternoon, and I read
hungrily of ancient Greek adventures, hardly noticing when twilight came and the
candles were lighted. I was so absorbed that I did not hear Challes enter the
room where I sat, my stool drawn up close to the fire.
"This," he said with gruff fondness, "is the Valerian I remember."
"Tell me," I demanded quietly, closing the manuscript with great care. "Tell
me why you sought me out, why you brought me here. Now."
He smiled. "I have told you, my friend. I have an astounding gift to
offer you. If you accept my tribute, you will have powers you cannot begin to
imagine now."
I was intrigued. "What is this great and mysterious treasure?" I asked.
Challes reached out to touch my shoulder. There was love in the contact, and
reverence. His eyes glowed with affection as he looked down at my face. "Life
upon life," he said. "Endless, fathomless, unbounded life. Drink from
the cup I hold out to you, Valerian—arrogant Valerian, as beautiful as Lucifer
in his days of perfect favor—and you will never die."
6
The light of the drawing room fire flickered over Challes's features as he
sat beside me on that momentous night, staring fixedly into the grate. Beyond
the windows, on the moonlit moors, I heard the wolves calling sorrowfully to
each other like souls just waking to find themselves in hell, and I shuddered.
Nearly imperceptible though the motion must have been, it somehow drew my
tutor's notice. He turned his head toward me and smiled, and I remember thinking
how remarkably white and even his teeth were. I was more conscious than ever, in
that moment, of the dangers that filled the world.
"The time has come, Valerian," Challes began moderately, "to discuss the
gift in depth. Preparations must be made, of course, before it can be given.
Still, I wish to tell you all that this entails, for you will be called upon to
make a choice never presented to most mortals."
I could barely contain my eagerness and curiosity; indeed, I had been in a
state of quiet frenzy since he'd made the astonishing claim, a short while
before, that I need never die. I find my excitement ironic now, in light of the
fact that I had been trying for fifteen years at that point, albeit in a
cowardly and indirect fashion, to murder myself.
"Tell me," I pleaded on a scant breath and came near to clasping his arm like
a supplicant begging blessings from a saint.
"Be patient, beautiful one," he said fondly. "Once you shed your mortal
limitations, you will have all eternity to celebrate what you are."
I waited and held my tongue, but it was the most difficult thing I had
undertaken since my failed attempt to rescue Brenna from the merciless surf. I
trembled with my need to understand what Challes was offering me, to snatch it
from his grasp and hide it in my heart.
He settled back in his great chair, draped now in shadows, now in dancing
light, and watched the blaze again. Just when I truly believed I would not be
able to restrain myself from lunging like a fevered beast, to somehow wrench the
secret from him, Challes began to unburden himself.
"I went to sea after I left Dunnett's Head," he told me, still gazing into
the fire. "I know not how I kept myself apart from this cursed plague—it was,
and is, everywhere. I saw so many perish, so horribly. I wandered, as you have
done, and finally settled on the Continent, in Florence. There I encountered
artists, bards, philosophers, and men of science—" He paused and smiled again,
not at me certainly, but at some memory he must have glimpsed in the snapping
flames of that cheery fire.
"Whores and dancing girls, too. Gypsies and princes, and vagabonds, like
myself. Those who were drunkards"—he had the charity, bless him, not to look at
me when he made this last statement—"those who were saints, and those who were a
curious and fascinating combination of the two. I cannot possibly describe the
richness and pleasure of my life in that gracious city—and yet I was not truly
happy. At times I knew unutterable loneliness."
I bit my lip, feeling no compunction to interrupt now, listening with all my
powers of attention. I, too, had known such a separation from others—it was
that, more than any other factor, which had spawned my eternal need for strong
drink.
"I encountered a magnificent being one night when I was brooding in one of
the small piazzas that abound in Florence. We became friends, and then something
more than that. Lovers, of a sort, though our consummation was spiritual, rather
than physical. Many wondrous nights passed before Christoph told me what he was.
What he is and will always be—" Challes hesitated again and studied my
face with a troubled expression in his eyes, and I thought I would burst with
waiting before he went on at last. "Christoph is a fiend, Valerian, as am I. He
is a vampyre."
My heart seemed to stop and, just as quickly, start itself pumping again. I
drew back a little, I think, though the response was not a conscious one. "A
vampyre? You mean, a drinker of blood?"
"Yes," Challes answered with a sound that resembled a sigh, but was not.
I bolted to my feet, overturning the stool with a crash, suddenly far more
frightened of my old friend and tutor than I'd ever been of the wolves waiting
outside in the darkness.
"Wait," Challes ordered calmly, even gently, rising unhurriedly from his
chair. I would not have obeyed the command, but there was something in his eyes,
something that held me spellbound and stricken, overriding my weak will. "I
will do you no hurt, cherished one. There is only pleasure in what I would give
to you, only joy." He was silent for a moment, gazing at me, and when he spoke
again, it was briskly, in the schoolmaster's tone from days of old. "Sit down,
pray, and listen."
Though I was terrified, I righted my stool and slumped onto it, speechless
and void of grace, my limbs full of trembling. I made the sign of the cross, and
to my horrified amazement, Challes did not recoil. Did not so much as flinch.
No, there was only the brief hint of a smile, falling across his lips like a
passing shadow, and a deep, pitying sorrow in his eyes.
"Such gestures have their power," he told me, "when there is true faith
behind them. But you have none of that, do you?"
I tried to speak, stammered insensibly, and began again. "I believe there's a
God—I believe in the Holy Mother, and the Son", and all the saints and angels—"
Challes laughed outright, and the sound echoed, raucous, off the high ceiling
of the keep. "Such a hasty and convenient creed!" he exclaimed finally with grim
humor. "Even the demons grant the existence of God, Valerian—oh, especially
them. Do you think you can fool me—I, who know you so well? You believe now, in
this moment, it's true, but only because you perceive your sinful hide to be
threatened. Tell me, lovely one, were you so devout when the good brothers bade
you stay there to take up the cross and become one of their number?" He shook his
head, as if in response to something I'd said, although I spoke not a syllable,
for I was too shaken to refute his words. "Let go of what is past, you
spectacular idiot, and enter into the glorious future that awaits you."
I could not move or make a sound. I heard the wolves, nearer now, and wished
that I might be their prey, alone and unprotected on the moors—that I could be
anywhere but in that warm, comfortably furnished drawing room in the company of
a devil.
Challes began to speak, his tones the low and measured ones of a father
lulling a fretful child to sleep. He told me what it meant to be a vampire—told
me of the powers he possessed, the powers I would command should I raise the
figurative chalice to my lips and drink. I would be able to will myself from one
place to another and, eventually, from one century to another. I would become a
shape-changer, of sorts, able to present myself to mortals in an endless variety
of forms. I should not need food or water, nor would I lack any desirable
thing—gold, castles, fine horses, and exquisite garments could be mine by means
of simple trickery. And there were much greater gifts and abilities that would
come to me over time, with the practice of my art.
"But I must drink blood?" I asked with a slight shiver when Challes had
finished painting his grand, glorious images in my mind.
His smile was tender now. "Not in the way you think," he said. And he
proceeded to explain that, too—how the blood was drawn in through the fangs, how
the victim could be made to feel ecstacy instead of fear and pain if the vampire
wished it so, how the innocents need never be touched, because there was such a
thriving abundance of truly evil mortals.
I was intrigued, despite my terror. I wanted the terrible magic of which
Challes spoke, as he had always known I would. I wanted to fly, to learn, to
explore. I wanted to wear rich clothing, always, to hear the music of a thousand
minstrels, to traverse the wide seas and continents, to know secrets forbidden
to ordinary men.
"Will you accept this gift?" he asked, although he knew what the answer would
be. We both did.
I flushed. "Yes," I heard myself say. My old life was untenable now; I truly
would surrender myself to the wolves before returning to the beggar's
existence I had known only the day before. "Now. Tonight."
Challes laughed again and shook his head. "Dear, precious fool! If I changed
you now, you would be forever as you are at this moment—gaunt and ill mannered
and totally void of the graces. No, Valerian—you must be groomed and prepared
for the transformation, as I said before."
I was alarmed—now that I knew what it meant to be an immortal, I could not
bear the idea that my tutor might change his mind, might deny me what he had
already offered. "How long will it take, this preparation?"
"A month, perhaps two," Challes said. "I will bring you along slowly,
lovingly, just as my dark angel Christoph did for me. That way, when you enter
in, it will be willingly, and with full knowledge of what you understake.
Anything less would be a travesty before hell as well as heaven."
"I must have it now," I muttered, covering my face with my hands. "I cannot
bear to wait!" The marvelous gift would be withdrawn, snatched from my fingers
for all time—I knew it would. I would suffer that worst of all fates, and remain
ordinary.
Challes laid his hand on top of my shaggy, unbrushed hair. "Do not fret," he
scolded with gruff affection. "I cannot hurry this process, for it is too
important. But I shall show you some of the joy that awaits you, if you're
willing."
I raised my eyes to meet his gaze. And I nodded.
Not even Brenna or my poor, ill-fated mother had ever looked upon me with the
kind of love I saw that night in Challes's translucent face. It was not a
lascivious regard he bore me—even in my ignorance and self-centered naïveté I
knew that—but something much deeper and far more complex. The emotion
transcended gender, made a mockery of human gropings, and I was in awe.
I could not have known, back then, that one day I would cherish another in just that way, that I would understand completely
how Challes felt.
I knew nothing of anything. I craved some blessing from Challes, some unnamed
and joyous communion, with an intensity greater even than the wanting of wine.
In the end he dismissed me, to my wretched disappointment, and sent me off to
my chamber as if I were a child. Certainly he had power over me, even then, but
my obedience was grudging.
Challes came to my room perhaps an hour before dawn—I lay wakeful in my bed,
watching the moon through the window and listening to the wolves' song—and
suddenly he was simply there. I knew he had not entered by any ordinary means,
but I was beyond questioning that. I simply looked at him, silently imploring
him for I knew not what, knowing I would perish of grief if he denied me.
Challes knelt beside my bed, smoothed my hair, murmured words I did not
comprehend, and bent his head to my throat. The experience was profoundly
sensual, but again it was more a thing of the mind and spirit than of the body.
I, who had never knowingly been intimate with a man—I confess there were
instances during the dark years after Brenna's death, however, when I was too
drunk to know whose pallet I'd shared—was ready to surrender my very soul.
I started when I felt two sharp points penetrate the skin of my neck, and
perhaps managed a whimper of fearful protest, but in the next instant, as my
very life's blood flowed in Challes's fangs, ecstacy crashed down upon me like a
giant wave. I moaned as he drank, only vaguely aware that he wasn't touching me
at all, except where his mouth was pressed to the pulsing vein at the base of my
throat. It was as though every erotic point, within and without, was being
stimulated at once.
It was dark and sweet and violent, my first communion with Challes, like the
pleasure I had known when Brenna wooed my seed from me, except that this release
encompassed the whole of my being and went on and on, endlessly. At long last I
swooned, the exertion and the joy so great that I could not endure them, and
when I awakened with the morning sun I believed at first that I'd dreamed the
entire episode.
When I touched my throat and felt the two tiny, rapidly healing puncture
wounds, however, I knew all that Challes had said was true, that all I
remembered was real. And I was filled with a delight, and a terror, of truly
infinite proportions.
I did not see Challes that day, and I grieved until darkness fell. It was
just after sunset when he returned, and began molding me, ever so artfully, into
a fiend's fiend.
Daisy
Las Vegas, 1995
"Why the hell didn't you call me?" O'Halloran demanded the next morning when
Daisy had told him about the threatening telephone message. They were riding in
his car, on their way to the home of Jillie Fairfield's next of kin, her
divorced mother. Daisy was up to her ankles in empty soda bottles, misfolded
maps, and crumpled candy wrappers.
"What would you have done?" she countered irritably. "Hauled yourself over
there and sat on my couch all night, holding a .357 in your lap?"
It wasn't the crank call or O'Halloran's gruffly solicitous attitude that was
bugging her, she admitted to herself. Mrs. Fairfield resided in a trailer park
where Daisy and Nadine had spent six happy months when they were in elementary
school, in the care of their paternal grandmother. Inevitably their mother,
Jeanine, had returned, rumpled and a little drunk and smelling sour from the
bus ride that had brought her back to Vegas from wherever she'd been. She'd
reclaimed her daughters, over Gran's fierce but helpless protests, and headed
straight for the nearest social worker. A couple of kids made it a whole lot
easier to collect welfare, after all, and once Jeanine had dumped or been dumped
by her latest boyfriend, a biker with a slipped disk that entitled him to state
compensation, she'd suddenly developed all manner of maternal instincts.
"Relax, Chandler," O'Halloran said. "I'm not trying to step on your goddamned
feminine rights or anything like that. I just want to make sure this sicko
doesn't get too close, okay?"
Daisy wanted to reassure her partner, but she was still distracted by her
dread of returning to the trailer park. She and Nadine had never been allowed to
go back, even to visit, and after a couple of years the old woman had passed
away. Jeanine's boyfriend at the time—Daisy couldn't remember his name and
didn't care if she ever did—had shown her the obituary in the newspaper and said
maybe they'd get a mobile home out of the deal, "now that Granny has kicked
off."
"Chandler?" O'Halloran prompted. They turned a corner on a yellow light, and
the door of the glove compartment fell open, slamming against Daisy's knees and
spilling a variety of cassette tapes, empty cookie packages, expired
registration slips, and unpaid parking tickets into her lap.
She stuffed the whole mess back where it came from and closed the little door
with a crash. "What?" she snapped.
"You suffering from a year-round case of PMS, or what?"
Daisy sighed and shoved a hand through her hair. "Why is it that men always
think any change in a woman's mood has to be connected with her hormone levels?"
O'Halloran shrugged, running another yellow light, bald tires squealing, and
the driver of a tour bus blasted his horn and displayed a specific finger behind
the broad tinted window. "After ten or twenty thousand years the evidence starts
to stack up," he said. "The thing is, we got this weird case to solve—you know
what the medical examiner said—and it's gonna take our undivided attention to
work the snarls outta this one. You gotta get all your body chemicals in sync,
Chandler, 'cause I need your help."
Daisy tossed him a mock salute. "No problem, Officer Friendly. My mood has
nothing to do with chemistry. And slow it down, will you? You take one more
corner on two wheels, and I'll have to write you up for driving under the
influence of sugar and preservatives."
He grinned, but in the next moment his expression was solemn again. "I don't
like this, Chandler," he confided. "This Fairfield thing, I mean. By the time we
got to that girl, she didn't have enough blood left in her veins to reach a
gnat's ankle. What the sonnabitchen hell happened in that place? What
about those marks on her neck?"
Daisy shifted in the seat as the entrance to the trailer park came into view.
She took a pair of sunglasses from her purse and put them on, telling herself it
was because of the glare. "Forensics found blood on the scene when they went
over it after the body was removed," she pointed out. "It just wasn't visible to
the naked eye, that's all."
"Okay, so there was a little blood. There sure as shit wasn't enough. What
happened to the rest of it?"
She shivered, somewhere down deep, and knew her reaction didn't show on the
outside. Jillie's corpse, the crank call, the dream, and the magician all sprang
out of her subconscious at once to haunt her. "I don't know, O'Halloran," Daisy replied finally in a somewhat testy tone. "Maybe you were
right in the first place. Maybe we've got a vampire running loose."
O'Halloran flung her a mildly contemptuous glance and slowed to enter the
Lucky Dollar Trailer Park, passing beneath the burned-out neon sign and bouncing
down the rutted gravel road between battered mobile homes. "You wish," he said,
making a cranking motion with his left arm as he rolled down the window. The
air-conditioning had petered out years ago, with the second or third motor.
"Better the real thing, for my money, than some psycho who believes with all his
diseased little brain that taking a drop of human blood now and then will make
him live forever."
Daisy didn't answer. Her thoughts lingered on Valerian. She was comparing the
way he looked in real life with the younger, less polished version she'd seen in
her dream, wondering if he was gay, straight, or in between, and where he'd
learned to do magic. Something told her he was accomplished in the subtler forms
of wizardry as well as the spectacular ones he employed onstage.
"Chandler?" O'Halloran barked. "Pay attention, damn it."
Daisy switched mental gears and forced herself to concentrate. "I'm with you,
buddy. Let's go make the world safe for humankind."
After asking directions from a gray-haired man mowing^ a lawn, they found the
Fairfield trailer. It was a rundown, two-tone double-wide with a sagging step
and a yard made up of crushed gravel and cigarette butts.
Mrs. Fairfield came out onto the dilapidated porch when they drove up, a
petite blonde with a leathery tan, wearing white short-shorts and a skimpy red
top. She wore high-heeled sandals, her toenails were painted, and her makeup
gave rise to speculation concerning the way she earned her living.
"You the cops?" she asked, raising a lipstick-stained cigarette to her mouth.
Just two of them, Daisy thought, flashing her badge, but she didn't say the
words out loud because after all, this woman's daughter had just been murdered.
Just to the left and a little behind her, O'Halloran flipped out his wallet.
"I'm Detective Chandler," said Daisy, "and this is Detective O'Halloran.
We're investigating your daughter's death, and we need to ask you some
questions."
"Took you long enough to come around," Mrs. Fairfield replied, giving no
sign that she intended to invite them inside.
Daisy was relieved. The place probably reeked of smoke, and worse, it might
look too much like Gran's trailer. There might be a loosely crocheted afghan
draped over the recliner in the living room, pictures in dime-store frames on
top of the television set, cheap shag carpeting with a worn spot in front of the
door—
O'Halloran consulted his ever-present notebook, and out of the corner of her
eye Daisy saw a short grocery list scrawled on the first page. "According to my
log here, I called you myself from the station, about an hour after we left
the—er—scene."
Mrs. Fairfield sat down on the top step, crossed her still-shapely legs, and
tapped the ashes from her cigarette into a clay pot containing a dead plant. She
sounded bored when she spoke again. "If you're going to ask me who Jillie was
dating, or who her friends were, I couldn't tell you. She and I didn't get along
too well. I do know that she worked for that magician, Valerian
something-or-other, in the showroom at the Venetian Hotel. That's some kind of
place, isn't it?"
Daisy felt a swift, dizzying fury. Someone was dead, and this woman, the
victim's mother, for God's sake, was talking about the latest addition
to Glitter Gulch. She opened her mouth to comment, but O'Halloran, who could be
amazingly perceptive when he tried, silenced her with a touch to her forearm.
"Yeah," he said. "It's something, that hotel. You ever go down there and take
in your daughter's show?"
Mrs. Fairfield laughed. The sound was low and throaty, but there was more
despair in it than humor. "At the price those places charge for a ticket? Not on
what I make serving drinks in a fourth-rate casino. And Jillie sure as hell
never found it in her heart to get me comped in. I hear it's a great act,
though. HBO wanted to do a special a few months back, according to the papers,
but this Valerian character won't let any kind of camera through the door." She
tapped more ashes into the planter. "It's all a lot of hype, if you ask me—that
stuff about how he's never seen in the daytime and everything. There's nothing
like an attitude to generate publicity. You gotta know how to sell yourself in
this town, and that guy's a master at it."
Daisy wondered if Mrs. Fairfield was really as crass and unfeeling as she
seemed. People handled grief in a lot of different ways, some putting on fronts,
some breaking down right away. Daisy had heard more than a few talk all around
the subject of their loved one's death, too, just the way this woman was doing.
"We need to know if your daughter had any enemies, Mrs. Fairfield," she said,
grateful to O'Halloran for running interference until she could get her emotions
under control. "In an incident like this, the killer is often someone the victim
knew." —
The aging cocktail waitress raised a carefully plucked eyebrow. There was
something faintly mocking in the motion, and some of Daisy's sympathy ebbed
away.
"Is that right? How long you been a cop, sweetie?"
Daisy took a breath, let it out slowly. "We're not here to talk about me,
Mrs. Fairfield. Please—tell us whatever you can about your daughter."
"I told you, we didn't get along," came the distracted, slightly hoarse
reply. "We didn't speak at all for the last two years."
"Why not?" O'Halloran asked with quiet compassion.
Mrs. Fairfield's eyes were luminous with tears when she raised them to meet
his gaze. "It was a stupid thing, really—she was dating a married man, and I
told her he'd never leave his wife for her, 'cause they never do, you know—and
Jillie and me, we had too much to drink one night, and we got into it good. We
tore into each other, right here in front of this piss-ant trailer, and it was a
catfight like you never seen before." She paused and smiled faintly at the
memory, as though proud that she and her daughter were scrappers. "The cops
came, too. Look in your computers if you don't believe me. Jillie and me, we was
both too stiff-necked to say we were sorry afterwards. We thought we had forever
to make things right, you know?"
At this last, her face crumbled, and Mrs. Fairfield gave a small, raw sob
that wrenched hard at Daisy's insides.
"I'm so sorry," she said.
Mrs. Fairfield rose gracefully to her feet and tossed her cigarette butt into
the gravel. Then she wiped her mascara-streaked cheek with the back of one
manicured hand. '"Yeah, sure you are, honey. Sure you are."
With that, Jillie's mother turned and went into the trailer, closing the door
firmly behind her.
"Back to square one," Daisy said.
"Families just ain't close anymore," O'Halloran philosophized in response as
they walked back toward his car.
Later that afternoon a woman ran over her ex-husband in the parking lot of a
convenience store, and a fifteen-year-old gang member was knifed to death by his
older brother, who had been out of prison just over two weeks. It all seemed to
underscore O'Halloran's theory about families, and Daisy was thoroughly
depressed when she went off duty at six-thirty that night, got into her
convertible, and drove back to her apartment.
There were no messages on the answering machine. That was something, at
least.
The blues invariably made Daisy restless, so she dragged her rowing machine
out from under her bed—she'd ordered it eighteen months before, inspired to a
frenzy of ambition by a late-night infomercial—and into the living room. Usually
she worked out in a health club a couple of miles from her building, but that
night she just didn't feel like dealing with a lot of people.
She put on her shorts and a T-shirt, switched on the TV, warmed up with a few
brisk calesthetics, and rowed up a sweat. The effort relaxed her, as she had
known it would, and Daisy showered and put on her chenille robe. She had just
put some low-fat fish sticks into the microwave for her dinner when the
telephone rang.
Daisy didn't hesitate to answer. Maybe Nadine had picked up on her intent to
call and beaten her to the punch.
"Chandler," she said, just in case.
"We got another one," O'Halloran told her wearily.
The bottom dropped out of Daisy's stomach. No matter how many homicides she
investigated, she never got over the shock of learning that one human being had
killed another. Again.
"What do you mean, 'another one'?" she snapped, though she knew. Damn it to
hell, she knew.
"Her name was Susan Cantrell," O'Halloran said. "Miss Cantrell's roommate
came back from a long weekend this afternoon and found her dead in the bathtub.
No blood, Chandler. And she had those funny little marks on her neck, just like
the Fairfield woman did, and the M.E.'s office thinks it happened last night
sometime. God, but I hate this job."
"What else?" Daisy prodded, knowing there was more because she could read
O'Halloran so well. She didn't argue that he shouldn't hate his job, because he
always did when there was a murder. So did she.
O'Halloran gave a deep, sorrowful sigh, and Daisy could just see him running
a stubby hand through what was left of his hair. "She worked for that magician,
too. The one that's been packing them in down at the Venetian since the hotel
opened—" Daisy heard papers rustling. "Let's see here," her partner went on.
"His name's—"
"Valerian," Daisy said, leaning against the wall and closing her eyes as
tightly as she could.
7
Valerian
Las Vegas, 1995
For the second time in as many nights, I regained consciousness at sunset to
find that there had been another murder. I saw poor Susan's death plainly before
I ever opened my eyes—the horrible images were imprinted on the insides of my
lids—and I glimpsed the vampire who had done the killing as well. I could not
recognize the fiend, for its face was shadowed by a hooded cloak, but I intuited
that the creature was male, and for a reason I could not grasp, I felt that I
should have known him.
I wept with grief and helpless frustration, although I had not been well
acquainted with Miss Cantrell, as I rose from my luxurious pallet and began to
dress. This night there would be no performance at the Venetian Hotel—how could
there be? No, tonight I would hunt, traverse centuries and continents if
necessary, to run this monster to earth and put a finish to him by whatever
means that might seem prudent at the moment.
Before destroying this vampire, however, I would extract much in payment for
the suffering of my friends. I was furious that the thing had not confronted me
directly, for I was obviously the true object of its hatred. The creature was
cowardly, however, as well as implacably vicious; it clearly knew that, save
Maeve Tremayne, who had not been weakened by her marriage to a fledgling named
Calder Holbrook, I was the most powerful blood-drinker on this plane of
existence. Better, then, to torment me through those helpless beings close to
me, those I valued and, in my way, loved.
I had to find it before another innocent died.
Before it turned to Brenna—now Daisy Chandler—the love
of my eternal life.
Before the ruby ring arrived.
I was drawn to the living room of my hideaway, and the television set
descended from the ceiling as I entered. I had not willed this to happen, and I
felt a mental chill as I watched light flicker in the center of the screen and
then spread into an image. My lair had heretofore been sacrosanct, but now it
seemed that some other creature dared to work magic within its walls.
Perhaps, I thought, I would not have to search out my enemy after all.
Perhaps he had come to me.
The televised picture solidified into an image of Brenna, riding boldly into
the surf, laughing, never dreaming that her death was imminent. Before my eyes
the scene shifted; Brenna was gone, and the raging sea had vanished to become a
shoddy fifteenth-century tavern called the Horse and Horn. Brenna appeared
instantly, immediately recognizable for her green eyes and coppery hair, but now
her name was Elisabeth Saxon. She was a bold and fiery wench, her cheap dress
showing too much of her bosom, flirting shamelessly with the ruffians she
served, permitting them to touch her. Driving me half mad with jealousy and
frustration. She faded away, and then I saw Jenny Wade, my lovely Jenny, another
incarnation of Brenna, though she wore the lush, red-blond hair in a tidy
chignon and her green eyes were sightless. I had cherished her especially,
because she loved me so completely and so selflessly without ever seeing my
face.
Jenny and I were together in the late sixteenth century, for far too short a
time.
I heard that gentle angel whisper my name, and when the screen went blank, I
was startled to find myself standing in front of the set with both hands pressed
to the glass.
"No more," I whispered, for I could not bear to see the other incarnations my
beloved had donned, like pretty frocks, over the centuries. It was enough to be
reminded of Brenna and Elisabeth and Jenny, of how completely and how hopelessly
I had loved them, all different facets of the same glorious, intrepid spirit.
Suddenly another picture spilled across the surface, and I drew back,
appalled. The leading lady in this new tableau was Daisy Chandler—the latest
incarnation of Lady Brenna Afton-St. Claire. I saw that she lived in one of
those bland and anonymous apartments that are so prevalent in the twentieth
century, with no more variance between the units than between the cells in a
honeycomb.
"Daisy," I muttered, but of course she could not hear me. She was only an
image, but a modem version of Brenna nonetheless, projected from the dark depths
of my mind—or, more likely, the mind of my enemy, whoever and whatever it was.
I watched as Daisy moved about her small kitchen, preparing a frozen dinner—a
peculiarity of the modern age that makes me glad vampires do not require the
same sort of sustenance mortals do—and I heard the nerve-jangling ring of her
telephone. When she answered, "Chandler," I was touched by the note of bravado
in her voice.
I could not discern what the caller said, but I saw Daisy's lovely, impudent
face go white with fear and fury. I watched and listened helplessly as she
slammed the receiver back into its cradle and then sagged against the wall,
trembling.
I wanted to will myself to her side, to draw her into my arms and offer her
what comfort I could, but better judgment prevailed. The vignette I'd seen was
not occurring at that moment; it was a colorful shadow of the future. If I went
to Daisy then, I might find her in the shower, driving her car, doing any one of
the millions of wonderful mundane things mortals do. It would be neither kind
nor wise to reveal my unique powers to her in such an abrupt way.
Yet I feared for her in those moments as I had never feared for another
living being. My unknown foe had shown me all these visions, but most especially
the last, to taunt me with the fact that it was stalking Daisy, that it meant to
murder her as it had already murdered poor Jillie and Susan.
I closed my eyes. What was this thing?
There was no answer, of course—not then. The television screen went dark and
returned to its nesting place in the ceiling with a low, electronic buzz.
I was instantly possessed of a brutal weariness, as abject as if my
immortality had suddenly proved an illusion or a jest, as if my vampiric powers
had been wrested from me and I had been reduced to a fragile, human state. To
ask such pitiful flesh and bone to bear the weight of some six hundred years of
adventurous living would be like expecting a spider's web to support a
cathedral.
With some effort, I collected myself, faced down the consuming panic that
threatened me, and centered my thoughts on the one immortal I truly trusted, the
only vampire I dared depend upon for help and advice.
I sought Maeve Tremayne, once my fledgling and now my friend and my queen—she
who knew our species to be ungovernable, and governed it nonetheless. She who
protected us from our foes, be they angels, warlocks, or rogue vampires, and
meted out punishment for our crimes.
I found her in the uppermost chamber of her London house. She shared the
residence with her mate, Holbrook, who had been a brilliant physician and
surgeon in his mortal life. Their remarkable child, Kristina, was grown and far
away.
Maeve was at her weaving when I arrived, and alone, as I would have
preferred. Calder and I are not particularly friendly; I find him too absorbed
in his incessant experiments, and he dislikes me, I suspect, for my superior
mind.
Maeve feigned a little sigh when she saw me and said, "Ah, Valerian. What
now?"
Daisy
Las Vegas, 1995
Susan Cantrell had died in the same way Jillie Fairfield had, except for a
few small details. Her slender dancer's body had been virtually bloodless and
unmarked except for the two small puncture wounds at the base of her throat.
The differences were minimal—Jillie was murdered in her living room, and
she'd been partially clothed.
Susan's body was found naked, and in a ludicrously modest pose, lying in her
bathtub.
Two full days after the killing, late in the afternoon, Daisy left the city
morgue in a daze. She'd seen corpses before—a lot of them in far worse condition
than Miss Cantrell's—but there was something chillingly different about these
cases. Even O'Halloran was subdued, and he wasn't given to sensitive
contemplation of the deeper mysteries.
"You gonna be okay, Chandler?" he asked when he and Daisy stood between their
cars in the parking lot.
She thought of the calls she'd been getting, and a shiver of pure paranoia
trickled down her spine and formed a chilly pool in her stomach.
"Yeah," Daisy answered. "As soon as we nail this pervert, I'll be fine."
O'Halloran nodded, opened his car door, and pushed a crumpled potato chip bag
off the seat before getting behind the wheel. "You watch out for yourself," he
said. "You get any hotshot ideas, you call me. Don't go running off on your own.
You hear me?"
Daisy sighed and saluted.
O'Halloran slammed his door and rolled down the window. "And eat a decent
dinner for once in your life, will you? Something besides them frozen things
with more calories in the carton than in the food."
She smiled. "A nutrition lecture from you?" she said. "I must be in
a bad way."
"Get outta here," O'Halloran said. "I'm tired of looking at you." With that,
he started up his car and backed out with a screech, narrowly missing Daisy's
left foot and a UPS truck.
Daisy got into her car and locked both doors with a flick of a button on her
armrest. Ironic as it was, she suspected O'Halloran was right about her eating
habits. She hadn't had real, unrefined food in days, and she felt like an old
beater in need of an oil change.
She went back to her office for an hour, going over reports and statements on
the Fairfield and Cantrell cases, looking for something—anything—she might have
missed.
Later, on the way home, she stopped at a supermarket in her neighborhood,
arriving just after dark, and started wheeling a cart down the aisles. A
well-nourished, healthy cop, she reasoned, is a smart and insightful cop. She
bought fresh vegetables and fruit, chicken and fish, bread and cereal, and some
skim milk. She was standing in the checkout line, reading a tabloid article
about space aliens having affairs with members of Congress, when her personal
reality splintered.
Suddenly she wasn't Daisy anymore, and at the same time she was, and she was
no longer standing in a busy supermarket in one of Las Vegas's more ordinary
neighborhoods.
Her name was Elisabeth Saxon, the year was 1457, and she was serving ale-in a
tavern with the picturesque name of the Horse and Horn. Everything around her
seemed real, although she knew it was an illusion, that she was finally
cracking—everything from the spit-slickened board floors to the impossibly
grubby men seated at tables all around her. They were singing bawdy songs, in a
version of English she could barely understand, and swilling ale between
choruses.
One of them reached out and pinched her hard on the backside, and she was
still Daisy enough to be outraged. She spun around on the heel of her soft
leather shoe and clouted the culprit over the head with a pewter trencher.
A trencher? She thought frantically, looking down at the weapon in
her hands even as her victim swayed beneath the blow. Since when did she refer
to platters as "trenchers"?
A raucous cheer rose from the crowd of unwashed revelers, and Daisy—that
was her real name, wasn't it?—glanced wildly about for an escape route.
There was a door open to a starry night, and she dashed toward it, her customers
grabbing at her apron and her skirts as she passed.
She collided with a hard form in the doorway, felt strong hands close over
her shoulders.
"It's all right," a familiar voice told her gently, and she looked up into
the dark blue eyes of the magician, Valerian. "You're safe. I'll take you home."
His clothes were strange—he wore a tabard, belted at the waist, and his silk
shirt was puffed at the shoulders and then fitted to his wrists. Woven hose
accentuated his muscular legs, and high boots, with cuffs folded down from the
top, covered his feet.
All the same, this was the man she knew from her dreams—and from the Venetian
Hotel in that faraway world she was already starting to forget.
She fainted, and he caught her up in his arms. When Daisy came around, she
was back in the supermarket, and Valerian, incredibly, was there, too. He was
holding her.
Daisy stared at him and saw understanding in his eyes, along with sorrow. She
was struck in that instant with the dizzying realization that he knew exactly
what had just happened to her, that he had indeed shared the experience.
"Put me down," she said, embarrassed by the gathered crowd and the revolving
lights in the parking lot. Obviously the paramedics had been called. "I'm
fine, damn it."
Valerian set her on her feet without a word, but there was a wry twist to his
mouth. .She stole a sidelong glance at him, half expecting to see that he was
wearing a tabard and boots, but his clothes, though obviously expensive, were
quite ordinary, quite suited to the twentieth century. Black slacks, a gray silk
skirt, Italian shoes.
The paramedics burst through the doors, and Daisy's embarrassment
intensified. She knew the majority of these people—worked with them practically
every day of her life. The very last thing she needed was for them to think she
was losing her grip.
"What happened?" Charlie Cook, the senior EMT, asked Daisy, looking around
for the patient.
"Nothing," Daisy said without looking at Valerian, pushing her hair back from
her forehead as she spoke.
"Nothing?" demanded a middle-aged checkout clerk with the name Marvella
stitched onto her red smock. "This young woman fainted dead away, right here in
my line. Went down like a ton of bricks. And look at her—she's pale as milk."
Charlie looked stern, and his co-worker, a rookie Daisy wasn't acquainted
with, studied her with a critical eye.
"We'd better check you over, Chandler. After all, it isn't normal to pass out
in the supermarket when they haven't even rang up your total yet."
Daisy grinned, though she felt shaky and sick and wanted nothing so much as
to be alone with Valerian, so she could ask him what the hell had just happened
to her. She was certain that he knew. "Okay," she said, pushing back her hair
again. "But just let me pay for this stuff first. I don't want to lose my place
in line."
"Funny," Charlie said, and then he glanced at Valerian.
The magician nodded and spoke for the first time. "I'll look after her," he
said.
Charlie was apparently satisfied; he cocked a thumb toward the parking lot
and told Daisy, "We'll be waiting outside. Follow the flashing red lights."
Daisy paid for her purchases, Valerian standing silently beside her the whole
time, and then started to push the cart out of the store. He edged her aside and
took over the small task.
"Did you cast some kind of spell over me back there?" she whispered. "Or am I
losing my mind?"
"Neither," he answered, with that half smile that tugged at something deep
inside her. ''What happened to you is called spontaneous regression. You just
visited one of your past lives."
"Oh, right," Daisy retorted. She had a headache—stress-related, to be sure.
"Your name was Elisabeth Saxon," Valerian said. "You lived in the
mid-fifteenth century. You were a serving wench, and something of a lightskirt,
at the Horse and Horn, a tavern on the London road."
Daisy stared up at him as the supermarket doors swished open and they went
outside into the dry warmth of the night. "How did you—?"
"I was there, remember?"
He had been.
"I'm having a nervous breakdown," Daisy announced.
Valerian raised one majestic eyebrow. In the glow of stars, streetlights, and
the not-too-distant Strip, his skin had a translucent quality. "Are you?" he
countered, pushing the cart toward her car without being told which one it was.
"If that's the case, then how do you explain my presence there? I was on the
threshold of that inn, Daisy, when you hurtled into my chest like a rabbit
fleeing a pack of foxes."
Daisy murmured an exclamation. "What is this? Some kind of hypnosis?"
"I'll explain it later," he said, glancing down at the trunk of her car. It
sprung open, though neither he nor Daisy had touched the latch, and Valerian
began putting the grocery bags inside, that curious little smile playing on his
mouth again. "You'd better let your friend listen to your heart, test your
reflexes, and look into your ears." he added, nodding toward the ambulance
parked only a few spaces away. "He'll follow you home if you don't."
"You'll wait?" Daisy asked. She should have been afraid of this man, she
supposed, but she wasn't. Instead she was full of questions she knew only he
could answer.
"I'll be right here," he said.
Daisy started to turn away, men frowned down at the trunk of her car, now
tightly closed again. "How did you open that without a key?"
Valerian shrugged. "I'm a magician, remember?"
Daisy left him, shaking her head.
She endured the exam, which was perfunctory, knowing all the while that
Charlie probably thought she'd fainted because she was pregnant. By this time
tomorrow, she figured, the word would be out that Detective Chandler had passed
out in the supermarket with a cheap tabloid in her hands. She'd be called into
the chief's office, no doubt, and probably taken off the Fairfield/Cantrell
case if she didn't talk fast. Her boss was more likely to attribute the fainting
spell to stress than pregnancy, and to decide that Daisy needed a break from
homicide.
Maybe she did. God knew, she didn't love it.
Valerian waited, as he'd promised, and he insisted on taking the wheel.
Daisy looked around the lot. "Where's your car?"
"I don't own one," he said and offered no further explanation.
Daisy gave him the keys because on that one night she needed to lean on
somebody. The fact that he was a stranger, for all practical intents and
purposes, and up to his eyeballs in murdered chorus girls, didn't seem to make a
difference.
"Where do you live?" he asked, once they were inside the car, though Daisy
guessed from his tone that he already knew her address. For some reason, he was
going through the motions.
"Are you the nutcase who's been calling me?" she inquired after rattling off
directions to her apartment complex.
"No," he said, starting the engine and driving with an easy confidence that
made Daisy wonder why he didn't have a car of his own. It wasn't that he
couldn't afford one, that was for sure—headliners like him brought home the big
bucks.
Maybe he'd lost his license, she speculated to avoid scarier concerns for a
little while longer.
"I didn't have a license to lose," he said, as if Daisy had spoken aloud.
"And I don't own a car because I have no need for one. Furthermore, the phrase
big bucks, tacky as it is, doesn't begin to describe my salary. Now, could
we talk about the real issue here?"
Daisy sagged back in the passenger seat, knocked breathless by his words. "I
wish you'd teach me that trick," she said after a few moments of tumultuous
silence, her voice squeaky with bravado. "Mind reading would come in handy when
I'm interrogating suspects."
He gave her a sidelong look, then turned his attention back to the road.
"Come back in a thousand years or so. By that time the ability will have evolved
to the point where ordinary mortals can use it."
The term ordinary mortals nettled Daisy, and, besides, it sounded
weird, as if Valerian considered himself to be outside the category. "Gee,
thanks," she snapped, to hide the fact that she was seriously spooked. "Of
course, most of my cases will probably be solved by then, though God knows the
paperwork won't be caught up. On the other hand—what will I care? I'll be
somebody else."
"You don't believe me?"
"Why should I?"
He smiled. "Why, indeed?" he replied, signaling to turn onto the side street
that ran behind her building. "Perhaps our little talk will change your mind—if
the incident in the supermarket truly wasn't enough."
"I want to ask you some questions while we're chatting," Daisy said as he
brought the car to a stop in her assigned space. Which, of course, was unmarked.
She got out of the car and closed the door with a bang. "Like how come the women
in your act are being murdered?"
"I don't know," he answered with a weariness on a scale with Daisy's own and
perhaps even greater. "Maybe you and I can figure that out together, after you
know the truth." He handed her the keys and then opened the trunk, again with no
outward motion, and took out both grocery bags.
Daisy led the way up the outside stairs to her apartment.
Inside, Valerian carried the bags to the kitchen and set them on the counter.
"Sit down," he said when Daisy started putting things away. "You're still in
shock."
With that, he took a head of lettuce and a bag of tomatoes from Daisy's hands
and proceeded to put them in the refrigerator. Daisy sat on one of the two
stools at the breakfast bar and cupped her chin in one hand.
"Evidently," she said, "your wish is my command."
He grinned at her, and again she felt a wrenching, so far within herself, so
far back in her memory, that momentary tears burned behind her eyes. He took a
half-eaten entree, still in its box, and carried it disdainfully from the
refrigerator to the trash bin. "Wretched stuff," he muttered.
Daisy was defensive. "I suppose you eat nothing but gourmet fare?"
He laughed and returned to the task of emptying the grocery bags. "Au
contraire," he said. "I subsist on a very simple liquid diet. It's the
secret of my great longevity, along with a certain talent for evading the
consequences of my own actions."
Daisy ran her eyes over Valerian's magnificent physique and discounted most
of what he'd just said. Nobody looked like that living on fruit juice
or vitamin shakes. "I believe that last part—about your evading the consequences
of your own actions, I mean," she conceded. "But I'm warning you right now—if
you killed those women, I'll get you."
"I believe you would," he answered thoughtfully, having finished putting the
food away. "You're very good at what you do, I think."
"So are you," Daisy said, remembering his magic act at the Venetian Hotel,
the way he'd opened the trunk of her car, that knack he had of appearing in her
dreams. That night he'd even managed to be a part of a psychotic episode.
Impressive.
He brewed tea for her—her favorite English brand, purchased in London in the
food stalls at Harrod's by a friend who worked for an airline. Not surprisingly,
he didn't ask where it was, where the cups were, or if she wanted tea at all. He
simply made it and set it in front of her.
She took a sip, and some of her strength returned. "Am I going crazy?" she
asked, addressing herself as much as Valerian.
He leaned against the breakfast bar from the other side, arms folded on the
countertop. "No," he said easily, "but there is much I must tell you. You have,
to paraphrase one of your better poets, 'miles to go before you sleep.'"
"Talk," Daisy said.
Valerian
Colefield Hall, 1365
"You are ready at last," Challes announced one winter night, some three
months after he'd found me unconscious in a horse stall. We'd accomplished a
great deal in the time that had passed since, but I was young and impatient for
the gift to be given, and it seemed then that my tutor had deliberately withheld
the joys he'd promised. That he wanted to taunt and torment me.
He had brought me along so slowly, making sure I ate robustly, so that my
frame filled out, teaching me to fence, that I might be graceful, pouring the
most exquisite music into my ears and inundating me with poetry and numbers,
philosophy and science, languages and etiquette.—
I was an apt student, perhaps because of my eagerness to be what Challes was,
to do what he did, and I was handsome in my fine new clothes, with my trimmed
hair and clean-shaven face. I possessed an almost boundless vitality, even
surpassing the energies of my early youth, except during the blissfully languid
interval following Challes's nocturnal visits to my bedside.
"Tonight, then?" I cried, nearly oversetting my chair by the drawing room
fire, where I had learned so many lessons, as I bolted to my feet.
"Tonight," Challes confirmed with tenderness and sorrow in his voice.
I wondered at his sadness, but I was too self-absorbed, too eager to make the
change, to ask why he was troubled.
There was a Roman couch beneath the window, with its glittering frosting of
ice, and my tutor led me to that and bade me to lie down.
I would have done almost anything he commanded, for by that time I loved him
completely. My adoration for Challes was a thing of purity and grace,
transcending genders, a joining of spirits rather than bodies. There are those
who would call me deviant; instead, I am simply whole.
I did as Challes asked, closing my eyes while he opened the collar of my
shirt, listening to the thin, far-off cries of the wolves. I felt their
starvation in my own gut, and at the same time my whole being, flesh and soul,
hummed with the anticipation of ecstasy.
My joy was terrifying, beyond anything I'd felt before, surpassing every
happiness except what I had known in the arms of Brenna Afton-St. Claire.
Nothing, before or since, on earth or in heaven, could rival the mere touch of
her hand. Still, the pleasure Challes gave me was keen-edged and beautiful.
He had told me that I would die as a man, during this, the greatest of our
communions, but when I felt my mortal life ebbing away, I panicked and tried to
cry out. By then I was too weak to make a sound, and certainly I could not
struggle, but Challes murmured words of comfort and soothed me with gentle
whispers. I sank quietly into my death, and all consciousness was obliterated,
swallowed up in darkness.
When I awakened, I realized I was in a cryptlike vault, under the earth. I
lay on a slab of cold stone, and Challes slumbered an arm's length away on
another pallet of rock. I heard rats scrabbling in the corners and shuddered.
A low chuckle sounded, and I turned my head to see that Challes had awakened
and lay with his weight braced on one forearm.
"No need to be afraid, Beautiful One," he said. "The rats cannot hurt you.
Nothing can, except sunlight or the point of a wooden stake. If you do as I have
taught you, you will live forever."
I had wanted this, yearned and pleaded for it, and yet the magnitude of
eternity was only then coming home to me. Never to die? To never lay
down my burdens and rest?
"Now you must learn to hunt," Challes told me, rising from his slab and
dusting off his leggings and tunic. "Once that is done, I shall be gone."
I sat bolt upright. He had never spoken of leaving. Did he truly mean to
abandon me now, when there was still so much I did not understand?
As he had done so many times before, my tutor laid his hands to my shoulders.
"It was worth incurring Nemesis's ire to create such a splendid fiend as you,"
he said.
I knew, from our studies together, that Nemesis was a warrior angel, greatly
feared in the dark realms. "You've had dealings with—" I could barely speak the
name, it inspired such terror in me. "With Nemesis?"
"In a manner of speaking," Challes replied without flinching. "I have made
too many blood-drinkers for his liking, and he is a powerful angel. He vowed
revenge, with or without the permission of higher angels, should I make even one
more." He feigned a sigh. "Alas, you are so beautiful and so bright—even in your
drunkenness, you were magnificent. I could not resist making you immortal, for
you were wasted as a mere man. To think of you here a moment, then gone—it was
too painful to endure."
"What price have you paid?" I whispered, but I knew the answer already, and
it filled me with fathomless grief.
Challes, my teacher, my only friend, was to be destroyed.
Because of me.
I whispered an exclamation that might have qualified as a prayer, had I been
anything other than the abomination I was, and wept my first tears as a vampire.
Would that they had been my last.
8
Daisy
Las Vegas, 1995
The thing that surprised Daisy most about Valerian's story—and it was an
incredible tale, spanning some six hundred years—was that she was very much
inclined to believe it. She guessed she'd had some glimmer of the truth that
first night, in the showroom at the Venetian Hotel, when she'd watched him raise
a coach and a team of horses off the stage floor and send them sailing out over
the audience members' heads. And while she still didn't consciously remember
being those other women he spoke of with such passion and love—Brenna Afton-St. Claire, Elisabeth Saxon, Jenny Wade—the mere mention of their names had
struck a resonant chord within her. Perhaps the dreams she'd had all her life
had not been dreams at all, but memories of those other lifetimes.
"I've looked exactly the same, in every incarnation?" she asked. "Is that how
you recognized me?"
"Yes," Valerian said, his eyes glowing with affection. "You are always your
same beautiful self, at least when I've known you—only the costumes and the
hairstyles change. Still, I think I would know you even if your looks changed
significantly. I felt your presence in the audience at the Venetian long before
I actually saw you."
She nodded thoughtfully. "I've read about reincarnation," she said, "like
almost everyone else. But I thought people came back in different bodies,
sometimes as men, sometimes as women."
"They do normally," Valerian affirmed. "You are an exception, and you needn't
ask me why, for I confess I do not know. I can tell you that souls tend to
return to the flesh in the company of others they've known and loved or hated in
the past."
"You've told me that you can travel through time—back to the point of your
own death as a mortal. If that's so, am I in all those other places, as all
those other selves, simultaneously? Can you journey back there and see me as
Jenny, for instance? Or Elisabeth?"
The magnificent face was drawn for less than a moment with terrible grief. "I
don't know," he said. "Some vampires can change the course of events and see and
influence the ones they love. Whenever I've tried to find you, however, I've met
with utter failure."
She considered that. "Talk about information overload," she murmured. "If
you're really Count Dracula, Junior," Daisy reasoned at some length, still
sitting at the breakfast bar, elbows on the counter, fingers buried in her hair,
"why haven't you tried to bite my neck? And why should I believe you when you
say you didn't commit the Fairfield and Cantrell murders? That was a vampire's
M.O. if I've ever seen one."
Valerian smiled, and there was just a hint of condescension in it. "Have
you?" he inquired. "Seen a vampire at work, I mean?"
Daisy sighed and sat up straight on the stool. "It was just a figure of
speech," she said impatiently. "Answer my questions, please."
"I haven't 'tried to bite your neck,' as you so crassly put it, because I
adore you—in whatever lifetime I happen to stumble across you. That is my curse.
As for why you should believe I'm innocent of these killings—" He paused and
shrugged aristocratically. "Because I have told you so. I have done murder in my
time, make no mistake, but these poor little creatures? No. I cared for them."
Daisy pondered him skeptically, chin in hand, and said nothing. He had just
confessed to the worst crime a person can commit, but she could not picture him
taking a life and therefore did not really believe that he had.
"All right," Valerian snapped, waving his arms in a gesture of wild
impatience. "Don't believe me. Lock me up in one of your silly jails. But I warn
you"—he was shaking his finger now—"that any attempt to detain me is an exercise
in futility. If you try, I shall evaporate like so much smoke!"
Daisy looked down at her empty cup and frowned. Her head was still fogged,
and it was late. Maybe that was why she believed everything Valerian said;
because she was tired and her defenses were down. Or perhaps he'd drugged her.
"I'll keep that in mind. Did you put something in my tea?"
Valerian drew himself up, annoyed to a truly imperial degree. "Of course
not. I have no need of such silly contrivances—I am a vampire!"
Daisy sighed. "Have I missed something? Did Halloween sneak up on me this
year?"
He leaned across the counter and bared his teeth with a theatrical hiss.
She bounded off the stool, wide-eyed, her heartbeat making a one-second leap
to warp speed. Valerian's incisors, while beautiful like their dazzling
counterparts, were longer, and they came to distinct points, sharp as a wolf's
fangs.
"Shit!" she blurted, before regaining her courage, easing back to the
counter, and raising herself onto the stool again.
"Trick or treat,'' he said.
Daisy flushed, embarrassed that she'd shown fear. "You could have had that
done," she reasoned hastily. "This town is full of people with custom-made
teeth. Some of them are probably even crazy enough to think they're vampires!"
Valerian subsided a little, leaning back against the counter opposite the
breakfast bar, his hands on his hips, and regarded her wearily. "What do you
want, Daisy? How do I prove to you that I'm telling the truth?"
She leaned forward again, studying him for a long time. She was mystified by
this maniac, or this vampire, whichever he was. But, oddly, she wasn't afraid of
him; underlying all her misgivings was a strange sense of familiarity and the
sure knowledge that she was safe in his presence. "I did not say I didn't
believe you," she reminded him. "Something weird is definitely going on here. I
just need to work through it for myself, that's all." She paused, remembering
her impromptu visit to the year 1457, via the supermarket, and how vivid the
experience had been. There could be no denying that the episode was more than a
dream or a hallucination. "I saw you," she said. "In my—vision, I mean. But you
were wearing different clothes. If you were really there, how did you make such
a quick change?"
Valerian made a sound that might have been a sigh, but was somehow different.
"I merely projected myself into the scene," he said patiently, "complete with
costume. You saw me because I wanted you to see me."
Daisy ran her tongue over her teeth, something she often did when she was
pondering an enigma. Her headache was starting to come back, and if she didn't
get some sleep, she'd be a zombie all the next day. "Earlier, when you were
telling me the story of your life, you said you could travel back in time, as
far as the point of your own death as a mortal."
He sighed again. "Yes."
"What's to prevent you from meeting yourself somewhere between now and then?"
"Nothing. Occasionally it happens. It's a paradox, like time travel itself."
"I don't understand."
"I'm not surprised. I don't understand, either. I suspect that no one does—at
least, not completely. It's a universe of specialties—vampires are vampires,
roses are roses, jellyfish are jellyfish. Which of us can grasp the whole of
reality, in all its multifaceted complexity?"
Daisy didn't have an answer.
Valerian came around the counter and very gently touched her face, his
thumb tracing the outline of her cheekbone. "My poor love," he said. "You've
always been this way, you know—wanting answers to impossible questions, tilting
at windmills, chasing rainbows. Just as you always have copper-colored hair,
green eyes, and a smattering of freckles across your nose."
A shiver of mingled delight and passion moved through Daisy, and strange
erotic images stirred in her memory. She did not recoil, although Valerian was
still a stranger, and probably a dangerous one at that. Instead, she wanted him
to make love to her, she who had slept with exactly three men in her entire
life.
The pad of that same thumb strayed sensuously across her mouth. "Soon," he
said, apparently reading her mind again. A thoughtful expression darkened his
eyes. "But perhaps a small reminder of what we've shared together over the
centuries would not be amiss."
He was a hell of an actor, Daisy thought. There were so many things happening
in her body, so many sensations bouncing from one part of her insides to
another, like laser beams running amuck, that she didn't have the energy to
speak.
Valerian smiled ever so slightly, bent his head, and kissed her.
It was only a brief contact, a mere brushing of his lips against hers, but it
rocked Daisy to her core. The earth seemed to spin away beneath her feet and
shoot off into space, leaving her dangling in a throbbing void. There was no
oxygen, and her heart swelled painfully against her rib cage.
She gasped and stared up into Valerian's wise eyes—she could well believe
that he was six hundred years old in that moment, for she saw so many emotions
reflected there, in that fathomless blue, myriad things that could not have been
garnered in a normal lifetime.
"Why aren't I afraid?" she whispered.
He smoothed her hair, and even that innocent motion sent new fissures
streaking through her few remaining defenses, caused the last walls to crumble
and the innermost doors to swing open. "Because you know, in the essence of
yourself, that I would brave hell itself for you." He glanced at the window
above the sink. "It will be dawn soon. I must go."
Daisy was disappointed. Hadn't he promised to stay?
He'd read her thoughts again. "I promised a small reminder of what we had
together," he clarified with a smile. "And now for one of my more impressive
tricks."
With no more preamble than that, he vanished. In the space of an instant—with
no drumrolls, no smoke, no mirrors—he was simply gone.
Daisy swore and leaped off the stool, as if to pursue the magician into thin
air. She thought she heard, far in the distance, the faintest echo of a chuckle.
She stood there for a few moments, open-mouthed, convinced she was
certifiable, before her basically pragmatic nature took over. After washing her
face, brushing her teeth, and gulping down two aspirin, Daisy fell into bed and
slept like a dead woman.
She did not dream.
With the morning and full consciousness came vivid memories of the night
before—her "spontaneous regression" to the fifteenth century, Valerian's wild,
and undeniably fascinating, tale of living six centuries as a vampire, that
soul-shattering kiss, and, finally, his spectacular disappearance.
He was a magician, she reminded herself. But that single fact didn't explain
all the things she'd seen and felt. There was more to it—much more.
All right, then, Daisy's highly developed left brain argued, he was a
hypnotist as well as a stage wizard. He'd said straight out that he could
project his own image into her mind at will, hadn't he? That, supposedly, was
how he had joined her in the Horse and Horn, when she was Elisabeth Saxon,
erstwhile tavern wench.
Somehow, logical as it was, that explanation didn't work, either.
Daisy tossed back her covers and got up. She was probably getting an ulcer
from trying to figure this out—better to let it simmer in her subconscious for a
while and think of other things with the everyday brain cells. She'd gotten to
the crux of more than one case that way—using what O'Halloran called her woman's
intuition.
She smiled. He'd never claimed to be original.
After going to the bathroom, Daisy opened her front door and picked up the
newspaper lying on the mat. The headline wiped the smile from her face.
POLICE DUB RECENT CRIMES 'VAMPIRE MURDERS.'
"What police?" Daisy grumbled, pushing the door shut with her foot and
scanning the article as she crossed the apartment to the kitchenette. "Nobody
asked me about the case."
The piece was peppered with quotes from one Detective John P. O'Halloran, who
was, according to the reporter, "in charge of the investigation." Daisy might
have been his golf caddie, for all the mention she got, but she didn't care
about that. What bothered her, and she knew it was a waste of time to worry
about it, was the way the press seemed to glamorize what had happened.
Whoever the killer was, he was sure to get off on the attention and
notoriety.
When the telephone rang, she was already reaching for the receiver to call
the office. She almost hoped it would be the screwball who'd harassed her after
Jillie Fair-field's murder; there was a thing or two she wanted to say to him.
Alas, the voice that replied to her brisk "Hello, this is Chandler" was
O'Halloran's.
"It's your partner," he said, master of understatement that he was.
Daisy dragged over one of the stools from the breakfast bar and perched on
it. "Oh, yes—the dimpled darling of the Fourth Estate. Tell me, O'Halloran, did
you have to stay up all night to make the world safe for old ladies and Cub
Scouts, or did you just take care of it on your break?"
"Smart-ass," O'Halloran said fondly.
"Have you got something new to tell me about the case, or are we going to go
on exchanging sloppy sentiments all morning?"
He cleared his throat, then took a noisy slurp of what was probably coffee.
He was stalling, and that was a bad sign.
"O'Halloran," Daisy pressed.
"All right, all right," her partner blurted. "The chief saw the EMT's report
on your collapse at the supermarket last night. He wants you to take a few days'
leave and get a checkup."
"Are you telling me that I'm suspended?"
"I'm telling you that you have to rest a few days and see a doctor. Don't
come unwrapped on me now, Chandler, because this wasn't my idea. It came down
from the brass."
"Shit," Daisy muttered, chewing one fingernail.
"You shouldn't talk like that. It ain't becoming."
Daisy struggled to regain her self-control before going on. There was no
sense digging herself in deeper. "What the devil did Charlie tell those people?"
"That you passed out."
"And?"
O'Halloran let out a long-suffering sigh. "And the head office got a call
from the checkout lady late last night—Marvella somebody. She was worried—said
you were talking gibberish while you were out."
Daisy closed her eyes. "They want me to take a drug test, don't they,
O'Halloran?"
"Look, it's routine—you know that. Any one of us could be asked to pee in a
cup at any time."
She sighed. "I'm not popping pills or shooting up," she said, suddenly
feeling as if she could crawl back into bed and sleep for two weeks. "You know
that, don"t you?"
"Hell, yes," O'Halloran answered gruffly. "Of course I know that. Look,
partner, don't try to buck the system, okay? Just catch up on your sleep, get
the checkup, and come back to work. If you stay out too long, somebody might get
the idea that you're the real supercop and I'm just the sidekick. I've got to
think about my image, you know."
Daisy laughed, even though there were tears gathering along her lashes.
"Don't worry, fella—your reputation is safe with me."
She hung up the receiver and moved around the apartment in a sort of stupor,
showering, brushing her hair and teeth, dressing in jeans and a lightweight
sweater, making toast and a poached egg for breakfast. When she'd done those
things, she got into her car and drove downtown.
After a thorough examination and a lot of questions, the official department
physician announced that Daisy was suffering from exhaustion and recommended
that she take two weeks' leave. Her first instinct was to resist, but then she
reconsidered. She had all the signs of a classic case of burnout, and if she
kept pushing herself, she might just wake up one morning to find that she was an
ex-cop, with her law enforcement career behind her forever.
With that specter staring her in the face, Daisy filled out the necessary
papers, called O'Halloran with the news, and then went back home. For now, she
told herself, it was enough that there would be no question that she'd been
abusing drugs.
She stayed in her apartment just long enough to pack and call her sister,
Nadine, who reported that she was getting labor pains. Within half an hour Daisy
was on her way to Telluride, tape deck blaring. The screaming ghosts of all her
fears and doubts followed along, staying just inside the outermost edge of her
awareness.
Valerian
Las Vegas, 1995
I knew Daisy was gone when I arose that evening, rested and ready to feed,
and then to resume the hunt for my enemy. Her absence gave me a bereft, hollow
sensation, in that dry and atrophied thing that had been my heart, but I thought
it better that she was far away. The greater her distance from me, the safer she
would be.
I fastened my cuff links, smiling to myself. I had chosen a special pair that
night for luck, antique gold ones that had been a gift from a cherished friend,
George Bernard Shaw. But it wasn't the jewelry that gave me pleasure, it was the
idea of keeping a certain promise to Daisy.
Tonight she would know my magic in a new way, and I hoped it would cause her
to remember all we had been to each other over the centuries. She had been a
will-o'-the-wisp, flitting from one identity to the next, having the same face
and body but a different name in each generation, and having no conscious memory
of me whatsoever.
I, on the other hand, had always been Valerian. Endlessly, eternally myself.
I confess that I grow weary of my own company on occasion, fascinating though
I am. One gets to know one's self, over the course of centuries, and the utter
absence of surprise can grind at the spirit.
"How like you, Valerian, to wax philosophical," observed a cheerful feminine
voice, catching me completely off guard.
I whirled to see Maeve standing only a few feet away, gloriously beautiful in
her flowing, iridescent robes, her long dark hair falling free around her
shoulders, her dark blue eyes like windows into the heart of the universe. She
has a penchant for the dramatic, our Maeve, a fondness for spectacular entrances
and fiery exits.
But then, so do I. Perhaps it is a trait of vampires, after all, for they
tend to be flamboyant creatures.
"You honor me," I said with a slight inclination of my head, "both by your
visit and your words."
She laughed. "Still charming as a serpent," she said, putting her hands on
her hips. "What a flatterer you are." She paused again, gazing upon me
thoughtfully. "I came to ask if there have been more difficulties with this
rogue vampire you spoke of the other night."
"I have not been successful in tracking him down," I admitted ruefully. I
thought of Daisy again and my resolve to protect her strengthened. "But you have
my vow that I will put an end to his mischief, whoever he is."
Maeve picked up one of the pretty glass bottles I kept on my dressing table
and examined it with the absorbed interest of one who appreciates fine
craftsmanship. "Do not be too hasty, my friend," she warned, returning the
bauble to its place before turning her gaze to my face. "This may not be a
blood-drinker, but a warlock, for instance, only posing as one of us. I feel
certain that this is some sort of trap."
I almost whispered my next words. "Could it be that Lisette has returned?"
"No," Maeve answered with a reassuring lack of hesitation. "She is most
certainly dead. You saw her perish—we all did."
"Still—"
"If Lisette had managed to resurrect herself, even in some other form, I
would know it. We have other enemies, Valerian. There are many monsters roaming
creation—ones we know nothing about. According to Calder, who has been
performing some very interesting experiments since his transformation, there
could well be other species of vampires, with different powers from our own. He
has even uncovered evidence that gaps might exist between dimensions—passageways
leading in and out of other realms and realities."
I found the mere prospect so overwhelming that I could not speak. The fiends
of my acquaintance were daunting enough, without being joined by a host of other
horrors skulking back and forth from one world to another.
Maeve folded her arms and looked at me with sisterly concern. "What is it
that you're not telling me?"
I smiled sadly, touched and somehow calmed by this reminder that she cared
for me. "I have found her again."
"Not—?"
I nodded, reaching up to straighten my elegant string tie. I often wear
formal garb to hunt—a cape and tails, ruffled linen shirt and cummerbund,
trousers with silk stripes down the outer seams—due to that theatrical streak I
mentioned before, I suppose. And because my victims expect me to resemble the
classic media vampire.
Who was I to disappoint the poor wretches?
"Yes," I said. "Same face, same body. This time her name is Daisy Chandler,
and she's a homicide detective with the Las Vegas police."
Maeve looked worried. "You know what always happens—the ruby arrives, she
dies, and then you are heartbroken. You must avoid this woman at all costs,
Valerian, for your own sake as well as hers."
I wanted to weep at the impossibility of the situation, at the injustice and
terrible irony of it all. "It's already too late," I confessed. "Besides, there
is no avoiding Daisy. It's part of the curse."
"The curse," Maeve mocked. Surprisingly, considering what she is and what
she's seen, my revered queen is not in the least superstitious. "That's a
medieval idea. There is no dark magic at work here—someone or something is
causing these things to happen. Find the root of the problem and you will
know how to solve it."
"So practical," I said with a sad smile. Maeve is young, in terms of being a
vampire, having been made quite recently, in the turbulence of the eighteenth
century. "Do you fancy that I've never tried to uncover the cause? I
have searched for centuries, all to no avail. And every generation or so, the
horror repeats itself."
She approached me and put a gentle hand on my arm. "Perhaps Calder can find
some remedy in science," she said in an effort to lend comfort.
I laughed, though my feelings resembled bereavement more than mirth. "You
have great confidence in that husband of yours."
Maeve nodded. "I have," she admitted. "And it is well placed, I assure you.
Now, come with me. We'll feed together, and then search for this mysterious foe
of yours."
"It has occurred to me," I said, looking down into her sweet, beautiful face,
"that our cause would be better served by keeping watch over the four young
women who remain in my employ. I shall sever all ties with them, of course—when
I again perform my magic act, I will appear alone—but they seem the most likely
targets."
"What about this Daisy woman? I should think she would be in the gravest
peril of all."
There could be no denying that, but I had a suspicion that the creature
wanted to punish me, to subject me to a lengthy and torturous ordeal. Logically,
he was more likely to save Daisy's death for last—and to make it the most grisly
of all.
I voiced these thoughts to Maeve, who agreed, though with reservations.
"Still," she said, "you must not leave her unguarded for long."
We linked arms, as though to enter a grand dining room or stroll onto a dance
floor for a waltz. "I would like to bring Daisy here to my lair, where she would
surely be safe, but mortals balk at such forms of protection—they consider them
arbitrary. Remember how Calder hated your efforts to keep him out of danger?"
Maeve winced and then flashed me a guilty little smile. "He was quite
impossible as a mortal," she said. "I like him much better as a vampire."
With that, we willed ourselves away.
Feeding was not a challenge—though neither of us had a taste for the blood of
innocents—for humans with evil hearts, while in the minority, are still all too
easy to find. Prisons abound with them, and so do the world's various halls of
government.
When we had taken the necessary sustenance, Maeve and I set out on our search
for the demon who had murdered Jillie and Susan.
Our efforts met with failure.
Daisy pulled into the parking lot of a well-known motel at ten-thirty that
night, too tired to travel even one more mile. After buying half a turkey
sandwich and a can of tomato juice in the convenience store across the highway,
she locked herself in her room and sat cross-legged on the bed, consuming her
dinner and watching the early news.
There was nothing about the so-called "vampire murders" in Las Vegas, but she
supposed it was only a matter of time before the wire services and major
networks picked up the story. What the tabloids could make out of it didn't bear
thinking about.
She got off the bed and threw away the debris from supper, muttering to
herself. "Don't think about work, Chandler. Think about Nadine and your niece or
nephew. Think about happy things—fun things. Do you want to have a nervous
breakdown, for heaven's sake?"
Daisy looked at her reflection in the mirror over the sink. "You're not a
crazy person," she said forcefully. "You're smart and strong and brave, and a
damn good cop on top of it all. And you are not losing your mind.
You're just tired, that's all. A week with Nadine and you'll be thrilled
to rub elbows with homicidal maniacs again!"
She laughed, but the sound lodged in her throat when the telephone rang.
A lesser person wouldn't have answered it at all, Daisy reflected, but she
was Woman, and if she had to, she would roar.
"Hello!" she snapped.
A familiar chuckle came over the wire. "I found you," Valerian said. "There
are times when I wonder if my magic is a plus or a minus."
Daisy was pleased out of all proportion to reason to hear his voice. Later
she would think about the impossibility of his finding her in a motel she'd
chosen at random. For the moment she was simply happy that he had.
"I guess it's a plus,'" she said. "If I asked how you tracked me down, would
you tell me?"
"Sure," came the blithe reply. "But you're not going to ask me, are you?
Because you already know the answer I'd give."
Daisy wound an index finger in the telephone cord, as wildly happy as a
teenager about to be asked to the prom by exactly the right guy. "You'd say it
was vampire magic."
"Something like that." He sounded solemn now, almost sad. "Are you all right,
Daisy? Have I frightened you?"
She considered. "Yeah, you've done that all right, but in a different way
than you probably think. It's a kind of quivery, excited feeling, like I get
used to get in high school, when my girlfriends and I would go to a horror movie
and then stay up half the night scaring the hell out of each other."
"I honestly don't know whether to be honored or insulted," he said, and the
smile was back in his voice.
Daisy sighed. "Take your choice," she said. "You are definitely weird, but
I've got to admit, I like you. Maybe it's the old snake-charmer syndrome."
"Maybe," he agreed. "I have to go now, love. But before I hang up, I'd like
to ask you a question."
"Okay," Daisy replied.
"Do you remember the promise we talked about last night?"
She felt a shivery, delicious warmth in all the places where she was most
feminine. "Yes," she said. "Sure."
"I'm about to keep my word," Valerian told her. "That is, if I have your
permission."
Daisy was trembling with anticipation and sweet terror. If this was a sexual
fantasy, it was a hot one, and she wasn't about to squelch it. "Okay," she said
shakily.
"If you want the lovemaking to stop, you have only to form the thought in
your mind, and it will be over."
Daisy was glad he couldn't see her—at least she didn't think he
could—because she was blushing like crazy. "That sounds fair."
He chuckled. "Good night, Daisy."
"Good night," she whispered, but the line was already dead.
Confused, happier than she'd ever been, Daisy got ready for bed, turned out
the lights, and slipped between the sheets. Both the nightgowns she'd brought
were still neatly folded in her suitcase.
She lay still for a long time, waiting, half expecting Valerian to appear in
her motel room in the same way he'd vanished from her apartment..
Forty-two minutes had passed on the digital clock on her bedside table when
the urge to throw aside the blankets and sheets struck her like a sudden fever.
She trembled as the cool night air touched her bare skin, making her nipples
tighten.
In the next instant she felt hands on her flesh, and she knew the hands were
Valerian's, even though she was still alone. Then she felt his lips, warm and
wet and soft, on her breasts, on her belly, on her neck and her thighs. It
seemed that every part of her, inside and out, was being kissed and caressed,
fondled and teased.
Daisy arched her back, giving herself up to the passion that swept around and
through her like a storm. She was reminded, in the midst of the wild ecstacy
that followed, of a recent dream. She'd been someone else in that dream, living
long ago and faraway, and she'd ridden a horse into a pounding surf. The waves
had consumed her then; this time, it would be the pleasure, the mounting,
excruciating, glorious pleasure.
9
Valerian
England, 1457
True to his word, Challes had abandoned me after teaching me the rudiments of
feeding and protecting myself from certain gruesome perils to which vampires are
subject. I was at my most licentious in the years and decades that followed;
there were few pleasures I did not sample and even fewer sins I did not commit.
In retrospect, it seems that my proclivity for wine had been replaced by an
equal devotion to the ever more capricious demands of my senses.
I was beautiful as an archangel and as self-centered as a spoiled child, and
I resented my erstwhile tutor bitterly for leaving me to my own devices as he
had. I carried cynicism to new heights, and might have continued on this
treacherous and unsavory course if I hadn't happened into a seedy roadside inn
one spring night in 1457. I'd been traversing the countryside in my coach,
pretending to be a mortal, as I sometimes did when I was bored.
I doubt it will surprise you to learn that the place was the Horse and Horn
and that I found Brenna within its shoddy walls, clad in a cheap, undyed gown
that revealed too many of her charms and carrying pitchers overflowing with ale
to tables full of leering louts.
Imagine my astonishment, my joy, my outrage! I had believed her dead—I
knew she had perished in the waters off the coast of Cornwall—and yet here
she was, looking as she had always looked, except for the coarse dress, laughing
and bantering with a lot of louse-ridden sailors and highwaymen!
Utter silence descended when I was noticed at last, standing there in the doorway
of that wretched establishment, a gentleman to all appearances, finely dressed
and obviously rich. I heard their jumbled thoughts—more than a few planned to
rob me, and most would have done murder for the least of my valuables—but I was
interested only in Brenna.
She turned to see what had caught her customers' attention, and the look of
speculation in her green eyes was devastating to me, for there was no
recognition in them and certainly no love. She, like the bilge-rats and
pickpockets seated round the rough-hewn wooden tables, was calculating my worth.
The thought that I would pay well for a tumble in the straw, and probably be a
pleasant partner in the bargain, flitted across her mind.
This was not my Brenna, and yet it was. The flowing, coppery hair, the
slightly freckled and otherwise flawless skin, the sumptuous little figure and
the breathtakingly beautiful emerald eyes all belonged to my beloved. The mind
and spirit, at least in their deepest recesses, were hers, also; it was the
outward character I did not recognize.
She sidled over to me, smoothed the fine silk of my tunic with the palms of
her small, grubby hands, and smiled up into my rigid face.
"My, ain't you pretty," she crooned.
Catcalls erupted all over the room, but those men were no more to me than the
vermin that crawled among the folds of their ragged garments and skittered
behind the walls.
Despair nearly overwhelmed me, and yet I could not help rejoicing. In
whatever form I found her, this was my treasured one. The darling of my heart. I
would carry her away and, in time, share with her the gift Challes had given me.
Together we could explore eternity.
"Brenna," I whispered, catching her fingers in my own.
"You can call me whatever name you want, pet," she simpered, batting her
eyelashes and even managing to blush a little. "But I'm Betsey to me friends."
I wanted to carry her out of that place over one shoulder and to throttle
her, at one and the same time. In the end I did neither, for I could not move.
"Betsey?" I echoed stupidly.
She drew herself up, preening, and her coquetry almost made me laugh, for she
was no cleaner than if she'd been thrown down and dragged through a barnyard by
her ankles. The poor thing suffered greatly in comparison to the sophisticated
mortal women I normally consorted with; in her present state she barely had the
grace to slop swine.
"Elisabeth Saxon's me full name," she announced very proudly.
More hoots and crude comments rose from the Great Unwashed, and I ignored
them as before. I would deal with any who dared to approach me—or Elisabeth—later.
I placed a small leather pouch in her palm, weighted with gold, and watched
with an odd mingling of pleasure and pain as her eyes lit up at the prospect of
such wealth.
"Come with me," I said quietly.
Elisabeth did not hesitate; she untied her stained apron and tossed it aside,
never noticing that it settled over one reveler's head like a crudely woven
shroud. Then she offered her hand to me, and I took it and pushed her out into
the dark dooryard of the inn.
Her companions rose almost as one from their benches and stools, and their
faces, in the flickering light of the candles and the scant fire on the hearth,
were the faces of fiends.
It was pitifully easy to intimidate them, however; no magic was required. I
simply swept them up, one and all, in a look calculated to shrivel their very
souls. None of them tried to follow as I turned and strode outside, catching
Elisabeth's elbow in a forceful grasp as I passed her and thrusting her toward
my waiting carriage.
"You're not one of that sort what likes to be rough with a girl, are you?"
she asked as I bundled her inside.
"I won't hurt you," I said. I was trembling with emotions I could barely sort
through—passion, fury, adoration, disgust. "Great Zeus," I muttered at last when
we were settled and I had signaled the driver to be off with a rap of my
knuckles on the carriage roof. "What's happened to you?"
Her eyes were huge in the darkness, and she held the small bag of gold
tightly against her belly, as though fearing I might snatch it back from her at
any moment. "What do you mean by that, sir? I've just been making me way in the
world, like any girl would, in me place—"
"When was the last time you had a bath?"
Fire flared in her spirit, and I was heartened to see it.
"Baths ain't good for a lady's health," she said with conviction.
I folded my arms and regarded her in silence for a long time. "Don't you
remember me, even a little?" I asked at last, unable to keep myself from voicing
the deepest disappointment at all.
Elisabeth shook her head. "No," she answered bluntly. "And I'd recall a fine
and fancy man like yourself if we'd ever met, now wouldn't I?" She paused to
ponder me, though I must have been nearly invisible to her in the thin
moonlight, her lovely eyes narrowed. "Why did you call me by that other name,
even after I told you it weren't mine?"
I feigned a sigh, wondering what this poor little urchin would think if she
knew I wasn't a man, fine and fancy or otherwise, but a beast instead. A
creature that ventured out of its vault only by night, loving the darkness,
exalting in it, drawing nourishment from the veins of hapless mortals.
"You remind me of someone I knew a long time ago," I answered at length. I
believe I realized, even then, that I would not be able to change Elisabeth back
into Brenna, but I was not yet ready to accept the fact. I was still caught up
in the miracle of finding her at all, and I did not think beyond the easing of
my own terrible loneliness.
She held up the pouch and gave it a slight shake, causing the coins inside to
jingle with merry solidity. "I guess you'll want plenty for this," she said with
what seemed to me uncommon valor, given the circumstances. For all she knew, I
meant to make full use of her grubby little body, kill her for sport, and
reclaim my gold. She could not have guessed that I wanted only to be near her
and keep her safe.
"Yes," I replied, settling back against the upholstered seat and folding my
arms. "I will expect a great deal from you. You can start by putting your knees
together—you look like a bawd, sitting there with one foot on either side of
the coach."
Elisabeth flushed, and that raised the vampire hunger in me, though of course
I quelled it immediately. Even I had standards, though one would not have
guessed it by my behavior in the years prior to that momentous night, and I had
no intention of feeding on her.
Which is not to say that the temptation didn't present one of the keenest
agonies I've ever had to endure. Elisabeth's vitality, her sumptuousness, filled
the interior of that carriage, thrumming like a heartbeat.
I took her to Colefield Hall, the estate that had been Challes's and was now
mine. I had not seen him again since his farewell, shortly after my making.
The moon was high when we arrived, and she'd fallen asleep on the coach seat
opposite me, curled up like a child.
She did not awaken when I carried her into the keep, or when I laid her
gently on the finest bed in the house and covered her with the best blankets.
I stood there, gazing down at her, spellbound by her disheveled magic,
stricken by her unexpected reappearance in my life. I had not made the effort to
investigate such things up until that time, having been wholly devoted to the
pursuit of unceasing pleasure, but now I could only conclude that Brenna had
been reincarnated as this grimy, tousled hoyden.
For what purpose, I wondered, if not to find me, her true and only love, once
again? That would explain why she looked exactly as she had a century before, in
that other, too-brief existence.
She stirred in her sleep, and I smiled to myself. By returning, she had
transformed me, I thought—for I, too, was still naive in my fashion, having
troubled myself to learn so little of life and love.
I left her to hunt, retracing my steps, so to speak, to the dooryard of the
Horse and Horn to feed, and returned to Colefield Hall just before dawn. I was settled in my vault, far beneath the
earth, where the acidic light of the sun could not reach my vampire's flesh,
when Elisabeth awakened and proceeded, as I later learned, to set the household
on its ear.
Daisy
Between Las Vegas and Telluride, 1995
The orgasm was violent, when at last it overtook her, seeming to slam her
deep into the mattress even as it sent her hurtling upward to collide hard with
the ceiling. She alternately moaned and mumbled incoherently, having no breath
for the screams of pleasure that throbbed in the back of her throat, pitching
and thrashing and clawing at the sheets with splayed fingers as her body
convulsed in spasm after spasm of ecstasy. She longed for peace and stillness,
fearing her heart would explode at any moment, it was beating so fast, and at
the same time she prayed the release would never end.
Alas, it did, ebbing away slowly, like a tidal wave in grudging retreat,
leaving a limp and trembling Daisy behind. She felt the sheen of perspiration
cooling on her body, felt her hair clinging wetly to her cheeks and temples and
nape. She huddled there upon that strange and anonymous bed, quivering inside an
intangible cocoon that still reverberated with the force of her satisfaction.
Her breath came in gasps and her heartbeat was still too rapid, thudding like
the hooves of a fleet horse racing over hard ground.
She wept, because her mystical union with Valerian had been so unbearably
beautiful, and because he was not there to gather her in his arms and hold her
close. Then, exhausted, utterly sated, in soul as well as body, Daisy slept.
She awakened with a start, blinking against the bright sunlight sneaking
between the blinds at her window, to the sound of someone pounding at the motel
room door.
"What?" she demanded, pushing back her hair.
"Five minutes until checkout time," a woman warned cheerfully.
Daisy swore and scrambled out of bed to wash her face and brush her teeth.
She wriggled into fresh clothes, grabbed her suitcase and purse, and made a dash
for the door, and it was only later, when she had paid her bill, bought a
breakfast sandwich, and hit the road again that she let herself think about what
had happened the night before.
The languid, limp-muscled sense of well-being was still with her, a warmth
that had settled in deep, soothing her nerves, permeating her very bones. As
crazy as it was, and as impossible, there could be no denying that Valerian—or
someone—had made slow, thorough, excruciating love to her in that motel room.
Without actually being there.
Daisy swallowed another bite of her sandwich. It was hypnosis again, she
concluded, chewing. Valerian had known she was attracted to him, and he'd
planted the seeds of that session of solitary passion by things he'd said to
her, first in her apartment, and then over the telephone. Or maybe the whole
thing had been a sort of hysterical hallucination and she'd done it all on her
own…
She discarded the idea along with the rest of her sandwich and its paper
wrapper, which she stuffed into a plastic garbage bag hanging from a knob on her
dashboard. There was no easy explanation for the kind of long-distance
lovemaking she'd enjoyed so much, or for Valerian himself.
He'd disappeared from her apartment, vanishing before her very eyes, and last
night he'd given her the mother of all orgasms without even being
there. Those were the facts—unless, of course, it turned out that she was
suffering from a major case of self-delusion and had flunked the drug test after
all.
Hardly likely, Daisy decided, keeping her eyes on the road. She'd tried to go
into denial on several occasions, hoping to escape her problems, and it hadn't
worked. She was just too damned left-brained to fool herself for more than a few
minutes at a time.
Much as she might wish otherwise, Valerian was real. His magic was just that,
and he had really and truly seduced her with his mind, from who knew how far
away.
Daisy muttered an expletive and reached out to turn on the car radio.
Nadine, normally petite, was as big as the A-frame she shared with her
earnest but quiet husband, a greeting-card artist named Freddy. They both looked
sleep-rumbled and a little dazed, and Daisy felt a mild twinge of guilt for
awakening them at one in the morning. She supposed she could have checked into a
motel, but the truth was that she needed some time to recover. Another bout of
psychic sex would probably have killed her.
She kissed Nadine's cheek and nodded to Freddy. "I'm sorry," she said. "I
should have let you sleep."
Nadine, bundled in flannel, laughed and shook her head. She was twenty-two,
with chin-length dark hair and brown eyes, and worked as a clerk in a
supermarket. "Don't be silly. We're glad you're here, and I would have been
worried if you didn't show up."
They were standing in the living room, and Freddy went over to fold out the
hide-a-bed while Nadine helped Daisy out of her coat.
"I thought you said you were in labor," Daisy said, rubbing her hands
together. The mountain air was crisp, and the fire in the woodstove had
apparently gone out a long time ago.
"False alarm," Nadine said with a cheerful shrug. "Do you want a cup of cocoa or something? Are you hungry?"
Daisy felt a small, sharp twist in the center of her heart. She and Nadine
had always mothered each other, except for that short stint when they'd lived
with their grandmother, since Jeanine hadn't had a clue when it came to
parenting. "No, sweetheart," she said, blinking rapidly and looking away for a
moment. "If I find myself on the verge of starvation, I'll get up and raid the
refrigerator. You go back to bed. You need your rest."
Freddy, having folded out the couch, proceeded to fling a few chunks of wood
into the stove, which was set into an old-fashioned flagstone fireplace. "The
bathroom's at the end of the hall," he told Daisy, putting a gentle hand to the
small of Nadine's back and pushing her along ahead of him. "Night."
"Night," Daisy replied.
She found the bathroom, which was so cold they could have hung beef carcasses
in there without fear of spoilage, and hastily washed and brushed her teeth. The
living room was a little warmer, but she figured she would have been able to see
her breath in front of her face if there had been enough light.
After stubbing her toe on one of the metal legs of the hide-a-bed, Daisy
threw back the covers and plunged beneath them, shivering.
She tossed and turned and finally tumbled into a fitful sleep. A sound
awakened her sometime later, and she sat up, shoving a hand through her hair. At
first she didn't remember where she was, and then she thought there was
something wrong with her sister.
"Nadine?"
Silence.
Daisy sat up, groping for the switch on the lamp beside the couch, but before
she found it her eyes adjusted to the darkness, and she saw him, standing at the
foot of the bed. She didn't scream because she wasn't afraid.
"Valerian," she said softly.
"I'm sorry, love." She heard a smile in his voice. "Did I frighten you?"
"No. Are you really here, or is this one of your tricks?"
He came to sit beside her on the mattress, offering his hand. "I'm here, all
right," he said.
"I'd hate to have to explain you to my sister and brother-in-law."
Valerian chuckled. "You won't have to. They're both sound asleep with visions
of sugarplums dancing in their heads."
Daisy leaned against the back of the couch. She was wearing long underwear
for pajamas in an effort to keep warm. "Last night was pretty spectacular," she
told him. "Was I the only one having fun?"
He touched her face, and she saw in the dim light that one corner of his
mouth was curved ever so slightly upward. "I knew what you were feeling," he
said, "and I took pleasure in that."
"Why did you make love to me from a distance?"
"Because it would be too dangerous up close."
"You certainly take an innovative approach to safe sex. Most people just use
condoms."
Valerian laughed, and Daisy was sure the sound would wake Nadine and Freddy,
but apparently it didn't, for neither one of them showed up in the living room.
He leaned forward and kissed her lightly, briefly, on the lips. "I was
talking about another kind of danger entirely," he said.
"You're afraid you'll pounce on me, in the throes of passion, and bite my
neck?"
Valerian shook his head, and she caught a glint of mischief in his eyes,
veiled in shadow though they were. "If we were in the 'throes of passion,' as
you put it, I would already have pounced." He raised a hand to her face, rubbing
his thumb along the length of her cheek. "No, Daisy love, I'm quite capable of
making love to a mortal woman. But it's better if I stay away from you—I
shouldn't even be here now."
"Because?"
He shoved his fingers through his lush, gleaming brown hair. "Because
whoever—whatever—murdered Jillie and Susan might come after you next."
Daisy shivered involuntarily, remembering the murder scenes and the bodies of
those two ill-fated women as vividly as if she'd seen them moments before. She
started to speak, but Valerian stopped her, laying a fingertip to her lips.
"It is vital that you listen to me, Daisy," he said quietly, "that you
believe what I'm telling you. You are in grave danger, but there is a place
where you'll be at least moderately safe."
She closed her hand gently around his and spoke in a soft voice. "I'm a cop,
remember? I'm not really safe—moderately or otherwise—anywhere. Hell, I don't
even want that kind of security. The only risk-free place is the grave,
and I'm definitely not ready for that."
Even in the gloom, she saw his magnificent face contort with some powerful
emotion—anger? Frustration? Fear?
She couldn't begin to guess.
"You don't understand," he said with admirable control, after a short,
tumultuous silence.
"I do," Daisy insisted. "You want to protect me, and that's wonderful. But
I'm a big girl, with a badge and a thirty-eight. I can take care of myself, and
I won't hide from anybody or anything."
"What use would a piece of metal and a primitive handgun be against a
vampire?" Valerian said, leaning in close to make his point. "Don't you see that
I—another nightwalker—am your only hope?" He paused, and his struggle to contain
his emotions was visible in his face, despite the shadows. "Damn it,
Daisy," he whispered, "if you won't do this for yourself, do it for your sister
and her family. Do you want to draw this creature here, to this house?"
Daisy felt the blood drain from her face, and she raised one hand to her
mouth. "Oh, God," she murmured. "Nadine—Freddy—that poor little baby—"
Valerian gripped her shoulders and gave her a gentle shake. "They have
guardian angels, Daisy," he said quickly to stem her panic. "Especially the
child. But angels are single-minded creatures, almost wholly absorbed in the
adoration of their Creator. Sometimes they miss things."
"Oh, great," Daisy muttered.
"You've got to leave here now, tonight," Valerian insisted.
She glanced toward the doorway to the hall. Just beyond it, Nadine and Freddy
lay sleeping peacefully in their bed. "I can't just abandon Nadine," she argued
frantically. "What would she think if she woke up and found me gone? She's
counting on me to help her—she's about to give birth, for heaven's
sake!"
"That's easy," Valerian said. He was already pulling her to her feet, finding
her discarded clothes unerringly in the dark, tugging the garments onto her
body, over the bulky long Johns, as if she were a child. "I'll simply remove all
memory of your arrival from both their minds."
"That's crazy," Daisy protested and he closed her suitcase and shoved it at
her. "You can't actually do that, can you?"
"I can," Valerian said, "and I have. Tonight your sister dreamed you came for
a visit. In the morning she'll feel a little wistful and wonder how you are and
if you're taking good care of yourself."
He pushed her out the door, closed it quietly behind them, and ushered her
straight to the car.
"What about Freddy?"
"Same thing. 'Strange,' they'll say, 'that we both dreamed about Daisy. Do
you suppose it means anything?' "
Daisy was pressed into the driver's seat. "Won't they hear the motor?"
"They might," Valerian said, relaxing at last, "but they'll just think it's
one of the neighbors' cars."
"But—"
"Just drive, Daisy."
"Terrific. After all this, I don't even get to travel by broomstick."
She could see his face clearly in the moonlight, and his expression was
downright reproving. "That was beneath you, Daisy," he said. "Just go home
before I lose my patience."
"Okay, genius, I will. It's not like Super-ghoul would think of looking for
me there of all places. And what happens if you lose your patience?"
"Leave," Valerian said evenly, "before you find out."
With a sigh Daisy started the engine, backed out of Freddy and Nadine's
driveway, and headed back in the general direction of Las Vegas.
Valerian
Colefield Hall, 1457
Elisabeth let out a bloodcurdling shriek, not of fear but of fury, as I
ripped away the last of her clothes—no better than rotted rags, they were—and
hoisted her off her kicking feet and into the brimming tub before the fire.
"This is foul treatment, sir!" she shrilled, hammering at my chest with her
fists and splashing enough water over the sides—and down the front of my
breeches—to fill the long-empty moat outside. "And it weren't no part of our
bargain, neither! Don't you know I could catch me death? And you don't care,
neither, do you, you bloody mother-loving—"
"In the name of whatever deity you worship, Elisabeth," I said through my
teeth, "stop this mewling and thrashing, or I swear I'll take you to the nearest
nunnery and leave you there to rot!"
She fell silent, and I felt pity for her, seeing the look in her eyes, but I
wasn't fool enough to show it. She'd have been raising the roof again in a
trice, the little imp.
"That's better," I said with what would have been a heartfelt sigh, had I
been a mortal man. "You've been laboring under a delusion, my dear. Being clean
is a most desirable state."
Elisabeth's expression was one of pure bafflement, and I realized, with both
tender amusement and weariness, that she hadn't grasped my meaning at all.
I tried again. "No one has ever died from taking a bath," I assured her
quietly. I scrubbed her from head to foot, for it was plain that she hadn't the
vaguest idea how to scrub herself, then wrapped her in a blanket.
She knelt in obedient silence by the fire while I sat in the hearth chair,
gently combing the tangles from her copper-gold hair.
At last she turned and looked up at me, letting the blanket fall away,
revealing her exquisite, creamy body with a combination of shyness and pride.
"Will you have me now?" she asked.
I could not help myself; I reached out to touch her damp hair, her smooth,
fire-warmed cheek. "Not yet, love."
"But I am a—a whore. You paid for me."
"You are not a whore. You are a princess. And if I paid for you, then I have
the right to decide when to take you to my bed. Is that not so?"
The perfect column of her neck moved slightly as she swallowed. No sound came
from her lips.
I pulled the blanket around her again and raised her to her feet. "Are you
afraid?" I asked, holding her in my arms because I could not resist doing so.
Not after loving her, wanting her, mourning for her for so many long, empty
years.
Elisabeth nodded.
"Don't be," I whispered. "Because I would sooner destroy myself than do
anything to hurt you. All I want is to look after you—"
"I'm not a fine lady, like you're used to," she murmured. "Is that why you
don't want me?"
I laid an index finger to her nose, remembering so many things we had done
together, things I knew she could not recall. "But I do want you," I said
softly. "I want you desperately."
"Then, why—?"
I bent to kiss her lips, but only lightly. Only briefly. "We have time," I
told her.
She trembled against me. "Well, I can't stay away from the Horse and Horn
forever, you know," she protested, drawing back in my embrace. "There be those
who'll be asking after me. I've got to look out for me lads, or some other girl
will have them—"
An unholy rage surged through me at the thought of her giving herself to
another man, whether for love or for money.
I caught her chin in my hand, perhaps a touch too roughly at first, and
immediately relaxed my hold. Still, I knew from the fear that rose in her eyes
that I had hurt her a little, and that she had not missed the look of fury I had
been unable to disguise.
I closed my eyes for a moment, cursing myself for a rash, intemperate fool.
"I'm sorry," I said hoarsely. "I didn't mean to hurt you."
Her lower lip quivered as she gazed up at me. "I'm not that other girl—the
one you used to know. I'm just plain Betsey Saxon, who lifts her skirts for them
what can pay."
I should have listened to her. It might have saved us both so much pain.
Instead, I turned furiously away. "Don't ever say that again," I rasped, and
she made no other attempt to reason with me for the rest of that night.
10
Elisabeth Saxon
Colefield Hall, 1457
Elisabeth lay alone and puzzled in Valerian's enormous bed, watching the
firelight flicker across the ceiling. It was unheard of for a man to offer coins
and then not take his pleasure, and she was troubled. Perhaps the gentleman did
not think her fetching—the idea nettled her sorely—or perhaps she just wasn't
fine enough for the likes of him.
Well, come the morrow, she'd take her bag of gold—it was tucked safely away
beneath her pillow—and go straight back to the Horse and Horn. There were men
there what appreciated a sweet-natured woman, and they wouldn't try to drown her
in hot water or burn her eyes out with soap, neither.
She stretched, enjoying the feeling of the clean, smooth sheets against her
bare skin, and sighed. She'd known a queer sense of recognition, when Valerian
had entered the inn, as if she remembered him from somewhere beyond the reach of
her memory, but she'd worked out why he'd seemed familiar. He was the living
specter of a figure in a painting she'd seen, up in London Town, when she was a
girl of eight.
Her father was still alive back then, and they'd gone to the city, the pair
of them, hoping to sell off a cartload of cabbage in one of the marketplaces.
They'd done well and shared an eel pie to celebrate, but as they started back
toward home, a storm had come up, washing the cobbled streets and stinking
gutters with rain.
They'd left the cart and pony in the mews and taken refuge inside a vast
church, where there were paintings on the walls, and statues all about, and what
seemed like thousands of candles. The place was empty, except for a priest and
two or three old women kneeling in prayer, and as Elisabeth looked about, she
marveled at the grandeur of it all.
The biggest painting loomed on the rear wall of the sanctuary, and
Elisabeth's father, cap in hand, had told her in a whisper that it represented
the aftermath of the great battle between God's angels and those who followed
Lucifer. They'd been tussling on and off ever since, the good sorts and the bad,
by his reckoning.
The eerie reality of the picture fascinated Elisabeth. The sky was filled
with angels that appeared to fly, wings fluttering gracefully, while below their
dangling, snow-white feet, amidst leaping flames, hideous demons thrust their
pitchforks upward and leered in defiance.
On an outcropping of rock, well below heaven, but not quite in hell, or so it
had seemed to Elisabeth, stood a magnificent figure, gazing up at the angels
with a look of such sorrow and yearning that she'd wanted to weep for him. "Who
is that?" she'd whispered and would have touched the image with a small, dirty
finger if her father hadn't grasped her hand to stop her.
A monk had crept up behind them, leathershod feet moving soundlessly over the
cold stone floor, and it was he who answered Elisabeth's question. "That, my
child, is Lucifer—once God's favorite angel."
"Why does he look so sad?" she'd asked.
The monk spoke briskly and without compassion. "He knows that he is forever
damned. As are all who willfully disobey God. Have a thought for the well-being
of your soul, or you also will know the wrath of heaven."
Elisabeth had shuddered and moved a little closer to her father, who had put
an arm about her shoulders. He had often remarked, in the privacy of their poor
hovel in the outmost edge of the village of Lower Bilby, that kinder gods had
once ruled in England, before the Christians came, bringing their devil with
them.
Now, lying in a warm bed, with her belly full of good food, Elisabeth
realized only too well why the master of this grand house had seemed familiar.
He looked exactly like that beautiful, solemn being in the church painting.
She shivered and pulled the covers up under her chin.
"Don't be a dunce, Betsey Saxon," she murmured to herself. "The master's a
strange one, I'll give you that, but he's no more than a man."
A shadow moved next to the window, took on solidity and shape. "Ah," said
that cultured, resonant voice she had come to recognize. "But I am 'more than a
man,' Elisabeth. So much more."
Valerian.
Elisabeth's heart thundered; indeed its beat seemed to reverberate into every
part of her body, but she couldn't rightly say she was afraid. "Where did you
come from?" she demanded. "You wasn't here a minute ago."
He laughed, and the sound, rich and masculine, moved over Elisabeth like an
intangible caress. "No, I wasn't," he said. He took the candle from its pewter
stick, carried it over to the hearth, and squatted to touch the wick to the
embers.
Thin, golden light gilded his face, his hair, and the fine, strange cut of
his clothes as he crossed the room again. He stood at the foot of her bed,
holding the tallow at chest height, seemingly unaware of the hot wax dropping
onto the flesh of his hand. In the candle's glow, and the silver wash of the
moon, it seemed he'd been sculpted from alabaster or ivory, like the statues in
that London church.
"I just wish you'd make up your mind, that's all," Elisabeth said. "About
whether you want a tumble or not, I mean."
Something moved in the exquisite, shadowy face at her words. Some fleeting
emotion she supposed was better left unrecognized.
"Must you speak like a common trollop?" he asked after a moment's silence.
Elisabeth sat bolt upright in bed, and it never occurred to her to cover her
full breasts. Modesty had no place in her life; she survived by enticing men
with coppers to spend. And she had not been unhappy or ashamed, for she'd only
done what she must.
Her cheeks were as hot as the last coals tumbling through the grate. "That's
what I am, sir. Who else would I talk like now, besides me own self?"
Valerian looked as though she'd struck him, then he whirled suddenly and
flung the candle into the fireplace. The tallow melted and caught fire before he
turned to face her again.
"I can't bear it," he murmured, rubbing his temples with a thumb and
forefinger. "This is worse than if I'd never found you at all."
Elisabeth felt a sudden, sweeping sympathy for him, just as she had for that
lonely fellow in the painting, standing on the very brink of hell. Rising onto
her knees, she made her way to the end of the bed. "For tonight," she said
softly, "I can try to pretend that I'm her. I ain't been around so many ladies
as some others might have been, but I think if I just kept quiet—"
He made an odd, strangled sound that might have been either a sigh or a sob.
Then he came to where she knelt, placed his hands on either side of her head,
and pressed her close against his chest.
"No," he whispered brokenly. "No, love. You needn't change to suit me. I
adore you—I always will, no matter what you do. Yours is a splendid and brave
spirit, and the truth is, you are far better than any woman, anywhere—"
She raised her hands to his shoulders and gazed up into his magnificent face.
She didn't understand a great deal of what he said, it was true, but she knew
how to console a man. "Let a girl lend a bit of comfort, won't you?" she said.
"It won't be so bad, I promise."
He gazed into her eyes, idly smoothing the pads of his thumbs over her
cheekbones. "Such charity," he marveled, and she knew by the tender despair in
his voice he wasn't mocking her. "Have you no inhibitions at all?"
She was eager to lift his spirits. "I don't know," she said quickly, "but if
you'll just explain how that's done—"
Valerian threw back his head and gave a shout of laughter, and when he looked
at her again, it really did seem that there might be tears glistening in his
eyes.
Elisabeth flushed, closing her hands into fists against his chest. "What's
the joke?" she demanded.
He lifted her until she was standing, her feet sinking into the feather
ticking as her knees had done before, her face on a level with his own. "Stay
here with me," he pleaded quietly. I'll give you whatever you want—all the gowns
and kirtles you could wish for—a bucket of gold to celebrate the setting of
every sun—anything."
Elisabeth relaxed her hands. No man had ever spoken to her that way, as if
she had the option of granting or refusing his petition, when he was willing to
pay so dear a price for her company. "And I don't have to be her—that other
woman?"
Valerian lifted his face for a few moments, as though silently begging some
favor of heaven, and then lifted her into his arms. "You only have to be
Elisabeth," he said in a husky tone. "Tomorrow, after the sun goes down, you and
I will be off to London, and we'll buy you so many baubles and ribbons that you
won't be able to carry them all."
"You wouldn't make a promise like that and then change your mind, would you?"
He smiled and shook his head. "No, sweet. A promise is a promise."
She thought he would lie with her at last, since he carried her around the
bed and set her so gently atop the smooth covers, but instead he just stood
there, looking down at her.
Elisabeth caught hold of his hand, realizing that she wanted very much for
him to stay. A peculiar state of shyness had overtaken her, though, and she
could not confess what she was thinking.
"Couldn't we go in the morning?" she asked eagerly. "To London Town, I mean."
"I shall be busy then," he answered, and his words had just the faintest
edge. "Have your evening meal early. We'll set out as soon as the moon rises."
Something compelled her to argue, to stall, so that he might stay longer.
"But there's wolves about then, ain't there?"
"I am not afraid of those poor creatures," Valerian replied, "nor should you
be. They'll do you no harm."
Despite the gentle tone in which he spoke, Elisabeth knew he would not change
his mind. For reasons of his own—only the saints knew what they were—he did not
wish to travel the road to London by day.
In Elisabeth's opinion, it was daft to take such a chance, for there were not
only wolves to lie in wait along the way, but brigands, too. She told herself it
was for the gowns she was going, and the gold he'd promised—a bucketful of it
for every day at sunset, he'd said! Of course, he was probably bluffing about
that.
She sighed. If things didn't turn out to her liking, why, London was a big
place, and it would be easy to slip away and make a new start for herself.
Especially with money saved and good clothes to wear.
"Won't you stay?" she said, still clasping his hand, which felt strangely
cool and hard.
Valerian bent just far enough to brush his lips, shiver-light, across her
knuckles. "Some other night, my love. When you've learned to trust me. And don't
think of running away once you get to London—there are creatures far deadlier
than wolves wandering its streets."
Elisabeth gasped, for she'd only thought of losing herself in that
great city—she certainly hadn't spoken of it aloud. "You're a warlock!" she
accused, meaning to sit up again, to flee the room, nay, the castle itself, and
take her chances with the wild animals and thieves she might well meet on the
road.
She could not move. Valerian held her with nothing but his gaze, and yet she
was pinioned to the bed.
"I pray you," he said evenly, "do not insult me so again. I am no such
creature."
Tears, more of wonder and amazement than fear, sprang to Elisabeth's eyes.
She had given up struggling beneath his invisible hold, having found it futile
to do so. "What are you, then?" she persisted, barely breathing the words. "You
said yourself, when first you came out of the shadows beside the window, that
you are more than a man!"
"Brave, foolish Elisabeth," he said, withdrawing a little way into the
darkness. "That was your fatal flaw before as well, you know. You were not wise
enough to be afraid, and that's why the sea took you from me."
"What do you mean?" Elisabeth might have been bound by visible ropes; the
spell he'd cast over her was that strong. "What are you, if you ain't a man or a
warlock? And what do you mean, saying the sea took me away from you? What have
you done to me?"
Valerian did not reply, but simply retreated another step, and then another.
In the next instant he was gone, without so much as stirring a draft.
The enchantment was broken; freed from whatever mysterious power had held her
pressed to the mattress, Elisabeth leaped off the bed and rushed to the place
where Valerian had been until a mere heartbeat before.
Furious because she could not comprehend his trick, she stomped one foot and
let loose with a string of curses that would have turned the River Thames back
upon itself.
Valerian did not return that night, although Elisabeth kept her eyes open as
long as she could, waiting for him.
Daisy
Las Vegas, 1995
The trip back from Telluride was never quite clear in Daisy's memory. One
minute she'd been driving down the highway in the predawn darkness, sensing
rather than seeing the mountains and Christmas-scented forests all around her.
The next, she found herself cruising through the Nevada desert in the bright
afternoon sunlight, only a few miles outside her hometown.
Either she really was losing her mind, or Valerian had come through with a
version of broomstick travel after all.
Turning onto the roadside, Daisy put on the brakes and shut off the engine.
Then she just sat there, trembling, her forehead resting against the steering
wheel, until she was sure she wouldn't a) hyperventilate or b) go into
hysterics.
After a few moments of recovery, she reached up and wrenched the rearview
mirror toward her, peering into her own eyes, noting the shadows beneath them
and the pallor of her skin.
"You're not crazy, Chandler," she said aloud and with conviction. "Have you
got that? If you saw a guy disappear, he damned well disappeared! And
if you think you made the trip between Telluride and Vegas in practically the
blink of an eye, then that's what happened!"
A swirling blue light flashed across her reflected image, and she sighed and
tilted her head back against the seat to take a deep breath, hold it to the
count of five, and release it slowly. It was an antistress technique she'd read
about in a magazine article while waiting in the dentist's office.
The state trooper approached the car on the driver's side and rapped on the
window.
"You feeling all right, ma'am?" he inquired through the glass.
Daisy rolled it down. The trooper was young, and probably still convinced he
could change the world, and her heart went out to him. According to the plastic
tag on his uniform shirt, his name was Wilson.
She nodded and smiled. "I'm okay. I guess I'm a little tired, though—I just
drove over from my sister's place in Telluride."
Okay, so that might have been a small lie, Daisy conceded to her twitching
conscience. What was she supposed to have said—that she'd been zapped from Colorado to Nevada, without even touching down in Utah? Badge or no badge,
she'd wind up in a room with upholstered walls if she told the truth.
"I'd like to take a look at your license and registration, please," Wilson
said, with an endearing all-American smile.
Daisy reached for her purse, but slowly. She was a cop herself, after all,
and she knew well enough how a quick move would look from the trooper's
perspective. She handed him the requested license along with her badge and was
removing the registration from the clip on the visor when he cleared his throat.
"That's all right, Detective Chandler," he said, returning the laminated card
with her mug shot on it, along with the small leather folder containing her
police ID and badge. He was blushing a little. "You know how it is."
"Yeah," Daisy said good-naturedly, "I do."
"I could drive you into town if you're too tired to go on."
Daisy shook her head. "I'm okay. I just needed to take a breather, that's
all. Thanks."
The trooper nodded, touched the brim of his hat, and strode back to his car.
Daisy watched his retreating figure in the mirror, grinning slightly and
thinking there was nothing quite like a man in a uniform.
Except maybe a vampire magician in a tux and a flowing cape, she reflected,
starting the ignition, signaling, and pulling back out onto the freeway.
Trooper Wilson chivalrously escorted her all the way to the Las Vegas city
limits.
She sighed when he took an exit and headed back in the other direction. So
much for the police escort.
At first Daisy's apartment seemed to be just the way she'd left it. She
called Nadine right away, ignoring the blinking light on her answering machine,
and heard her sister's cheerful "Hello?"
Daisy closed her eyes. Would Nadine remember her visit, or had Valerian wiped
it out of her mind, and Freddy's, as he'd claimed? "Hi, sis," she said in a rush
of breath. "How are you?"
"Daze! Hi! Freddy and I were just talking about you this morning—it's the
darnedest thing. We both dreamed you showed up late last night and
slept on our hide-abed! Isn't that wild—the two of us having the same dream?"
"Wild," Daisy agreed, feeling a bit sad and very disoriented. By now she half
believed she'd dreamed her part of the experience, too. "When's that baby
planning to be born? When interest rates go down? When there's another
Republican in the White House?"
Nadine laughed. "I'd ask her, but I think she's busy doing aerobics. This kid
never sleeps."
Daisy felt bruised inside. It was, and would always be, a sharp
disappointment that she couldn't be there for Nadine at this important time.
"Have you and Freddy managed to agree on a name yet?"
"No," Nadine admitted. '"He wants to call her Carmen Miranda. Trust me,
Daisy, no child of mine is going to go around with half the produce department
piled on top of her head."
Now it was Daisy who laughed. "What do you want to call her?" she asked when
she'd recovered.
"Whitney," Nadine replied in a wistful voice. "It's such a classy name, don't
you think? But Freddy says it's pretentious."
"I'm sure the two of you will come up with something suitable."
There was a short silence. "When are you coming over to see us?" Nadine
finally asked.
Daisy's eyes burned. When we've found this Thing, this murdering fiend,
and driven a stake through its heart. Or shot it with a silver bullet.
"Soon," she said aloud, after what she hoped was an inaudible sniffle.
"Are you catching cold?"
It was Daisy's day for telling lies, among other things. "Yeah," she said.
"Maybe I'll take a few days off to drink chicken broth and watch soap operas."
"Good plan."
"You'll call? When it's time, I mean?"
"You bet," Nadine said gently. "You're destined to be Carmen Miranda's
favorite aunt. Besides, I'm expecting a really good baby present from you."
Daisy smiled. "Don't worry about that," she said. "I've been poring over
catalogs and prowling through malls for weeks. I'm going to send something that
will make Miss Whitney Donaldson the envy of the disposable diaper
crowd."
"Why don't you bring the gift in person?" Nadine asked.
Daisy's smile faded. "I can't get away just now, sweetie," she said. "Trust
me when I tell you that some very big things are going down around here right
now."
Nadine let out a long, martyrly sigh. Evidently she figured it was her turn
to be the mother hen of the pair. "I worry about you, Daze. You take too many
risks. And it seems like every time I watch one of those reality shows on
television, some police officer gets killed."
"Nadine? There's an easy solution to that—stop watching reality shows."
"Promise me you'll be careful. God knows where Mom is—we're probably happier
not knowing. But you're all I've got, Daisy, and I can't bear to lose you."
A tear slipped down Daisy's right cheek, and she dashed it away with the back
of her free hand. "I'm not all you have," she reminded her sister. "You've got
Freddy and that little one doing a high-impact workout under your rib cage."
Images of Jillie and Susan's bloodless bodies filled her mind and made her
stomach pitch. She'd try her damnedest, she vowed silently, not to end up like
them. "Look, just focus on the business at hand, okay? I'll be fine."
Nadine didn't sound reassured, but they said their goodbyes and hung up.
Daisy immediately called O'Halloran on his cell phone, guessing that he
wouldn't be in his office if he could help it.
She was right.
"O'Halloran," he barked. "Don't tell me there's been another murder," he
rushed on before Daisy could even identify herself, "because I don't want to
hear it!"
"Has there been another murder?" she demanded.
"Shit," O'Halloran snapped. "This is Chandler, ain't it? You're already back
in town."
There are moments when I'm not sure I ever left in the first place, Daisy
thought, with a sort of fatalistic whimsy. "It's your winning personality and
your movie-star body, O'Halloran," she said. "You drive me mad with passion. How
could I stay away?"
He swore again, more creatively than before and with considerably more venom.
"You're on leave, damn it!" he growled once he'd finished reciting the long list
of colorful epithets and expletives he'd learned in nearly three decades of
public service.
Daisy smiled into the telephone receiver. "Don't talk like that," she said
sweetly. "It ain't becoming."
O'Halloran sighed heavily. It wasn't easy, the sound seemed to say,
single-handedly thwarting evil and holding back the tide of crime.
"All right," he said. "You'll read it in the papers or see it on the tube
anyhow. Somebody else was killed last night."
Daisy leaned against the wall, her eyes closed. "Who?"
"It wasn't another one of that magician's showgirls, if that's what you're
thinking," O'Halloran said, his voice gruff with suppressed emotion. "But the
M.O. was the same. Lady named Janet Hurly."
Daisy knew her partner well. "There is a connection, though, isn't there?"
"Yes, damn it, for all the concern it is of yours right now, with your badge
in limbo. You stay out of this, Chandler, or I swear to God I'll go to the chief
myself and tell him you think you've been to Mars twice on an alien spaceship.
And he'll believe me, too, after the way you went T.U. in the supermarket."
"O'Halloran."
"She was this Valerian guy's agent and business manager," he finally
admitted. "The victim, I mean."
Daisy muttered a favorite swearword of her own, rubbing her right temple with
two fingers. "Getting information out of you is like getting a congressman to
admit he wears lacy underwear. I feel like I've just dragged Lake Tahoe with a
hairnet!"
"Why should I make it easy? This one's my problem."
"That's what you think, O'Halloran."
He hung up.
"O'Halloran!" Daisy screamed into the mouthpiece. Then she disconnected with
a belated bang, knowing it was useless to try to reason with the man. He thought
he was protecting her.
Instantly the phone rang again, and Daisy snatched it off the hook.
"What?" she demanded, thinking it was O'Halloran calling back with another
reason why she shouldn't try to do her job. He might fancy himself her knight in
shining armor, but she'd be damned if she'd let him trample her career beneath
the hooves of his trusty charger.
"Dai-sy." The voice was the same mechanical, androgynous drone she'd heard
before. "Time—to—die—soon—"
"Why did you kill Janet Hurly?" Daisy interrupted acidly. She was too furious
to be afraid; that would come later, she supposed, when she'd had time to think.
"I thought I was supposed to be next." She drew out the last words, mimicking
the caller's tinny monotone.
"I left—a—message—for you," the thing said. There was no soul behind the
voice, no emotion. "I'll be sending—a special gift—very soon."
Daisy felt a familiar chill. "Gee, thanks," she replied, revealing none of
the cloying, elemental fear that was climbing her backbone, vertebra by
vertebra. "I was beginning to think it was over between us."
"Goodbye, Dai-sy/Bren-na/Elis-a-beth/Jen-ny. See—you—soon."
Daisy hung up and dashed into the bathroom as bile surged into the back of
her throat. She was bending over the toilet, shivering and retching
convulsively, when out of the corner of one eye she caught a glimpse of a still
form behind the shower curtain.
With a cry Daisy whirled, automatically reaching for her service
revolver—which was tucked away under the front seat of her car. There was a
baseball bat in the towel cupboard—she'd never really recovered from seeing
Psycho on the late-late show—and Daisy grabbed it and prepared to swing.
The shape behind the shower curtain didn't move or speak.
Bravado was all she had, besides the baseball bat. Reason and experience told
her that if she tried to run, the intruder would be on her before she got to the
front door. If he happened to be bigger or stronger, she'd be in deep sewage.
"If you have a weapon," she said forcefully, "drop it. Now."
Nothing.
Daisy took a deep breath, let it out, and then, on one of those rash impulses
that sometimes earn cops their own segment on the local news, reached out and
wrenched the plastic curtain to one side.
A life-size blowup doll, the kind that can be purchased in any sleazy novelty
shop, dangled from the shower head by a noose fashioned from the belt of Daisy's
bathrobe. For a dramatic touch, two small red marks had been drawn onto the
neck.
Daisy turned back to the toilet and threw up in earnest.
When the heaving stopped at last, she rinsed her mouth, washed her face, and
called O'Halloran on his car phone again. "Get over here," she said calmly.
"Now."
She hung up and went down to her car for the thirty-eight. While she waited
for her partner to arrive, Daisy inspected the rest of the apartment. None of
the windows had been forced, and she remembered clearly that the front door was
locked when she'd arrived home from a trip she probably hadn't gone on in the
first place.
Daisy sat down on the couch in her living room, the revolver in her lap, and
heard the echo of the caller's robotic voice in her brain.
I left a message for you…
O'Halloran didn't bother to knock. He just walked right in. Daisy thought
numbly that she should be grateful he hadn't kicked the door open, movie-cop
style, weapon drawn. She might have shot him if he had.
"What's going on, Chandler?" To his credit, O'Halloran looked genuinely
concerned. "You space out again or something?"
"Just go and look in my shower," she said.
I left a message…
O'Halloran did so and bellowed an exclamation. When he got back to the living
room, his face was heart-attack gray, and sweat beaded his forehead and upper
lip.
"Jesus, Joseph, and Mary," he rasped, shoving one hand through his sparse
hair. "That's just plain ugly."
Daisy knew there was more. Maybe she was psychic. "And?"
O'Halloran sank into a chair, pulling his cell phone out of his jacket pocket
in almost the same motion. "Janet Hurly's body was found hanging from a showerhead," he said as he dialed
headquarters. "The killer used what looked like the belt of a bathrobe for a
rope. What we got here, Chandler, is a real reasonable facsimile."
11
Valerian
Outside Las Vegas, 1995
The taillights of Daisy's car, glowing red as the eyes of a demon in a bad
painting, dissolved into the predawn gloom. I worked a mental trick that would
cause the journey to pass quickly for her and withstood the temptation to set my
beloved on a path leading anywhere except back to Las Vegas.
How I yearned to lock her away in some enchanted tower—if such a place
existed—or hide her like a treasure in my desert lair. The ruby ring, the
harbinger of her death, would arrive soon, I knew, and I was full of terror.
I dared not attempt to shield her, though, however noble my intentions, for
Daisy cherished her freedom in this life, as she had in all the others before
it. I had learned from bitter experience that she would despise me for
imprisoning her.
I was, by that time, utterly desperate. I had searched for my ruthless enemy,
along with Maeve, and all to no avail. I think I realized, even then, that if I
found the fiend I sought, I would also find the one who had stalked my beloved
and me, down through the centuries, making a deadly gift of the bloodred
gemstone I had come to hate and fear.
As I saw it, I had no choice but to awaken Tobias, the slumbering one, who
had been among the first vampires created. The rest of that strange fellowship
had perished by their own choice, in the womb of the earth, except of course for
Lisette, the first queen. She'd died by Maeve's hand, and rightfully so, far
away on a moonswept moor.
But those are other tales, for other vampires to tell.
I willed myself to Tobias's lair, barely reaching that gravelike pit ahead of
the consuming sunlight, and sprawled beside my elder. Before I could even
attempt to rouse him, by word or touch, the consuming sleep bore me down and
down, into darkness.
I was trapped inside my dreams, where I saw Janet Hurly, my mortal manager
and something akin to a friend, savagely murdered in her apartment. I was unable
to come to her aid, mired as I was in the vampire sleep, and it was perfect
torment to look on helplessly. When it was over at last, when he'd strangled
Janet, this creature I couldn't quite recognize, and then left her body hanging
from the showerhead by a strip of cloth, it seemed her staring eyes were fixed
on me.
Accusing. Asking why.
I flailed mentally, trying to regain consciousness and thus escape the
smothering weight of the nightmare, but it was no use. Sometimes I was wakeful
during the daylight hours, though I could never tolerate the sun, but it was not
a feat I could perform at will. The phenomenon happened on its own, generally
after I had been feeding with uncommon appetite for a long period of time.
At last, at last, the blessed caress of twilight reached me, stretching
fingers of shadow down through the soil, and I was again in command of my body
and mind. I sat up in Tobias's cramped coffin of a lair, pebbles and the bones
of some hapless mortal scrabbling beneath me as I moved.
"Tobias!" I shook his slender shoulder. He resembled a lad, having been made
while still a youth, but in fact he was, as far as I knew, the oldest vampire in
existence.
He mumbled and stirred slightly, making a groping motion with one hand, to
dismiss me.
I straddled him and grasped both his shoulders now, and the rotted fabric of
his tunic crumbled in my hands, fragile as curls of ash on a cold hearth.
"Damn you, Tobias, wake! I need your help!"
Even in a stupor he was powerful, and with no physical effort at all, with
nothing more than a half-formed thought, he cast me from him. I slammed against
the side of our joint tomb with a jarring impact, mentally revising my earlier
supposition that only Maeve Tremayne was stronger than I.
"Go—away," Tobias muttered.
For Daisy's sake, I would brave Tobias's rare but formidable wrath. I would
plead, bargain, lie.
Anything to keep Daisy from the unknown monster.
I knelt at his side. "Please, Old One, hear me. There is a fiend, a vampire,
I think, but perhaps a warlock—"
Tobias interrupted in the expressionless tones of one entranced. "Return to
Dunnett's Head," he said slowly without opening his eyes. "The answer is
there—and not there. That is the riddle."
With that, he settled deeper into his nest of death, looking for all the
world like a child curling up on the nursery couch for his afternoon nap. I knew
I would get no more from him no matter how long or how forcefully I persisted.
Dunnett's Head. My ancient home.
I sat back on my haunches. I had not been near that accursed place since the
day Brenna and I left it, while I was yet mortal. Crouched there in Tobias's
grave, I doubted that even a trace of the village itself had survived the
passing centuries, though there might well be ruins of Baron Afton-St. Claire's
austere keep.
I covered my face with both hands for a moment, hating even the thought of
returning to the scene of so much tragedy and pain, knowing at the same time
that I must go immediately. Tobias had said its name clearly.
Dunnett's Head.
I dared not even take the time to hunt and feed, for any delay might rob me
of my determination to find my foe before he completed his plan of revenge. I
did not need to be told that his designs included Daisy.
Daisy. She would have been doomed anyway, like Brenna and Elisabeth and Jenny
and the others before her. There was no escaping the curse, no matter what I did
or said or thought, but my desperate delusion was also a part of the mysterious
evil that had tormented us both for six hundred years. Each time I stumbled
across my beloved, in each new incarnation, I believed I could save her. I
had to cling to that vain fancy, or go stark, screaming mad at the prospect
of losing her again.
I turned the powers of my mind upon Dunnett's Head, and in the length of a
mortal's heartbeat, I was there, standing among the moonlit stones that had once
formed the baron's keep. I shivered in the night wind that surged upward from
the sea, although a vampire does not feel that kind of chill, and turned slowly
to look around me.
In a few paces I stood where the courtyard had been, in the exact spot where
Brenna's father had bested me in swordplay. I bear the scar of that conflict
still, a tidy line across my middle.
Soon I found the remnants of the great hall and the chapel, and there was
still a ditch, though so shallow now that it was hardly discernible, where the
moat had been.
Memories assailed me, striking my spirit like stones hard-flung, and I found
I could not bear to stand in this place where Brenna had been and was no more.
I walked down the hillside to the site of the village, traversing the short
distance as a mortal man would have done, instead of willing myself to my
destination, for I was in no hurry to arrive.
Not even stones remained to mark where the cluster of humble huts and shops
had been, but it didn't matter. I found the location of the bootmaker's shop,
with our pitiful rooms at the back, where I'd been born as a human child, where
I'd nursed at my mother's breast and endured my father's resentment as I grew. I
knew the places where Krispin and I had played as boys, the spots where peddlers
had sold their wares and tinkers had made their bright, noisy camps. I looked
out upon the dark sea, watching the moonlight dance in ever-changing patterns of
gold and silver, and wondered why Tobias had sent me here.
I had found memories, yes. But what of the answers I sought? What had I
gained by returning, beyond another increase in my capacity to endure pain?
I might have left then, in frustration and disappointment, were it not for a
stray thought of my poor mother. I knew that she, like my father and Krispin,
like most everyone in the village, had died in the pestilence. Brenna and I had
looked on from the hillside while corpses, blackened by that foul plague even
before they burned, were flung onto the blazing pyre.
Someone must have buried the bones afterward, I reasoned, for the majority of
our neighbors had been Christians, and they will go, I have found, to great lengths to dig proper
graves and say holy words over them.
While I did not mourn my father, I had loved my mother and brother quite
devotedly in my way. I wanted to find their last resting place and stand beside
those long-forgotten plots for a brief interval, remembering, hoping they had
fared well in the next world.
They deserved that much, I reflected, after all their suffering.
When I had made considerable explorations, striding this way and that,
dredging my memory and all my senses, I divined the presence of a large, common
grave, well away from the place where the village had been, and hurried toward
it, gliding silently through the grass like a specter.
Standing beside that unseen tomb, with its great, dry jumble of bones, I
closed my eyes and fixed my concentration on days so long past that only
immortals remember their like. After a time I began to see images of the bodies
in that grave as they had been before the plague struck.
I saw Old Tom, the tanner, and Ben Willy, who milled the corn into meal. I
saw their wives and their children, and so many others as well—fishermen,
crofters, the baron himself. They were ghosts, some joyous, others full of
sorrow, and they cast dancing shadows into my mind.
I saw my mother, the uncommonly beautiful Seraphina, and knew her remains lay
disjointed and brown within the pit. My father's bones were there, too, far from
hers and reaching out to her even in death, but I felt no impression of Krispin,
no echo of his laughter or his quick fury.
I frowned. If he did not lie here with the others, then where? Had he escaped
to the sea, onboard one of the ships he was forever sighting on the horizon? Had
he gone to London, or taken up the Christian cross, as the good brothers had
bade me do so long ago?
I heard Tobias's voice in my head.
Return to Dunnett's Head. The answer is there—and not there.
I frowned, and another chill struck me, coming not from the cold and
treacherous sea but rising from within my own being.
Could it be? Was this my enemy, then—my own brother, Krispin?
No, I insisted to myself. He loved me, and I loved him.
Krispin would have been unable to keep his existence from me for so long.
Besides, we had been brothers, friends. He had followed me everywhere, looked up
to me, laughed with me…
And wanted to do everything I did.
Everything.
I shuddered and tipped my head back to search the starry sky with eyes that
burned. "No," I whispered. "Not Krispin."
But I knew even then that my brother had not returned to dust, like our
father and mother. He was aboard, and he was my avowed foe. Some vampire, most
likely Challes, had transformed Krispin into a blood-drinker.
My despair was absolute, all-encompassing. It drove me to my knees, there
beside that mass grave, where I wept with fresh grief.
"Krispin." I whispered. "Why?"
There was, of course, no answer, for my brother, as it happened, was very
busy elsewhere.
Elisabeth
London, 1457
The house was fine indeed, with a cozy fire burning in every room and
paintings on the walls. Elisabeth had a chamber of her own—that was what the
master called it, a "chamber," and she liked the way the word sounded—and even
a servant whose task it was to look after her. The maiden, named Kate Crown,
plainly disapproved of Elisabeth and her country manners, but she was a canny
soul and showed her misgivings only when Valerian wasn't about.
Elisabeth saw neither hide nor hair of the master during the day, and even at
night he often had business abroad. She didn't mind dealing with Kate and the
other servants of the household, for she could hold her own against that lot
right enough, but she'd become somewhat attached to Valerian and was always
anxious for his return.
He joined her at the table most nights, and an abundance of roast meat and
boiled vegetables was always served, along with fruits and potatoes, but
Elisabeth never saw him take so much as a bite to eat. She asked him once why he
didn't touch his food, and he said he'd had all he needed somewhere else. She
didn't raise the subject again, but she'd often gone hungry in her brief and
difficult life, and she still thought it was a queer thing never to take up a
spoon or a knife in your own house.
There were other odd things about the household and its master.
For one, Valerian was never addressed as Mister This or Mister That—the
servants called him sir or master, and kept their eyes down. His friends, of
whom there were a great many, and who always visited at night, were every bit as
strange as he was, and greeted him in odd ways. They scolded him indulgently, as
if he were a child, and yet they seemed to revere and even fear him.
Elisabeth was frankly jealous and wished they wouldn't be so familiar. She
especially hated the women, in their grand gowns and jewel-trimmed capes, for to
them he was "darling" and "beautiful one," and they kissed him and smoothed his
hair.
Sometimes, when he was home of an evening, he read to Elisabeth from
manuscripts and bound volumes by the fire in the drawing room. He took her to
see a puppet show once, and every night, when she was ready to go to bed, she
found a handful of shimmering gold coins waiting on her pillow.
She hoarded them against a future that might be less bountiful, hiding them
under a loose board in a corner of her room. She had learned long since that
good fortune was no more trustworthy than spring weather or a tinker's promise,
but there could be no denying that she was in luck.
Not that Elisabeth was entirely happy, for she wasn't. She had come to want
Valerian, as a woman wants a man, but despite his generosity, he still had not
come to her bed. In fact, he hadn't even entered her room since the second
night, when he'd appeared as if by conjuring and asked her to stay with him.
One evening, after a month of high living in London Town, Elisabeth was alone
by the drawing room fire. She kicked away her slippers to warm her toes and
wished it was so easy to take the chill off her heart. She was a woman, not a
child, as the master seemed to think, and she longed to be touched and held and
spoken to in soft words.
Elisabeth had enjoyed her work at the Horse and Horn, both upstairs and down.
It was worth enduring the occasional bad night for all the times when she'd
taken comfort from the warm presence of another person.
She wanted that again.
The guest came in the early evening, when the master was out, and asked
expressly for Elisabeth. He was fair and handsome in a prissy sort of way, and
he would not give his name. He'd brought a packet for her, he said, a splendid
gift.
The package was small, a sheet of parchment tied with a thin blue ribbon.
Pleased, Elisabeth opened the bundle and found a golden ring inside, set with a
great, glittering red stone.
Elisabeth closed her fingers around the jewel, wanting it for her own and yet
strangely afraid, too. "What do you want in return?" she asked, for she knew the
ways of the world well enough.
The stranger slipped the exquisite ring onto her finger, and the square stone
winked, red as an ox's blood, in the firelight. "Only for you to wear it," he
said.
Elisabeth was speechless.
He touched her forehead with light, cool fingers, and then he was gone.
Within five minutes Elisabeth had no memory of the encounter, and could not
explain, to herself or anyone else, how she'd come to have such a ring.
When Valerian returned home, it was late, for the moon had fitted itself into
a high corner of the window, and it was so pale Elisabeth could almost see
through it, like an onion skin. There were two young men with him, their eyes
bright, their beautiful skin white as new milk, their clothes rich and elegantly
cut. To another person, they might have seemed drunk, but Elisabeth was an
expert on that, and she knew they were sober as Saint Peter, the pair of them.
The master stopped on the threshold when he saw Elisabeth curled up in his
favorite chair, and she realized with a start that he was surprised to see her.
That was an odd thing in itself, since he usually knew not only where she was,
but what she was thinking.
The two knaves squeezed into the doorway behind Valerian, peering over his
shoulders at Elisabeth.
"The rumors are true," one of them said. "What a vision she is!"
"However do you resist her?" asked the other.
Valerian's gaze was fixed on the fiery jewel gracing Elisabeth's finger, and
a small frown creased his brow.
There ended the theory that the costly bauble had come from him.
She hoped she hadn't taken to stealing in her sleep.
Elisabeth rose, with a dignity she'd learned by watching the master's female
guests, and put her hands on her hips. "I'll thank the both of you not to talk
about me as if I had neither ears nor wits!"
Valerian's mouth twitched at one side, but Elisabeth didn't know whether he'd
suppressed a smile or a scowl. And she wouldn't have cared, whichever one it
was.
"Go to bed, Elisabeth. It is late," he said evenly. She noticed that he
didn't move out of the doorway, but effectively blocked his friends from
entering the room.
"I ain't a little girl and I won't be ordered about," Elisabeth replied with
a lift of her chin.
The master raised one eyebrow. "Ah, but this is my household," he countered
in the same smooth tones as before. "Here things are done as I command."
"Are they now?" Elisabeth pressed. She had doubts about the wisdom of what
she was saying, but she couldn't seem to stop herself. She folded her arms and
raised her chin. "For all I care, you can take your bloody commands and bugger
yourself with them, one right after the other."
The lads laughed uproariously at this, but Valerian did not look pleased.
"Leave us," he said, without sparing his guests so much as a glance, but they
knew he was speaking to them. Elisabeth recognized that right enough, because
they almost collided with each other in their rush to back away.
"Wait!" Elisabeth called to them, not in fear, but in defiance. "I'll go with
you, lads. It's that dull around this place—"
She started to pass Valerian, as if to follow them, and he caught her arm in
a firm but gentle hold and stopped her. It was hard not to smile; silly of him,
not to realize that she'd never leave without her store of gold coins and at
least one woolen cloak.
"You're not going anywhere," he said. "And we'll discuss that little trinket
you're wearing later."
Elisabeth hid her triumph, and the flash of fear that streaked through her
like lightning, as she had hid her amusement. He'd read her mind often enough in
the past, the master had, but he seemed to have lost the knack.
Still holding her arm, Valerian glanced at his guests and repeated his
earlier request in blunter terms.
"Get out."
They obeyed without further ado, and the door slammed hard behind them.
"What is this about?" the master demanded of Elisabeth when they were alone.
Her chin quivered, and she thought she might cry. Damned if she would, she
vowed in the very next instant, she who hadn't shed a single tear since the day
her father died of a fever, when she was but fourteen.
"I want to go back to the Horse and Horn," she said, hugging herself tightly
with both arms.
He did not release her until he'd marched her back over to the chair and
pushed her into it. "You want to do what?" he rasped, pacing the length
of the stone hearth several times and then stopping suddenly to stand there
glaring at her. "'In the name of all that's holy, why? Haven't I treated you
well—given you food and coin and garments fit for a princess to wear?"
"You've treated me," Elisabeth said bravely, though in truth her courage was
starting to crumble, "like I was your sister!"
The master stared down at her, clearly astounded. "My behavior has been
impeccable!"
"Whatever that means!" Elisabeth flung out her arms in exclamation. "Talk
like a plain man for once, damn you, and not some walking book with skin and
hair and eyeballs!"
He closed his eyes for a moment. "What would you have me say?"
Elisabeth swallowed. "I wouldn't have you say nothing," she replied boldly.
"You don't only talk too fancy, sir—you talk too much as well!"
He watched her in pointed silence, his arms folded.
A terrible thought occurred to Elisabeth, a reason why he had never touched
her in any intimate fashion.
"No," Valerian said before she could voice the possibility, "I do not prefer
boys to women."
It was almost a relief that he was reading her mind again; at least he was
paying attention.
Elisabeth blushed, holding his gaze, fierce and intimidating though it was.
"I need somebody to lie down with me," she said. "I need to be held real tight
in somebody's arms." And then she began to cry. Noisily, with a great deal of
snuffling and heaving of shoulders.
Valerian hesitated, then stepped forward and, without a word, pulled her into
his embrace. She wailed into his fancy tunic, the fabric bunched in her fists.
Presently, when she'd expended most of her great sorrow, he lifted her gently
off her feet and carried her up the stairway and along the passage to the door
of her chamber. She was certain she wouldn't be able to stand it if he left her
alone, feeling the way she did, but he stayed.
He undressed her slowly and with reverence, admiring and caressing her
breasts as he bared them, lightly touching her soft white belly and the tangle
of skin beneath, where her legs met.
Elisabeth lifted her hands to his face and drew his head down. When their
lips touched, he moaned, somewhere deep inside himself, and for Elisabeth it was
as if there were stout ale mingling with her blood, racing through her veins.
After a while he pulled back from her, just far enough to look into her eyes.
His hands, though cool, seemed to set her flesh ablaze with sensation.
"Is this what you want?" he asked. "The choice must be yours, beloved, not
just mine."
She nodded, frantic and feverish, and pressed herself close to him.
Beloved. The word found its way into her very soul and tolled there, like a
bell. "Yes," she whispered. "Oh, yes."
He laid her gently on the bed and took off his clothes without hurrying.
Moonlight streamed in through the windows, making his splendid body glow like
polished marble, and as she watched him, it occurred to Elisabeth that he was
too beautiful, too perfect, to be human.
Valerian was indeed, as he himself had once told her, more than a man.
"Touch me," she said, and he lay down beside her on the soft mattress, taking
her into his arms. There was a single flaw, she saw, as he poised himself above
her, a long, thin scar, pink against the alabaster whiteness of his skin,
spanning the width of his torso.
"I have wanted you for so long," he told her, and she believed him.
Elisabeth had never known such piercing desire, never dreamed of feeling the
way she did that night. She could not lie still and, putting her arms around
Valerian's neck, she moved her hips in a circular motion beneath him.
He groaned, and somewhere far off a hound bayed in primitive harmony.
Their joining, too long delayed, was neither gentle nor ordinary. One moment
they were separate, the next they were a single being, with a shared heartbeat,
breathing the same air, thinking with one mind, one soul entwined with the
other.
There was a sense of the inevitable, of a destiny that could not have been
avoided. They moved together, their pace rapid, urgent, fierce.
Elisabeth pitched beneath Valerian, her hands moving wildly over the smooth
flesh of his back and the flexing muscles of his buttocks, as if to take the
whole of him inside her, as she had taken his manhood. She had pretended with
other men, but with Valerian there was no need; her rising cries were born of
the purest pleasure.
Valerian did not try to quiet her; instead he thrust harder and deeper.
Although he made no sound at all, Elisabeth saw ecstasy in the planes of his
face and felt it in the way he trembled upon her.
She reached satisfaction first, sobbing and breathless, soaring into a new
place, far above the reach of her own mind and soul.
When Valerian followed her into the flames, only moments later, he gave a
long, low cry, and started to spill himself into her. Then his body jerked
convulsively, as if to leap to some new and unexpected height of pleasure. He
closed his eyes, his head thrust back, and gave a raspy, triumphant shout.
The name he called was not her own. It was Brenna's.
Elisabeth didn't care, for he'd given her what she wanted, and she had never
aspired to earn his love, never so much as hoped for such a thing. She cradled
him in her arms and soothed him with light fingers and whispered words while he
shuddered in the aftermath of a climax that had been emotional as well as
physical.
Presently he slid downward upon her warm and welcoming body, still trembling,
to rest his head between her breasts, and she stroked his hair. He turned and
took her nipple, tentatively at first, and then with greed. Elisabeth felt
something reawaken inside her and coil itself tighter and tighter.
She moaned and arched her back, offering herself, and he took her eagerly,
gratefully, running his hands down her sides and then lifting them to her
breasts again.
When he claimed her for the second time, Elisabeth exploded immediately, a
fiery spiral unfurling within her, the circles ever-widening, flinging light
with every revolution, warming the parts of her soul she'd kept secret even from
herself.
Valerian loved her over and over that night, satisfying every desire, meeting
every need. Sometime just before dawn, he let her sleep at last, and when she
opened her eyes at midmorning, he was gone.
She got up, washed, donned a clean gown and over-skirt, and silently dared
Kate Crown, who brought her breakfast on a tray, to speak so much as a word.
Kate did not take the challenge, but the fine ring on Elisabeth's finger
caught her eye, and there would be talk about it in the kitchen for sure. The
maid left the food on the table next to the bed with its tangled covers and left
the room again.
Elisabeth ate fruit and brown bread and some cold meat, then used her knife
to pry up the loose floorboard. She took out the hoard of gold, which was
tightly bundled in a bit of cloth pinched from the kitchen, and marveled at how
heavy it was.
There was enough there, she guessed, to keep her for years, if she was
careful, and she wouldn't have to go back to the Horse and Horn, either, or to
any place like it. The night just past had changed her, in some way she didn't
fully understand. She knew now that she would never lay with another man in the
whole of her life. She had made a serious mistake in wooing the master to her
bed, for she had fallen in love with him in the course of their time together,
but she knew he couldn't return her regard.
Valerian cared for a woman named Brenna, and Elisabeth, wise in the ways of
men, knew it was an eternal bond. There was no room in the master's heart,
generous as it was, for the likes of Betsey Saxon.
A tear fell onto the back of Elisabeth's hand as she replaced the board in
the floor. She could have stayed, if only she'd left well enough alone and
contented herself with what she had. She might not have discovered what love
was, might not have learned to need and want the impossible.
Everything was different now.
The servants were busy, and it was easy to creep out of the house into the
shifting morning fog, with the bundle of gold coins rattling beneath her skirts
and bumping against her thigh as she walked.
She didn't know which way to go, and it didn't really matter, as long as she
got away.
Elisabeth wandered all that day, growing more frightened and confused with
every passing moment, and finally took a room above a seedy, dockside tavern.
She lay curled on the filthy bed, the gold clutched to her middle like an unborn
child, and watched the eerie dance of the fog outside the high, narrow window.
She slipped into a strange reverie, and a fever followed, with terrible
cramps in her bowels.
Valerian found her that night, just after sunset, and brought her home,
holding her even in the carriage, and she felt his tears on her face and in her
hair.
He bathed her himself, tenderly, and sent for a physician, but Elisabeth was
dying. She knew it, and so did Valerian.
He asked her about the ring once when she was lucid, but she could not recall
where it came from, and said she was sorry if she'd pinched it from one of his
lady friends. He wept silently at her words and did not speak of the ruby again
until the following night when he was feeding her spoonfuls of broth.
"Kate said a gentleman brought it, the evening before you ran away," Valerian
said gently. "That would have been a fortnight ago, as of tomorrow. Do you
remember a caller, Elisabeth?"
She sensed that the ring had meaning, as well as value, that it was terribly
important in some way, but she couldn't recall any man. She wished she did, for
that would mean she didn't have to die a thief, with the fires of hell licking
at her toes.
"No," she replied, her eyes filling with tears, and she saw by Valerian's
expression that he believed her.
Just before dawn Elisabeth awakened to see an angel of death standing over
her. He was very beautiful, and a tear left a glittering streak on his cheek.
Despite her weakness, she became aware of a probing sensation, and felt his
mind searching hers, reaching past the fever, the confusion, the pain, into that
place where her spirit lived.
"We can be together for all time," he said. "Let me give you the gift—"
Elisabeth had risen out of her body, and she could see so clearly now that
her physical eyes had closed. She knew what Valerian was, knew he was damned, as
surely as Lucifer and his fallen angels. She loved him without reservation and
without regret, but the price of that love, her very soul, was too dear.
She came back to herself briefly and with an agonizing effort. "No," she
said. "I cannot."
Valerian held her tightly, and she rested her head against his shoulder,
inexpressibly weary. She felt his grief and wished she could console him or
simply say good-bye, but her consciousness was fading, stretching and spreading
itself thin like smoke, until finally it became part of the fog stroking the
window glass with white, shifting fingers.
Dying, it turned out, was easy. A simple matter of letting go…
12
Valerian
Las Vegas, 1995
I was remembering Elisabeth Saxon when I returned to Daisy at sunset of the
following day, having taken my fitful rest in a burrow far beneath the ruins of
the baron's keep. Remembering, with punishing clarity, that I had not watched
her closely enough, not protected her. Perhaps I had even cursed her with my
lovemaking. I suffered greatly over her passing, certain that she would not have
fallen ill and perished after much suffering if I had left her alone, instead of
dragging her away from that wretched tavern to live in a city where disease
flourished.
I forgot about the mysterious ring in my frenzy of bereavement and did not
notice that it was gone until the undertaker and his helper had come to take her
away.
Elisabeth's death had been my doing, of that I was certain. And now Daisy was
doomed as well, if Krispin had his way.
Beneath that terrible certainty was another brier, caught in the tenderest
part of my psyche and festering there—my fragile, cherubic brother, whom I had
loved, despised me and wished me harm. That pup, who had frolicked at my heels,
who had emulated my every word and move and aided me in all forms and fashions
of mischief, had somehow become a ravening wolf, bent on tearing out my heart.
Thus distracted, I failed to concentrate and bungled into Daisy's apartment
with an ungraceful crash, finding myself in the shower stall.
The running water instantly drenched my hair and the dusty suit and cloak I
was wearing, and I roared in surprise and dismay, reaching for the plastic
curtain and shoving it aside. There was a simultaneous scream from beyond.
Daisy stood on the cheap pink-fluff rug, dressed in a pair of oversize
pajamas, with mayhem in her eyes and a baseball bat poised at shoulder level,
ready to do serious damage.
"Oh, for God's sake," she spat, "it's only you." For a moment I thought she
was going to take a swing at my head anyway, and although it would not have done
me any lasting injury, I was still relieved when she lowered the bat.
Belatedly, I confess, I turned off the shower spray and stepped out of the
stall, snatching a towel from a nearby rack and sponging gingerly at my sodden,
mud-streaked cloak.
"Who were you expecting?" I demanded somewhat impatiently. "Norman Bates?"
Some of the air seemed to go out of Daisy, and I thought I discerned the
faintest glimmer of tears pooling along her lower lashes.
She recovered quickly, as she had always done, for among the many sterling
qualities she tended to carry from lifetime to lifetime was a perfectly
astounding capacity for resilience. There had been many occasions when, in my
opinion, cowardice would have served her better. When she rode into the sea as Brenna, for one example, and she fled my house in London as Elisabeth, for
another.
A corner of Daisy's mouth tipped upward in a cocky little grin. "Are you
losing your touch?" she asked, looking me over with a slow impudence I wouldn't
have suffered from anyone else. "Frankly, I'd come to expect a little more
subtlety and grace from you."
I don't doubt that the sheer heat of my annoyance could have dried my sodden
garments, but I chose instead to construct another suit of clothes entirely, by
means of my will. In the figurative blink of an eye, the tails and cloak and
trousers were gone, and in their place were tailored slacks and a cashmere
turtleneck sweater, both black. On my feet, instead of the former water-spotted
spats, were a pair of the sleek boots I have made in a certain elite shop in
Milan.
I must admit I enjoyed Daisy's round-eyed reaction to the transformation,
which had been virtually instantaneous.
"I'm not even going to ask how you did that," she informed me after
closing her gaping mouth and swallowing a few times. "I don't suppose it's a
trick we poor, bumbling mortals can learn?"
I touched the tip of her nose, with its faint golden trail of freckles, and
smiled. "Sorry, love—I believe that particular feat will require a few more
millennia of evolution. Don't feel badly, though—the ability is there,
slumbering away in a rather gelatinous portion of your brain."
Daisy gave me a spook-house smile, purposely grim and humorless. "Thanks so
much for setting me straight," she said with mild irony, then turned on one bare
heel to march out of the bathroom. "Every once in a while I lose touch with the
fact that I'm Only Human."
I had no choice but to trail after her, and I don't mind saying that it
galled me. It has always been my habit, and my distinct preference, to lead, not
follow.
"Is that about poor Janet?" I demanded, hastening along that shoddy little
hallway behind Daisy. "Is that why you're so peevish tonight?"
She turned so quickly that I nearly collided with her at the entrance to her
uninspired living room. "I'm not peevish!" she insisted, folding her arms. "I'm
scared, damn it! I'm scared shitless!"
I hated it when she, or any woman, talked like that. Call me a male
chauvinist vampire, but I miss the old-fashioned female virtues, gracious speech
among them. Sometime, I vowed to myself, I will tell her about her incarnation
as Jenny Wade, when she'd been so sweet-tempered and ladylike.
But this was not the time for lectures. I put my hands on Daisy's shoulders
to steady her and was struck anew by the fragility of her tender flesh and
delicate bones. Ashes to ashes, I thought with a stab of sorrow,
and dust to dust.
"I cannot endure this again," I muttered, speaking more to myself than to
her. Even then, of course, I knew I had no choice but to endure, to suffer, to
pass through the very fires of hell, and, worst of all, to survive it.
Daisy reached up and touched my mouth with the fingertips of her right hand.
"What do you mean by that?" she asked in tones so gentle that they splintered my
dry and hollow heart. "You left out some things the other night when you told me
about our past lives together, didn't you?"
"Not 'our past lives,' darling," I replied, closing my hand around hers,
because I couldn't resist, and brushing her knuckles across my lower lip.
"Yours. I have been who I am—Valerian Lazarus, the bootmaker's son—since my
birth in the fourteenth century."
"What is it that you haven't told me?" she persisted. She might have been
Elisabeth then, or Brenna, or any of the other saucy, dauntless minxes she'd
been through the endless and dreary march of years that lay between our first
encounter and this one. In each successive encounter I have loved her more
deeply than before. "Speak up, please."
I had not told her about the curse, of course. Or about the ruby ring that
always heralded the end of another bittersweet episode between us. And I would
not burden her with those things now, for there was nothing she could do to
change the future.
"Do not ask," I said, and the words came hoarse from my throat, "I cannot and
will not answer."
For a long moment Daisy simply stared up at me, working some old and potent
magic of her own. She looked incredibly small and breakable in those blasted
pajamas, and yet I sensed in her some mysterious power that I would never
understand or possess.
"He was here," she said. "The killer."
I could not have been more horrified or taken aback if Daisy's bat, which
she'd left in the bathroom, had suddenly materialized in her hands and slammed
into my middle. How could I have failed to sense such a threat? How?
"When?" I rasped, grasping her shoulders again.
Daisy turned beneath my hands and walked away, into the kitchen. She took
some modern horror from the freezer and slid it into the microwave before
deigning to meet my gaze and answer my anguished question.
She shrugged, leaning against the counter while the oven whirred behind her.
"While I was visiting—make that not visiting—my sister in Telluride. I
came home and found a life-size doll hanging from the showerhead, with an
improvised noose around its neck. There were two red marks on the throat—for
dramatic effect, I suppose. It was overkill, if you'll forgive the pun."
I stopped myself just as I would have smashed one fist through the cheap
plasterboard of her living room wall. "Here? Krispin was here?"
The bell on the oven chimed, and Daisy opened the door and took out something
evidently intended to pass for a pizza. "Ah, so Super-fiend has a name now. How
interesting."
I was still struggling to regain my inner—and outer—equilibrium. The scent
of the wretched thing she'd cooked and was now preparing to eat—oh, yes,
vampires have the sense of smell in abundance, and all the others, too—nearly
gagged me.
"I discovered the truth only last night," I said, curling my lip and trying
to distance myself from the culinary travesty, which Daisy was now balancing
atop a folded paper towel and raising to her lips. "My brother, Krispin, lives."
Daisy took a bite and had the effrontery to chew as she answered. "So does my
sister, Nadine."
I went to stand on the other side of the living room and opened a window to
the still desert air. "The difference," I said coldly, "is that Krispin, like
me, was born in the fourteenth century. He is a vampire."
"I take it the two of you haven't kept in touch," Daisy observed.
I thrust a hand through my hair in exasperation. "I believed him dead all
these years, and he never troubled himself to disabuse me of the notion."
She shrugged again, raising just one shoulder, and gazed at me over the
expanse of the half-eaten pizza.
"Maybe he didn't know about you, either," she suggested.
I glowered at her. "He veiled himself from me. He could have no honorable
reason for doing that. We were brothers, after all, dragged, bloody, from the
same womb."
Daisy made a face and dropped what remained of her food into the trash.
"Maybe he—what was his name again?—Krispin, that's it. Maybe Krispin
simply doesn't like you? Did you ever consider that possibility?"
She started to lick her fingers—a habit I cannot abide—but stopped when I
fixed my gaze on her and projected my disapproval.
"Clearly, to say that Krispin 'doesn't like me' is an understatement of truly
enormous proportions. I believed, however foolishly, that he cared for me while
he lived, as I did for him."
Daisy raised an eyebrow and, to my relief, wiped her hands clean on a
dishtowel hanging from the refrigerator handle. "It couldn't have been easy to
be your brother," she said. "You've got to admit you can be a bit overwhelming.
A hard act to follow, in more ways than one."
"Be that as it may," I said, struggling again to control my impatience, "I
believe Krispin is the killer. I must find him."
She paled slightly and came a step nearer. "And then?"
Such sorrow welled up within me that I could barely withstand it. "And then I
shall destroy him."'
Daisy drew closer still and laid a hand on my arm. I hoped she did not feel
the involuntary tremor that spilled through what passes, in a vampire, as flesh
and muscle.
"How?"
I saw my brother in my mind's eye, as a small, coltish boy, with sunlight
gleaming in his bright yellow hair and mischief shining in his eyes. I heard him
running after me, imploring me to slow my strides so that he might keep pace.
The memories caused me pain the like of which I have known only a handful of
times—always in connection with this woman—and the images of what the future
might hold for me and for Krispin were so horrible that I could not hold them in
my mind.
I said nothing, because I was incapable of speaking at that moment.
"Is it like in books and movies?" Daisy asked with a tenderness that made me
long to lose myself in her arms for a little while, to nestle in her warm heart
like a dream and hide from all that was mine to do. "Do you have to drive a
stake through his heart?"
"Something like that," I managed to say. "I would almost rather destroy
myself than Krispin. Great Zeus, Daisy, if you could have seen him as a child,
as a youth—he was beautiful."
"Like you," she said. "But smaller, I think, and perhaps not as quick, or as
bright, or as bold."
I looked into her eyes, surprised by her insight. "My father used to say I
took the best of my mother's nurturing—that my craven hungers made my brother
weak and robbed the children who came after him of the very marrow of their
bones and the potency of their blood."
"Father of the Year," Daisy said with gentle sarcasm, putting her hands on my
shoulders.
I wanted to melt beneath her warm, soft palms and supple fingers, but there
was, regrettably, no time to waste on such sweet indulgences.
"You are not safe, Daisy," I began.
"Tell me about it," she interrupted before I could go on. "I'm a cop,
remember? And we've had this conversation before. There is no safe place,
Valerian—maybe not for any of us."
"My brother will come for you in earnest. The thing you found in your shower
was only his calling card."
She lowered her lashes briefly, then looked up at me again. I saw in her eyes
the shimmering courage that was woven into the very fiber of her spirit long,
long ago, at some celestial loom. "Where shall I hide, Valerian? Name the place
that you, or creatures like you, cannot enter."
I could not answer her challenge, for besides heaven itself, there was
nothing that could keep me out, no place I could not go if I so wished. The
same, of course, applied to Krispin.
I was forlorn in those moments, filled with hopeless despair, but then a
stray thought caught in my mind. "This mannequin he left for you—where is it?"
She drew back a little way. "O'Halloran—my partner—took it in for evidence.
He thinks we're dealing with an ordinary human being, you see, so he wanted the
thing dusted for fingerprints, after Forensics looked it over, of course."
I would get the dummy if I had to—I needed to lay my hands to something
Krispin had touched—but I preferred to avoid dealings with the police for as
long as possible. Now that Janet had been killed, they were almost certain to
lay the crimes at my door, and it would be awkward to vanish from their midst
when they attempted to detain me.
"The tie to your robe," I said. "The one that was used as a noose. Did your
partner take that, too?"
She frowned and shook her head. "No. I was afraid I wouldn't get it back."
I might have laughed, had the circumstances been different, for I admit to a
certain macabre amusement at her reluctance to separate a bathrobe from its
matching belt. And never mind that the thing had been used like a hangman's
rope.
"Where is it?" I demanded, but I did not wait for her reply. No, I was
already homing in on her bedroom, and the closet within it, and the brass hook
on its inside wall.
I snatched the robe from its peg and pulled the terrycloth belt through the
loops, holding it in my two hands as I might have held a tame snake. Instantly I
had a strong impression of Krispin, and I knew, with both elation and despair,
that my theories were correct.
I felt his hatred for me in that bit of cloth, I felt his jealousy, his
madness, his fury.
I was more afraid for Daisy than ever before, previous lifetimes included. My
brother would not hesitate to kill her—indeed, he relished the
prospect. He was saving that act for last, the way a child hoards a favorite
sweet.
"Why?" I whispered, in case he had linked his mind to mine and could discern
my words. "Why?"
Krispin did not choose to answer.
Not then, at least.
I was compelled to hunt, for I had not fed the night before, due to my visit
to Dunnett's Head. But I could not bear to leave Daisy alone in that apartment,
like bait in a trap, tempting Krispin to punish me with her death.
Even in those silly, oversize pajamas, which had probably been left behind by
an earlier lover, Daisy was a vision. Her copper-gold hair tumbled around her
shoulders, and her eyes were like antique gems I had once admired in a shop
window—impossibly green, but opaque with tension. The smattering of freckles
stood out against the creamy paleness of her skin.
"How can I leave you here?" I whispered, stricken to the heart.
She drew a step nearer, and I saw the flash of memories in her mind—she was
recalling, of all things, the somewhat one-sided lovemaking session in that
tacky motel along the road to Telluride. Her desire for me burned bright, like a
flare, and such longing seized me then that I uttered a small cry of protest and
need.
"Take me with you," she said. "Let me sleep where you sleep."
I had not consciously cast a spell over Daisy; to do so would have been an
abominable liberty, tantamount to rape. No, it was not magic, but plain fear
that made her want the scathing comfort only I could give her. "But when we
spoke of safety, you said—"
"I said I would not be your prisoner," she interrupted gently, putting her
arms around my neck. "But I will be your lover."
I ached to have her, even to make her into my true mate, but of course I
could do neither. The recollection of Elisabeth's death, following so soon after
our intimate union, was preying upon my mind. Too, the need to hunt was
urgent—were I to encounter Krispin or some other enemy before feeding, I would
be too weak to protect either Daisy or myself. Once I had taken sustenance, I
must immediately resume the search for my brother.
"This is not the night," I told her gently. I am certain that my
disappointment was greater than hers.
"Take me with you, then," Daisy urged, running one fingertip down the
chilled, pale planes of my cheek and upper jaw. "Please. I can face this
killer—this thing—I know I can. But not tonight."
I kissed her forehead and wrapped her in a loose embrace, and she tucked
herself against me like a nestling seeking shelter beneath the wing of a larger
bird. "Very well," I said and fixed my mind on the lair hidden well outside the
city's bright, tattered edge, beneath the desert sands.
We were there in an instant, standing in my gracious living room. Daisy
swayed a little, from shock no doubt, and I steadied her.
"You are probably safe here, for the moment at least," I said, aware that
time was passing at its usual merciless and inexorable pace. "Vampires are not
gregarious creatures, and they are, therefore, most uncomfortable in a
stranger's lair." I stepped back, left her teetering there in her pajamas, and
moved one arm in a broad gesture intended to take in the whole of my splendid
hiding place. "I must go now, Daisy. Explore to your heart's content. I'll be
back an hour or so before dawn."
With that, I vanished, carrying with me the look of unadulterated surprise I
had glimpsed on her face, smiling a little over it. Mortals have such a
difficult time accepting new realities.
Daisy
The Vampire's Lair
Outside Las Vegas, 1995
At first Daisy was so overwhelmed by Valerian's latest flashy disappearance
and her own recent introduction to broomstick transport that she sank onto the
leather couch and stared blankly into space. Her next coherent thought, coming
some time later, was the wish that she'd taken time to change her clothes.
Trust her to show up for the experience of the aeons in the pajamas
O'Halloran had given her for Christmas the year before. He'd been making a point
about equality between the sexes at the time, but Daisy couldn't quite recall
what it was.
She levered herself off the expensive sofa, once she'd recovered the required
muscle control, and stood shakily, her knees trembling. Valerian might have
spurned her seduction attempt, however politely, but he had flat-out invited her
to check out his house, and she wasn't about to miss the opportunity.
Daisy soon realized that the whole place was underground, a gigantic and very
luxurious bomb shelter. The light was artificial, of course, but of such clear
intensity that it might have sprung from the sun itself. Besides the living
room, which appeared to be equipped with every modern electronic plaything in
existence, there was a large, lagoonlike swimming pool and smaller hot tub, both
surrounded by a jungle of lush plants, and a kitchen containing every
conceivable appliance but no dishes, silverware, pots and pans, or food. There
was nothing in the giant refrigerator except a lightbulb and a box of baking
soda.
Daisy considered calling out for a pizza, just to see if the delivery driver
could find the place.
The master bedroom was a suite, decadently appointed with antiques,
paintings, and sculptures, all priceless. Besides a huge bed with a canopy and
velvet draperies, and a working gas fireplace, there was a marble tub of truly
decadent proportions set right into the floor. The faucet and spigots were gold,
and the exquisite tiles surrounding the bath were hand-painted and very old.
Daisy found six other bedrooms opening off the same hallway, all sumptuously
furnished and obviously unused, all with their own marble-and-gold bathrooms,
spectacular enough to suit the most hedonistic guests. She hoped to find clothes
to borrow—Daisy took care not to think too much about who might have left such
garments behind, and not just because she felt proprietary about Valerian's
attentions—but there was nothing.
Finally she returned to Valerian's room and helped herself to one of his
pleated dress shirts. The tails reached almost to her knees, and she finished
the ensemble off by taking a tie from his vast collection and knotting it
loosely around her waist for a belt.
She was just entering the living room again, planning to stretch out on the
leather sofa and try to sleep, when the biggest television screen she'd ever
seen—and there were some enormous ones in the casinos—slid down out of the
ceiling with an electronic purr.
Daisy looked around, thinking she must have touched a button inadvertently,
but there was nothing like that in sight. She stared at the screen, and a
peculiar sensation of mingled terror and excitement stirred in the pit of her
stomach.
She made her way to the sofa as the great expanse of glass flickered and then
brightened into light. Sliding both hands along the back of the couch, Daisy
made her way to one end and collapsed into the deep cushions.
A field of flowers nodded on the screen, breathtakingly beautiful, bending
and bowing gracefully in a twilight breeze. Daisy waited for credits, for any
explanation of what was happening, but in some half-conscious part of her brain
she'd already grasped the truth.
The image she was seeing wasn't being transmitted from any television
station. This was vampire magic, but the trick wasn't Valerian's. He wouldn't
have frightened her like that.
She watched the flowers, daisies mostly, bathed in the lavender of
approaching night and at the same time reflecting a peculiar crimson glow. When
she saw someone in the upper right-hand corner of the screen, she felt tension
coil in her stomach, and when that figure drew near enough to see clearly, she
gasped aloud.
The woman was a stranger, a tall, brown-eyed blonde, and yet Daisy knew she
was looking at herself. Valerian had not told her about this incarnation, and
she suspected that was because he hadn't known about it. By some mysterious
cosmic fluke, she'd gotten past him that time.
Watching the screen, fascinated and terrified at the same time, Daisy
struggled to remember being this person, but not so much as a glimmer came to
her.
She stood up, squinting, realizing only then that the living room, so
dazzlingly bright before, was now lighted only by the flickering glow of the
screen. A chill dripped down the center of her back, like a trickle of icy
water, and she shivered, studying the face of that other self.
She sank down onto the cushions again a moment later, when her knees would no
longer support her.
She forced herself to stay calm, to watch. Daisy was in danger, and she knew
it, but her years of training and police service stood her in good stead. If she
panicked, if she failed to pay close attention, she would not survive.
Daisy took careful note of the image on the screen—studied the reflection of
this being who was and yet was not herself. The clothes her double wore were
ragged and old, garments a peasant woman might have worn in any one of several
different centuries.
She scooted forward, gripping the edge of the couch with both hands, heart
thrumming, upper lip moist with perspiration.
The woman on the screen began to call out for someone, raising both hands to
cup her mouth, scanning the field with worried eyes. There was no sound except
for the faintest murmur of circuitry, but Daisy recognized the name on those
lips so similar to her own.
Shock rocketed through Daisy, and her heart began to beat painfully fast; she
barely overcame an elemental urge to cover her eyes with both hands.
The flowers were wilting, and a garish light had arisen in the background,
crimson and orange, leaping, hot to the eye as it would be to the touch.
The fire was drawing nearer.
She watched herself begin to run, and realized that the flowers and grasses,
all fainting beneath an undulating, glimmering tide of heat, grew in a
graveyard.
Suddenly Daisy was not sitting on Valerian's couch, watching the scene—she
was in it. She was the pretty woman-child running between tilting
headstones. She felt the heat of the approaching fire scouring the
flesh of her back, even through the rough weave of her shift. The earth was
rocky and uneven beneath her feet, her lungs burned fit to burst, and she was
scared enough to pass water without slowing down.
Between one instant and the next she forgot that she'd ever been called Daisy
Chandler, would not have recognized the name except as one she might have heard
long ago in a dream.
"Krispin!" she screamed, tripping, falling, and rising again, all in a
virtually simultaneous motion. The blaze roared as it ate up cottages and fields
and churches behind her, gaining on her like the fleetest of runners.
She ran on, making a whimpering sound when she wasn't choking on the rolling
black smoke, until her legs gave out a second time. She toppled to the ground
and crawled behind a great huge monument with a French name chiseled into its
side.
It was coming on dark now—or was it just the smoke darkening the sky?—but
where was her beloved? He'd promised to meet her here, to take her far away from
London—perhaps to Paris, he'd said, or Rome or even Istanbul.
"Here's the truth of it, Maddie Goodtree," she whispered to herself, choking
on the thick, acrid air between words. "Either he's gone up in flames like a
scarecrow, your fancy man, or you've been made the fool."
Maddie leaned around the end of the monument, which felt hot as brimstone to
the touch, and peered toward the line of thundering crimson on the horizon.
London was gone, that it was. And at the rate the flames were traveling, they
would gobble up the rest of England as well. Paris might have gone up, too, if
it weren't for the waters of the channel blocking the way.
She tried to rise, to run again, but all the feeling had gone out of her
knees. Other folks, fleeing the city, scrambled past, dragging carts, mewling
children, and the doddering old behind them.
No one stopped to help.
The fire drew nearer, and Maddie found it more and more difficult to breathe.
She managed to gain her feet at last and stumbled after the others. The sun had
set, but one would never have known it, with the sky so hellish bright.
Then suddenly he was there beside her. He smiled and took her hand, her
beautiful lover, and told her not to be afraid.
There were shrieks puncturing the darkness all around them, cries of terror
and of pain, and Maddie would have thought she was lost in hell itself if her
beautiful, fair-haired angel hadn't been walking beside her, showing her the
way.
Krispin had found her at last.
They escaped the fire in a twinkling, it seemed to Maddie, taking refuge
inside cool, dank walls, where there was no light at all. He drew her close, and
their lips and bodies seemed to melt into one as they celebrated the darkness…
Slowly, slowly, Daisy returned to herself.
The television screen had disappeared, and every light in the place was
blazing, and she heard a soft, seductive voice that should have come from
anywhere except within her own head.
"You were mine in that lifetime. Not Valerian's. Mine." There was a
pause, no longer than a heartbeat, followed by a throaty chuckle. "He didn't
know you were alive, and you belonged to me. As you shall again."
13
Valerian
Outside Las Vegas, 1995
I returned to my underground lair just before dawn, exhausted and frustrated
beyond measure. I had combed the earth, from one pole to the other, over the
last few nights, and found no sign, no hair or trace, of my prey. Krispin had
hidden himself very cleverly indeed.
Daisy was lying on the couch when I returned, clad in one of my handsewn
shirts, artfully belted with a necktie. She was pale as a medieval snow.
I extended a hand and swayed slightly on my feet, for I was already beginning
to succumb to the vampire sleep.
I had sought my brother with little regard for the thinning darkness, and
dawn was only moments away.
I could barely focus my gaze on her, and speaking was a greater effort than I
could manage. I struggled to regain my tenuous grip on consciousness, knowing
all the while that the attempt was hopeless. Yes, there had been times in my
past when the mysterious slumber had not wrestled me downward, into inner
darkness, but this night I would not be spared.
Daisy rushed toward me, and I sagged against her. She supported me with
surprising strength, speaking rapidly, but by then her words were no more than
an unintelligible murmur. The last thing I was aware of was the couch beneath
me, still pulsing with the sweet warmth of her body.
Daisy
The Vampire's Lair, 1995
Daisy knelt on the floor beside Valerian's resting place, holding his cold
hand in both of hers, both horrified and fascinated. His flesh, always unusually
fair, was white as alabaster, and there was a stillness about him, so absolute
that he might have been dead.
She laid her head to his chest and heard no heartbeat, felt no rise and fall
of ribs and muscles and flesh. Had she not experienced Valerian's magic for
herself, over and over, she would have mourned, believing she'd lost him
forever. She remained as she was for a long while, her ear chilling against his
hard breast, struggling with the knowledge that she not only knew a vampire
personally, she'd fallen in love with one.
She cried softly, silently, her tears wetting the fine fabric of the shirt he
wore. Lots of women, even when they happened to be cops, lost their hearts to
practicing alcoholics, philanderers, compulsive gamblers, and assorted other
losers, but falling for a vampire was carrying dysfunction to a new level.
Here was an idiosyncrasy even Geraldo hadn't encountered before.
After mourning for a time, Daisy raised her head and sat back on her heels,
sinking her teeth into her lower lip. She needed to tell Valerian about Krispin,
and the episode with the television set, but she dreaded the task to such an
extent that she was almost glad for the respite sunrise provided.
She would be reasonably safe in the interim, she supposed, for if Valerian
was incapacitated during the daylight hours, then Krispin, being a vampire
himself, was surely curled up in a coffin somewhere, motionless as a corpse and
temporarily harmless.
She hoped.
Daisy kept her vigil until her knees went numb, then made herself get up and
walk around. There wasn't a scrap of food in the house, and she was violently
hungry. To keep her mind off the problem for a little while, she went out to the
pool, which, like everything else, was underground. Building that place had been
a real feat of engineering, and yet Daisy, living all her life in Las Vegas, had
never heard so much as a rumor of its existence.
She removed the tie belt and the shirt purloined from Valerian's vast
wardrobe and slipped into the warm, sapphire-colored water. The chamber housing
the pool and hot tub had a cavernlike ambience, and reflections danced across
the dark ceiling, but the air was humid rather than dank and cool.
The water seemed to cradle Daisy as she turned, naked, onto her back, to
float. Her hair spilled out around her, and the tips of her breasts hardened,
reminding her of how desperately she had wanted—and still wanted—Valerian's lovemaking. The desire was deep-rooted and instinctive, a consuming
need beyond explanation or understanding, something so powerful that it
frightened her and so compelling that she could not resist.
It was as though some ancient vow would be fulfilled in the act, some promise
made before the stars were shaped. For good or ill, they would be joined, if
only for a night.
Daisy permitted herself to remember the scene she'd witnessed on the
television screen earlier. She'd felt the throbbing heat of the great fire, the
rough ground beneath her feet, and with them the terror, somehow her own as well
as Maddie Goodtree's. She had known relief at the sight of Krispin—or Maddie
had—and experienced every nuance of their tempestuous lovemaking as well.
She blushed, floating there in Valerian's pool, to recall the sheer physical
intensity of her satisfaction. And yes, she must claim that glorious, forbidden
release as her own, because she had been Maddie Goodtree. As well as
Brenna Afton-St. Claire and Elisabeth Saxon. She had vague, gauzy memories of
those lifetimes, and she knew they had often touched her dreams.
Daisy sighed, lying still upon the water. As pleasurable as Krispin's
intimate attentions had been, in that other life so recently recalled, they
paled by comparison to the psychic sex she'd had with Valerian. He had driven
her out of herself, the magician had, without even being in the same room.
She kicked her feet and tossed back her wet hair. If Valerian made love to
her in person, the pleasure would probably kill her.
It would almost be worth dying young, she decided with a smile, making her
way toward the tiled edge of the pool, if the last experience was anything to go
by.
Daisy climbed out of the water and found a stack of fragrant white towels on
a glistening brass stand next to the wall. Only then did it occur to her to
wonder who cleaned this strange, hidden house—surely Valerian, vampire of
legend, star of stage if not screen, did not scrub toilets and mop floors.
"Curiouser and curiouser," Daisy muttered, wrapping the towel around herself
like a sarong and leaving the borrowed shirt and tie where she'd left them,
flung across the back of a lounge chair.
There was a strange freedom in her confinement, though by rights the place
was nothing more than a luxurious grave. She could walk about stark naked if she
wanted to, and know that no one, including Valerian, would see her.
She dropped the towel at the doorway to the living room and went to stand
over the exquisitely handsome vampire sleeping on the sofa. He was beyond a
doubt the most beautiful creature, man or woman, she had ever seen, a subject
worthy of Michelangelo or any of the masters.
How long, she wondered, had she loved him? A thousand years? Ten thousand?
Daisy turned away, the question heavy in her heart, and wandered into the
kitchen, still starved. Maybe she'd overlooked a box of crackers or a can of
sardines, kept on hand for that rare visit by a mortal.
The telephone caught her eye as soon as she flipped on the lights, and Daisy
went to it and lifted the receiver with a slight smile playing at one corner of
her mouth. She dialed O'Halloran's cellular number, knowing he was going to give
her a ration for disappearing the way she had. He wouldn't be able to handle the
truth—that she was standing naked in a vampire's kitchen. In fact, he'd probably
go straight to the chief and have her badge pulled—permanently.
"Yeah!" he barked over the roar of air rushing past an open car window,
plainly annoyed at the interruption. O'Halloran carried a cell phone, but not
for status. He hated the things and tolerated them only because they helped him
stay in touch with his contacts.
"O'Halloran?" Daisy asked sweetly, although she would have known that voice
anywhere.
The howl diminished into nothing as O'Halloran rolled up his window.
"Chandler? Is that you?" He sounded anxious. "Where the hell are you?"
"I'm staying out of sight for a few days, that's all." She thought of the
layers of earth between the cool tiles beneath her feet and the surface of the
Nevada desert. "Laying low, you might say. If you've been worrying about me,
stop. I'm okay."
"Is somebody forcing you to say that?"
"No, O'Halloran. Nobody is forcing me to do anything. I just need a little
time to get my head together, that's all. You were the one who suggested that in
the first place, remember?"
"You're really all right?"
Daisy felt a surge of affection for O'Halloran; he and his wife, Eleanor,
were like family to her. All she had, except for Nadine. "Yes," she said,
blinking back tears because there was so much she couldn't share. "How's the
investigation going?"
"No progress," O'Halloran said with a raspy sigh. "We can't find this
Valerian character, for one thing. He's let his personal staff and the surviving
performers go and closed down the show at the Venetian, but the management says
he plans to return soon, so they haven't booked anybody else. His name is still
on the marquee, and the press is clamoring for him. If I was a cynical guy, I
might just figure it was all a publicity stunt."
"You think he'd murder those women just to get attention?" Daisy demanded,
feeling cold all of a sudden in her birthday suit. "You can't be serious,
O'Halloran. He has to know he'd be number one on the suspect list." She glanced
toward the living room where Valerian was sleeping. "Nobody in his right mind
would expect to commit a crime like that and then just go merrily on with his
career!"
"That's just it, Chandler. You saw the bodies. We ain't dealing with somebody
who's in his right mind."
Daisy wanted to tell him that it was Krispin, not Valerian, who had done the
killings, but there was simply no way to explain the realities of the situation.
"That's right," she agreed somewhat testily, "we're not. Look beyond the
obvious, O'Halloran. Dig deeper. You're missing something."
"I wish you were here to help out," the older cop confessed. "You got good
instincts, Chandler."
"I take it I'm still suspended, then?" Daisy asked, unable to hide the
sadness and frustration she felt. Her work was such a large part of her identity
that she wasn't sure who she was without it. "The chief hasn't blown a brass
trumpet and shouted, 'Bring me Chandler, she of the good instincts and negative
drug test'?"
O'Halloran was quiet. Too quiet.
"Talk to me," Daisy ordered when she could stand his silence no longer.
"The brass wants you to talk things over with a shrink."
"They think I'm crazy."
"They think you're under a lot of stress, like every other cop in the
country."
"Yeah, well, they're not making 'every other cop' see a head doctor, are
they?"
"Chandler? Do yourself a favor, take some advice from an old veteran. Don't
fight this one. Just do what they ask. It ain't so much, you know—the doc will
probably want you to look at a few ink blots and play some word association
games, that's all."
Daisy swore.
"More advice," O'Halloran said crisply. "Don't use that word in front of
anybody above the rank of lieutenant."
"I'll keep that in mind," Daisy allowed. It was hard, she discovered, to be
naked and angry at the same time.
"Okay, Chandler, give me a number where I can reach you, and we'll wrap this
conversation up. I'm on my way over to the Venetian—again—to see if I can track
down this magician of theirs. I'll say one thing for this Valerian fella—he's
got the disappearing act down pat."
Daisy smiled and dashed at her cheek with the back of one hand. All of the
sudden she felt vulnerable, rather than free, and she was anxious to put
Valerian's shirt back on. In the meantime, though, O'Halloran wanted a number.
She thought quickly. "I'm staying in a lake cabin," she lied, "and I have to
use a pay phone whenever I want to make a call. I'll be in touch within a day or
two."
"Just give me the name of the resort, then."
"Sorry, partner—that's a secret. I'll call again soon." With that, her
stomach twisted into a knot of guilt, Daisy hung up the telephone.
Next she called her apartment. She listened patiently to her own voice,
droning the usual spiel about leaving a name and number, and punched the pound
sign when it was over. At the other end of the line the tape rewound with a
high-pitched squeaking sound, and then the accumulated messages began to play.
The first was from Nadine, saying she was in labor and had checked into the
hospital.
The second was from Freddy. Nadine was yelling a lot, he said frantically,
and he wished he'd never gotten her into this mess. Could Daisy please come to
Telluride as soon as possible?
Fresh tears brimmed in Daisy's eyes. She wanted desperately to be with her
sister and lend what support she could, more now than ever, but it was too
dangerous for Nadine and Freddy and the baby. She couldn't bear even the thought
of what Krispin might do to them, for whatever insane reason of his own.
The next voice was the same painfully slow, inhuman drone she'd heard before,
and she knew now that it was some trick of Krispin's—a robot, maybe, or a
computer, or his own private brand of magic. "Come out, Daisy. You cannot hide
from me forever. If you don't show yourself, I will kill again."
Bile surged into the back of Daisy's throat; she squeezed her eyes shut and
struggled to keep her empty stomach from convulsing. "Dear God," she whispered.
"Help me."
The line went dead, and then she heard Nadine's voice again. Daisy's sister
sounded weary but full of joy. "Daze? The baby came this morning, and mother and
daughter are doing great. Freddy suffered so much angst over all the pain I went
through that he gave a little ground on the name business. We're calling our
daughter Whitney Miranda. Fruit not included. What do you think, Auntie? Call me
soon—I'm going to tell you more about childbirth than any sensible woman would
want to know."
That was the end of the tape, and Daisy was weeping softly as she hung up the
receiver. She had a niece—her only flesh-and-blood relative besides Nadine and
the long-lost Jeanine—and she couldn't even make a pilgrimage to Telluride to
admire her.
It wasn't fair.
"Not much is fair in this life," a female voice observed.
Daisy was so startled that she whirled and pressed herself to the wall. She
had expected some stray fiend; instead, she was faced with an attractive woman
of about her own age. The visitor had short dark hair, stylishly cut, and
enormous gray eyes. She was sleekly trim and clad in black corduroy slacks, a
white poet's shirt, and a vest of charcoal velvet.
"Who are you?" the pixie demanded, taking in Daisy's bare body with a frown
of disapproval.
Daisy swallowed. "I was going to ask the same question of you," she said,
just resisting a futile urge to cover herself with both arms. "Are you a
vampire?"
"Of course not," was the brisk answer. "I couldn't be abroad in the daylight
if I were. But I'll give you my name in trade for yours—it's Kristina Holbrook."
The surname was faintly familiar; Daisy thought Valerian might have mentioned
it in passing. "Daisy Chandler," she said. "I'm a detective with the Las Vegas
Police Department." She regretted that last part the moment the words had
tumbled from her mouth—in her present unclothed state, she wasn't exactly a
credit to hard-working law enforcement officers everywhere.
Ms. Holbrook's lips twitched. "Perhaps you'd better call for backup,
Detective Chandler. It would appear that someone has stolen your clothes."
Daisy flushed with embarrassment. "I was wearing pajamas when I came here,"
she blurted out. "And then I went swimming, and it just seemed, with Valerian
asleep and no one else around or anything—"
"It's okay," Kristina said quickly with a full-fledged and quite dazzling
smile. "I'll get you something to wear." She pondered Daisy thoughtfully again,
then said with conviction, "I think blue is your color."
With that she closed her eyes, and within the instant Daisy felt cloth
against her skin. She looked down, speechless with amazement, to see that she
was wearing an indigo silk jumpsuit with a hammered gold belt.
"I was right," Kristina boasted with a good-natured grin. "You look
fantastic."
"Who—" Daisy lapsed into incoherence for a few moments, then made another
attempt. "Who are you?"
"I told you. I'm Kristina Holbrook."
"And y-you're not a vampire."
Kristina's forehead crumpled slightly as she frowned. "Definitely not. But
both my parents are. It's very complicated—my father was still mortal when I was
conceived, so I'm human. Mostly."
Daisy swallowed hard. "Mostly?"
Kristina laughed, and the sound was like the peal of distant bells. "I'm
mortal, essentially. But I'm not sure when I'll get old, if ever, and I do have
certain powers, as I've just illustrated." She paused for a beat or two, then
took the conversation in a whole other direction. "Would you like something to
eat?"
Daisy was breathless—and surprised to discover that she was still hungry.
"Yes—please."
The other woman pointed dramatically at the island in the center of the
kitchen, and a picnic basket appeared, accompanied by the tantalizing aromas of
fried chicken and freshly baked apple pie.
"Come on and join me," Kristina urged pleasantly, pulling a stool over to the
island and sitting down. "You said you were hungry, didn't you?"
Daisy hesitated a moment longer, then approached the food. The fine silk of
her jumpsuit brushed softly against her skin as she moved.
"Would you like some jewelry to go with that?" Kristina asked, pulling a
drumstick out of the basket and biting into it with relish.
"No, thanks," Daisy said, standing on the other side of the island and
helping herself to the food. There were plates inside the elegant basket, along
with sterling silver, crystal wine flutes, and a very fine Bordeaux. "The
outfit's enough. Is it going to melt at midnight?"
Kristina's grin was puckish. "Are you accusing me of slipshod magic?"
Daisy didn't bother to answer. "Why are you here?" she asked between bites of
delicious chicken, potato salad, and coleslaw.
"Mother has been worried about Valerian. She asked me to look in on him."
By now Daisy's head was reeling. Maybe the higher-ups on the force were
right, she thought in a brief flurry of hysteria. Perhaps she was losing it, and
she needed intensive therapy. But no—deep inside, where it counted, Daisy knew
she was all too sane.
Delusions? Hallucinations?
She should be so lucky.
"Is he—family? Valerian, I mean?"
"He's like a godfather, I guess," Kristina answered. "Or a favorite uncle.
We're quite close, he and I. He spoiled me outrageously when I was a child—take
the dollhouse he gave me, for example. It's a perfect replica of the palace at
Versailles, down to the last light fixture."
Daisy had been standing up, but now she groped for a stool, dragged it over,
and sort of collapsed onto it. Now that she knew it wasn't romantic, she had no
pressing interest in Kristina's relationship with Valerian. "So you just sort of
zapped yourself here from somewhere else?"
"Seattle," Kristina said. "I own a small antiques shop there." She frowned at
Daisy over the rim of a carton of mashed potatoes. "I'm sorry. We must be quite
overwhelming, Valerian and I. Have you met any of the others?" She paused to
shudder. "Canaan and Benecia Havermail, for instance? They're little girls,
beautiful as dolls, and hardly any bigger than they were five hundred years ago,
when they became vampires. What vile little creatures they are—but you needn't
worry about them. They wouldn't dare bother anyone Valerian befriends."
Daisy had been left behind, like a piece of luggage tossed from a moving
train. "Five hundred years—"
Kristina shrugged. "That's not uncommon," she said. "My mother was born in
the eighteenth century, you know, and my father served as a surgeon in the
American Civil War when he was mortal. And as for me—"
Daisy held her breath, bracing herself to absorb yet another stunning
revelation.
"Well, just between us, I've been around a while myself. How old would you
say I am?"
It was the kind of question Daisy hated, but she'd had a lot of experience at
gauging such things as a police officer, and she was fairly confident of her
abilities. "Twenty-nine or thirty, I'd say."
"Bless you." Kristina beamed. Then she leaned forward to confide in a
cheerful whisper, "Lincoln was President when I was born."
"No," Daisy said, but the fall-away sensation in the pit of her stomach told
her it was true.
"Yes," Kristina insisted. Then she sighed sadly. "It's hard, when your
friends get old and you stay just the same, year after year, decade after
decade. Naturally they wonder why."
"Naturally," Daisy croaked, at a loss for anything sensible to say.
"I take it you're completely mortal?"
"Completely," Daisy said.
"I envy you. I'd trade all my magic, you see, for a real home and a family of
my own. How lovely to marry and grow old with a man you cherish and respect—"
Daisy pushed away her food. "Don't envy me," she whispered, and then she made
the unthinkable confession. "I'm in love with a vampire. And that isn't the
worst of it. It would seem we've been together in other lifetimes—"
"Oh, no!" Kristina interrupted, covering her mouth with one hand and widening
her already huge gray eyes. "You're Valerian's ladylove—the one he
keeps finding and losing, finding and losing!"
Daisy nodded glumly. "I think so, yes."
Tears of sympathy glistened in Kristina's dark lashes. "It's true, then—there
is some sort of curse."
Valerian had told her about their star-crossed encounters in various
centuries, and she was beginning to remember the odd detail, but he hadn't said
anything about a curse.
"Tell me what you know," she pleaded.
Kristina shook her head. "You'll have to ask Valerian, Daisy. This is a
personal matter, and I have no business interfering. Besides, the plain truth is
I don't know much about it. I've heard whispers through the years, that's all."
Daisy supposed she should have been afraid of Kristina Holbrook, but instead
she liked and trusted her. She wanted her for a friend, though it seemed
unlikely that they'd have much in common.
"Okay, I can respect that," Daisy said. "Thanks for the food, anyway, and the
jumpsuit."
Kristina got off the stool and started toward the kitchen door, and Daisy
followed her into the living room. The dark-haired woman went to stand beside
the couch and touched Valerian's forehead with such tenderness that Daisy felt
an involuntary stab of jealousy.
"Is he all right?" Daisy asked, because it was plain that Kristina knew.
"Valerian is very strong and not a little stubborn," she replied, but there
was a small, worried crease between her eyebrows. "We must all be tried and
tested in the crucible, mortal or immortal, and it would seem that his time has
come."
"What do you mean by that?" Daisy could barely get the words out, she was so
stricken by the grisly array of possibilities invading her imagination.
Kristina withdrew her hand from Valerian's opalescent flesh, but did not look
away from his face. Her expression was full of sorrow and hope, trust and fear.
"Everything changes. Perhaps the curse has finally run its course—perhaps
everything can be resolved, one way or the other."
Daisy thought about Krispin, and the murdered women, about the horrible dummy
she'd found hanging in her shower, and the scene played out on Valerian's
television screen. She'd watched those strange images and, at the same time,
been a part of them.
Yes, she reflected, Kristina was right. Events were building toward some sort
of crescendo, and she was caught up in it all, not only because of her past
lives, but through her growing love for Valerian.
She stayed silent, because there was nothing to say.
Kristina bent again and kissed Valerian's forehead, then straightened and
turned to Daisy. "Here," she said, taking a pendant from around her neck and
putting it around Daisy's. It was an exquisite golden rosebud suspended from a
priceless chain. "This has been in our family since my mother and her twin
brother, Aidan, were mortal children. Over the centuries, it has gained power
from the love of those who wore it against their hearts. You'll need all your
wits, all your love, all your faith to fight the battles ahead, but this
talisman will lend you strength."
The necklace felt warm beneath Daisy's fingertips. "Thank you," she said. She
was aware that, in giving away the pendant, Kristina was making a sacrifice.
Whether that sacrifice was large or small, Daisy could not guess.
Kristina smiled somewhat sadly. Or so it seemed to Daisy. Almost as an
afterthought, as she was preparing to leave, the pixie-witch asked, "Do you want
to leave here? Or is your vigil a willing one?"
"I want to stay," Daisy said.
Kristina nodded. "Please tell Valerian when he wakes that I was here to look
in on him." At Daisy's smile of acquiescence, Kristina raised both hands over
her head and vanished with a showy little puff of smoke.
"Wow," Daisy couldn't help remarking. Then she stretched out beside
Valerian's still form, there on that roomy leather sofa, cuddled up close,
closed her eyes, and drifted into a fairy-tale sleep.
She dreamed she rested in a crumbling castle, its walls obscured by thistles
and thorns, its parapets and baileys and courtyards overgrown with vines.
Only the kiss of a certain prince could awaken her.
Valerian
The Vampire's Lair, 1995
I opened my eyes at dusk to find Daisy sleeping beside me. My strength was
flagging, despite the rest I'd taken and last night's hasty feeding outside one
of my favorite haunts, the Last Ditch Tavern, but I could not leave her. Not
yet.
I shifted slightly and brushed her lips with a tender kiss, and her eyes
opened, wide and startled and so green that the sight of them made my heart
clench like a fist within me.
Then she smiled and put her arms around my neck. She did not need to speak;
the invitation reverberated through her supple, warm little body and pierced me
like lightning.
"You don't understand," I began. My vampire senses, a thousand times more
acute than those of an ordinary man, were leaping to life, pulsing beneath my
skin, promising agony if I denied them, ecstasy if I gave in.
I have ever cherished my pleasures.
I made one last attempt, however. "Daisy—" I began, my voice no more than a
raspy whisper.
She touched my lips with a fingertip and wriggled beneath me. "I want you,"
she murmured. "I don't care what comes after that."
I groaned and fell into her kiss, willing to burn in hell for her, to offer
myself as a living sacrifice—anything, so long as I could taste again the joy I
had mourned these many decades since I had seen her last. And I wanted the
joining of our two souls even more, for I was only whole when her spirit and
mine were fused by the fire of our lovemaking.
Daisy whimpered beneath my mouth as I opened the front of her garment—a
curious thing it was, trousers and a blouse fastened together—and took gentle
sustenance at her full breasts, one after the other. Her fingers, buried in my
hair, pressed me closer, and I felt her hips arch under mine, wooing and
tempting me in the age-old way, tormenting me with the promise of pleasure so
intense a mortal could not have endured it, setting my bedazzled senses ablaze.
"Take me," she pleaded, and hers was not one but a chorus of sweet voices—her
own, of course, and Brenna's, and Elisabeth's, and Jenny's. And more.
I refused to grant her such easy gratification, sliding down from her
quivering, well-suckled breasts, over her smooth belly, damp beneath my lips.
There was much I wanted to remind Daisy of, before our joining, and much I
wanted to teach her.
14
Daisy
The Vampire's Lair, 1995
Daisy thrashed beneath Valerian, in a delirium of need, but he withheld
satisfaction long after she had begun to plead. He tongued the peaks of her
breasts until she felt her heartbeat throbbing in that taut flesh, and kissed
her stomach and her hipbones, the insides of her thighs, the backs of her knees.
She might have been a goddess, so thoroughly did he worship her, with tenderness
and fire for his offerings.
She uttered a primitive, groaning sound when he burrowed through the veil of
moist silk to take the hidden nubbin of flesh between his lips and begin to draw
upon it, ever so gently. While he teased and nibbled and savored, at his
leisure, Daisy writhed, soaked with perspiration, her hair clinging, in wild
strands of copper, to her temples, her cheeks, her shoulders, and the upper
swell of her breasts.
In desperation, she tore open Valerian's shirt, as brazen and untamed as a
she-wolf in her season, and spread her hands over his marble chest. It was as if
Michelangelo's David had come to life and was making love to her, so
splendid was he, so soul-wrenchingly beautiful.
Mankind, she thought frantically, had never been meant to look as Valerian
looked, or feel as he felt. Such magnificence could not be imprisoned in mortal
flesh any more than lightning could be confined to a teacup or the music of a
symphony to a single seashell.
Valerian groaned at her touch, and she slid her arms around him and stroked
his perfectly sculpted back with warm palms. At the same time she murmured to
him—softly, insensibly, for she was not capable of reason—and knew that her
love was balm to his spirit as well as his body.
His clothes vanished with a mere blink of his hooded, sapphire eyes, and then
Daisy's were gone, too.
"May the Fates forgive me," Valerian whispered, and then he found the
entrance to her body and took her in a single deep, swift stroke.
Daisy's arousal, already ferocious, convulsed her whole being in cataclysmic
release, and she screamed, not from pain, but out of a pleasure that went beyond
any conceivable agony or delight. Each time she reached a new peak, she was sent
spiraling upward, toward another, until the last measure of response had been
wrung from her. Throughout that sweet odyssey, Valerian whispered to her,
stroked her face and her breasts, smoothed her hair.
When at last, with a faint whimper, she sank back to the sofa in exhaustion,
he gave her a few moments to catch her breath. Then, at long last, Valerian was
overwhelmed by his own passions. He reached beneath her to grasp her buttocks in
powerful hands and raise her like a sheath to the sword.
Valerian's strokes were long and slow and smooth; he plucked at Daisy's
senses, tuned them, like the strings of an exquisite violin, and soon she was
playing a fevered rhapsody for him. They reached the crescendo simultaneously,
with hoarse shouts of beleaguered triumph, and collapsed into the stillness that
lay beneath their passion.
A long time had passed when Valerian broke the mystic silence with a low
chuckle. "I didn't plan for us to make love on the living room couch like a pair
of teenagers," he said. "Frankly, I had something a little more romantic in
mind."
Daisy nuzzled his neck, putting off the moment when she would have to tell
him about her message from Krispin and the lifetime as Maddie Goodtree. "Don't
give it another thought. If that had been any better, I would have gone up like
a campfire doused with kerosene."
He laughed. "It was good, then?"
"It was better than good. It would be an improvement on 'perfect,' in fact."
Valerian kissed her, but lightly, mischievously. He knew, without being told,
that she had given him everything she had to give, and that she would need time
to recover before they made love again.
"And what secrets are you keeping from me?" he asked.
Deep within Daisy, small muscles continued to contract as the last and
strongest orgasm ebbed away, and she tucked her face into his shoulder. "I'm
still coming," she whispered.
"I knew that," Valerian said with a smile in his voice. "We are yet joined,
in case you've forgotten, and I can feel you tightening around me. What
exquisite torture it is."
Daisy whimpered and then gave a little sigh as the resonance grew softer, and
more distant. "There aren't any other—secrets."
"Don't lie to me, Daisy." Valerian groaned and shifted his weight slightly,
but made no move to withdraw from her. He was still hard, and she was exulted to
sense a new tension rising quietly and steadily within him. This time she would
be in control.
She taunted him with an almost imperceptible motion of her hips, and he threw
back his head, the muscles of his neck corded with the effort of holding back.
"You will pay for that impertinence," he vowed.
Daisy drew him deeper, and his majestic body flexed once, twice upon hers. He
moaned, as if in pain, and spilled himself into her a second time.
"You will pay," he repeated, but he was kissing her as he spoke, tasting her
eyelids, searching out her mouth with his own.
Daisy toppled back into sleep, so sated was she; her muscles were limp, and
it seemed her very bones had melted. When she awakened, she was lying in
Valerian's bed in the master suite, and he was standing at its foot, clad in his
magician's garb and just donning his cape. He looked gaunt somehow, and she
wondered if it was her lovemaking that had sapped his strength, or some
experience he'd had the night before.
"Why didn't you dress by magic?" she asked, putting off the moment when she
would have to tell him about Krispin.
His smile was slight, distracted. "I sometimes enjoy the mechanics of simple
tasks."
She sighed. Now or never, she thought.
"I need to tell you something before you go," Daisy said bluntly, sitting up
and drawing the linen bedsheets up to cover her breasts.
Valerian crossed to the bed and uncovered them again, and a shock of fresh
desire sizzled through Daisy's system as he looked at her with an expression of
wry appreciation. "Your body is far too lovely to hide," he said. "Besides, it's
a little late for modesty, don't you think?"
Daisy clung to her resolve, but decided to start small. She would save the
news about Krispin for last.
"Kristina was here, while you were sleeping today. She gave me this." She
held out the antique pendant for him to see.
"I noticed that, as it happens," Valerian said.
Daisy blushed. He'd been up close and personal—of course he'd
noticed. "She's worried about you. Kristina, I mean. So is her mother."
He was straightening his elegant string tie. "She has always been a
perceptive child," he replied evenly. "Likewise, Maeve."
Daisy dropped the bomb, blurting out the words in a rush. "There's something
else. Krispin's been tampering with your television set. He played a few
stirring scenes from what I assume was one of my past lives and said I belonged
to him then and I would again."
Valerian's hands fell to his sides, and he stood utterly still. His
expression was cold, and his eyes seemed to pierce Daisy's very soul. "Why
didn't you tell me this before?" he asked evenly, and with ominous softness.
"We were busy," she reminded him, refusing to be cowed.
"Tell me what you saw."
"Myself, running away from what was probably the London Fire—1666, I think it
was. My name was Maddie Goodtree, and I didn't look anything like I do now."
Valerian frowned ever so slightly. "Maddie Goodtree?"
It was as Daisy had feared; Valerian had not known about that particular
lifetime. He might even hate her when he learned the truth, and believe she'd
betrayed him by loving Krispin.
"I don't know much about her," Daisy said bravely, "except that she was
involved with your brother."
There followed a towering silence, much more intimidating to Daisy than any
that had gone before it. "She was what?"
Daisy gulped. "In love with Krispin," she said miserably.
He turned away, but his rage was like a swell of heat, filling the room,
pushing at the walls and the ceiling, glimmering and undulating all around him,
mirage-like.
"There was a message on my machine when I called home, too," Daisy went on,
wanting to finish, to get it all out in the open so they could go on from there.
"He—Krispin—said he would kill again if I didn't come to him." A decision she
had not consciously made rose to the surface of her thoughts. "I can't let that
happen, Valerian—I can't let someone else die when it's me he wants."
Valerian turned to her again, and his face, though as beautiful as ever, was
terrible to see. "You will not go to him," he decreed in a furious
undertone.
"It's my job," Daisy insisted, equally angry. "And blink me up some clothes,
will you please? I'm tired of running around naked, like some sultan's personal
plaything."
A black formal materialized on her body, fitted, with a pleated flair at the
bottom and diamond clasps holding the bodice together.
"Very funny," Daisy said. "I want jeans, damn it, and a T-shirt."
Valerian complied, but grudgingly. The gown disappeared, replaced by Levi's
that were two sizes too big and a lime green T-shirt with the name of a
fertilizer company emblazoned across the front.
She folded her arms. "You can do better."
Scowling, he made the jeans fit and changed the shirt to a plain red one,
tucked in at the waist.
"Thank you," Daisy said wearily, rising at last from the bed and looking down
at her magic clothes. "I could have used your help when I was in high school. It
took me forever to dress, and I was late for everything."
Valerian was seething, and he glared down at Daisy as she moved close to him
and laid her hands lightly on his chest.
"Listen to reason," she pleaded quietly. "I'm a cop. Before I made detective
and was assigned to the Homicide Division, I worked Bunko and Vice, and I was
the bait in every kind of sting. I was damn good at what I did, too."
Valerian's frown deepened, and Daisy felt his fury and his fear coursing
beneath her hands. "Do you honestly think you—or any other mortal—could prevail
against a monster such as my brother surely is?"
"Not by myself," Daisy conceded. "I was counting on you to help."
Reluctantly, with a sound like a sigh, but deeper, and seeming to rise from
his soul instead of his lungs, he put his arms around her. "I shall deal with
Krispin alone, Daisy, and in my own way. With no interference from you. It is
hard enough to concentrate now, when you are in such danger. I could not bear to
take the risk you are suggesting."
"I might just do it on my own, then. I have the pendant to protect me."
"The pendant," Valerian scoffed, giving her a slight shake within his
embrace. "It has no more power than a prize from a second-rate carnival."
"That isn't what Kristina said."
"Kristina is a fanciful sort, given to wild imaginings. Stay out of my way
and let me handle this, Daisy, or I vow I will lock you up somewhere."
Daisy knew he meant what he was saying. She also knew she couldn't stand back
and let more innocent people fall victim to Krispin's madness. "Take me with
you," she begged. "At least that way you'll be able to protect me."
He closed his eyes for a moment. "Daisy, I must feed. And the places I go are
unfit for a mortal woman."
"Well, I won't stay here. I don't think I could handle another one of
Krispin's impromptu television productions, and besides, I'm not a vampire. I
get hungry for real food, and even though I pull my share of late shifts, I'm
not used to sleeping during the day."
Valerian smiled sadly. "This has ever been your flaw, Daisy—you are stubborn
beyond all reason." He drew her very close, and his black silk cape encircled
her like a whisper from another world. "Close your eyes and hold on tightly."
She looked up into his magnificent face. "Could I fall?"
"No," Valerian replied. "The request was strictly lascivious."
Daisy laughed despite her grief, and the sound had barely left her throat
when she found herself standing in Valerian's dressing room, behind the stage of
the main showroom in the Venetian Hotel. She was still safely cossetted in the
magician's cloak, but she was alone.
"Valerian!" she yelled, letting the cape fall into a shimmering, inky pool at
her feet and resting her hands on her hips. "You come back here, damn it!"
After fifteen minutes there was still no sign of him. Muttering, Daisy let
herself out of the casino by a back way into the warm night, walked around
front, and boarded one of the gondolas ferrying tourists back and forth to the
hotel.
Although Valerian had eventually provided her with the requested jeans and
T-shirt—he'd thoughtfully included a pair of sneakers, too—she didn't have a
quarter for the telephone, let alone cab fare back to her apartment.
Once she'd reached the street, Daisy started walking toward home. With a
little luck—if it could be called that—Krispin might make an appearance.
Valerian
The Last Ditch, 1995
I grew weaker, it seemed, with every passing moment, as though a cancer had
taken root inside me, sapping my strength. I felt unsteady and somewhat
disoriented as I made my way through the crowd of warlocks, vampires, and other
monsters who filled that wretched bar. The place was outside the normal barriers
of time, an anteroom to hell itself, and I despised it for a reminder of my own
damnation. I went back only because I knew that, eventually, every rumor found
its way there, to circulate among the creatures who sat around the tables, lined
the bars, and shuffled on the dance floor.
Sooner or later there would surely be word of Krispin.
I found a place in a shadowy corner and sat down to listen and to watch.
Dathan, a warlock I particularly dislike, immediately made his way through
the seedy throng to join me. I had had an impression of his presence, an
instant's knowing, but I had shoved it aside, hoping the perception was in
error.
With an insolent smile, not waiting for an invitation, he drew back a chair
and slipped into it.
He would have made a very striking vampire with his fair hair and cherubic
features, I thought, but appearances were indeed deceiving. Dathan was a
warlock, with poisoned blood flowing through his veins and a stock of evil
tricks comparable to my own.
"You seem sickly, my old friend—as if you've taken a draft of warlock's
blood," Dathan remarked with a crooked smile.
I made no effort to hide my contempt. While it was true that Dathan and his
followers had been helpful during a recent conflict between Maeve Tremayne and
the late, great vampire queen, Lisette, I for one was not prepared either to
suggest a truce or to accept one.
Not that the warlock intended to offer an olive branch.
"I am not a fledgling," I said coldly. "I know better than to consume so
wretched a substance."
"Do you?" Dathan taunted in a soft voice. His eyes danced with mockery.
I considered my lethargic state, which had subsided temporarily, borne away
on a tide of annoyance. Inside of an instant my hands were gripping the lapels
of the warlock's finely tailored coat and, without leaving my chair, I had drawn
him halfway across the table.
"Have you poisoned me?" I demanded in a whisper audible only to the two of
us. "Confess, warlock, or I shall sunder your liver from your chest and burn
both parts while they still quiver with life!"
Dathan, to his credit, was unruffled. He made no move to resist my grasp or
to answer with a threat of his own. Instead, he sighed, for unlike vampires,
warlocks have breath.
"I am not without defenses, blood-drinker," he said cordially. "For both our
sakes, I pray you—keep that in mind."
I knew well that Dathan could ignite infernos by the power of his mind, and
vampires can be destroyed by fire, as by sunlight and the point of a stake, but
I was reckless, caring nothing about my own fate. Daisy's future was all that
mattered.
I released Dathan with a summarial unflexing of my fingers, and he sank
blithely back into his chair. There was not so much as a flush of irritation
pulsing on his high, fine cheekbones, or a twitch at his temple.
Either I had not made him angry, or he was keeping his emotions veiled. I
expect it was the latter, for Daman's affection for me was then, and remains, no
greater than mine for him.
"You have been searching for a vampire called Krispin, have you not?" he
asked, as prim and proper as an English butler.
I regarded him in silence for a few moments, pondering the fortuitousness of
his appearance in that place. I had come to the Last Ditch Tavern hoping to hear
even a scrap of information concerning my brother's whereabouts, and here was
someone very likely to know. Still, I mistrusted all warlocks and indeed most
vampires as well. If I stumbled into a trap of some sort, Daisy would be at
Krispin's mercy.
"Yes," I allowed at last, offering no more.
"There is an old one who can tell you what you need to know. A vampire called
Challes."
I drew back slightly, feeling as if I'd been slapped. "Challes? He was
destroyed centuries ago, felled by the hand of Nemesis himself."
Dathan raised his eyebrows. "How certain you seem. And yet you believed your
brother to be dead, only to learn that you were wrong. I should think such an
oversight would cause even you to think twice thereafter and avoid hasty
conclusions."
"Why are you telling me this?"
The warlock's smile was beatific. Had I not known him for a fiend, I might
have thought he was an angel. "Rest assured, vampire," he said, laying a hand to
his chest, "this heart bears you no love, but only malice, as ever. I bring you
this news because I want something in return."
I relaxed a little, for this was a philosophy I understood and subscribed to
myself, but with this more temperate mood came a new flagging of my vitality. I
could have laid my head down on that scarred, ugly table, closed my eyes, and
slept like an ingenuous child, but of course I resisted the compulsion. It would
be safer to make my bed among vipers or plague-bearing rats. "Explain," I said.
"You have been careless," he scolded in an indulgent tone, letting me know it
was not my curt one-word command that had moved him to reply. He and his kindred
are prideful creatures, and vain. "There were warlocks among your victims.
Think, twin of Lucifer—do you not recall a faint difference in the blood you've
taken these past few nights?"
I did, but I wasn't about to admit it. I simply folded my arms and waited.
Dathan sought a favor from me; let him pay for it in advance, in coin of
appropriate value.
"Challes, the old one, wishes to talk with you. But he feared your anger with
him would be too great, that you would be beyond his control, so he took steps
to weaken you. He succeeded, probably because you were distracted by the need to
find your brother."
"Where is he?" I demanded. My surroundings were a thunderous void by then,
and I could barely keep my head up.
"You have only to wait," Dathan answered implacably. "He will come to you."
The floor seemed to shift and roll beneath me; I feared to rise from my
chair, lest I lose consciousness entirely and become yet more vulnerable to my
many foes.
"Are you in league with him?"
"No," Dathan said. "Challes is a vampire, after all." He paused, and I could
see that he was studying me intently, even though his image seemed to recede to
a pinpoint and then rush toward me, looming and huge. "Have you fed this night,
blood-drinker?" he demanded.
I had not, and I was glad. Another tainted feeding might have been the end of
me—assuming I had not already taken the fatal dose.
I managed to shake my head.
"If I help you save your ladylove," Dathan said, "will you repay me by doing
what I ask?"
I gripped the edge of the table with both hands. "I will do anything to break
the curse," I whispered, my eyes bedazzled by flashes of bright light inside my
head. "Anything."
"I have your word? Heed my warning, vampire—betray me, and I will seek out
your Daisy Chandler and exact vengeance even your most rabid enemies would not
wish to witness."
"My—word—" I vowed. And then I collapsed and never felt myself strike the
floor.
Challes stood over me when I opened my eyes, and I knew we were back in the
chamber beneath Colefield Hall. I lay on the slab that had been my bed in my
earliest days as a vampire, stripped to the waist, my hands and feet lashed not
by ropes or thongs of leather—those could not have held me—but by my tutor's
magic.
"Why?" I asked. He had infused me with good blood while I slept; I was
stronger, though still not powerful enough to break my bonds, and I felt a vague
sting where his fangs had punctured my throat.
He smiled benignly and stroked my forehead and hair with a fond hand. "I have
not meant to frighten you," he said in a near croon.
I was very afraid, but not of anything Challes might do to me. No, my terror
was for Krispin's unguarded prey—my Daisy. "If it's true that you mean me well,"
I countered, "then set me free. Now."
Challes set his hands palm to palm, bringing to mind a saint or, at the
least, a devout monk, and the noble sorrow in his pretended sigh told me he
would refuse.
"I cannot. I am a powerful vampire, in my way, but you are youthful and
filled with the passion of rage. Your body is still, but your mind prowls like a
panther—do you think I haven't felt it circling, probing, ever seeking an
opportunity to strike and rip out my throat?"
I closed my eyes for a moment, subduing an urge to struggle wildly. "What the
devil do you want with me?"
He began to stroke my face and my hair again, and I could not hide my shudder
of revulsion. "I have come to take you away, sweet child, into that other world
where you shall see an end to your suffering. After all, it was I who laid the
vampire curse upon your soul. It is my duty to lift the burden from you."
My interest was caught, though not by the promise of an end to pain. Was
there indeed a way to change, to be redeemed, to live in the light again? I had
seen a blood-drinker made mortal once, but it had been an agonizing, deadly
process, and afterward the Old Ones had destroyed the means of transformation
forever.
"You are mad," I whispered.
Challes smiled again, briefly, indulgently, as though dealing with a spoiled
but basically good-hearted child. "I shall show you."
"Were God to forgive me for all my six hundred years of sin," I told him,
"and that, as you know, is not going to happen, I would still refuse to set foot
in Paradise without my beloved."
An instant after I'd spoken, I regretted mentioning Daisy, even indirectly.
My ancient tutor raised his brows again and withdrew his hand in a quick,
spasmodic motion. "Leave the wench to Krispin," he said, and for the first time
since he'd first brought me to Colefield Hall, and begun to train me for the
vampire's life, I saw profound anger in his face.
"You made Krispin a blood-drinker," I accused, my whisper as ragged as my
hopes, "even before you found me lying in that horse stall, half dead of drink.
Why didn't you tell me then that my brother was alive? Why?"
"He begged me not to do that," Challes answered.
"And I, having had an elder brother myself once upon a time, was not
unsympathetic to his plight. Krispin yearned to live outside your shadow, and he
knew that would be impossible if you learned of his existence."
I was more wounded by these words than I would ever have allowed Challes to
see. Had my brother always hated me, then? Even when we were mortal boys,
playing and working together? Apparently I had only imagined that Krispin had
borne me the same deep affection I had harbored for him.
In the next moment even my illusion that I had hidden my feelings from
Challes was dashed.
He leaned over, so that his face was close to mine, and spoke softly. "It was
because of Seraphina—she was the reason Krispin loathed you as he did. When the
baron pronounced your death sentence, you see, your sweet mother offered up your
brother's life in payment for yours. Krispin heard an account of it later from a
servant."
"No," I murmured, but the image of Seraphina kneeling and pleading before
Brenna's father was vivid in my mind, as if I had witnessed it myself. It might
have been only moments past, instead of lying in the far and dusty reaches of
long, long ago. "She couldn't have done such a thing."
"Ah, but she did. And there's more. After Seraphina collapsed, and the
baron's men carried her home, Krispin tried to comfort her. She spat at him and
screamed like a madwoman, imploring her saints one after another to take him
instead of you."
No wonder Krispin had abhorred me, I thought. No doubt the other children
born of our mother, the doll-like twin girls with the transparent eyelids, the
boy called Royal, would have been my enemies, too, had they survived. Oh, I
remembered the little ones, the lost ones, with cruel clarity, even after so
many centuries, remembered my father's ravings, his insistence that I had robbed
them. My cursed soul, Lazarus the bootmaker had snarled, reeling with mead, had
been greedy, consuming my mother's strength to weave for its pauper-self a
nobleman's body and a demon's mind…
I could not bear to remember.
"Where—where has Krispin been all these centuries?" I managed to ask with
difficulty. "Surely he could not have veiled himself so completely—"
"No," Challes said. "Nor could I. You were always quite quick—about most
things, if not all. There are other dimensions, pet, other worlds, if you will.
Layer upon layer of them, as a matter of fact, on and on into infinity. And
passages exist between them, though of course those byways are known to very
few."
I was reminded of a conversation I had had with Maeve, concerning experiments
her mate, Calder Holbrook, had been performing. He had found evidence of such
phenomena, although I had been too concerned about other matters at the time to
ask questions.
It is my curse, it would seem, to be either too curious or not curious
enough.
"Is it far away, this place where you've been hiding?" I spoke softly, trying
to lull Challes a little so that he might relax his mental hold on me. I was
regaining my normal powers, quickening inwardly on the sustenance my tutor had
given me even as I ached for all the grief my mother's misguided adoration had
caused.
Challes extended a hand. "You will know soon enough," he said, dropping his
voice to a whisper, as though fearing that we weren't alone in that dank, gloomy
crypt under the crumbling floors of Colefield Hall.
"I have no wish to be mortal again," I confessed. The statement was purest
truth, I realized, and it was shattering to face. I knew without asking that
Daisy would not wish to become the very thing I gloried in being—a vampire. We
were doomed, she and I, even if I managed somehow to save her from Krispin's
vengeance, to be parted yet again.
"But you would not be mere flesh and bone and blood," Challes exulted
quietly, laying a loosely knotted fist to his bosom. "Not you."
I was mystified. "Speak sense, vampire!" I commanded. "I have no patience for
your damnable double-talk!"
Challes laughed. "It pleases me to see that you are as arrogant as ever,
Valerian Lazarus. Has it escaped your notice that you are a prisoner? It is I
who govern the night, not you." He paused and regarded me gently, as though
memorizing my features. "Hush, now. Be not afraid. I have returned to fetch you
home—we shall enter Paradise together."
15
Daisy
Las Vegas, 1995
Daisy walked quickly toward home, as though pursued.
The night was hot and dry, thrumming with sound and with silence. Las Vegas
twinkled all around her, a bright, gaudy tangle of emeralds and rubies, diamonds
and sapphires, tumbling over the desert sands like loot spilled from a treasure
chest.
Daisy wondered if Krispin would be waiting for her when she reached her
apartment. If he meant to kill her that night, he'd have to be quick about
it—dawn was less than an hour away.
Loneliness and fear made a swelling ache in Daisy's throat. If there had ever
been a time in her life when she needed someone to talk to, it was then, but
there was nobody to confide in really, besides the elusive Valerian. She dared
not tell her sister—to do so would worry Nadine and, worse, endanger her, as
well as Freddy and the baby. Nor could Daisy open up to O'Halloran. One word
about vampires, except in jest, and he'd personally see that she was put on
medical leave.
Daisy couldn't blame her partner; if someone had come to her with a wild
story like her own, just a few weeks before, she would have recommended
long-term therapy, if not shock treatments.
Her apartment building was in plain sight when the shift occurred.
In an instant reality altered itself with a sickening lurch. The sidewalk
beneath Daisy's feet turned to cobblestones, and the desert air was suddenly
dank and somehow sour. Fog layered the ground, alive with shifting, wraithlike
shapes, and Daisy made out old-fashioned street lamps and heard the rattle of
carriage wheels and the clatter of horses' hooves on the pavement. The
vibrations rose through the soles of her feet.
Daisy sagged against the nearest wall, the brick cold against her back,
closed her eyes, and tried to slow her runaway heartbeat and rapid breathing by
sheer force of will. It didn't help, knowing this wasn't real, that it was only
another "spontaneous regression," as Valerian would say.
Normal, healthy people did not have experiences like this.
When she was sure she wouldn't hyperventilate, or faint dead away, Daisy
opened her eyes, cherishing even then the vain hope that she would find herself
back in Las Vegas where she belonged.
Nothing had changed—except to become more intense.
The stench of the gutter at her feet swelled and then broke over her in a
nauseating wave, and the passersby, clad in rags like fugitives from the cast of
Les Miserables, were still more aromatic.
Daisy swallowed a scalding rush of bile and murmured an incoherent sound,
meant to be a cry for help, but Valerian did not appear as he had the last time,
when she'd found herself waiting tables in a fifteenth-century tavern.
It seemed the noxious fog was seeping through her skin, penetrating her
skull, settling heavily into her mind and finally causing her memory to
dissipate like steam. She was forgetting things, and remembering others that had
never happened.
She clung desperately to the last shredded recollections of the person she'd
been only moments before… her name had been Daisy once, in a fever or a dream,
but she had no idea who she was now. Or where she was.
It was getting darker and colder by the moment.
She reached out and caught at an old woman's tattered sleeve. "Excuse me—what
is this place?" she asked. "Where am I, please?"
The crone jerked free with a fierce and fearful motion and bustled on without
answering, grumbling as she went.
"It's London Town, miss," said a small voice at her side. She looked down to
see a child gazing up at her, an impossibly thin boy wearing torn clothing and a
filthy cap. "You lost?"
She clung to the last memory, the name, repeating it to herself… Daisy,
Daisy… though even that was struggling to escape her, squirming in her mind
like a greased pig.
"Do you know me?" she whispered, terrified. "Can you tell me who I am?"
The boy shook his head. His enormous gray eyes were at once pitying and
shrewd as he regarded her from beneath a fringe of dark, shaggy hair. "The
peelers'll take you away that quick," he warned with a snap of his grubby
fingers, "if they hear you talkin' such ways as that. You got fine clothes on,
so you must be a lady. Here—let me have a look inside that bag you're carryin'—maybe we'll find your name inside."
She extended the bag—a frilly black drawstring affair with fringe and jet
beads—but before the street urchin could take it from her, an elegantly gloved
hand interceded. She caught a glimpse of a dark waistcoat, a silken vest, the
merest impression of pale blue eyes, and then her vision faded completely.
Rather than a cruel surprise, this state of blindness seemed somehow a return to
the norm, and in its way it was comforting, even empowering, in its very
familiarity.
"Away with you, you thieving little wastrel, or I'll drag you off to Newgate
myself," the man said in a tone that was at once refined and mildly savage, and
she heard the boy's quick steps on the stones as he fled. There was a gentle
reprimand in that cultured voice when he went on, and she felt his strong arm
slip around her waist. "Jenny," he scolded, and with the name came a torrent of
remembrances, almost too many to sort through, and all sense of disorientation
left her. "How many times must I warn you not to wander off by yourself?" He
paused to emit an elegant sigh. When he went on, there was an edge to his voice.
"Perhaps Adela is right in her assertion that you would be better off in an
institution of some sort, where allowances could be made for your affliction."
The reference to a hospital sent a little chill skittering along her spine,
and she distracted herself by aligning all the things she suddenly knew about
herself and the man beside her.
This was Martin, her elder brother and guardian, holding her arm so firmly,
ushering her into a waiting carriage. He was a prominent man of business who
kept offices in High Street. Her name was Jenny Wade, and she lived with Martin
and his wife, Adela, in a spacious town house only a few streets away. She was
nineteen years old and a spinster, much to her grievous disappointment, for her
greatest ambition was to marry and bear children. Her "affliction," as Martin
called it, had come upon her in the course of an illness suffered when she was
seven. Their parents were both dead, and the year was 1722.
Jenny heard Martin rap at the wall of the coach, and the sleek and costly
vehicle jostled into motion, creaking and smelling of rich leather. "You won't
send me to an asylum, so don't threaten," she said cheerfully, acutely aware of
so many things—the varied texture of her gown, her gloves, her cloak among them.
Over the years Jenny had learned to let her other senses compensate for the loss
of her eyesight, and she could determine much from touching, hearing, smelling,
and tasting.
She sensed her brother's smile, knew it contained reluctance as well as
affection. "No," he confessed, "I wouldn't. But you're a scamp all the same, and
I can't think why I put up with you."
"That's easy—it's because you love me," Jenny said. She was not spoiled by
her brother, she reflected, but still he often indulged her. Out of affection,
it was to be hoped, and not pity.
Martin laughed, but there was sorrow in the sound, and worry. Several moments
passed before he spoke, and when he did, his tone was serious. "Why were you
handing your bag over to that little street rat back there?"
Jenny squirmed, uneasy. She'd suffered some kind of spell, she supposed,
forgetting who she was and where she lived, and behind that realization were
other memories, nebulous ones she couldn't quite grasp, so fantastic that they
would surely come up in her dreams.
"I was a bit confused, that's all," she said. Jenny seldom lied to Martin,
for he was far more perceptive than most sighted people, and he had an almost
unerring knack for recognizing an untruth. Deception by omission was another
matter, however, and she often employed it. "You were too hard on the child. He
only wanted to look in my bag for a name of someone who might come to my aid."
"Piffle. Do you think the little wretch can read? If you'd handed him the
bag, he would have run off with it," Martin said with smooth conviction. "The
world is a treacherous and deviant place, Jenny. You must be more cautious in
future."
"Why?" Jenny teased as the carriage rounded a corner. The swaying sensation
was unique to this particular turn in the road, and she knew they'd entered
their own street. "Are these coppers all that stand between us and penury?" She
gave the handbag a little shake, causing the coins inside to rattle.
Martin's reply was snappish, impatient, but Jenny was not deceived by the
show of anger. She'd frightened her brother, and the thought filled her with
remorse.
"Don't be silly. Do you think I give a damn about a handful of pocket change?
You were in danger, Jenny. And now you're telling me you were
'confused.' I'm summoning the doctor as soon as Mistress Peach has given you
supper and put you to bed."
Jenny's regret was swept aside by a rush of impotent fury, though she
harbored an abiding affection for Mistress Peach, who had once served as her
nanny and was now referred to as her companion. "I'm not a child, Martin, to be
tucked up with a dolly, and no one has to 'give' me my supper. I can feed
myself!"
Martin's only answer was an exasperated sigh. The carriage stopped, and cold
air buffeted Jenny's cheeks when the door was opened from the outside. She
descended without waiting for help from her brother, pushing aside the coach
driver's hand, and strode toward the house with the certainty of long practice.
She was greatly troubled, though she wouldn't have admitted as much to Martin
and certainly not to Adela, who was bound to nag, or Mistress Peach, who would
fret herself into a sick headache. Jenny had been blind for twelve years, and
yet she'd seen the fog and the boy and even Martin, though only for a
moment. Furthermore, there were things she should remember, things she
desperately needed to remember, about the moments prior to her fit of
forgetfulness, important matters struggling behind a heavy veil at the back of
her mind.
Jenny's devoted companion met her in the foyer, muttering, bundling her
briskly in a knitted coverlet, while Adela stood by, silent except for the
slight, familiar wheezing sound she made when she was irritated.
"Where did you find her?" she demanded sharply of Martin. Adela was a fine
woman and good wife to Jenny's brother, considering her somewhat intractable and
obstreperous nature, but she collected disappointments, slights, and minor
injustices the way some people garnered seashells or buttons or bits of bright
ribbon. The habit rendered her tiresome indeed, and pettish.
Jenny stiffened inside the coverlet. "Kindly do not speak as if I were deaf,
Adela, as well as blind. If you have a question, then ask it directly!"
"That will be enough, both of you," Martin said wearily, and Jenny's ears
caught the faint whisper of kidskin brushing flesh as he removed his gloves—more
an impression than a sound, really. She felt a draft as he removed his waistcoat
with a habitual flourish that was uniquely his own. "Jenny became distracted
while I was doing business with the tailor, that's all. I'm sure she merely
stepped out of the carriage to get a breath of air and did not realize how far
she'd strayed."
Jenny's face flamed with heat—Martin was as bad as Adela, in his way, making
excuses for her behavior as though she were a slow-witted child—but it would be
futile to argue. Besides, she was exhausted, and vaguely unwell in the bargain,
wanting only to sit by the fire in her room and sip strong tea.
She endured Mistress Peach's seemingly interminable fussing, and when that
good woman finally left her alone, Jenny's gratitude was profound. She felt
oddly insubstantial, like a character in an oft-told tale, and she was deeply
frightened. Pictures flashed inside her head, shifting, jewel-like images of a
strange and faraway place, that pulsed with activity and with unaccountable
noises. How, she wondered, could such things have found their way into the mind
of a sheltered blind woman?
The sense of displacement grew as the hours passed; it was as if she were not
entirely real, for all the solidity and substance of her surroundings. Jenny
herself might have been a shadow, or a reflection.
Was she the dreamer—or the dream?
The doctor came at nine and was shown to her room by Adela.
Jenny did not confide in the aging physician, but endured his fumbling
examinations in silence. She was, by that time, convinced that she was fading,
like a figure in an old and weathered portrait, and would soon vanish entirely.
Valerian
Colefield Hall, 1995
I had almost freed myself from the unseen shackles my tutor had used to
restrain me. In the meantime, while I continued the struggle I hoped was
imperceptible, I spoke moderately to Challes. "Paradise," I murmured in a
thoughtful tone while he loomed over me in an avid and singularly unnerving
fashion. "The place where there are many mansions."
"Yes," he whispered, his face translucent with some maniacal ecstacy.
"I would not dare to cross the threshold of any one of them," I told him, and
while I lent the words a regretful note, the unflattering truth was that I had
no desire to be anything other than what I was—not angel or devil, specter or
saint, and certainly not a mortal man.
Challes looked as though I'd struck him, and recoiled.
I had broken my bonds and bolted upright on the slab, but before Challes
could react or I could get to my feet, the chamber trembled as if the very walls
would give way. There was a strange, implosive feeling all around, as if the air
had been replaced by a vacuum, and then he was there.
My brother.
Krispin gripped Challes from behind and flung him cruelly aside. "Fool!" he
rasped.
I studied him, my head tilted slightly to one side. Krispin was not a large
fiend, neither broad through the shoulders nor long of leg, like me; he had,
instead, the lithe agility of a trapeze artist or a dancer. His hair was fair as
moonlight, his eyes a soft, deceptively fragile blue, his skin so flawless that
he appeared to have no pores.
"Enough," I said quietly when Krispin moved to stove in Challes's ribs with
one booted foot. Granted, a mortal could not have done a vampire injury by such
a blow, but Krispin, of course, was not human. He was plainly much stronger than
the blood-drinker who had spawned us both.
Krispin listened—evidently there was still enough of the flesh-and-blood boy
in him that his first instinct was to respond to an elder brother's command—and
Challes crawled, crablike, into a corner, there to whimper and mewl in a manner
that made me want to kick him myself.
Still seated on the slab, I spread my hands. "Here I am, Krispin," I said
mildly, belying my true feelings, which were myriad and complicated, bittersweet
and excruciatingly painful. "Destroy me if you can."
For a long interval Krispin simply stared at me in silence, and I watched a
kaleidoscope of emotions flash across his Dresden face. I saw hatred, along with
the ghostly and shimmering reflection of an adoration it shamed him to recall,
and finally, a sort of terrified triumph.
He shook his seraphic head. "No, my brother," he said with the vaguest of
smiles. "Your death will be neither quick nor merciful. You have much to suffer
before the gates of hell swing wide to grant you entrance."
What I felt was more revulsion than fear, more sorrow than hatred. How I
despised Challes in those moments for taking that naive, mischievous child
Krispin had been and turning him into this monster! Had I not been occupied,
perforce, with my brother's presence, I believe I would have carried Challes to
a churchyard, laid him at the feet of a holy statue, and driven a stake through
his heart.
"Do you think there will be a welcoming parade?" I asked with no trace of
guile. "When I finally meet with damnation, I mean?"
Krispin might have flushed, had he been mortal. I saw the anger flood his
face, although it did not alter the pristine white of his flesh, but instead
rendered it more transparent still, like cloth woven of spun moonlight. "You are
in grave trouble, brother," he said quietly. "Pray, do not make light of it."
"You would prefer pathos? Pleading, perhaps, with copious tears? Sorry." I
paused for the length of a heartbeat. "I won't be humbling myself in any
significant fashion, Krispin. Pride is my curse, as well as your own. We are,
after all, begotten of the same dam and sire, God rest their misguided souls."
Krispin flinched, though not, I thought, from the mention of the Supreme
Being. No, I believed it was my reference to our mother, however generically,
that disturbed him—and his response confirmed my suspicions.
"Do not speak her name," he warned. "Your lips, your tongue, would defile
those revered syllables merely by shaping them!"
I rolled my eyes. "Great Zeus," I said on what would have been a long breath,
had I been human. "You are fixated—perhaps that good woman kept you too long on
the breast. Or, mayhap, not long enough—"
"Be silent!"
I stood at last and crossed the few feet that separated us with an easy,
unhurried gait. "Why?" I asked, knowing he saw only the insolence and disdain I
willed him to see, and not the heartbreak and confusion churning behind the
facade I presented. "Why did you murder those poor women, instead of bringing
your rancor straight to me in the first place?"
His lips curled slightly, and I was struck by the realization that any
female, mortal or otherwise, would find him vastly appealing. He could seem
ingenuous if he so wished, and even virtuous. Perhaps he had not simply killed
his victims, but gotten to know them first, methodically seducing their minds…
"I told you before," Krispin said with elegant contempt, "I would not make
this easy for you. I want you to pay."
I rested my hands on my hips, realizing only after the fact that it was an
old gesture, from our days as corporeal youths, a posture of superior power for
me, but a subtly daunting one for him. "Even considering my multitude of sins,
mortal and otherwise," I began, "your loathing of me is somewhat
disproportionate to reality, don't you think?"
Challes had risen to his feet, and he was no longer making pitiful noises,
but he cowered against the wall of the vault, watching Krispin as though he were
the Devil incarnate or, far worse from a vampire's perspective,
Nemesis, the angel of sublime vengeance. I began to speculate that my teacher
had not been trying to usher me into Paradise at all, but merely to hide me from
my brother's madness, which appeared to be even greater and more virulent than
his own.
I was touched, and decided not to stake Challes after all. Not immediately,
at least.
"It is more than Seraphina's betrayal," Krispin said, and I felt the searing
cold of his agony flicker across my spirit, like shadows cast by flames of ice.
"You have taken my mate. Over and over again, you have stolen her."
All sympathy deserted me in that moment, for it enraged me that Krispin dared
to regard himself as a rival for Daisy's affections. We had been created to live
side by side, she and I, through all the ages; had it not been for my
transformation from man to vampire, we would have been incarnated together,
again and again, until we stepped over the farthest boundary of time.
"Your mate?" I shaped the words softly, insolently, on my tongue. "You were
never anything more than an interloper, Krispin. She is mine—now and forever,
time without end, amen and amen."
He raised one finely shaped eyebrow, and his mocking expression made me want
to close my hands around his polished marble throat and choke him. "Is she?"
Krispin paused to feign a luxurious sigh. "Ah, yes—our lady of many names. How
lovely she is. You call her Daisy now, but you have known her as Brenna, as
Elisabeth—poor whoring little wretch—and as sweet Jenny. Unfortunate how quickly
she took sick and died, wasn't it?" Another sigh, still theatrical, if almost
inaudible. "And there were other lifetimes, of course—she was the fetching woman
who ran the boardinghouse in that little western town, wasn't she?"
Harmony Beaucheau. I closed my eyes against the memory of that particular
incarnation—for it remained acutely painful, even after more than a century—and
opened them again only out of an instinct for self-preservation. "'What is the
point of this?" I whispered. "Are you leading up to telling me that Daisy cared
for you once, when her name was Maddie Goodtree and the two of you made love in
a gravedigger's cottage, with the Great Fire of London licking at your—heels?"
"So she told you," Krispin said with a self-satisfied and somewhat distant
little smile. "I hoped she would, once I'd revived the memory for her."
I felt sick, just to think of Krispin's hands on Daisy's flesh, in this
lifetime or any other, but I did not allow the aversion to show. I had no way of
reckoning the extent of my brother's powers, but I sensed that they were
formidable, and quite different from my own. Whether his abilities were greater
or lesser than mine, I could not guess, but they were unquestionably heightened
by my ignorance of their nature.
"You could not have her, except by trickery," I said. "So you murdered her,
over and over again."
The cherubic mouth twitched with barely contained amusement. "Not the first
time, when she was Brenna," he disclaimed blithely. "That happened quite on its
own. But I admit to helping justice along a little, now and again, in this or
that lifetime. Elisabeth's fever, for example. It's easy, you know, to plant the
germ of an illness in mortal flesh. They're so fragile. So vulnerable to any
passing malady."
I flung myself upon my brother, knowing all the while it was what he wanted,
what he'd goaded me to do, but unable to restrain the poisonous fury swelling
within me. I made a sound that was at once a guttural growl and a shriek as I
throttled him; I was as frenzied as a wolf in a trap, and as dangerous.
Krispin screamed, but it was a cry of hideous pleasure, even of ecstasy, like
some hell-beast in climax. Even the hurt I caused him gave him joy, however
heinous; he had surely dreamed of this moment, planned and schemed for it, for
nearly the whole of his existence.
He melted in my hands like vapor, and vanished, but we had renewed our
brotherly bond, malevolent as it was, and I sensed his destination and pursued
him, leaving a disconsolate Challes behind to weep into his palms.
Krispin took me to a high plain, somewhere on the coast of Cornwall, and the
sea was within our hearing if not our sight. There were standing stones, garish
in the frigid, silvery glow, casting their lengthy shadows toward the moon,
instead of away, in an eerie juxtaposition of nature.
His laughter was the keening of a mad creature, and he ran between the
stones, his cape trailing absurdly behind him, as if he expected to take wing
and fly. I would not have been surprised if he had.
I waited until he had expended some of his demented energy, watching him spin
and cavort, now perched crowlike atop the highest of the ancient stones, now
pirouetting in the center of the circle, arms outstretched, head tilted back,
beautiful face bathed in moonlight.
The pagan revels continued for some time. Then, at long last, Krispin was
still, smiling and beckoning for me to join him inside the stones.
I did not hesitate, though I was certain a trap was about to spring. I would
have followed him into the very heart of hell, anywhere, because as long as I
was with him, watching him, Daisy would be safe. When the time was right, when I
had discovered my brother's greatest vulnerability, I meant to destroy him.
"There were countless sacrifices on this spot," he told me when I stood
beside him. "So much passion, so much terror—the place reverberates with it even
after all this time. Can't you feel it?"
I kept my repugnance to myself. Temporarily. "I have terror and passion
enough of my own," I said. "I do not require that of others."
Krispin smiled at me and seemed, for a moment, almost like his old self. That
facet of the experience stood out in sharp relief, wholly separate and more
frightening somehow than anything that had gone before. "You were always
damnably self-reliant, a law unto yourself—Valerian, the archangel made flesh,
the saint with fangs."
I ignored the jibe. I would not allow him to glory in my attack again until I
was ready to drive a pointed stick through his crumbling, rotted little heart.
He could take all the perverted pleasure he wished in that. "You want my life,"
I said quietly, "and I will give it to you."
He stared at me, plainly baffled, and I was relieved to know he could not
read my mind the way some fiends could. "On what condition?" he asked,
suspicious.
"That we face our end together," I said in all sincerity. It was, I saw, the
only way to put a finish to the curse that had pursued Daisy and me for so long.
If I perished, and Krispin with me, the cycle would be broken at long last.
Never again would I find Daisy, fall in love with her, hold her in my arms as
she gave up the ghost yet another time. She would be left to live out this life,
and any others that lay ahead, in relative peace.
Krispin studied me in silence for a long time. I could feel dawn hovering
beyond the hills, ready to spill over the horizon and consume us. I wanted that
death, although I knew it would be agonizing, and only a prelude to the
suffering waiting beyond the veil.
"Suppose there is no judgment and no hell," Krispin reflected. "Would you
welcome death? Would you yearn to rest, at long last, in the dark arms of
oblivion?"
I felt the sting of impending morning on my cool flesh and wondered if I
would die bravely, or in a screaming, writhing frenzy of anguish. I had never
seen a vampire burned to cinders by the sun, but I had witnessed other
demises—all of them ghastly.
I shivered.
"Oblivion would certainly be preferable to eternal suffering in the flames of
Hades," I confessed, "but I have no particular wish to rest forever, either."
"You care for her so much, the lovely Daisy, that you would submit yourself
to any fate?" Krispin paused to smile. Then, before I could offer a reply, he
went on. "How noble you are. Imagine it—Valerian Lazarus, the bootmaker's whelp,
willing to sacrifice his glorious self to save a woman. Why, it's almost
Arthurian!"
I hadn't been callow enough to hope that Krispin would fail to guess why I
wanted him to die with me. An idiot could have figured it out. Nor had I taken
any great risk in letting him see how very great my love for Daisy truly was—he
had known all along. He had tormented me with it, without my ever guessing, for
hundreds of years.
I glanced uneasily toward the eastern horizon. It was still dark, and yet
there was enough light hidden in the gloom to sear my sensitive eyes. For the
first time, it occurred to me that one of the differences between Krispin's
powers and mine could be the ability to withstand sunlight. "You have made your
point," I said irascibly. "I know that you hate me, that you hold me in utter
contempt. And I grow weary of your self-pity. Great Scot, to grieve and wail all
these centuries over the slights of a vain, selfish, and utterly ignorant woman
like Seraphina—to cry over spilt mother's milk—it's madness, Krispin. It's
obscene!"
The light was coming closer, getting stronger, burning. Burning.
Krispin glared at me and gave that harrowing animal shriek of rage again, but
then he turned to smoke, like a movie vampire, and seeped into the ground, there
in the center of the circle, which yawned around us like the jaws of some great
beast.
I did the same, and found myself, along with my brother, in a pit of tangled
bones covered by the hard, windswept earth. These, no doubt, were the remains of
those poor scapegoats who had been sacrificed to ancient, greedy gods. I felt
their emotions, especially their fear, and heard the silent, protesting
cacophony of their voices.
Krispin burrowed in among them, curled into the same position I'd seen him
take as a small child, and, with a beatific smile curving his lips, tumbled
abruptly into the vampire sleep. I would have killed him then, despite
multitudinous compunctions, using one of the martyr's bones for a stake and
another for a mallet, but my own nature betrayed me—I succumbed to the dark
waters swamping my mind and slipped down and down, into the valley of the
shadow.
16
Jenny Wade
London, 1722
In her dreams Jenny could see as clearly as she had before her illness, and
the images flashing through her mind were alive with clamor and bright, vibrant
colors, pulsing and infused with light.
Everything moved at impossible speeds, and she was surrounded by purposeful
people clad in odd, abbreviated clothing. They were strangers, and yet,
conversely, she felt she knew and understood them, in a general way at least.
When she awakened, with a violent jerk, the scenes and the actors who had
played them out vanished into the part of her brain where unremembered things
were hidden. Her breathing was rapid and shallow, and she sank back against her
pillows, willing herself to be calm. When she had achieved that, she focused her
sharpened senses and discerned, by the coolness of the air against the flesh on
her arms and by the deep, settled stillness of the house, that it was not yet
morning.
She ached with a sudden, terrible loneliness, worse than anything she'd felt
before, and was too distraught even to weep. She was young, she was blind, and
she would never have a home of her own, or a loving husband to laugh with, or
children to tug at her skirts and plead for sweets and stories.
Jenny waited patiently for the familiar sounds that-meant the others were
awake. Then she rose and washed, and was seated at her vanity table, brushing
and plaiting her waist-length hair, when there came a rapid knock at her bedroom
door. Before she could call out in answer, Adela swept in, her scent and the
essence of her nature going before her like unseen heralds.
"Good morning, Jenny," she said without warmth.
Jenny felt a stirring of pity for her sister-in-law, for there was no poetry
in her, no sunshine or humor. "Good morning," she replied and went on weaving
her hair into a single thick braid.
Adela came to stand just behind her. "Martin tells me you suffered an episode
yesterday."
A small muscle, hidden somewhere deep in Jenny's heart, seized with the
renewed fear of being sent away to some awful place, where madwomen would be her
only companions. "It was nothing," she said, hoping she sounded sane, as well as
cheerful. "I was just thinking of other things, that's all."
Her sister-in-law was rigidly silent.
Jenny imagined that she could see her reflection in the vanity mirror, but
the only image she could recall was that of a scrawny, red-haired girl with
green eyes dominating a freckled face. She did not know how she looked now,
though she often plagued Peach to describe her, and begged to know if she was
beautiful.
Dear, loyal Peach always answered that she was lovely enough to capture and
break the heart of any gentleman alive.
"What have I done, Adela?" Jenny asked in a soft voice, "to make you despise
me so much? This is a large house—a palace by anyone's standards, and yet I
invariably feel as though I'm in the way."
Adela did not answer—perhaps she did not know what to say, or refrained out
of kindness—and left the room.
Jenny finished dressing, descended the broad staircase, and made her way into
the parlor. There she sat down at the harpsichord and made music while a gentle
rain pattered upon the windowpanes, making itself part of the song.
There were callers after luncheon, and Martin came home early from his
offices and sat in the parlor with Jenny, reading aloud from a new French novel.
It was during that pleasant interlude that the simple truth came to her—Adela
was jealous of Martin's affection for his young sister, and no doubt wished for
more attention from him.
A great sorrow filled Jenny, and when Martin had finished reading, she
ventured a suggestion. "Perhaps you should take Adela to the seaside. It would
be romantic, just the two of you."
"And what would become of you?"
Jenny was mildly incensed. "I have Peach to look after me, Martin," she said
in a moderate tone. "And don't say you must concentrate on your work, because I
know it isn't true. You could manage your business in your sleep—I've heard you
complain of it before."
Martin chuckled, but there was an undercurrent of sadness in his mirth. "I
must stop buying these damned sentimental novels," he said. "They give you
unseemly ideas."
"Adela needs you," Jenny insisted gently. "You neglect her."
"Leave it alone, Jenny," Martin said, and his tone was sharp enough to sting.
He set the book aside with a telling thump, got out of his chair, and strode out
of the room.
Jenny had dinner alone that evening beside the fire, for Martin had gone off
to his club, and Adela had taken to her bed with yet another headache. And still
the rain fell, though it wasn't singing now, as before. It was dreary, and
Jenny's loneliness was such that she wondered how she could bear a lifetime of
such feelings.
After her meal she returned to the harpsichord, closing the great doors
behind her to muffle the sound, and sat down to play.
It was that night, in the soft swirling center of her music, that Jenny heard
the angel's voice for the first time.
"Jenny," it said softly, almost reverently, from just behind her right
shoulder. Whether born of heaven or of hell, the visitor was male. To a
disturbing degree.
Jenny was not afraid, but she did wonder if she was having another spell. She
craved comfort and reassurance; mayhap her active imagination had conjured a
being to meet that need. She knew, because her blindness had made her
introspective, and she'd spent a great deal of time exploring the fascinating
and mysterious corners, closets, and crevices of her own inner world, learning
that the mind was capable of all sorts of trickery, pleasant and otherwise.
She did not move from the little bench, or speak, but simply stopped playing
and held out one hand.
"I have found you," said the visitor, and she heard weeping in his voice, as
well as joy. Felt the air stir as he bent to kiss her lightly on top of the
head.
An exquisite passion swept through her, and she felt herself flush. "You're
not real," she said. "You were born of my longing and my need."
His hands rested gently on her shoulders; his grasp was gentle, but not warm
as Martin's would have been, or Peach's. His flesh felt as cool and smooth as a
polished gem, even through the fabric of her gown, and she reasoned that heaven
must of course be a temperate place, the logical opposite of hell.
"No, precious," he said. "I'm not an illusion."
"Are you an angel then?" Jenny managed to ask.
His laugh was low and richly masculine, but contained none of the mockery or
mild contempt she sometimes detected in Martin's mirth. His lips brushed the
side of her neck, and they were cool, too, and soft like the petals of some
exotic flower. "Perish the thought," he said. "But I am not a demon, either, so
please do not fear me."
Jenny was convinced now that she must be having a waking dream—she could not
hope for such tender attentions in reality, given her affliction—and the
realization was a keen stab of sorrow, piercing the heart.
"I can't bear to think I've imagined you," she said wretchedly.
"I'm all too real, my Jenny. And I have loved you for longer than you can
imagine."
Something leaped within her, something primitive and treacherous and wildly
improper. She wanted to believe, wanted desperately for this phantom lover to be
genuine, formed of flesh and blood, loving her, needing her, despite her flaw. A
name, she thought, would give him substance, so she asked for his in a quiet,
hopeful tone.
"Valerian," he answered somewhat hoarsely, and he squeezed her shoulders with
his long fingers, and once again Jenny felt a deep and unholy pleasure slamming
through her veins and muscles. At last, after finding its way into every part of
her, the sensation shaped itself into a fiery coil and spun, tightening with
every turn, just beneath her stomach.
"I've been so lonely," Jenny confessed. It was all right, because she was
surely dreaming, and because it wouldn't have done to confide such a stark truth
to Martin, or Adela, or Peach. They would have thought it untoward for an
innocent young woman to desire an intimacy deeper than the brisk, blithe
affection they themselves displayed for her.
"As have I," Valerian replied. In her mind she could picture him—he was tall,
as stately and handsome as a prince from a storybook. She imagined his eyes to
be blue, intensely so, and his hair to be the warm and rich color of
chestnuts—and she was quite sure of these things, though she did not know how
she could have discerned them.
Jenny reached up and interlocked her fingers with his. "Will you stay with
me?"
He chuckled, though the sound was like a sob, too, and raised her from the
seat before the harpsichord to kiss her ever so softly on the mouth. At this
contact, an entirely new experience for Jenny, the wicked flame in her depths,
only then dwindling, flared once more into a brilliant, consuming blaze.
"I must go," Valerian told her while she was still swaying in his arms, giddy
from the kiss. "But I'll return soon, lovely Jenny. I promise."
She put her arms around his neck, perhaps a little desperately. "Stay," she
pleaded, unashamed.
He rested a fingertip on her still-tingling, slightly swollen lips. "It is
almost morning, beloved—I cannot stay."
Jenny clung, but he seemed to dissolve in her very embrace, as dream people
are able to do, and she was alone again, but not so sad. The beginnings of a
sweet and fragile hope kindled in her breast, and she hummed softly to herself
as she went upstairs, moved confidently along the passageway to her room, and
got herself ready for bed.
On the morrow she awakened to the joy and prevailed upon Peach to take
special care in arranging her hair, with ribbons and dried flowers woven through
the plait before it was wrapped round her crown in a coronet. She donned a
cheerful dress of yellow silk, too; Jenny knew the color because of its unique,
buttery warmth beneath her practiced fingertips, and could recognize red and
blue and green and white, when the need arose, by similar means.
Before tea that afternoon, Adela read to Jenny from a volume of classic Greek
poetry, perhaps as a gesture of peace. Dinner was served at eight, and when it
was over, Jenny pleaded fatigue and retired to her room, unaccompanied because
it was Peach's night to visit her sister.
Jenny had not lied when she'd claimed to be tired, but beneath her weariness
flowed a wild, anticipatory emotion she could not define, an elemental,
unfettered something, careening along like a river, under no command
but its own. Jenny could no more have stopped the rushing torrent than altered
the course of the Thames, so she sat down in the chair by the hearth in her room
and waited.
The house settled slowly around her—servants shuffled sleepily in the halls,
doors opened and closed, floors creaked. She heard Martin's voice, and Adela's,
as they said their good-nights and parted in the passage to enter their separate
rooms.
Jenny had led a sheltered life, but she was not ignorant of the ways of men
and women, thanks to Peach's frankness and the scandalous gossip she sometimes
overheard the maids exchanging when they thought no one else was about. It
puzzled her that Martin and Adela did not share a bed, and had never done so
within her memory. Perhaps, she speculated, they did not wish to have children,
like other couples of their age and means.
Guilt washed through Jenny in the wake of the great flood of indefinable
excitement that had nearly drowned her moments before. Other couples did not
have a blind and indigent relation to look after, she thought with chagrin.
The summons from her angel, when it came, was a trill of silent music, a
burst of harp strings too subtle for the ear to catch, but something felt
instead, like a feather passed closet to the skin but not quite touching. Jenny
moved quietly and competently toward it, unhampered by the darkness that slowed
others' steps, responding to the piper's call.
There could be no doubt that she was awake this time, she reflected with a
sense of soaring joy, when she entered the misty, fragrant garden and knew that
he was there waiting.
"Valerian," she said softly, and he drew her, by some faculty of mind, or
perhaps by the shimmering thread of her most private desires, along the brick
walk and into his arms.
It was the first of many such visits. Sometimes Valerian told wonderful
tales, and on other nights they danced together in the garden, and it was as
though Jenny's feet skimmed above the flat stones surrounding the fountain.
Nearly a year passed before they became lovers.
On that eve of sweet surrender Valerian wrapped her in something silken and
whispering—a cloak, she thought. Jenny clung to him when they were caught up by
the wind and became part of it, and of each other, and were carried away to
another place.
"What are you that you can work such tricks?" she asked when Valerian laid
her on a soft couch in a room she couldn't see, and she knew by sound and motion
that he knelt beside her. At last, after all the courting, all the subtle
preparation, she would give herself to her phantom.
It would not have mattered what reply he made to her question—be he devil or
fairy prince, Jenny thought, he was the answer to all her longings. She had been
waiting for him since before her first memory.
"A fallen angel," Valerian said with tenderness and sorrow mingling in his
wonderful voice. He hadn't made the music that had drawn her to the garden so
many nights, she realized then—he was that music. "Don't trouble
yourself with who I am, sweet. It is enough, isn't it, that we've found each
other again at long last?"
Jenny raised trembling fingers to the bodice of her gown, guided by the same
inner instinct that made her heart pound and caused a heavy, aching warmth to
settle over her. She undid the ribbon ties of her camisole and parted the fabric
to reveal her plump breasts, because she knew that he wanted to see and touch
them, because she longed to nurture him somehow.
He groaned, and the sound bore her high on fragile wings, and she soared upon
it, triumphant, and murmured his beautiful name—Valerian. The utterance itself
was a caress, echoing back to her, lodging in deep, forbidden places.
She felt his lips on her nipple, hungry and wet, and cried out, not in fear
or in horror, but in that singular, innocent lust at which only virgins can be
truly proficient. Her fingers found their way into his thick, silken hair, and
she pressed him closer, whimpering, urging him on in his gentle greed.
The pleasure was unspeakable, not to be borne, exceeding even the fitful and
licentious fantasies that had caused Jenny to toss restlessly in her bed when
she first reached womanhood. She had never even guessed that the mating process
could be so fiercely delightful.
Jenny wanted to give herself up to Valerian, wanted it more than the return
of her eyesight, more than a husband or a child or a house where she was
mistress, and not Adela. These last were, after all, impossible dreams, but this
other pleasure was within her grasp. The joy of it would sustain her, even if he
should abandon her, through all the bleak years of spinsterhood that might lay
ahead.
She could barely speak, so intense was the ecstasy he offered and withdrew
and then offered again, with his light, musician's fingers and his seeking
mouth. "Valerian—where have we known each other before? I do not—remember—"
She paused to give a shuddering sigh as he raised her far enough off the couch
to remove her clothes.
To be naked to his gaze was as heady as a surfeit of summer wine. For the
first time ever, Jenny felt lushly beautiful and womanly—and whole.
Valerian was nibbling at the delicate flesh on her neck. "Your heart
remembers," he said softly. "Look into your heart."
"I can't—think," she protested with a throaty laugh.
He gathered her breasts in his strong, gentle hands, chafing the taut peaks
with his thumbs, and she wondered distractedly why she did not feel his breath
upon her flesh, for his face was very near to hers. "How like a woman to want to
think at such a time," he teased. "The heart does not have thoughts,
beloved—only feelings. Search there, among them, and I promise you will find
recollection, some shadow, of what we have been to each other."
Such a search could not be made, Jenny knew, while her blood was thundering
through her veins and her breathing was racing out of control. Still, she sensed
that Valerian was right—they were not strangers, but companions of old; each
belonging to the other in some elemental and enigmatic way.
To lie with Valerian was to return home after a long and difficult journey,
to be safe after a spell of unrelenting danger.
"Please," she said. "Make love to me."
"Yes," he replied, and after parting her legs tenderly, to either side of the
couch, he mounted her. "There may be pain—"
Jenny's slim, supple form arched like a bow, taut and humming. "I don't
care," she said, and it was true. Nothing mattered but their joining, the
reunion of their bodies and souls.
Valerian lunged into her, and she cried out, in a virgin's distress, yes, but
also in profound welcome. She was exultant, alive with sensation. At last, at
last, she was truly herself.
In the meantime, Valerian murmured endearments to her, and half-formed
prayers of adoration, his magnificent body flexing powerfully, reaching deep
inside Jenny, causing her to sob softly even as her spirit took fire and burned.
It ended, finally, as must all joys and all sorrows, and they lay together,
entwined, exhausted, reunited after a separation so long that Jenny could not
remember their parting. Later, when she'd gathered her scattered wits, she would
examine her heart, as Valerian had said she must, and surely she would find him
there…
Daisy
Las Vegas, 1995
"Chandler!" The voice was snappish, insistent. "Damn it, Daisy, you gotta
come out of it!"
She stirred. Daisy? Who the hell was Daisy?
"Open your eyes, Chandler," her tormentor commanded.
She ached all over, yet a sweet languor possessed her, as though she had just
made love, and been thoroughly, skillfully satisfied. She did not want to
surface, to leave the sensation behind.
"I ain't got all night, Chandler!"
Was this the man who had been her lover, who had carried her to heights she
only faintly remembered?
It couldn't be, she thought. Reluctantly she opened her eyes.
Seeing O'Halloran looming over her brought everything back with all the
subtly of a train plunging off a high trestle. He had cookie crumbs on his chin,
what hair he had left was standing on end, and there was a rumpled air about
him, as if he hadn't changed clothes since the Carter administration.
She sighed and closed her eyes again, just for a moment. At least that much
was normal—her partner was the same sweet slob he'd always been.
"Daisy, don't veg out on me now," O'Halloran rasped. "You looked right at me
a second ago. I saw you."
"Super-cop," she said, trying on the name he'd called her by—Daisy—in her
muddled mind and finding that it fit comfortably, like a favorite T-shirt or a
roomy pair of sweat pants. "Nothing gets by you, does it, O'Halloran?" She
paused, wanting to cry but too proud to give in to the urge. "Damn it, this is a
hospital, isn't it?"
"University Medical Center," O'Halloran confirmed. "But don't get your
panties in a wad, Chandler—it ain't the psycho ward. You collapsed on the
sidewalk, that's all, and somebody called an ambulance."
Daisy's temples were throbbing, and she thought she might stick her head over
the side of the bed and heave all over O'Halloran's shoes. Chances were, nobody
would notice if she did.
"Am I hurt?"
"Nope," O'Halloran said proudly, as though he'd participated in her salvation
or even engineered it single-handedly. "But you were definitely out of it.
Talked about some guy named Martin and twitched a lot."
She raised a hand to her forehead, to push back her hair, and noticed for the
first time she was on IV. "What the—?" she said, starting to sit up.
O'Halloran pushed her back onto the pillows. "Take a breath, Chandler," he
said. "It's just sugar water. No big deal. And don't even think about getting
up, because you ain't going noplace, not tonight."
A tear escaped, despite Daisy's determination, and zigzagged down her cheek.
"They think I'm crazy or on drugs, don't they? The brass, I mean."
Her partner smiled, produced a chocolate cookie from somewhere, and bit into
it with relish. The crumbs dropped onto Daisy's bedsheet.
"Nobody thinks you're using," he said. "You've already had the necessary
blood and urine tests. And you're probably only mildly deranged, which puts you
in the normal category."
"I'm not having a breakdown," Daisy said. But she was remembering so many
things—being blind, living in her brother and sister-in-law's house in
eighteenth-century London, Valerian carrying her away by magic and making love
to her, and wondering if she'd imagined all of it. She wouldn't be the first cop
to crumble under stress, though that didn't make the idea any easier to deal
with.
O'Halloran found her other hand, the one without the needle and tube
protruding from the large vein, and gathered it awkwardly between his own. "If
you say your head's on straight, Chandler, I believe you," he told her. "You
just need to rest for a while, that's all."
"They've suspended me."
'"You're on medical leave," O'Halloran corrected.
Daisy took a few moments to gather her composure. "Permanently?"
The other cop hesitated just a moment too long. "Until further notice," he
said finally, still holding her hand. "You'll have to have some counseling and
some tests, and then you'll go up before a review board. Happens all the time."
"Not to me, it doesn't."
O'Halloran shrugged in an effort to appear nonchalant, but she saw the
concern in his eyes. "Okay, Chandler, so you got stepped on. Things ain't too
cool just now. That's reality, and you gotta deal with it. You have sick leave,
and some savings, maybe?"
Life with—or without—Jeanine had made Daisy pragmatic at a very young age.
She had sick leave, vacation time, and a year's wages tucked away in the bank.
"Don't sweat it, O'Halloran," she said. "I won't have to move in with you."
He laughed. "You're still a smartass. That's got to be a good sign."
"How's the case going, hotshot? And before you come back with, 'what case?',
let me just say you know damn well which one I'm talking about."
"The vampire thing."
"That's the one."
O'Halloran sighed. "We ain't made a whole hell of a lot of progress with that
one, Chandler." A nurse appeared on the other side of Daisy's bed and gave the
veteran cop a meaningful look. "Tell you what, Ace. I'll stop by in the morning
and fill you in, okay?"
Daisy had neither the strength nor the will to argue. It was late, and she
felt as if she'd been trampled by a herd of tap-dancing burros. Besides, once
O'Halloran and the nurse had gone and the lights were out, she'd be able to cry
in private.
Her partner left, and the nurse, whose nametag read, 'Betty,' gave Daisy a
pill to make her sleep, checked the flow of glucose through the tube, switched
off the light, and went out.
Daisy lay perfectly still, staring up at the ceiling, trying to make sense of
all that had been happening to her since that first fateful night, when she'd
shelled out big bucks to watch a magic show at the Venetian Hotel. Everything
had gone to hell as soon as she'd met Valerian.
He was a regular sort of guy, if you were willing to overlook the fangs and
the fact that he was six hundred years old. Far be it from her to fall in love
with a normal human being, somebody with a last name, at least. Oh, no. She had
to lose her heart to a vampire.
She was, for a time, so caught up in her private lament that she did not
notice the elegant form leaning against the metal rail at the foot of her bed.
When she did, her heart spiraled into the back of her throat, blocking the cry
of alarm that would have escaped a moment later.
"It's only me," Valerian said.
Daisy's relief was so intense that it seemed to melt her bones and muscles
like sunshine on snow. She squinted as he came to stand beside her, his handsome
face clearly visible even in the darkness, because of its pale translu-cence.
"For a moment, I thought—"
"That I was Krispin, come to kill you at last?"
She could only nod.
He touched her face, and she was reminded of his lovemaking, as she'd
experienced it in this lifetime, and as Jenny Wade, the blind girl. "My precious
love," he said in a ragged whisper and bent to kiss her almost fitfully on the
forehead. "I've come to bid you farewell."
Once or twice, since the vampire odyssey had begun, Daisy had wished she
could have her old, comparatively uncomplicated life back. Now, faced with the
prospect of losing Valerian forever, she discovered she was willing to risk
almost anything to continue the relationship, weird as it was.
Maybe she had gone over the edge, and the department had been right
to pull her badge.
"No," she said, her eyes filling with fresh tears. "I don't want you to go."
"Daisy," he whispered, and there was anguish in the way he said her name.
"This is the only way I can protect you, and it's difficult enough—"
"What is the only way? What are you talking about?"
Valerian deflected the questions with a statement. "Krispin won't bother you
again."
"Damn it, Valerian, I have to know what you mean. I love you—that
alone probably qualifies me for mega-therapy—but there it is. You can't just
walk out of here, or turn into a bat and fly away, or dissolve into a mist and
seep through the wall—by God, you owe me more than that!"
He regarded her silently for a time, and she saw his pain clearly in those
moments, though the room was as dark as ever, and felt the weight of his sorrow
descend on her own heart. When he spoke, his voice was only a raspy murmur.
"All right," Valerian said tonelessly. "I've made a bargain with Krispin. We
will both perish, together, and the curse will be broken. You'll be free."
Daisy wanted to blurt out a protest, but she stopped the words in her throat
and swallowed them. Then she waited until she could trust herself to speak in a
rational manner. "How?" She waved her good hand, precluding interruptions. "I'm
not asking about the curse. I want to know how you intend to 'perish,' as you
put it. What tragic elegance that word has!"
His eyes glistened as though he might be weeping, as she certainly was, but
there was no tremor in his voice. "We'll be burned."
Such horror engulfed Daisy that she nearly fainted. She sat up at last and
groped for the small stainless-steel pan on the bedside table, certain her
stomach would fling up its contents. "Burned? Good God, Valerian, you
can't be serious!"
He managed a brief, crooked smile, full of grief. "It's hardly a suitable
subject for a joke," he pointed out.
"I won't let you!" Daisy cried and tried to scramble out of bed.
Valerian pinned her to the pillows, as surely as if he'd grasped her
shoulders, though he was not physically touching her. "You can't stop this,
Daisy," he said reasonably, gently. ''And you wouldn't try if you really
understood the situation."
Daisy's face was wet with tears, and they kept coming, as if there were no
end to them, and she didn't give a damn. "That's bull, and you know it," she
argued furiously. "I do understand the god-damned situation.
What I don't get is how you could be such an idiot! Can't you see that this is a
trick—that Krispin has no intention of going up in smoke with you?"
In a graceful motion that was at once firm and heartbreakingly tender,
Valerian gathered Daisy into his arms and held her close against his chest. "Shhhh,"
he said, stroking her hair with one hand as she gave way to great, silent,
shuddering sobs. For a long time he rocked her gently in his embrace, and when
the worst of the storm had passed, he crooked a finger under her quivering chin
and made her look at him. "Why are you here, Daisy?"
She laid her head against his chest, listening for a heartbeat that wasn't
there. She was kneeling on the mattress now, the IV tube still dangling from her
left hand, with one arm around Valerian's neck. Haltingly she answered his
question, told him how she'd been walking home from the Venetian Hotel when the
second spontaneous regression had overtaken her. Daisy went on to recount her
brief experience as Jenny Wade, finishing with, "You were there, too. You
carried me away, and we made love. I was a virgin."
She felt him tremble. "Yes," he said.
"Did I travel through time, the way you do?"
"No," Valerian replied at length. "You were only remembering. It was all an
illusion."
"Even you?"
"Especially me."
Daisy was disappointed; she'd wanted the experience to be real. "Can vampires
make women pregnant?"
He stiffened but did not pull away, as it had seemed for a moment that he
would. "I don't know," he answered after another long interval. "Pray that such
a thing cannot happen. Any child of mine would surely be a monster."
Daisy turned her wet face into his shirtfront and indulged in a loud sniffle.
"Only during the Terrible Twos," she said, because if she spoke seriously, or
let go of Valerian, the world would end.
Valerian laid a hand to either side of Daisy's head and tilted it back to
look into her eyes. "Stop, Daisy," he pleaded. "I know what you're trying to do,
but it won't work. We can't put off the inevitable."
"Please—stay."
"I can't."
"It's a trap—Krispin means to let you die and save himself at the last
moment!"
"I know that, Daisy," Valerian said patiently, glancing uneasily toward the
window. The darkness seemed to be thinning, losing its depth. "He won't
succeed."
"Yes, he will. He'll come back here and carry me off, and there'll be no one
to protect me—"
Valerian laid a finger to her lips, effectively stopping the rising tide of
hysteria. "I love you," he said, and then he was simply gone. It was as if she'd
only imagined him, only dreamed he was there.
Daisy knelt on the bed for a few moments, frantic, her mind full of horrific
images of Valerian burning. She reached for the pan again and retched
convulsively.
When the spate of illness passed, Daisy switched on her reading lamp and
reached for the telephone on the beside stand. She called information in Seattle
and asked for Kristina's number.
Ms. Holbrook answered right away, though she sounded sleepy. "This had better
be good," she said without preamble.
Daisy had had to make a lot of difficult calls in the course of her work. By
comparison, telephoning the daughter of two blood-drinking monsters in the
middle of the night was tame. "Valerian is in trouble," she told Kristina. "I
need your help."
"Who is this?"
"Daisy Chandler. We met in Las Vegas, at Valerian's house."
"Oh, yes—the naked cop. Tell me—just what kind of fix has my Guardian Vampire
gotten himself into this time? He does have a regrettable gift for generating
chaos, our Valerian. Not to mention scandal, usually accompanied by high drama."
Daisy closed her eyes, gathered her courage, and began to talk.
17
Valerian
London, 1875
I found Calder Holbrook in the lab beneath the London house he shared with
Maeve, his mate. Like many vampires, he preferred the century of his mortal
birth and, having that option, passed much of his time there. "Valerian," the
doctor greeted me, with more resignation than affection, when I appeared at his
elbow. He was an ideal partner for Maeve, though like a great many doctors he
tended to be taciturn to the point of abruptness. He was quiet and steady,
providing a perfect counterbalance to her more spectacular personality. Though I had transformed Holbrook from mortal to fiend myself, and was thus, in a
manner of speaking, his sire, and although it had been I, and no one else, who
had taught him the rudiments of navigating the world of the supernatural, there
was, as the saying goes, no love lost between us.
For it was I who made Maeve a vampire, albeit long before he knew her, and he
was jealous of that undeniable intimacy.
I stood with my hands clasped behind my back, peering over Calder's shoulder
at the concoction bubbling in a bottle heated over a small brazier. "Have you
discovered the cure for what ails us?" I inquired, for I knew that was what the
doctor sought—a way to circumvent a nightwalker's needs for blood-sustenance and
protection from the sun, while retaining the glorious powers we possess.
Unhampered by the kind of idealism that plagues men and vampires of Calder's
ilk, I envisioned a plethora of such creatures ranging over the earth and,
subsequent to that thought, hoped for a resounding failure.
Holbrook turned his head to regard me archly for a moment or two, one eyebrow
raised, then uttered a gruff harumph and turned back to his work.
"Mysteries, mysteries," he muttered. "Even vampirism cannot explain what ails
you, Valerian."
I had just parted from Daisy, probably forever, and I faced an eternity of
damnation—unceasing punishment so terrible, so brutal, that only a medieval mind
could truly grasp its portent—and I was not in the mood to exchange jibes with
the queen's consort. "Please—spare me your hysterical expressions of admiration
and tender regard."
The stuff in Calder's glass vial turned to an interesting shade of amber, and
he raised it high to peer through it and murmur again.
"What do you want?'" he asked when he'd left me quivering on the hook a
little longer.
"I have been told that you've discovered parallel dimensions and passages
into those other worlds."
At long last Calder turned and granted me his full, if somewhat grudging,
attention. "I have uncovered the existence of such phenomena, yes, but I have
only theories as to how they are reached."
I resisted the urge to grasp the doctor's collar and haul him onto his toes
as I might have done with a mortal, for I knew Calder wouldn't suffer such an
affront lightly. He must have glimpsed the intent in my face before I quelled
it, for the shadow of a smile fell across his mouth.
I had amused him. Oh, joy.
"The way must be sealed, whatever and wherever it is," I said at last in an
angry rasp. My temper was not helped by the sense of hopelessness that pervaded
me being like an unseen vapor, bruising every cell and sinew, even in their
atrophy. "Don't you see? That's how he—my brother, Krispin—has been able to hide
himself from me all these centuries. Suppose there are others like him?
Suppose—"
"What in hell are you talking about?" Calder interrupted.
Dawn was approaching; I could feel it tugging at my consciousness, pulling me
downward into a maelstrom of nothingness, although the doctor did not seem to be
affected. "There is so little time!" I cried, desperate to make him understand.
"Tell me," he said, this time with a note of gentleness in his voice. I
imagined that Dr. Holbrook had been a comfort to his patients, as a mortal
physician. He was not generally so delicate with the sensibilities of vampires.
I told the tale, as best I was able, my words faltering and tumbling over
each other as I attempted to resist the grasping, smothering darkness rising
around me. I explained the danger Krispin represented, or at least I hoped that was what I had done, for it all sounded garbled to me, and
disjointed. All the while I was speaking, I wondered vaguely why my fledgling
was not succumbing to the great sleep as I was.
Finally the moment came when I could no longer think, or speak, or wonder. I
had been dragged under, into the oblivion of my innermost being, there to
slumber, witless and unstirring, until the sun sank into westerly seas.
Daisy
Las Vegas, 1995
The sleeping pill must have taken hold soon after Daisy had finished her call
to Kristina, for she wakened to full sunlight and a breakfast tray, with no
conscious memory of hanging up the receiver.
The ageless Ms. Holbrook was standing by the window, her cap of dark hair
gleaming richly in the dazzle of morning, clad in a cream-colored pantsuit of
impeccable tailoring, Gucci shoes, and a matching bag of soft, supple leather.
Her jewelry, a single heavy golden chain, was real, and Daisy wondered if she'd
zapped the outfit out of thin air or simply bought everything in stores, like
anyone else.
"Why didn't you awaken me?" Daisy demanded, frowning at the food on her tray
and reaching reluctantly for a piece of toast. She had no appetite, but she knew
she would need her strength for the challenges ahead, and that meant she had to
eat.
Kristina raised one shoulder in a slight, elegant shrug. "There's really no
hurry. Valerian is a vampire. He's burrowed down somewhere, sleeping off the
day."
Daisy nibbled at the toast. "And Krispin?"
"Who knows? From what you told me on the telephone last night, he may be the
proverbial horse of a different color. An unknown quantity, if you will."
A shiver cartwheeled down Daisy's spine, and the words she spoke were born of
pure bravado. "Can you take me to him?"
"Oh, that's a brilliant idea," Kristina muttered, ignoring the nurse who came
to see if Daisy was eating her breakfast. "If this thing didn't kill us
both for our trouble, my mother well might. Or Valerian himself." She shoved a
hand through her hair, and it immediately fell back into perfect array, a soft
cascade of ebony spun to silk.
In her next life Daisy wanted hair like that.
She settled against her pillow, an unwilling patient, dolefully spooning
stewed peaches into her mouth. A nurse had taken the IV needle from her hand;
that was some progress, at least. And O'Halloran hadn't been in with any further
news flashes on the dismal state of her career. A person had to focus on the
positive whenever possible. 'Okay. Then just tell me how to find the creep," she
said between bites of spongy fruit, "and I'll go by myself."
"Absolutely not," Kristina said. "I'm taking you to my place in Seattle. You
can stay there until all this is settled, one way or another."
Daisy couldn't bear the thought of sitting by passively and leaving
everything to fate. She had too much to lose—and besides, there was really no
place to hide. Krispin would close in for the kill when he wanted to—up until
now, he'd only been toying with Daisy, using her to torment Valerian.
"Hiding out is no solution, Kristina, and you know it," she replied with as
much firmness as she could muster under the circumstances. "Some things can't be
avoided, and this is one of them. There has to be a confrontation."
"Between Valerian and Krispin, yes," Kristina insisted. "But you should stay
out of it. You can't begin to understand what you're dealing with here."
"Would you turn away and pretend nothing was happening? If you were
in love with a man—excuse me, a vampire—could you hide out somewhere until it
was all over?"
Daisy thought she saw a shadow of sadness move in Kristina's eyes, but the
expression was so fleeting that she told herself she'd imagined it.
"Daisy, the important thing here is for you to stay alive. The relationship
isn't going to work anyway, because in case you've forgotten, you're a mortal
woman and Valerian is a vampire. How could the two of you ever hope to have
anything even remotely resembling a normal life? You'll get old and die, for
instance, but Valerian, if he survives, will look the same a thousand years from
now as he does today." She paused to walk over and close the door on the hustle
and bustle of the hospital corridor before continuing. "He wouldn't change back
into a mortal, Daisy, even if such a thing were possible. Valerian revels
in what he is. Would you be willing to become a vampire?"
Daisy shrank back, repelled by the idea and more than a little stricken
because Kristina's points were valid ones. "Of course not," she said.
Kristina spread her hands wide as if to say, "Well, then?"
"I love Valerian," Daisy insisted in a fragile tone. "And I don't care if
everybody thinks I'm his mother someday—or if I don't see him in the daytime, or
any of that. It would be enough just to be with him."
The other woman raised one delicate eyebrow. Her eyes were an intense shade
of silvery gray and so expressive that few words were needed. "Of all vampires,
Daisy, Valerian is the most fickle, the most outrageous, the most flamboyant.
His passions have a range you cannot begin to appreciate."
Daisy closed her eyes, just briefly, against the keenest ache she had ever
felt. "If you are saying he has loved others—"
"He has," Kristina said, though not unkindly.
"Whose side are you on, anyway?" Daisy demanded, regretting that she'd turned
to this woman—if indeed she was a woman and not some kind of spook—for
help in saving Valerian from himself as well as from his brother.
"Your side, Daisy," Kristina answered sadly. "And Valerian's. Just now my
only aim is to keep you both alive. Still, if you're smart, you'll take my
advice, forget our splendid friend and find a nice, ordinary mortal to love."
Daisy pushed away her food and folded her arms stubbornly. "I'm afraid
knowing Valerian has spoiled me for 'nice, ordinary mortals,'" she said.
"Besides, there's something bigger than all of us going on here. It's as if
we've come to the crux of it all, the X on the map, after centuries of
blunders and near misses. The situation has to be resolved—I feel sure of it.
There is something we're supposed to do to make things right."
"No wonder you keep reincarnating as Valerian's lover, over and over again,"
Kristina remarked with some irritation. "You haven't the sense to learn
your lesson."
"Which is?" Daisy asked tartly, swinging her legs over the side of the bed
and testing a privately held theory that she could stand on her own if she
tried, despite the bone-melting weakness that still afflicted her.
"That you must let go of Valerian, once and for all. And the same goes for
him. The two of you are obsessed, following each other from continent to
continent and century to century, as if you could thwart karma by mule-headed
persistence!"
Daisy stood, wavered, clutched the bed, indulging in a few deep, steadying
breaths before replying. "Maybe it's just that we know we belong together," she
said. "Damn it, aren't we entitled to one lifetime of happiness, after all we've
been through?"
"None of us is entitled to anything," Kristina countered, folding her arms.
"We're here on sufferance. Mortal and monster, saint and sinner—we could all be
obliterated at the whim of heaven."
"How nice that you came to visit," Daisy said with acid sweetness. "To think
I was actually depressed before!"
Kristina smiled tentatively and approached Daisy's bedside. "Sorry—I tend to
be a little overrealistic sometimes," she said and laughed a little. "I get that
from my father, I think. He's pragmatic to a fault."
Daisy, steadier on her feet now, began to make her way slowly around the bed,
with a goal of reaching the closet. She didn't ask Kristina to blink her up an
outfit, like before at Valerian's house; it had occurred to her since that the
clothes might have been woven of fancy and little else, like those of the fabled
emperor. There was also a possibility that the garments could vanish, being
magical, like so much smoke, leaving her standing in some public place clad only
in her good intentions.
"Nothing wrong with taking a sensible approach to things," she said, because
she liked Kristina and because she, being a cop, albeit a suspended one, was
inclined toward a practical view herself. Her knuckles whitened where she
gripped the steel rail at the foot of the mattress as she inched along. "Are you
an only child?" she inquired, sensing that Kristina was about to order her back
into bed and anxious to deflect any concern, however well meant, that might be
coming her way.
"To say the least," Kristina answered, folding her arms and watching Daisy's
slow progress with her head tilted slightly to one side. The expression on her
exquisite face was at once pitying and wry. "As far as I know, my mother was the
first vampire to give birth in the human fashion. Nightwalkers generally create
their 'children' by transforming favorite mortals."
Daisy stopped, trembling with weakness, grasping the footrails as if to keep
from dropping over a precipice. She laughed, but the sound was one of pain, not
merriment. "I thought I'd heard everything, until I fell in with your crowd. The
confessions of serial killers and street hoods pale by comparison."
Kristina moved silently to her side, as lithe and graceful as a cat, and put
a strong arm around her. "Back into bed, Daisy," she said with kind insistence.
"You're not ready to ride to the rescue quite yet."
Daisy wanted to resist, but there was a hypnotic quality to Kristina's touch,
as well as her voice, and besides, she was tired. So unbelievably tired. "Can't
just—give up—" she protested, amazed to find that she was already lying down
again. Kristina was covering her gently with the sheet and thin blanket.
"I can't imagine you doing that," Kristina said with amusement and a touch of
sorrow, too. "In fact, I don't believe you know how to quit—even when it would
be the smartest thing to do."
Daisy felt the bed spinning beneath her, felt herself spiraling down and
down, like Alice tumbling into the rabbit hole, to land, bouncing, on a dream…
Valerian
London, 1875
I awakened from my enforced rest to find myself sprawled ingloriously on the
floor of Holbrook's laboratory, with the good doctor gone. I was not alone,
however—Kristina, child of my soul, was sitting nearby, slender legs elegantly
crossed and arms folded, awaiting my return to consciousness.
"Bloody hell," I rasped, sitting up and shaking my head. I felt rather like a
pugilist felled by a stronger opponent.
Kristina smiled sweetly. "Hello, Lazybones."
I stood shakily, grasping the examination table with one arm to steady myself
during the process. "Where the devil is that no-account father of yours?" I
demanded.
She sighed. "When I turned a hundred and thirty, I stopped keeping track."
"He didn't sleep," I marveled.
"What?"
"'Calder. Your father—he didn't sleep."
"I know Calder is my father," Kristina said patiently, leaning forward in her
chair but not rising, as a more mannerly and respectful child might do. "And how
do you know what happened after you dropped off? Papa could have willed himself
to some other lair the moment you closed your eyes."
My practiced instincts, coupled with the memory of a wide-wake, completely
alert Dr. Holbrook, argued against Kristina's theory. "He's found a way to
circumvent the vampire sleep—by all the old gods, he's done it!" Fury scorched
through me, consuming the last wisps of insensibility lingering in my brain.
"And damn him, Calder means to keep the secret to himself!"
Kristina folded back the slim, tapered fingers of one hand and gazed
thoughtfully at her nails. "You aren't being fair," she accused mildly. "Papa
does not number among your more ardent admirers—we both know that. But he would
never withhold any knowledge that could be used to accomplish something good."
I began to pace, muttering to myself as I moved. Although I had awakened
refreshed, my thoughts were again jumbled and fragmentary, and I quite literally
did not know which way to turn.
The woman who would, in any other society except our own, be called my
goddaughter, rose at last from her chair. "I've seen Daisy," she said, stopping
me in midstride. "There's a crazy scheme cooking in the back of that mortal
brain, Valerian—she figures she can save you, your Daisy, if she surrenders
herself to Krispin before your heroic sacrifice can be made."
The mere idea chilled me. I grasped Kristina's shoulders and hauled her onto
her toes, giving her a little shake in the process. "You talked her out of it,
of course," I said.
Fire kindled in Kristina's pewter-colored eyes, but she did not use her
singular magic to punish me for the effort. "I tried," was her response. "Right
now Daisy is too frail to try anything very dramatic, but there can be no
question that she's determined. I expect she'll do something stupid the moment
she's worked up the necessary stamina. Now, let me go before I turn you into a
garden slug and bury you in salt."
I released her, wincing at the image, and at the same time smiling a little.
"Not very imaginative," I scolded, bending forward to plant a soft kiss on her
forehead. "Help me, Kristina. Please. If you know anything about Calder's
experiments, I beg of you, tell me now."
She looked at me with a sheen of tears glimmering in her eyes. "You're asking
me to betray my father's trust."
I shook my head. "I'm asking you to save Daisy, and others probably, from
Krispin's madness. If I can find the passageway between this world and his, I
can find him."
Kristina was silent for a time, obviously torn, but then she turned and
crossed the room to a wall lined with neatly arranged volumes on sturdy shelves.
She ran an index finger over the spines with affection and finally selected one
particular book and took it reverently from its place among the others.
She held the tome against her chest for a moment, then extended it to me.
It was a diary of sorts, a complex record of Calder's most recent
explorations of science. In it were all his theories concerning parallel
dimensions, and I absorbed the words greedily by running my right hand down
every page.
When I was finished, I had a very good idea where to find my brother.
The solution, in fact, was almost ludicrously simple. I might have thought of
it myself, or at least asked a certain friend who writes screenplays for horror
films to suggest possibilities, if I had been in a calm frame of mind rather
than a mild state of hysteria.
"Thank you," I said to Kristina and pressed the volume back into her hands.
I went from there to my favorite part of nineteenth-century London for a
hasty feeding, leaving my victim anemic but otherwise ecstatic. Then I proceeded
to a certain burial mound not far from modern-day Dunnett's Head, a place where
Challes had taken Krispin, Brenna, and me long ago while in the throes of a
scholarly passion for antiquities. We were all fascinated by the area, for the
bones secreted beneath that manmade hillock of stone and rubble and grass had
been ancient even in our medieval time. According to our tutor, the occupants of
that underground chamber had lived and died before the Romans came to Britain.
When I reached that bleak, moon-swept monument, it looked so strange, so
eerie, that it might have been the landscape of some lesser planet, knowing
neither snow nor fire, catching only the chill, straying beams of some wasted
star. It was difficult to believe that any cogent being, human or otherwise, had
ever trod this hard, unyielding ground, let alone toiled there, and given birth,
fought battles, and built small, leaky ships to brave the treacherous seas.
For me, that night, as well fed and strong as I was, it seemed to be the
loneliest, most desolate place in the universe. I reminded myself of the
information I'd absorbed from Calder's notes—in order to move between our world
and the alternate one Krispin apparently frequented, one must undergo another
birth, with the grave for a womb.
I was drawn to that particular site by an impulse born in some unexplored
region of my being—no doubt there were still bonds linking Krispin and me,
however tenuous they might have been. We had been brothers once, after all.
I closed my eyes as an infinite sadness encompassed me, but my resolve was
not shaken. If I found Krispin before the appointed time of our mutual
destruction, I would destroy him, thus evading the ambush he most assuredly
planned for me and, at the same time, making certain that Daisy was safe.
I was willing to risk anything to succeed in that one aim, and with that
certainty in mind, I dared to call upon the most fearsome angel in all heaven's
uncounted legions.
"Nemesis!" I shouted into the night. "Pay heed to the bargain I offer!"
Even though I had just summoned him, it was still a profound shock when the
night was rent by a narrow strip of light, no product of the sun or the moon,
but of some inner universe. It broadened, a gleaming doorway to a realm I would
never see, and the great warrior angel appeared. He was quite ordinary-looking,
was Nemesis, a fact that probably served him very well during his frequent
interactions with the mortal race.
The chasm vanished, but Nemesis seemed luminous, as though light flowed
through his veins instead of blood. Perhaps it did.
He looked at me with contemptuous interest. "You dare to command me, Vampire,
as though I were a genie in a lamp instead of a warrior of the One God? What is
your purpose?"
"I seek your assistance."
Nemesis chuckled to himself, and that sound, too, was disdainful. "What
perfidy is this?" he demanded after a few moments of silence. "Vampires do not
seek favors of angels."
"This vampire is desperate," I replied with resignation, and then I told him
my lengthy story, which was also Daisy's, leaving nothing out beyond those
things that would offend a celibate creature. Aside from that, I spoke the
absolute and unvarnished truth, describing Krispin and all the havoc he could
wreak if he wasn't stopped.
The angel listened without interruption, I will give him that, but when I had
finished, he was plainly still doubtful of my motives for calling him to that
barren place and relating such a tale.
"You would ask me to help destroy this vampire?" Nemesis inquired, after
considering my words in silence for a long interval. When I merely nodded, he
went on. "If it were up to me," he said, "you may be certain I would put a
finish to the lot of you. Abominations, that's what you are. Since I have yet to
reduce you to ashes, to be swept away by the wind, it should be plain that the
choice is not mine."
"You have a certain autonomy, I suspect," I ventured to insist, though
quietly and very, very carefully. "Were that not so, you couldn't have risen to
a position of authority."
Nemesis studied me, his eyes narrowed in distrustful curiosity, and I
marveled that, for all his terrible power, he clearly could not look into my
mind. Had he been able to do so, he would have known that I was sincere, and
there was no treachery afoot.
"I cannot destroy any creature, save demons," he said, but with less
certainly than before.
"Perhaps," I conceded moderately, "but you are allowed, I trust, to escort
surrendering fiends into the welcoming arms of hell."
The statement caught him off guard, I was pleased to see, but only for a
moment. "What are you saying?"
"If you will help me to capture the one who bore the name of Krispin Lazarus,
as a mortal, then I shall go willingly into the pit."
"You cannot begin to guess what you are suggesting," the angel said, but I
knew he was intrigued by my proposal. To rid the world of two troublesome
vampires was surely, in his view, a worthy aspiration.
I recalled the things I had been taught about hell as a human child, and
shivered involuntarily. "Oh, but I do," I said at last. "I was mortal in the
fourteenth century, and the torments awaiting the damned were described to me in
vivid detail from the time I could make sense of such matters. I know well what
I shall suffer."
"And you are willing to face such punishment for the sake of one woman?"
"Yes," I answered without hesitation, but I was full of dread and sorrow, for
there has never been another creature that loved life as I did.
"Remarkable," the angel said, rubbing his chin thoughtfully between a thumb
and index finger as he pondered my countenance. "Either you lie, which seems
most likely, or you are indeed a rare vampire. It hardly wants saying that your
kind is not noted for generosity—especially when the required sacrifice is one
of such magnitude." He paused. "It is known that you have made a bargain with
your brother, the renegade Krispin. You have agreed to accept the help of a
warlock, as well. Why, then, do you come to me?"
I smiled sadly. "You have a remarkable intelligence system."
"The best," Nemesis agreed. "Speak, Vampire. Do you dare attempt to deceive
me?"
I shook my head. "No. You are a fierce warrior, Nemesis. You will surely
rejoice when I fall into the hands of Lucifer. But unlike Dathan, the warlock,
unlike my misguided brother, you can be counted upon to honor any bargain you
make. Truth is your nature, and there are no lies in you."
"How beautifully you speak. And what a waste that you have cast your lot with
fiends and devils. Yes, Vampire—I would delight in putting an end to your evil,
and that of all others like you, but you mistake me in one point. I take no
pleasure in the suffering of any creature, no matter how heinous it may be. Why
do you think I despise you so much? Because you cause pain and fear, because you
make the sweet sanction of darkness, where humankind is meant to take rest, a
foul and unholy thing."
I was not armed for a philosophical discussion, nor was I in the mood to
undertake an argument. Still, Nemesis had the upper hand in this scenario; his
was the power to grant or deny my entreaty, and I was merely the supplicant.
"You are misinformed," I answered, maintaining my dignity but giving the words
no edge of contempt or sarcasm. "The attentions of a vampire are not painful.
They foster only ecstasy. Furthermore, we rarely frighten a mortal
deliberately—they manage to scare themselves nicely, with their silly legends
and superstitions."
Nemesis was still, measuring me with his eyes, and I could not discern from
his expression whether I had roused his ire or his sympathy. Common sense caused
me to dismiss the latter possibility entirely.
I waited, having said my piece, gazing back at the great angel in silence,
using all my strength to veil the terror I felt. Yes, I loved Daisy—enough not
only to surrender the myriad pleasures and powers of my existence, but to
consign myself to eternal torment as well. And yet everything within me, every
instinct, every mental pulse, clamored for life.
"Very well," the angel agreed after a long while. After a moment's
hesitation, during which his distaste showed clearly in his face, Nemesis laid a
hand to my shoulder.
"The covenant is made. I confer upon you the power to capture and bind your
enemy, and I warn you—do not abuse this gift, for it will turn on you like a
viper if you attempt such a thing. When your quest is achieved, I will come for
you."
18
Valerian
New York, 1995
After taking my leave of Nemesis, there on that cold and empty plain, I
traveled immediately to New York, a favorite city of mine, to feed. I was greedy
that night, and perhaps a bit less delicate with my "victims" than I would
normally have been. The ordeal ahead, the covenant I had made with the warrior
angel notwithstanding, would require the fullest use of all my powers. Proper
preparation demanded that I take more blood than ever before.
I did not kill; indeed, I was not even unkind. Furthermore, knowing how Challes had tricked me into taking the wine of warlocks before, I was unusually
cautious in selecting my prey.
It was an intoxicating feast—I imbibed the blood of a teenage gang member, a
hot and heady brew, vibrant with youthful anger, passion, and frustration. I
took sustenance from a baglady and left her swooning in the warm night,
remembering me as a generous and tender lover rather than a fiend. The roll of
bills I tucked into the pocket of her ragged coat would provide for her needs
from then on.
There were others, too—I don't recall exactly how many, for after the youth
and the old woman, I was in something of a frenzy. When the first light of dawn
rimmed the New York skyline with gold and apricot and crimson, I was still
bursting with energy and power.
I would not sleep this day away, I knew, and yet I dared not let the sun find
me. Beneath the ebullience I could not seem to quell was the grim and ironic
awareness that perdition itself, Dante's hell and my own, awaited my surrender.
There I would know fires that burned eternally, but never consumed the
anguished, screaming creatures writhing within their flames.
It seemed pointless, in the face of such suffering, to avoid the light of one
minor star, whirling through space with nine odd and insignificant planets in
its thrall.
Nonetheless, I was a prudent monster when the situation called for the virtue
of circumspection. I took myself to the center of the stone circle, where
Krispin had danced and reeled with such demented abandon, drunk on moonlight and
evil, and I became mist, slipping into the ground only moments ahead of Old
Sol's fiery fingers.
I scrabbled through the bones I found there—strong and wakeful, I was—but
Krispin was nowhere to be found. Even through some twelve feet of earth and
rubble, roots and bones, rodents and worms, I could feel the clawing warmth of
the sun, seeking and groping and prodding. Searching me out.
I had once seen a vampire who had been caught abroad in daylight, shortly
after Challes transformed me, and the recollection still causes me to shudder.
It was a living monstrosity, a blackened skeleton, ludicrous and pathetic. I
wondered what had happened to the poor wretch in the centuries since, but only
briefly. I reminded myself that I must focus and find Krispin.
I closed my eyes and concentrated on my brother. In my mind I saw him in the
same way I always had: as a fragile, eager boy, forever following me about,
admiring me despite my arrogance, desperately tolerant of my impatience with
him. A tear slipped down my face as I mourned that child, lost to me for all
time, and the remorse I felt for the way I'd treated him made me heartsore.
My musings took me to Krispin's side, as I had hoped they would. Imagine my
amazement in finding him not only awake, but standing on the darkened stage of
the showroom in the Venetian Hotel, examining the carriage I used in my magic
act.
He did not seem surprised by my appearance, but then, he wouldn't have been,
would he, for he had surely expected me. I had a peculiar idea that, indeed, he
might actually have summoned me there somehow.
"Did you think to find me lying on a slab somewhere, Valerian?" he asked with
amusement, running an artist's hand over the fancy gilded cupids and flowers
carved into the coach door. "Just waiting for you to plunge a stake through my
heart and put an end to me for all time?"
"Yes," I said, for there was utterly no point in lying. "How is it that you,
a vampire, are up and about while the sun shines?"
"I took a great deal of blood over the past night or two, as you undoubtedly
did," Krispin replied, sounding almost bored. He crouched beside a wheel now,
touching it with those white minstrel's fingers and tipped his head back briefly
to gaze upward into the rigging for the stage lights. "It's so dark and cool
here," he mused. "One wouldn't guess that the morning has come."
I did not take a step closer to him, as reflex bade me to do, but instead
folded my arms. My posture was idle, shoulders at a slight slant, head tilted to
one side, but I doubt Krispin was fooled by these mannerisms. Being my sibling,
he knew all my ruses, shams, and affectations.
"Tell me about this place where you've been hiding all these centuries."
Krispin smiled, met my eyes for a moment, then returned to his thoughtful
examination of the carriage. Such things had fascinated him as a lad, I
remembered with a vague pang; he'd loved carts and coaches and wagons as a
mortal, as well as ships.
"It's a world almost indiscernible from this one. Rather like passing through
Alice's looking glass. Everything here has a counterpart there."
"You have no special powers, then?"
Krispin laughed, stroking the ornate spokes of one wheel as a mortal lover
might stroke a shapely limb. "I have many unique qualities, Valerian, as you do.
Like most vampires, I sleep during the day and cannot bear the light of the sun.
I must take blood or perish of a truly agonizing hunger. I can travel through
time, change my shape, veil myself from all but the most discerning eyes—the
usual."
"And move between dimensions."
He feigned a sigh and straightened, hands in the pockets of his impeccably
tailored tuxedo slacks. There was a look of the 1920s about him, a certain
dissolute elegance. With his slicked-back blond hair and lithe figure, he
resembled a character from one of F. Scott Fitzgerald's novels.
"Yes," he said, "I can move between dimensions. Even a mortal can do that,
albeit usually by accident. Many of your so-called missing persons have merely
slipped over onto our side." Krispin paused to smile indulgently, reminding me
of a fond uncle recalling an outing with a precocious niece or nephew. "Their
reactions are interesting—oft-times they don't realize they've made a transition
and try to return home as if nothing had happened. They make odd little
discoveries along the way. Their house is suddenly to be found on the opposite
side of the street from where it was before, that sort of thing. Of course,
that's nothing compared to the shock of opening the front door and encountering
their equally bewildered double on the other side."
I was fascinated, in spite of myself. I was also vigilant, expecting
treachery at any moment and, I admit, watching for any opportunity to execute a
trick of my own. "Interesting," I said. "When someone dies in this dimension,
does his counterpart in the other world perish as well?"
"Not necessarily. The two planes are quite separate, even though they seem to
reflect each other. If that weren't the case, then a person who disappears here
would immediately vanish there, too."
"Do immortals have counterparts, as humans do?"
Again Krispin smiled. He kicked the carriage wheel lightly with the toe of
one gleaming shoe, as if testing a tire. "Not exactly. Your reflection died some
five hundred and sixty-eight years ago, as well he should have, being mere flesh
and blood. You might be interested to know that he lived quite a saintly life,
for his time. He was all you might have been, without your greed and arrogance."
I felt an empathy with that long-gone Valerian Lazarus, a soft but poignant
wrenching sensation, as if we had shared a soul, he and I. The two of us, I
knew, had been one being, even though we had never guessed at the other's
existence, and it gave me a certain comfort to know he had been a force for good
in his world. Perhaps some mercy would be extended to me, when I presented
myself to Lucifer for punishment, on account of that other Valerian's fruitful
life.
"And your counterpart?" I inquired.
Another sigh. "I'm afraid he died as a small child. His elder brother—your
other self, if you will—was strong and smart and very healthy, like you. And
like you, he left his mother with little or nothing for the children who came
after him." Krispin stiffened, and his eyes glinted with a hatred he took no
trouble to disguise. "You took it all, Valerian. You sapped the very marrow of
Mother's bones. You had her complete devotion—by the gods, it was unholy the way
she cared for you!"
"Stop,"' I warned quietly, "before you say too much."
He swayed slightly, as though buffeted from within by the sheer force of his
emotions, and covered his eyes for a moment. When he looked at me again,
however, he seemed strong again and utterly defiant, thriving on some poison of
the soul even as it consumed his sanity. "If she could have rid herself of our
father and me, and lived only with and for you, she would have done it."
Disgust raised a scalding gorge to the back of my throat. "Enough," I
reiterated. "There can be no profit in such talk."
"No profit?" Krispin came nearer, moving as silently and sinuously as a cat.
When he was within my reach, he stopped and gave a hoarse, harrowing cry of
laughter. "May Apollo and Zeus and all the old gods of Olympus forbid! No
profit, indeed!"
"You are mad." I could not keep the contempt from my tone. Among our kind,
madness is a choice, not a sentence conferred by a random fate or an illness, as
it is with humankind. This particular aberration requires careful, vigilant
nurturing, for our wounds, be they emotional or physical, are quick to heal.
Barring blood-starvation, sunlight, fire, or the point of a stake, wooden or
otherwise, driven through its heart, a vampire cannot be killed.
Krispin reached out to straighten my lapel, as any brother might do, and his
hand lingered lightly on my chest. I felt the hard chill of it even through my
clothes. "Alas," he said, "I have not been able to put the grief of Seraphina's
negligence behind me. Do you realize that she never kissed me good night, or
ruffled my hair as she passed, or told me she loved me? Not even once?"
I recalled many instances when our mother had shown me those simple
affections, and I knew that Krispin did, too. In a way, I understood his
obsession with that deluded woman—fiend or mortal, we always long for that which
is withheld from us.
"I'm sorry," I said, and I meant it. I regretted all he had suffered, on my
account and on that of our mother. "If I could change things, Krispin, so that
you were the favored one, the beloved, I would. But even we cannot go back that
far, as you know. It is done. Over."
For the merest flicker of a moment I saw Krispin's true self in his pale blue
eyes and knew the cosmic extent of his loneliness and his yearning for a time
and a love that would unknot the ancient, ever-tightening ache inside him.
"That's the worst irony of all, you know," he said in a voice so soft it might
have been a breath or the faintest of sighs. "For all Seraphina's adoration of
you, you never loved her at all. I think, in fact, that she amused you, with her
foolish fascination and never-ending attempts to please you."
Krispin's words were close enough to the truth to wound me a little, but he
was not entirely correct in his assumptions. "I did love our mother," I said
quietly, and it was true. "But she expected too much of me. I was her son, not
her husband or her lover. Her fixation with me was tantamount to emotional
incest!"
Although my brother had implied this very thing himself, he clearly could not
bear to hear the words spoken aloud. He drew back one of those slim, ethereal
hands and struck me a blow that sent pain trammeling through me.
I did not move to retaliate; indeed, I did not move at all. Nor did I speak.
I felt a grinding pity for Krispin, but it was not sympathy that motivated me
then. I knew my brother's weakness lay in his volatile emotions, and I sought,
God forgive me, to undermine him further.
The offending fist knotted at his side now, Krispin gazed up at me, weeping
silently and without shame, porcelain flesh aflame with color. Like me, he had
fed well in preparation for this skirmish, and the blush beneath his skin was
not truly his own, but that of his most recent victims.
"It wasn't enough," he went on after a long time, "that Mother worshiped you.
You had to have Brenna, too."
My voice, when I spoke, was hoarse with disuse and with sorrow. "Yes," I
agreed. "Of all creatures, on earth or in hell or heaven, I love Brenna best. It
has ever been so."
"You would die for her, in fact."
I smiled, though there was no mirth in me. It was a reflex, I think, a
grimace masquerading as a grin. "Dying would be a merciful end, in comparison to
what I would—and will—do for milady."
"Daisy," Krispin mused distractedly. "She's called Daisy now."
I did not reply, knowing as I did that Krispin was not communicating, but
simply thinking aloud.
"I'm going to kill her, you know," he announced presently in a conversational
tone. We might have been discussing the prospect of snow or the price of a good
cigar for all the animation he displayed in those moments.
I shook my head. "I won't allow it, Krispin," I said. And then I put my
right hand to his throat, at first caressing, regretting what I must do. My
fingers tightened, however, when I thought of Daisy dying by his whim, and of those
other women—Jillie, Janet, and Susan. Their only crime had been working for and
with me.
Again Krispin gave that ghastly shriek of mingled pleasure and pain, seeming
to enjoy the punishment I meted out. I felt his throat crumple like papier-mâché
beneath the pressure of my fingers, and yet he did not collapse, or even
struggle. His mad, glistening eyes were fixed upon my face as I crushed his
windpipe, at once adoring and despising me.
I let him go, shaken and revolted, and he sank, coughing, onto the floor,
there to kneel like some forlorn supplicant.
"You forget," he said after several seconds had passed, "that we are not
mortal. I cannot be killed by strangling."
Violence surged up within me; I yearned to kick Krispin, to stab and tear and
pummel him. I suppressed my rage, but it quaked and burned within me, like lava
roiling deep in the bowels and belly of a mountain, and I knew it would rise
soon and spew out of me, destroying everything in its path.
My brother half reclined on the floor now, supported by one elbow, his mouth
bleeding, his right cheekbone bruised purple, watching me.
"You're right," I said at last. ''As much as I enjoyed the exercise, any
attempt to choke you is, of course, futile." I crossed to a chest standing in
the shadows, raised the lid, and took out the jeweled sword I used in the
performance of one of my favorite illusions. The blade made a whispering sound
as I pulled it from its scabbard and went back to stand over Krispin.
Even in my state of agitation I found his calm attitude remarkable. It wasn't
like him simply to lie there, like a concubine on a sultan's couch, awaiting his
fate. Which meant, of course, that he was up to something.
I raised the sword, clasping the handle in both hands, so that the point was
suspended an inch or so above Krispin's chest.
"Go ahead," he chided softly. "Kill me."
I cannot explain my hesitation even now. By that time, all filial sentiment
had been exorcised from me; I neither loved nor hated Krispin. I was as coldly
indifferent as if he'd been a snake, writhing beneath the tip of my blade.
He laughed suddenly, and then to my amazement the sword turned to silvery
flames in my hands. I gasped at the pain, and the flames became sparks,
showering the floor. My weapon was gone.
Krispin was on his feet in an instant. "Does it hurt, Big Brother?" he
crooned. "Oh, I do hope it does."
The injury had been excruciating, but it is the nature of vampire flesh to
heal rapidly, as I have already recorded, and the wounds were little more than
memories by then. Likewise, Krispin's throat, crushed in my hands only minutes
before, was whole again. Neither was he bleeding any longer, and the bruise that
had marred his perfect face was gone as well.
"No, Krispin," I said quietly. "The flames did me no lasting harm. It is your
hatred that hurts most."
He laid splayed fingers to his bosom in a theatrical gesture of chagrin,
truly meant, of course, as mockery. "And yet you would take me to hell with you,
if you could, and endure that loathing, along with the unceasing torment, for
eternity? And all to save your ladylove?"
"Yes," I answered.
He laughed again. "So noble," he said. "And so vain a notion. You will
go to hell, Valerian, but alone. That will be part of your punishment, won't it?
Knowing that I'm with your beloved—bedding her and finally dispensing just
punishment for her betrayals?" Krispin paused to reflect. "Who knows? Perhaps
your Daisy-Brenna has been a bad girl and will end up burning beside you. It's a
romantic picture, isn't it?"
I might have been ill, had I been mortal, so vile was the image of Daisy
suffering that way. I had earned my damnation, even before the bargain with
Nemesis, but she was an innocent and deserved none of what I had brought upon
her.
"Your jealousy has made you ugly, Krispin," I said moderately. "You've wasted
your life, your looks, your power, everything. You could have known such
pleasures, and yet you threw it all away in order to spin your petty plots and
schemes of vengeance."
Krispin's fine features contorted for a moment, and I knew that I'd been
right. Even in that shining other world, the one where Challes expected to find
salvation for us both, my brother had nursed his grievances and counted the
injustices he'd suffered. Thus he had squandered six centuries that might have
been given over to adventure, to beauty, to laughter, to love.
"Damn you," he rasped. "Do not presume to pity me!"
"I cannot help it. You are the most wretched of beings." I took the lapels of
his fine coat in my hands and raised him slightly. "We shall both spend eternity
in hell," I told my brother in a furious whisper, "but I, at least, will have
the comfort of knowing that I have lived! I have loved, sometimes
unwisely, but always with verve and passion. I have explored the world, known
angels and warlocks, felt agony and ecstasy and everything in between. I
used the gifts that were given me. I drank the wine."
When I released him, Krispin straightened his clothes and produced a crooked,
cocky grin. "As I shall do, when you have gone to reap the harvest you have
sown. But never fear, cherished brother—I will send pretty Daisy along to you,
probably somewhat the worse for wear, when I am through with her."
I moved to advance upon him again, but before I could cross even the small
distance between us, he raised both hands, palms out. The words he said rendered
me as stiff and still as a mastodon surprised by the first Ice Age.
"Before you make another of your hasty and awkward attempts, Valerian," he
said, "allow me to tell you that I have already visited Daisy, during the night
just past. She was released from the hospital in the afternoon, you know.
Unfortunately our lady of the badge has, as they say, taken a turn for the
worse."
I could not speak.
Krispin smiled, pleased by my paralysis, temporary though it was. Hands
clasped behind his back, he rocked on his heels and watched me like a
mischievous child who has just played an exceedingly clever prank.
We passed several moments thus, before I found my voice.
"What have you done?" I demanded.
"Do you recall the fable about the sleeping princess?" he countered. "Daisy
is—asleep. In her apartment, I mean. The doctors, of course, will think she's in
a coma."
I whirled away from him, ready to will myself to Daisy's quaint little home,
realizing only at the last instant that I could not take the risk. After all,
the sun could reach me there, and a shrieking vampire, wreathed in flames, would
hardly improve matters.
I have rarely felt more desperate.
Alas, when I remembered my brother's presence and turned again to confront
him, he had vanished.
Daisy
Las Vegas, 1995
Daisy had known him, of course, when he entered her apartment with no more
fanfare than a summer breeze ruffling the curtains. He had come to kill her at
last.
She waited, expecting to hear herself scream, oddly detached from the
situation, and found that she wasn't even especially afraid. She did, however,
reach for her thirty-eight, which was lying loaded on the bedside table.
Krispin chuckled, folding his arms. Moonlight glimmered in his hair and
flashed from his strange, pale eyes as if they were mirrors. "That won't do
anything but alarm the neighbors," he said, nodding toward the pistol wavering
in Daisy's hands.
"Get out of here. Right now."
He stood still in the middle of her bedroom floor, smiling. "What a
splendidly audacious thing you are. No wonder my brother finds you so endlessly
fascinating."
"I've been wanting to speak with you anyway," she said, as if Krispin hadn't
spoken, amazed by the steadiness of her voice. "I guess now's as good a time as
any."
"How interesting," Krispin responded smoothly, taking something small from
the pocket of his vest and tossing it once, triumphantly, before tucking it away
again. "I do hope you aren't trying to trick me, though. There's no forestalling
the inevitable. I shall have to put you out of commission, just temporarily,
while I settle things with Valerian."
Daisy lowered the pistol to her lap. "You want me, don't you?" she asked in a
matter-of-fact tone.
"Oh, yes," Krispin admitted. Although Daisy had not actually seen him move,
he was no longer standing, but sitting on the foot of her bed.
"Then why don't you take me away with you—to your den or lair or whatever it
is?"
There was a barely discernible but very frightening change in Krispin's face;
too late, Daisy realized she'd made a mistake. In the next instant he lunged at
her, and she managed nothing more than a single hoarse gasp before he was upon
her.
"Whore!" he growled, hurting her everywhere, crushing her beneath him. "You
would sacrifice anything to save my wretch of a brother!"
Daisy struggled fiercely, and she was strong, but her efforts to fling the
vampire off were in vain. Her last conscious emotion was fury, the final
physical sensation that of sharp teeth puncturing her throat…
Daisy sank down and down, deeper and deeper into herself, and found shelter
and sanction in the memories tucked away there, like keepsakes…
She was that other woman again, standing at a window, gazing out on a vista
her blind eyes could not see. She had the ruby ring he'd sent her a fortnight
before; surely it meant he would return…
Jenny Wade
London, 1722
Jenny had no more than formed the thought when she heard his voice, heard him
whisper her name.
Joy surged through her. Her angel had returned to her, her Valerian. She did
not need her eyes to recognize him, or any of her other senses, either, for her
heart knew him as its own. She turned to face him, unconcerned by his sudden
arrival in her room. He had always come and gone like a ghost.
Jenny had almost succumbed to despair in days past, but now that he was here,
everything would surely be all right. He would take her away with him, marry
her, give their child a name.
There need be no scandal now, as Martin and Adela feared.
She turned to face her beloved, realizing only as he took her into his arms
that something was very different. Instead of discerning him by her own senses,
as she usually did, it seemed that impressions were being forced upon her mind.
"You've been unfaithful," he murmured, stroking her hair. "That was very
foolish indeed. What possessed you to betray me the way you did?"
Jenny trembled, too stricken by the accusations to speak. It didn't occur to
her to call for help, for a part of her still believed that this was her
beloved, the mate of her soul. He would never do her harm.
He drew her head back, very gently, and kissed her with a heartrending
tenderness. "Do you love me, my Jenny?" he whispered.
"Y-Yes," she replied. Her strength had drained away, and she felt as though
she might swoon, and that was quite unlike her. Jenny prided herself on her
vigor and resilience; she was not given to spells of fainting and weeping, like
so many females of her acquaintance. "Of course I love you, Valerian. How can
you say—how can you even think—?"
"Then why did you do it? Why did you lie with another?"
Jenny's heart was racing, though not in the pleasant way it usually did when
her lover held her close, and she was wildly dizzy. "I did no such thing," she
managed to say.
"You did." His voice was so quiet, so calm, the same one she knew so well,
and yet so terrifyingly different. "You're carrying someone's child. And it
isn't mine."
She wanted to thrust herself away from him, for she was angry, but although
she had the will to do it, she did not have the strength. Instead, to her
horror, she found herself clutching his coat to keep from sinking to the floor.
"That's reprehensible," Jenny said. "Leave me, please. And don't ever come
back."
He did not release her. "You don't mean that."
Jenny was trembling, and the despised tears were threatening. It was not in
her nature to love a man who was cruel to her, but she mourned the beautiful
feelings she'd once had for him, the dreams she'd cherished… All her hopes for a
home and children and simple happiness lay in pieces at her feet, like shards of
stained glass from a church window.
"I do mean it," she insisted, struggling now to pull away from him. "I don't
need you, nor does our child. Go away now, before I call my brother in to give
you a thrashing and hand you over to the police."
He laughed. "Call for him, it will do you no good. This night, at least, your
dear Martin is as deaf as the fabled post, and so are Peach and that irritating
sister-in-law of yours. We have business to settle, Jenny-love, and we will not
be interrupted."
She began to be terribly afraid. She was barely conscious, such was her
mental state, and yet she found a scream within her brave heart and released it.
Her lover was amused by the effort, and as he'd predicted, it brought no one
rushing to her aid.
He swept her up into his arms, and though his embrace felt like the one she
knew so well, she had a curious feeling that the perception was not her own,
that it had been suggested to her somehow.
"Such a pity, a beautiful, intelligent young woman like yourself, hurling
herself from an upstairs window," he said calmly. "Of course, everyone will be
sorely grieved, and the gossips will say it's no wonder, is it, considering the
shame and scandal the poor girl was facing."
Jenny stiffened and tried again to free herself, but it was no use. He was
too strong.
"Don't do this," she whispered, barely conscious, wanting desperately to stay
alive, to protect the unborn child nestled within her. "Please—"
She heard the window creak on its hinges, felt the cool night air touch her.
"Don't beg, my sweet. It's demeaning, and altogether futile in the bargain."
Jenny felt her nightgown brush the window ledge, felt the yawning space
beneath her, and uttered a sob, clutching at his coat. He kissed her once, very
lightly, and then, with considerable reluctance, flung her from him.
She fell, flailing her arms and legs, and struck the cobblestones in the
courtyard below with an impact that shattered her bones. Her death was
instantaneous, but she perished with a name quivering in her heart like an
arrow.
Valerian.
Her lover. Her murderer.
It was Peach who found the body lying broken and bloody on the stones of the
courtyard, early the next morning when she went out for the master's newspaper.
Her screams were heard all over the neighborhood, shrill as fire-bells, and
brought a passing constable through the front gate on a run.
Martin was the next to arrive on the scene, followed by a pale Adela. She
stayed back a little distance, one bony hand pressed to her throat, while Martin
let out a low, plaintive groan of sorrow and dropped to his knees beside Jenny.
He gripped her shoulders in both hands, as if he expected to awaken her.
The constable looked up and saw the second-story window, still open. He'd
seen such things often enough in his line of work, and he had an idea or two
about what might drive the daughter of a wealthy household to take her own life.
Probably she'd had a dalliance with a groom or a footman, and nature had taken
its course.
Poor girl.
"It's a shame, that's what it is," he said, for he was not without
compassion, nor was he a man inclined toward the judgment of others.
Peach continued to shriek and wail and blubber, while Martin, seemingly aware
of nothing and no one else, gathered his dead sister into his arms and, holding
her close against his breast, carried her into the house without a word to
anyone.
The funeral was held two days later, and the church was brimming with
mourners, for Jenny had been a kindly, cheerful girl, well liked by those who
knew her.
Rain fell hard all that morning, and well into the afternoon, too, and
Mistress Peach said it was only fitting that the very heavens should weep when
an angel was put into the ground to molder away to nothing. Adela stayed at
home, taking to her bed with a violent headache, but Martin went doggedly from
home to the church to the cemetery, heedless of the downpour, and would not
leave his sister, even when the coffin had been lowered into the earth on ropes.
Several concerned gentlemen from his club had to lead him away in the end, so
that the gravediggers might finish their labors.
They shoveled hastily, these unwashed and unsavory men. for they were
superstitious, and despite their vocation, they had no wish to be found among
the dead, recently passed-on and otherwise, when darkness fell. They'd heard so
many stories, and made up a few to give their friends a turn, that they no
longer knew which were fable and which might possibly be true.
It was just as well, for their sakes and for his own, that the vampire did
not arrive until they'd gone, to grieve in solitude for the woman he had loved
and lost, again.
Through discreet inquiries over the coming nights, he learned that Jenny Wade
had disgraced herself by taking a lover. He'd given her a fine ruby ring, so he
must have been a man of means, but it had disappeared before the poor girl was
even buried.
19
Valerian
Las Vegas, 1995
I hurried to Daisy the instant the last feeble rays of sunlight had faded
into darkness, and found her sprawled, unconscious, on the floor of her bedroom.
Kristina's pendant, intended as a talisman of protection, lay coiled on the
carpet beside her, offering mute testimony that my brother would not be thwarted
by such fragile magic.
Krispin's ring was upon her finger; I removed it and cast it aside.
"Daisy, sweetheart—" I gathered her up and held her close, breathing in the
scent of her. She was alive, but pale as wax and deeply unconscious. It would
require more than a kiss of a prince to awaken my sleeping beauty, for Krispin
had taken blood from her, as vampires do before transformation. He had only to
infuse Daisy with that same fluid, which had surely undergone the mysterious
change while flowing through his veins, to make her a fiend.
I stroked her hair back from her gray-white face with a gentle motion of one
hand. He planned to turn her into one of us, thus consigning her to the eternal
damnation that awaited all our race. Perhaps, I concluded in my despondency, we
vampires were in reality no less fragile than humans, but merely a little better
at staving off the inevitable.
Carefully I lifted my beloved into my arms and stood. She was clad only in an
oversize shirt, and fearing that she might catch a chill, I wrapped her in my
cloak and pressed her close against my chest. How I wished in those moments that
I had a mortal's warmth to offer her, but my flesh was as cold and ungiving as
that of a statue.
Closing my eyes, I took myself, and Daisy, to the only vampire I knew who
might be able to help. Calder Holbrook.
His laboratory was empty when I reached it, for this was modern-day London,
and Calder, of course, favored the nineteenth-century. I would not have risked
taking Daisy back through time, for mortals have yet to evolve the ability to
make such journeys in safety, and I might have lost her somewhere along the way.
I laid her tenderly on the examination table, still cossetted in my cloak,
and began rummaging for blankets.
Calder sensed my presence in his domain, as I had hoped he would, and
appeared posthaste, wearing a scowl that would surely have intimidated a lesser
vampire than myself. "What the—?"
"I've brought you a patient," I interrupted, finding a covering that looked
like a relic from the American Civil War and giving it a shake before draping it
over Daisy's motionless form. "I'd like you to save her."
The good doctor flung an irritated glance in my direction, but his attention
was soon centered on the slender nymph lying, near death, on his table. I saw
what I had hoped for in his face—a physician's compassion. "What happened?"
Calder asked, though he must have guessed some of the tale, for he had already
laid gentle fingers to the marks of Krispin's fangs defiling her throat.
I told him what my brother had done, and why, sparing no detail.
Calder worked on Daisy as he listened, examining her for other injuries,
listening to her heart through a stethoscope, taking her blood pressure. This
laboratory, unlike its counterpart in the last century, of course, was equipped
with a number of modern medical implements.
While I watched, in vigilant silence, Calder took plasma from a refrigerator
in the corner and administered the initial transfusion. For the first time since
I had found her, Daisy made a sound and stirred slightly.
My eyes blurred with tears, for I knew it was pain that had moved her, and
finding myself powerless to spare her this suffering, however subliminal, was
agony.
I tried to mask my emotions with words, for I was not at ease in Calder's
company, nor he in mine. I could not wail and sob in despair, as I needed to do,
as I might have done in Maeve's presence, or even Kristina's. "Human plasma," I
observed as the precious liquid dripped slowly through a tube and into Daisy's
veins. "Do you keep it around for those nights when you just don't feel like
hunting?"
Calder did not look at me; he had produced a small penlight from his pocket
and was peering into one of Daisy's glazed and sightless eyes. "Hardly," he
replied with quiet disdain. "I have a supply on hand because I am a doctor, and
because the occasional hapless human being finds his or her way here and has
need of it."
"How did you know her blood type?"
Now he did meet my eyes. With a scathing glare. "Being a vampire, I am an
expert on the stuff," he said pointedly and with intolerance. "If you must
blather to distract yourself from your worries, Valerian, at least find
something worthwhile to say."
I swallowed a cry of grief and fear and fury. "Will she die?" I asked when I
felt I could speak coherently.
"Perhaps," Calder said, going back to the refrigerator and rummaging through
a number of clear plastic pouches filled with blood. "We know the
alternative—allowing your brother to finish the process he began—and somehow I
don't think that's what you want for her. Or what she would wish for herself."
He turned to look at me curiously. "Could it be, Valerian, that for once in your
debauched and utterly self-serving life, you are actually putting the desires of
another before your own?"
I did not refute his assessment of my character; it was, after all, accurate.
"'Daisy has never wanted to become a vampire," I said, defeated. The multiple
feedings I have taken in New York were beginning to wear off. and my strength
was flagging. "And while I would like nothing better than to have her at my side
forever, as you have your glorious Maeve, and show her all the wonders we are
heir to, I won't change Daisy against her will."
Calder made a sighlike sound. "Suppose that is your only choice? Would she
prefer a mortal's death to the everlasting life of a vampire?"
I found a stool and perched upon it, lowering my face to one hand. "Yes," I
said. "I have offered her the gift before, in other incarnations. I cannot think
her wishes have changed. Daisy's is a pure and noble spirit, unwilling to be
counted among the damned."
The doctor said nothing, but simply stood beside the table, watching his
patient with a solemn and thoughtful expression. I would have given all the
considerable wealth I had accrued over the centuries to know what he believed
Daisy's true prognosis to be.
We kept our vigil in silence after that, with Calder giving Daisy more blood
at intervals. Slowly her color began to improve, and she stirred more often
beneath her blanket, and made soft, disconsolate sounds that wounded me as
nothing else could have done.
I had to feed, for Calder's store of plasma, while life-giving for Daisy, was
but thin gruel in relation to my hunger. With the greatest reluctance I left her
in the doctor's care and went out to hunt.
As before in New York, I was gluttonous, prowling the dark streets of London
and filling myself, like a leech, until my tissues were swollen with the stuff.
When I returned to Calder's laboratory to resume my watch at Daisy's side, I
found her virtually restored and sleeping soundly. The doctor had gone, probably
to take his rest in some dark vault in the bowels of that very house, as dawn
would soon be upon us, but Kristina was there, the talisman pendant clutched in
one hand.
The last time I'd fed so copiously, I had not succumbed to the vampire
slumber, but this occasion was different. I felt myself fading, losing my grip
on consciousness. Stubbornly I lay down on the table beside Daisy and drew her
into my arms, flinging Kristina a glance that dared her to protest.
"Sleep, Valerian," Maeve's child said quietly. "I will keep watch for you."
I struggled to remain awake those few extra moments, nodding toward the
pendant Kristina grasped. "A fat lot of help that was," I complained. "Why
didn't you just make her a necklace of garlic?"
"Don't be tiresome," Kristina said. "The pendant would have protected Daisy
if she'd been wearing it."
It was then that Daisy opened her wonderful, fathomless eyes and looked
straight into my hell-bound soul.
"You," she said in an odd voice. "You killed me." I had no chance to
reply before the darkness overtook me.
Daisy
Seattle, 1995
The room where Daisy awakened was filled with light and color. She did not
know where she was, nor did she have any idea how she'd gotten there.
She sat up in the strange bed, with its linen sheets and exquisite lace
spread, and looked around in amazement. There were six floor-to-ceiling windows
opposite, affording a stunning view of dark blue waters and snow-draped
mountains, and the furniture was light, lacquered stuff, painted with flowers.
Italian antiques, probably, and beyond expensive.
Before Daisy could toss back the covers and rise, Kristina appeared in the
doorway. She was wearing jeans and a loose white shirt with flowing sleeves and
a cut-work collar.
"Welcome to Seattle," she said with a smile.
"How did I—what—?"
"I brought you here, from my father's lab in London. How are you feeling?"
Daisy settled back against the pillows, reassured by the presence of her
friend and the normality of her surroundings. "Confused, light-headed, and
hungry."
Kristina laughed. "I can't do much about the confusion and the dizziness, I'm
afraid. But food I've got. Sit tight, and I'll bring you a tray."
"You're not going to zap it up out of nowhere?" Daisy asked, a little
disappointed.
Her hostess sighed. "I only do that in emergencies. I like to cook, and
besides, I try to live as normal a life as my predicament allows." She nodded
toward another door. "The guest bath is that way."
Fifteen minutes later, when Daisy had used the facilities, washed her face
and hands, and made her somewhat shaky way back to bed, Kristina returned with
the promised food.
The dishes were heavy squares of brightly colored pottery, painted with
whimsical flowers and checks and stripes. There was a tiny pot of steaming tea,
along with pasta, warm bread, and green salad.
While Daisy ate, Kristina pulled up a large blue hassock, imprinted with
smiling golden suns sporting pointed rays, and sat down.
"Papa and I discussed the situation and decided you would be better off here,
in a more familiar environment."
Daisy poured tea with a somewhat unsteady hand and raised the cup to her
lips. The brew was strong and sweet, laced with milk. Just the way she liked it.
"He can still get to me here, you know," she said after several bracing sips.
"Krispin, I mean."
"Yes," Kristina answered. "I'm sure he can. But he won't find you alone and
defenseless, like before."
"No," Daisy said with a mild note of irony. "This time he'll be able to
attack you, as well as me." She shuddered, remembering Krispin's assault in her
apartment. She'd honestly thought, in those moments of violence just before
losing consciousness, that she was about to die.
Seeing that Daisy didn't intend to eat any more of her meal, Kristina rose
from her perch on the hassock, took the tray, and carried it out of the room.
She returned almost immediately, this time taking a seat on the edge of Daisy's
bed.
"I'll do everything I can to keep you safe," she promised.
"Why? Why would you put yourself in so much danger?"
"Because I care about Valerian, and about you, Daisy. Do you realize you're
the only friend I have who knows who and what I am? How do you think my
neighbors and business associates would react if I suddenly announced that my
parents are vampires, for instance? Imagine me confiding, say at a chamber of
commerce luncheon, that I'm well into my second century." She paused to smile
sadly. "You're not going to bail out on me now, are you, Daisy? Just when I've
started to think I might have run across somebody I can really talk to?"
Daisy's heart warmed, despite the mess she was in. She'd never had a close
female friend, except for Nadine and their late grandmother, and she found the
prospect appealing. "No," she said. "I'm not going to 'bail out,' as you put it.
If you want to talk, I'm ready to listen."
Kristina smiled and squeezed Daisy's hand briefly. "Thanks, friend, but even
listening is work, and right now you need to rest. Go back to sleep."
There were a lot of questions Daisy wanted to ask Kristina, but she had
apparently lost a lot of blood during the incident with Krispin, and she was
exhausted. She stretched out, closed her eyes, and tumbled into a waiting
memory…
Her name was Harmony Beaucheau, and she was twenty-three years old. The year
was 1878, and the town was called Poplar Hill, though it stood in a dusty corner
of the Arizona Territory and boasted neither poplar nor hill.
Oh, damn it, thought that part of her that was still Daisy. Here we go again.
Harmony was standing in front of a cracked mirror, and with some relief Daisy
saw herself looking back from the glass. She was wearing a worn dress of brown
calico with a high neck, and her reddish-brown hair was pinned up in a loose,
fluffy style. Stubborn tendrils trailed at her neck and on her temples and
cheeks.
She turned away from the mirror and from all consciousness of herself as
Daisy Chandler. Reluctantly Harmony left her small, sparsely furnished room and
made her way down the narrow passageway leading to the stairs. The saloon below
was filled with swirling blue-gray smoke, tinny music from the piano, which was
missing a few vital parts, and the raucous, vulgar talk of cowboys, drifters,
and various locals. There were a handful of tawdry women, too—they entertained
men in private, and Harmony herself paid their wages.
She hesitated on the stairs, one hand resting on the crude rail, and sighed.
Harmony was not a whore, and never would be, for she'd been raised in Boston by
a maiden aunt and educated to be a lady. Before she could marry, however, her
elderly guardian had passed away, and when dear Aunt Millicent had been properly
buried, and all accounts settled, there was a small but respectable sum of money
remaining.
Harmony had barely recovered from Millicent Beaucheau's death when an old
friend of the family appeared, bearing a packet of old letters. In them was
irrefutable proof that Millicent had been Harmony's mother, and not her aunt,
and in staid Boston to be illegitimate was hardly a social advantage.
Despite her fine looks, cultivated mind, and more than adequate dowry, no one
who knew the truth was going to marry the likes of Harmony Beaucheau. She was
tainted forever.
A resilient sort, Harmony had taken herself to an establishment dealing in
properties. These were the very people who had sold Millicent's house, which, it
turned out, had been bought for her by her lover and not bequeathed by a doting
father, as she'd always maintained, and Harmony had no reason to mistrust them.
She had inquired about the West and promptly purchased a hotel, sight
unseen, in the Arizona Territory. On her arrival, Harmony discovered that she'd
bought a brothel, not an inn, and used her last nickel in the process. The place
was thriving—that was one consolation.
Still lingering on the stairs, Harmony scanned the saloon with eyes squinted
against the smoke, and a smile broke over her face. He was there again, playing
faro at the table nearest the door, the handsome gambler with the fancy name.
Valerian, he called himself. Harmony was already half in love with him, and
practical as she was, she'd had no success in disabusing herself of the fancy.
Men like him never stayed in one place long; they dallied a while, drank and
gambled and told lies, and then moved on.
He was wearing a long duster made of soft leather, high black boots, well-cut
trousers, and the kind of shirt only a man like him could get away with. His hat
was pushed to the back of his head, and he sensed Harmony's presence somehow,
for all the hubbub between them, and raised his fathomless indigo eyes slowly to
her face.
She felt a charge of emotion go through her, feelings so complicated, so
tangled and interwoven with each other, that she could not begin to sort them
through. She had never seen Valerian before his appearance in Poplar Hill one
night a month or so before, and yet it was as though she'd always known him. She
knew, for instance, how his hands would feel on her body, and his mouth on hers.
She, who was a virgin despite her spoiled reputation, knew the powerful flex of
his hips as he took her, and the tug of his lips on her nipples…
Harmony went to him, like a creature enthralled, and her life began that very
night. He vanished often, her lover, often for days at a time, and she never
once saw him when the sun came up. When he was with her, in her ugly little
room, they made love, but he told her stories, too, about other countries and
other times in history, and he was full of poetry.
She knew he loved her truly—he admired her strong spirit and asked her
opinion on important things, something no man had ever done before. And although
his lovemaking transported her, she suspected its absence would not have changed
her feelings or his. There was an old bond between them, as though their souls
had been fused by some ancient and forgotten god, and if there were many
mysteries about her Valerian, she didn't care.
He had been away nearly a month when the ruby ring arrived by stage with
three weeks' worth of mail. It was wrapped in gold foil and tied with a scarlet
ribbon trimmed in lace, and Harmony's heart brimmed with happiness as she slid
it onto the ring finger of her left hand. Surely this was his pledge that they
would be together, ever after…
But Valerian did not return, although Harmony watched for him every night on
the tiny balcony outside one of the upstairs rooms, anxiously scanning the
moonlit trail that snaked away into the desert.
It had been two more weeks, and she was beginning to despair. Perhaps the
wonderful ring had not been a promise, after all, but a farewell.
That night three men rode into town, liquored up and shooting. Harmony got
her shotgun out from behind the bar and stepped out onto the sidewalk, her jaw
set and her eyes narrowed. There was no law in Poplar Hill, not yet, and folks
had to look after their own property and their own hide, whether they were women
or men.
The drunks howled and carried on, firing their six guns and spurring their
terrified horses onto the sidewalk. They were headed for Harmony's saloon, and
she was ready for them…
Daisy sat bolt upright, gasping and drenched in perspiration, clutching her
chest. A bullet had struck Harmony, exploding in the center of her heart, and
Daisy had felt it as though it had penetrated her own flesh.
"Oh, God," she whispered, falling back against the pillows, her face wet with
tears of sorrow and fear. She was strong, though, and presently the trembling
stopped and she drifted back to sleep, this time finding only sweet oblivion.
She did not awaken again until sometime after the moon had risen.
The house was quiet, except for a low murmur of conversation in a nearby room
and the soft strains of a Mozart concerto flowing from the stereo system.
Daisy rose, relieved to find herself stronger, and donned the terrycloth robe
she found lying across the foot of the bed. She walked slowly out of the bedroom
and found herself in a well-lit hallway with a shining oak floor.
Kristina and Valerian were in the living room. The vampire stood, imperious
and grim, beside the cold fireplace. Kristina sat cross-legged on an overstuffed
sofa, a glass of wine in her hands. Their quiet but earnest exchange ended
abruptly when they realized that Daisy had joined them.
Valerian came slowly toward her, took her hands in his, and gazed down into
her eyes. "Kristina told me you were better," he said hoarsely, "but it is good
to see for myself."
Daisy wanted to hurl her arms around him and cling in a very un-Daisy-like
way, but she resisted the urge. "Yes," she said, thinking how well she had loved
him, not only in the present, but during her lifetimes as Brenna and Elisabeth
and Jenny and Harmony as well. "I'm almost myself again, if you'll forgive the
expression."
He smiled and cupped a hand under her chin, and Daisy closed her eyes for a
moment, against a rush of emotion. He brushed her lips with his thumb, and sent
liquid fire surging through her system.
"I must know, Daisy," Valerian said with tender sorrow, "what you meant in
Dr. Holbrook's lab when you said I killed you. Come, sit down and talk to me."
Daisy nodded, for suddenly she recalled uttering those words, recalled the
experience that had made her speak them. She knew now, too, that it had been
Krispin who had murdered Jenny Wade, Krispin pretending to be Valerian. And he
had been behind Harmony's shooting, too, and Elisabeth's fever.
Kristina left the room, and Valerian settled Daisy into a comfortable chair
and carefully covered her legs with a knitted afghan. How could she have
believed, in this lifetime or the one lived as Jenny Wade, that this tender
creature would ever do her deliberate harm?
Daisy spoke softly, hesitantly, as she related what she knew of Jenny's
story. Valerian, seated on the arm of her chair, listened in absorbed silence.
When she'd finished the tale, he did not speak for a long time. The
expression on his aristocratic face was one of quiet torment.
"I'm sorry," Valerian said at last. "I should have guessed that you were in
danger, and been there to protect you."
Daisy rested her head against his arm. "Did you believe the stories? That
Jenny ended her own life, I mean?"
He met her gaze. "Yes," he replied. "I was unable to visit her—you—for a
considerable length of time. She—forgive me, but I find I cannot say 'you' when
we are speaking of death—she was a porcelain rose, my Jenny, though she fancied
herself to be as sturdy as a summer weed. I was convinced that she had sunk into
despair because of my neglect."
Daisy bit her lower lip, then spoke quickly before she could lose her
courage. At the same time, though, she touched Valerian's hand in an effort to
reassure him a little. "There was something else. Something Krispin knew, but
you apparently did not."
Valerian did not speak, but simply waited for her to go on, one eyebrow
slightly elevated.
"There was to be a baby," she blurted. "You and Jenny—you and I,
Valerian—conceived a child together."
"No," he said, quickly, gruffly. It was a plea, that solitary word, echoing
with regret and incomprehensible pain. "That couldn't be—" He stopped, glancing
in the direction of the doorway through which Kristina had disappeared minutes
before. Obviously he was recalling the circumstances of another birth—Maeve
Tremayne, a vampire, and Calder Holbrook, still mortal then, had had a daughter.
Daisy gave Valerian a few moments to collect himself before going on. "Times
being what they were," she said quietly, "Jenny's family feared there would be a
ruinous scandal. They were going to send her away somewhere, I think, but she
never doubted that you would come back for her."
"And she died thinking I had murdered her. Along with our child." The
controlled agony, so visible in Valerian's face as he spoke, found its way into
Daisy's heart and burrowed down deep.
"Jenny sensed that something was wrong," Daisy said, for that flimsy
assurance was all the solace she had to offer him just then. "I think she knew,
on some level at least, that it wasn't you who visited her that awful night."
Valerian threaded his fingers through hers, and his attempt at a smile was
even more painful to look upon than his stark grief had been before it.
"Krispin," he muttered, making a curse of the name by his tone and manner. His
gaze, as he stared into the fireplace contained such sulphurous fury that Daisy
fully expected flames to leap from the ashes in the grate. "Flesh of my flesh,
bone of my bone, soul of my soul—Krispin, Krispin. What have you done?"
Daisy shivered. An unspoken vow coursed beneath the anger and despair of the
vampire's words. Valerian meant to destroy Krispin—but at what cost?
Before she could give voice to her concerns, however, another visitor joined
them, nearly startling Daisy out of her skin.
He appeared in the middle of the room, with no smoke or fire to herald his
coming, but for all the strange experiences she'd had since meeting Valerian,
Daisy still wasn't used to such surprises. She longed for the company of other
mortals, human beings who knocked on doors and telephoned and wrote letters but
never, never simply materialized out of the ether!
Valerian stood, but he seemed annoyed, rather than afraid. Daisy was
touched—and irritated at the same time—by the way he put himself between her and
the unexpected guest, like a barrier.
"Explain yourself," he snapped.
Daisy leaned out over the arm of her chair to get a better look at the new
arrival. He was remarkably good-looking, she decided, with his golden hair and
soft brown eyes. His clothes were courtly and old-fashioned, and formidably
expensive, like Valerian's—he wore a splendid cape of dark blue wool, high
boots, breeches, and a frilly shirt. In one gloved hand he grasped the handle of
a carved walking stick—a weapon, Daisy decided, not merely an addition to his
costume.
He smiled at her, and at the watchful Kristina, and bowed, ever so slightly
and ever so gracefully to each, pointedly ignoring the seething Valerian.
"Allow me to introduce myself. I am called Dathan, and I do apologize for
making an unannounced entrance. I trust I am forgiven?"
Kristina replied with a brief, tentative smile, but Daisy was too fascinated
to respond to him at all—except, of course, to stare.
"You left out your title, Dathan," Valerian interceded in an acidic tone.
"Warlock."
Daisy was now so far out over the chair arm that she nearly fell. At her
quick, scrambling motion of self-rescue, Valerian turned to glower down at her
over one shoulder. The look was unmistakably a warning, and it both angered and
intimidated Daisy.
She subsided a little, though only temporarily.
"Yes," Dathan allowed, only then acknowledging the vampire looming within
pouncing distance. "I am indeed a warlock." The twinkling brown gaze found
Daisy's face, despite Valerian, and lingered for a moment, admiring. When he
looked at Valerian, however, there was no gentleness anywhere in his
countenance, and the mischievous, cherubic eyes were suddenly hard. "I grow
weary, blood-drinker, of waiting. Did we not speak of a bargain?"
Valerian glanced back at Daisy again, then returned his gaze to the warlock.
"I will not discuss this here."
"Oh, yes, you will," Daisy argued, tugging at the back of his coat. "I want
to know what's going on."
"We don't always get what we want, do we?" Valerian retorted, frowning again,
this time with such heat that she felt like paraffin going soft in the sun.
"Stay out of this, Daisy, or I swear by all the old gods that I will stop up
your ears and still your tongue for a fortnight!"
Daisy was furious, but she was still too tired to wage a proper battle,
verbal or otherwise, so she sank back in the chair, trembling. Kristina flung
her a sympathetic look but contributed nothing to the conversation.
It was Dathan who broke the oppressive silence. "You know where to find me,"
he told Valerian cheerfully, tugging at his elegant gloves and then bowing once
more to the ladies. "I shall expect you forthwith."
With that, he vanished without sound or flurry, just as he had appeared.
Valerian did not bid Daisy farewell or even look at her again. In the blink
of an eye he was simply gone.
Valerian
Last Ditch Tavern, 1995
I arrived in the back room of the Last Ditch Tavern a fraction of a second
after Dathan, and found him seated at one of the felt-covered poker tables, hat
and cloak tossed onto a chair, feet up and crossed at the ankle.
"What took you so long?" he asked with a grin.
I overcame a whimsical desire to kick his chair over. I had not wanted him to
see Daisy, to know her, for he represented yet another danger to her. Too,
warlocks are notorious seducers, and while I held Daisy's personal scruples in
high esteem, I wondered what use they could be against the charm of such a
fetching monster.
"How dare you intrude that way?" I rasped.
Dathan cocked an eyebrow. "Intrude? I'm trying to do you a favor, Vampire.
But it seems you no longer want my help."
I drew up a chair, probably with more clatter than necessary, and dropped
into it. I didn't want the warlock's help, had never wanted it, but I
was in this instance a beggar, not a chooser. I could no longer afford to
indulge my dislike of this particular antagonist.
"What can you do?" I asked with a dismal lack of faith in Dathan's powers.
"After all, if you could destroy vampires, you would have wiped out every
blood-drinker in the universe by this time."
Dathan chuckled fondly at the image. "Yes," he agreed. "With the possible
exception of Maeve Tremayne. Splendid female. Her daughter is very like her—beautiful, brave, intelligent—"
"Leave Kristina alone," I warned. The warlock now had my undivided attention.
"If you go near her, I'll drain every drop of your poisoned blood into the
nearest gutter!"
He took a glass of whiskey from the table, without putting his feet down, and
indulged in a thoughtful sip before replying. "Let us confine ourselves, for the
moment, to the business at hand. The two of us, I fear, are prone to endless
disagreement on an infinite number of points. Do you still want my help in
destroying your brother?"
I did, but the very necessity of the act struck me like a blow to the solar
plexus. Would I never get used to it? Would I grieve for Krispin even as I
burned among the very coals and embers of hell?
"Yes," I said in a miserable whisper.
"Then let us lay a plan."
My eyes were narrowed, for I was recalling the previous encounter with
Dathan, there in the Last Ditch. He wanted something in return for his
assistance, of course, but he had yet to say what it was he meant to require of
me, in the event of our success. "First," I said, "tell me what you hope to gain
by this."
He took another draft of the whiskey, and I envied him the warlock's ability
to eat and drink like a mortal, momentarily at least. A glass of wine—nay, a
tubful of the stuff—would have been a blessed comfort just then.
"It is time," he said at considerable length, "to join our two races. To
produce a being that is part vampire and part warlock."
I was so horrified that I forgot the craving for wine that had been clawing
at my core only a moment ago. "Great Zeus—it's an unspeakable thing you're
suggesting!"
"Is it? Consider a creature with your powers and mine. A vampire able to walk
in daylight, for instance. A warlock with the propensity for time-travel. The
possibilities are truly staggering."
"You've lost your mind, such as it was!"
Dathan laughed and raised his glass in a mocking toast. "There are those of
both our species who will hasten to agree. To hell with them all." He drank
again and made a sound of satisfaction afterward that grated on my every nerve.
"Here's the bargain, blood-drinker: take it or leave it, as the mortals say.
Inventive, these humans, and oft-times amusing, though given to the odd cliche.
In any case, as payment for my help, I want a vampire for a mate."
I shot to my feet. "What blood-drinker would have a warlock?" I demanded.
Alas, tact, even in situations where it was crucial, had never been my forte.
Dathan's brown eyes, which could shine with a saintly glow when he looked
upon a woman, flashed with restrained temper. "Sit down and listen, you
incredible fool. My own kind isn't going to rejoice over the union, either,
after all. But it must be done."
"Why?"
"Because I want it."
This, for better or worse, was an attitude I understood. I sat down again
despondently, reminded that I had no choice in the matter. With Dathan's
assistance I might succeed in tracking down and destroying Krispin. Without it,
though it galled me to acknowledge the fact even to myself, I could very well
lose the battle.
And Daisy.
"So I am to become a matchmaker," I muttered. "By the gods, though, I don't
know how I'll manage it."
Dathan laughed. "Am I so wretched, so offensive, as all that?"
"Yes," I answered.
The warlock smiled. "Never fear. You are the most persuasive of creatures—and
you have so very much at stake, don't you?"
Again I thought of Daisy. "Oh, yes," I replied, reaching for a deck of cards
that lay in the center of the table, among neat pillars of blue, white and red
poker chips. "Everything, in fact."
"You also have an agreement with Nemesis, I understand."
I began to deal. "You've done your homework," I said. "He promised me the
power to put an end to Krispin, though I must admit I haven't seen any sign of
it yet. Which, of course, accounts for my willingness to cooperate with the
likes of you." The warlock took up his cards, and I gathered mine, frowning as I
pondered the possibilities they presented. "Our bargain, warlock, will not hold
good unless you are instrumental in my brother's destruction. And I believe you
can be, or I would not be sitting here now."
"I'll take two cards," Dathan replied. "And none of your tricks."
I smiled. "You expect too much of a mere vampire," I replied. And while I
systematically divested him of two castles, a horse, and a pocket watch, we
discussed our strategy.
20
Valerian
Colefield Hall, 1995
The warlock and I found Challes at Colefield Hall, half buried by the stacks
of musty books he had left to me so many years before, along with the property
itself. At his side sat a magnificent white wolf with pale blue eyes.
Upon our appearance, the beast raised himself to his haunches and growled.
"Be still, Barabbas," Challes said with firm affection, and the wolf
whimpered once and dropped at his master's feet, resting his muzzle on his paws.
"These are friends."
I did not correct Challes on this point, though I certainly wouldn't have
counted myself among his friends just then, and I felt no fear of the great
wolf, only admiration. Had my business not been so urgent, in fact, I think I
might have envied my tutor the company of such a fantastic creature and wanted
Barabbas for my own.
"It is time to make restitution," I said without expression in voice or in
manner. "We know from Calder Holbrook's experiments that it is possible to track
Krispin into the other dimension through a grave. You will show me where that
particular tomb is, please. Now."
Still seated, with the wolf lying watchful at his side, Challes looked up at
me with mingled sorrow and amusement. "Still the same officious, haughty brat
you always were. Ah, but what—or who—could ever have changed you? Nothing and no
one, that is certain. And I think I should not have wanted you to be
different—you would have been so much less interesting."
An ancient clock ticked loudly on the mantel, reminding me of the need for
haste, and I was mindful, too, of Dathan's impatience. "Please," I said again. I
would kneel to him if I had to, and beg, but of course I hoped to be spared that
humiliation.
"At one time I wanted to take you through the looking glass, Valerian, and
show you the other world. You refused—quite adamantly, as I recall."
"I was afraid."
"Poppycock. You've never been truly afraid in your life. But you will be.
Your bowels will turn to water, beautiful one, when you see what awaits you
beyond the veil, where Nemesis will take you." He spoke without rancor, and he
took no pleasure, it seemed, in my fate. He was, however, resigned, and he made
that sighlike sound that I had learned from him long before. "I am so tired,
Valerian. So very tired."
I went to Challes's chair and crouched beside it, opposite the wolf. The
animal raised his head, then lowered it again, having decided, apparently, that
I represented no significant threat to his master. "Will you make me plead?" I
asked softly. "Is that what you want?"
Challes's face, once beloved, crumpled with some emotion I could not
recognize. "No." He reached down to pat the wolf's huge, silvery head. "It is
wrong to humble such creatures as you, and as Barabbas here."
"Take me to Krispin's hiding place. Or simply direct me there. I implore
you."
He put aside the volume that had been resting in his lap and stood at long
last. A muttered command kept the wolf from springing up with him, but the beast
gave a low, chilling whine to declare his displeasure.
"It is day in that other world," Challes warned. "Krispin lies resting in a
vault, deep beneath the earth, but I cannot promise the light will not reach you
there."
I was willing to take that chance—to take any chance. My smile, I fear, was
on the rueful side. "Do not worry, Master," I said. "I cannot be destroyed. I
must survive to endure my damnation, remember?"
Tears glittered in Challes's eyes, and I remembered when I had loved and
admired him. "Nemesis is to have the both of us, then."
"Both of us?"
Challes smiled, though the tears had not lessened. "I made a bargain of my
own long ago with the great Warrior Angel. I have eluded him, thus far, by
trickery, but I daresay he will prevail." He took one of my hands in both of
his. "Forgive me, Valerian, for making you what you are."
"Forgive you? I will always be grateful, Challes. Even in hell."
"Come, then," he said with another sigh. And we were gone from that place in
an instant, leaving the wolf to snooze placidly on the hearth.
When we materialized again, we were inside a tomb whose headstone had long
since crumbled to dust. Still, I was chagrined to recognize the place, for I
sensed immediately that it was at Dunnett's Head, on the grounds where the
baron's keep had once stood.
"By Apollo," Dathan grumbled, making a fruitless and disgruntled attempt to
shake the dust from his costly cape. "Who but a vampire would pass even a moment
in such a place?"
"Feel free to leave at any time," I offered with biting politeness.
"We must make of ourselves a single mist," Challes said, taking no notice of
the tension between Dathan and me.
"Is the warlock capable of such a trick?" I asked of my teacher, not to bait
Dathan, but merely because I was curious.
"The warlock," Dathan interjected in an angry whisper, "is quite capable!"
I said nothing further, but simply concentrated on Challes's instructions. We
became as one entity, we three, in the moments that followed, and solidified
again, mercifully separate once more, in a vast dark chamber beneath a great
castle or fortress of some sort.
"Where are we?" Dathan asked, sounding for the first time in our acquaintance
as though he might be suffering a few doubts where his conviction of eminent
superiority was concerned.
"Second Earth," Challes replied in a weary tone. For one who had once wanted
so badly to bring me to this place that he would hold me prisoner and try to
force me to accompany him, my tutor seemed reticent.
I offered no response, for I was drawn to the dusty silver outline of a large
mirror covering the whole of a nearby wall. I crossed to it, touched the glass
with splayed fingers, and gave a cry of alarm when, in the length of a
heartbeat, it was filled with dazzling light.
"This looking glass once graced the ballroom on the third level of the
castle," Challes said, standing beside me. As he spoke, the light faded a
little, and I saw dancers beyond the smooth surface. Women in colorful,
full-skirted frocks whose hems swept the floor, men in waistcoats and breeches
and ascots. I could almost hear the music to which they whirled, smiling,
talking, full of joy.
"They are of this world—Second Earth?" I wondered aloud, somehow stricken by
the tableau, and sorrowing that I was not among those happy dancers, with Daisy
beaming in my arms. Oh, to be mortal, for just one lifetime!
Challes touched my shoulder, as if to console a mourner. "No, lovely one.
They are of the world we just left. Come—we must reach Krispin before he
awakens."
Although I was as intent on the task ahead as ever, I found I did not wish to
leave that mirror. I wanted to go on looking at those people, sharing
vicariously in their innocent felicity.
Challes led the way out of the chamber, with Dathan following after him. I
brought up the rear, reluctantly, gazing back often at the fading images in the
glass.
It was remarkably easy to find Krispin's resting place.
Too easy.
He was lying, like a slain statesman in the rotunda of some great government
edifice, with his arms crossed over his breast and candles burning all around.
He wore a white suit, reminiscent of The Great Gatsby, and his golden
head gleamed in the dim light.
I stood over him, remembering so many things.
"Make haste, Valerian!" Challes muttered. "If Krispin awakens, he will make a
formidable foe."
I was trembling as I held out my hand for the stake and mallet Dathan
provided. Whether the warlock had carried those implements with him, conjured
them, or simply found them along the way, I shall never know. Never care to
know.
I took the stake first and placed the point over my brother's heart, holding
it there with my left hand. In my right I held the mallet.
"Do it," Dathan said. "Kill him!"
We had underestimated Krispin's cleverness, for beneath my stake and raised
hammer, he suddenly became the little fair-haired boy I had known as a mortal.
He looked as peaceful as a sleeping cherub, the child of angels.
"Do not be fooled," Challes warned quietly.
I was weeping now, though in silence. I prepared myself to drive in the
stake, and Krispin changed shape again. This time he took on the image of our
mother, Seraphina. I had forgotten how lovely she was, how fragile and small.
"Valerian!" Challes spoke more sternly this time. "Can't you see what's
happening? He is a chameleon—there is no end to the forms he can take! In the
names of all the old gods, destroy him before—"
I was about to wield the mallet at last when Krispin took on still another
guise. This time he was the perfect image of Daisy, and he had awakened to gaze
up at me, imploring, with her emerald eyes.
I gave a roar of rage and torment. I could not plunge a stake through Daisy's
heart—I could not!
Dathan spoke. "This is not your beloved," he said with uncommon gentleness.
"If you cannot kill the dragon, then pray, step aside and allow me."
I dropped the stake and the mallet, though I had made no conscious decision
to do so. I was beginning to feel the first biting sting of the sun, despite the
thick walls and floors that sheltered us, just as Challes had warned I might. I
was, however, oblivious to the pain; it was nothing beside my horror and grief.
"Stand back," Dathan commanded, and Challes grasped my arms and pulled me
away from the high marble slab where Krispin lay, posing as Daisy, pleading with
me now, in her voice, to save her.
I had seen the warlock work his magic before, but nothing could have prepared
me for what happened next. He glared down at the lovely monster, still prone on
the slab, and murmured some kind of incantation.
Fire seemed to explode in that chamber, to leap from the candles and catch on
Daisy's—Krispin's—clothes. He shrieked, did Krispin, more in fury than in pain,
as the fire enveloped him, leaping, crackling, consuming. He abandoned Daisy's
shape, and became himself again, but the spectacle was still torture to watch.
I felt a scream of my own swell, shrill and sharp-edged, in my throat, and I
struggled, compelled by some animal instinct to go to my brother's aid, but
Dathan and Challes restrained me.
Krispin writhed and shrieked upon his pyre, his gaze fixed on me all the
while, hating, using even his agony to taunt me.
I cried out again, hoarsely, and fought to free myself, but my tutor and my
unlikely ally were stronger. I sank at last to my knees, sobbing, as the
warlock's fire devoured the monster in flames of ever-changing colors.
And there were other flames, too—the invisible ones, spawned by the sun
around which Second Earth revolved. I, too, was burning, and it was an
unspeakable agony, but I did not care. I wanted to suffer, to atone for the
anguish my brother had endured.
I was soon to have the opportunity, as it happened.
Daisy
Seattle, 1995
After three days at Kristina's house, being spoiled, coddled, and overfed,
Daisy was, for all practical intents and purposes, completely recovered. There
had been no sign of Krispin, and she had not seen Valerian since he and the
warlock, Dathan, had vanished in tandem from Kristina's living room.
"I'm going back to Las Vegas," Daisy announced that sunny morning, finding
her friend on the large deck overlooking the waters of Puget Sound, a magazine
resting in her lap. "I've got some loose ends to tie up there, but then I'd like
to come back."
Kristina looked surprised and pleased, then solemn. "You've felt it, then.
That Krispin is gone?"
Daisy nodded, fighting back tears. "Yes. Valerian is gone, too, in a
different way. I don't know how to explain it, but—it's as though he has died."
"I know," Kristina said. She had less success in suppressing her tears; her
silver eyes glistened with them. "Maybe he's only resting somewhere."
"And maybe not," Daisy replied. She supposed she was in shock—she'd dreamed a
horrid death scene in the night and watched Krispin burn, twisting and turning
like a twig, but the cries of torment she had heard had been Valerian's…
Kristina stood facing her. "What made you decide you want to live here in
Seattle?" she asked. Gulls squawked in the sky, and in the distance a ferry horn
sounded.
"I need a change," Daisy said, moving to stand at the rail. She'd regained
most of her strength, but it helped to lean on something. "I figured out one
thing, at least. I don't want to be a cop anymore."
Kristina was beside her, looking at the view. "What then?" she asked.
"You'll laugh."
"I promise I won't."
Daisy sighed. "I've got some money saved, and it would be a shame to let my
talents and all that training and experience go to waste. I'm going to rent an
office somewhere and hire myself out as a private investigator."
Kristina grinned. "I can see you doing that," she said. "You know you're welcome to stay here until you find a place to live."
Daisy shook her head. "Thanks, Kris, but I don't want to wear out my welcome.
After all, you're the only friend I've got in Seattle, and I'm going to need
somebody to talk to. Somebody who believes in vampires, for instance."
Kristina slipped a friendly arm around Daisy's shoulders. "I also believe in
ghosts, werewolves, warlocks, and a few other dysfunctional types, but I don't
suppose you're up to hearing all of that just yet."
Daisy smiled, though she wanted more than ever to cry. "Save it until I get
back," she said. "Unless, of course, you're going to tell me that Santa Claus,
the Tooth Fairy, and the Easter Bunny really exist?"
"Sorry," Kristina said, and they both laughed.
Valerian
Colefield Hall, 1995
"Remember," Dathan told me the instant I opened my eyes, "you owe me."
I was lying on a cool slab in that familiar cellar where I had spent many
nights, following my transformation. I lifted my arms, and that gesture raised a
storm of pain that reached deep into my flesh like the white-hot claws of a
million ravening rats. My hands were scarred and misshapen, and I must have made
a pitiful sound at this discovery, for Challes appeared, fussing like an
obsessed nanny, to give me blood in a silver cup.
"Don't fret," Dathan taunted me as I drew the desperately needed fluid in
through my fangs. "You look like the ugliest of Lon Chaney's thousand faces, but
you'll be your usual pretty self again soon enough, I vow."
I might have spat at him if I hadn't needed the blood so badly. The worst of
my ordeal—an eternity in hell—still lay ahead of me. I spared no grief over my
lost beauty.
"Krispin—?" I spoke to Challes when the cup had been taken away.
"His body was destroyed," my tutor replied. He looked shrunken, did Challes,
as though he were dissolving from the inside, caving in upon himself like an
ancient mummy, disturbed by some bumbling archaeologist, callously subjected to
sunlight and air. "Krispin's soul, on the other hand, surely awaits us both in
hell."
"Yes," I said. I would have given much to see Daisy then, but I knew I would
only grieve her, especially in my present repugnant state. I wanted her love,
not her pity. "Nemesis will be here soon, no doubt."
"You can't go to hell without keeping your end of the bargain," Dathan
protested vigorously. He'd been leaning against the wall, but with these words
he sprang at me like a wire coil released from a matchbox. "Damn you, vampire,
you must pay this debt!"
I smiled at him and saw in his pitying eyes what a ludicrous picture I made,
with my distorted face and hairless head. "Very well," I said. "There is a
vampire—Roxanne Havermail is her name. Her mate has left her for a fledgling, I
hear—and I think she'd grown weary of him anyway, given the number of times
she's tried to seduce me. Go to her, warlock, and make your monster children—if
you can."
He looked as though he might stretch out his hands and strangle me for a
moment, but then he must have realized the futility of such a gesture, for he
whirled away with a curse, and struck the wall with one fist.
I laughed—there were so few pleasures left to me at that juncture that I
could not spare even one—and the warlock came back to my side, seething with
fury.
"You'd damn well better go to hell, vampire," he spat, "for no other place
will hide you from my revenge!"
"Tut-tut," I scolded, groaning a little as the tide of pain rose up within me
again. "You have no one to blame but yourself. 'Never trust a vampire.' Was that
not your motto, your credo, the very litany of your black heart? Besides, I gave
you the female you requested. It is not my fault if poor Roxanne is not to your
liking."
Dathan did not reply, for he was too angry—with himself, I suspect, as well
as me—but simply shoved splayed fingers through his hair and turned away again.
I groped for Challes's hand. I was weakening again, slipping into sleep, but
even there I could not escape the relentless pain of my burns. "The murders—in
Las Vegas—the police will never understand about Krispin—must be some
resolution—"
My tutor smiled and smoothed my scarred forehead with gentle fingers. "A few
memories erased, a few changes made in the department's central computer, an
idea planted here and there—"
I nodded, murmured a few disjointed suggestions of my own, and gave myself
up, once again, to the ravenous, tearing teeth of torment.
Daisy
Las Vegas, 1995
Daisy arrived in Las Vegas at five-thirty in the afternoon, climbed into a
cab at the airport, and headed straight for the police department. Do not pass
Go, she thought, do not collect two hundred dollars.
O'Halloran was in his office, laboring over a stack of paperwork, when she
walked in. He beamed at the sight of her, shot out of his chair like a dolphin
going for a hoop at Sea World, and threw both arms around her. "Chandler! Damn,
it's good to see you." Daisy gave him an awkward kiss on the cheek, and they
stepped apart. "How's the vampire case going?"
O'Halloran's smile grew broader, if that was possible. He gestured for Daisy
to take a seat and sat down in his desk chair, making a steeple of his plump,
unmanicured fingers. "Don't you read the papers no more, Chandler? We got the
psycho, dead to rights. Already arraigned."
Daisy knew the man behind bars wasn't the real killer—Krispin had gone on to
his reward—but she had a hunch that he was guilty of other murders, whoever he
was. The situation smacked of vampire justice, but there was no point in trying
to tell O'Halloran that, of course.
More important, if her theory was right, it meant Valerian was around
somewhere. Didn't it? The tricks would be simple to him—a memory or two wiped
clean of certain facts, a couple of strokes to a computer keyboard, linked by
modem to the department's mainframe, a deserving criminal to take the rap for a
certain renegade vampire. Easy stuff.
Don't risk it, Chandler. Don't let yourself hope.
"That was good police work," she said with a purposeful smile of
congratulations and admiration. "I wish I'd been part of it."
"So do I," O'Halloran said. "I missed you, partner."
Daisy's smile faded. She hadn't thought it would be so hard, explaining her
change of plans. "I've turned in my letter of resignation," she said. "I need to
do other things—have a change of scene. You know."
"Yeah," O'Halloran replied sadly. "I know. Sometimes I wonder why I hang
around myself. For every creep we nail, it seems like there's fifty who get off
on a technicality or something."
Daisy told him about her plans to open a detective agency in Seattle and
finished with, "I can always use a good partner. If you get burned out on the
beat, give me a call."
O'Halloran grinned, and his chair creaked as he sat back, hands clasped
behind his head. "You know, Chandler, I can see myself as a gumshoe. The
question is, can my Eleanor? She's been after me to retire for a long time, but
I don't think living with Sam Spade is exactly what she had in mind."
Daisy stood, ready to leave, and O'Halloran stood, too, offering his hand
across the cluttered desk.
"Why don't you ask her?" she retorted as they shook hands. It was as close as
they came to saying good-bye.
Valerian
Colefield Hall, 1995
There was no fanfare when Nemesis came to collect me, no bolts of lightning,
no crashing thunder, and certainly no trumpet. He simply appeared in the vault
at Colefield Hall one night, standing patiently beside the bolted door until I
took note of his presence. Or, more properly, until I ceased pretending I didn't
know he was there.
I was quite alone, as are we all, I daresay, when we face our unique doom.
Challes, having brought me blood like a mother bird nurturing a nestling and
flown off again, on some errand of my invention, would not return for many
hours.
Dathan, for his part, had decamped sometime before, I think to pursue the
deceitful Roxanne Havermail. It was a great comfort, knowing that those two, who
deserved each other so richly, were very likely careening, even then, along a
collision course. My deepest solace naturally came from the knowledge that I had
broken the curse and saved Daisy from Krispin and his madness.
She might mourn me for a while, my Daisy… Brenna—I would surely grieve the
loss of her throughout eternity—but our tragic dance through the corridors of
time had ended forever, and the orchestra was silent.
Alas, I digress. I was recounting Nemesis's arrival.
The most feared of all angels found me reading peacefully in my underground
chamber, and looked at me with obvious pity, though I was by that time quite
myself again. My hair had grown back, and my flesh and features were as flawless
as ever, except for a stubborn scar here and there.
I closed the book. "It is time to go?" I said. It was an observation, a
statement, more than a question.
"Yes," Nemesis replied. I thought I saw regret in his unremarkable face, then
dismissed the idea as pure fancy. There would be no reprieve for me.
I rose from my chair, and the angel reached out and touched my forehead, very
lightly. I remember that his fingertips felt cool, and that the contact was
strangely soothing, considering all that lay ahead.
We were transported, the two of us, in a way much like the means I had
employed since my transformation in the fourteenth century, except that it was
somehow swifter and more graceful.
We stood on a dark ledge, looking down upon a pit of fire that seemed to have
no bottom and no borders, but to be infinite. I felt its heat and heard the
screams and shrieks of its inhabitants, and I admit that my very heart quailed
with fear. I recall a sense of mild hysteria, and a flurry of meaningless
thoughts bursting from my head like a flock of crows. I know I told myself it
was good that, as a vampire, I had no bladder.
Nemesis gestured toward the inferno. "Hell," he said, raising his voice a
little, to be heard over the hideous din, "is what each man or woman decides it
should be. This, Valerian Lazarus, is your hell. It is an illusion, in truth,
but it will be no less real for that."
I thought of Daisy and took a faltering step toward the fires, ready to hurl
myself in, but Nemesis caught my arm in one hand and stopped me. I felt his
great strength and knew then that neither Challes nor I had ever deceived or
eluded him; he had merely been biding his time until the appointed moment.
"You would truly suffer torment, throughout eternity, for the love of one
mortal woman?"
I did not hesitate. "Yes," I replied.
Nemesis did not release me but instead stared deep into my eyes. I felt him
probing my very soul, exploring every corner and shadow, seeking I knew not
what. The only thing that was really plain to me, besides the terrible fear
gnawing at my gut, was the fact that I could hide nothing from him.
"You speak the truth," he said, marveling. He raised his free arm, still
gazing at me, and in one gesture caused my spectacular medieval hell to vanish
in a twinkling. We were back in the vault, at Colefield Hall, before I could
quite credit that I had been spared.
"Why?" I whispered, trembling, when I realized I was safe. The memory of that
dreadful place we'd visited together would haunt me for all I knew of time. "Why
did you bring me here instead of—?"
"There is truth in you," Nemesis said. "For all your evil, there is an
element of good, though I confess I like you no better than I ever did."
I could not contain my joy, my relief. But my delight was quick to fade as I
felt again the unceasing heat of hell, heard the shrieks of the damned, saw the
hungry flames leaping against the darkness.
"That place—will I have to go back there someday?"
Nemesis gave me another searching look. "Perhaps. Perhaps not. What really
matters, vampire, is the moment at hand. Nothing else is real."
Having made this pronouncement, the angel vanished, and I was alone once
more.
I wanted to will myself to Daisy's side, but I was far too shaken. After all,
I'd just had a close call, one of truly cosmic proportions, and the next few
minutes were given over to gratitude.
Valerian
Las Vegas, 1995
Jerry Grover, assistant manager of the Venetian Hotel and Casino, trembled in
his expensive leather shoes as the magician loomed over him. "What the devil do
you mean?" Valerian demanded in a lethal undertone, looking damned scary in
those Count Dracula clothes of his. "How could she have left town without
telling me?"
Grover swallowed. All around, slot machines whirred and clinked, swallowing
tokens with melodic greed. Bells clamored and lights flashed, and Jerry wished
he didn't have to dance attendance like a flunky, but Valerian was a headliner,
and the board of directors wanted to keep him happy. Nobody packed in the paying
customers like this guy, and what the star wanted, the star got. Or somebody's
head, specifically Jerry's, was going to roll.
"I checked on Miss Chandler, as you asked me to do, sir," Grover said in a
squeaky voice. God, he hated it when he sounded weak and effeminate like that.
"My contact in the police department told me she's resigned and moved to
Seattle."
The magician glowered down at him for a long moment, during which time Jerry
honestly thought his best suit might spontaneously combust, then whirled and
stormed off through the casino, his black cape trailing majestically behind him.
As he passed, every slot machine in the place suddenly went berserk, clanking
like old-fashioned fire bells and spewing coins into the trays and onto the
floor. Happy gamblers shouted for joy, scooping up their winnings with both
hands.
It was the damnedest thing Jerry Grover had ever seen, and he didn't even
want to think about trying to explain it to the corporation.
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Daisy
Seattle, 1995
The ancient elevator in Daisy's office building clanked and jerked as it made
its dogged climb to the twelfth floor. It was late, and there was probably
nobody else on the premises except the janitor, but that didn't matter. Since
coming to Seattle two weeks before, it seemed to Daisy that she did her best
work at night.
That, she thought, with a pang and a rueful smile, was what she got for
hanging around with vampires.
The cage lurched ominously, and Daisy looked up at the numbers above the
ornate iron bars, feeling the first flicker of fear. If the cables were to snap…
She gave herself a mental shake. Since encountering Valerian and some of his
crowd, she'd become fanciful, even skittish. If she wanted to succeed as a
private investigator, and she most assuredly did, then she would have to put all
that behind her and get back her old pragmatic nature.
The lights blinked off, then came right back on again. The needle on the
indicator above the door bounced between two brass digits—seven and eight.
Daisy bit her lip. After arranging the move from Las Vegas, she'd driven to
Nadine and Freddy's place in Telluride and spent a week there, fussing over the
baby and playing Auntie Mame to the hilt. All the while, she admitted to herself
in the privacy of that antique elevator, she'd been waiting to hear from
Valerian, to see him again.
He was alive and well and back at the Venetian Hotel, drawing crowds like
never before—the newspapers and magazines were full of him. Daisy could only
conclude that, after dealing with Krispin he had decided a mortal lover was a
troublesome lover. Perhaps he had taken up with one of his many old flames, some
splendid monster like himself.
There was a grinding sound, and then the elevator stopped completely, and the
lights went out.
"Shit," Daisy muttered.
"Not very ladylike," Valerian's voice responded.
Daisy's heart stopped, much as the elevator had, then started again.
Valerian. Had she only imagined hearing him speak to her? The cubicle was
dark, but she could see well enough to know that she was still alone.
She felt a sweet heat stir in the depths of her femininity. She'd been alone
in that motel room, too, midway between Las Vegas and Telluride.
"Do you love me, Daisy?"
There was no mistaking it. Valerian was speaking to her, if only inside her
head.
The stress of the past few weeks had finally caught up with her.
"Yes," she murmured nonetheless. "Do you love me in return?"
"Let me show you," he responded.
The files fluttered to the floor as Daisy felt his lips touch hers, lightly
at first, and then with passion. His hands caressed her everywhere at once,
stroking her back, cupping her buttocks, weighing her breasts, teasing the
nubbin of flesh between her legs.
"Damn you," she whispered when he'd freed her mouth to let her take a breath.
"Why can't you make love to me in person?"
"Do you want me to stop?"
Daisy's pride battled needs too long unfulfilled, and suffered a resounding
defeat. "No—please—don't stop."
She felt her clothes dissolve like smoke, felt the heat of her desire in
every tissue and fiber and pore, and sobbed for joy when he entered her in a
single powerful thrust. He was neither tentative nor gentle, seeming to sense
that Daisy needed a primal mating.
Satisfaction came swiftly, tumultuous and fierce, and left Daisy clinging to
the handrail in the elevator with all ten fingers, barely able to breathe. The
lights came back on, and the lumbering box resumed its climb to the twelfth
floor with a shuddering jerk.
Daisy was still alone and frankly surprised to find her jeans and T-shirt on
her body instead of in a crumpled heap on the floor. She knelt, blushing, and
hastily gathered up the files scattered at her feet. All the while, satisfaction
thrummed within her, deep and abiding and utterly undeniable.
Reaching her office, she was forced to lie down on the couch where clients
were meant to sit, for small, sweet explosions were still rocking her from
within, and she could not trust her knees to support her.
She fell asleep, bathed in silver light and feeling the lack of her lover's
presence, and was awakened sometime later by a shadow crossing the moon.
Daisy sat bolt upright with a little cry, for seated on the edge of her desk,
resplendent in his magician's garb, was Valerian himself.
"You should have been here for the lovemaking," she said. "It was pretty
good."
He smiled and raised one aristocratic eyebrow. "Only 'pretty good'? Maybe I'd
better try again."
"No!" Daisy said quickly and with conviction. "Another session like that, and
I'll be stimulated to death."
Valerian laughed and opened his arms, and against her better judgment Daisy
went to him.
"Where the hell have you been?" she whispered. It was safe to be angry within
his embrace.
He laughed again. "Exactly," he said.
Daisy reared back to look into his eyes. "What—?"
He laid a finger to her lips. "Shh," he whispered. "It's over now, and we can
be together. If you still want me, that is."
"I was thinking you didn't want me," Daisy said, stiffening a bit but making
no move to withdraw from his arms. "What kept you so long, damn it?"
Valerian smiled and kissed her forehead lightly. "I had a few scars that I
didn't want you to see, and I thought we both needed a little time to regain our
balance."
Daisy nodded. "I'd gotten mine back, but you just threw me off again. Now
what?"
"Now we go about making some sort of life together."
"I'm going to get old," Daisy reminded him. "And when I'm ninety, you'll
still look just as you do tonight. People will think I'm your
great-grandmother."
"I have never cared, overmuch, what mortals think. Or immortals, either, come
to that. Such things don't matter, Daisy, when two lovers have been torn apart as often as we have in the past
several centuries."
Daisy rested her forehead against his chin. "Okay. But how exactly are we
going to work this? I like it here, and you like Las Vegas—"
"In case you haven't noticed, I find it easy enough to commute."
This time it was Daisy who laughed, but there were tears blurring her vision
when she looked up at him again. "What about that guy the Las Vegas police
department arrested for the murders Krispin committed? Isn't he a scapegoat, of
sorts?"
Valerian shrugged elegantly. "I guess that depends on your perspective. The
fellow has killed eight people, three of them children, and he's always prided
himself on pulling off the perfect crimes. Some might say that justice was done
here, however indirectly."
Daisy accepted that reply, although she knew it could have been debated for a
long time to come, and returned to the original subject. "I don't see how we're
going to manage a relationship," she fretted. "Do vampires even marry?"
"They mate, though to a much more profound degree than you probably think.
Ours would be an eternal pledge, understand. Yes, you will grow old and
eventually die. Then you will be born again, and I will be nearby, waiting for
you to grow up and rejoin me."
The idea was bittersweet. "What about kids? What about a house and a dog and
all that?"
Valerian feigned a sigh. "Any natural child of mine, Daisy love, would be a
monster in both the subjective and literal senses of the word. Still, there are
plenty of children alone in the world who would be happy enough to join our
unconventional little family. As for a house, you have only to tell me what you
want, and I will provide it." He paused. "The pet can be managed, too. It just
so happens that an old friend has recently given me a splendid animal as a gift.
You'll like him—his name is Barabbas."
Daisy considered her beloved's checkered past and the multitude of romantic
involvements he readily admitted he'd enjoyed. "You won't get—restless? I should
think a mortal might be pretty dull, over the long haul, when a guy's used to
lady vampires."
He brushed her lips with his own. "If you knew what I have been through, just
to be with you, you would never doubt my fidelity," he answered at his leisure.
"One day—or one night, rather—I shall tell you all about it. Furthermore, while
usually beautiful and always fascinating, 'lady vampires,' as you so generously
describe them, can be the coldest and most heartless beings in all creation."
Daisy didn't reply, but simply slid her arms around his neck and raised her
face in the shimmering moonlight to invite the vampire's kiss.
"Remember this night," she whispered.
"Because we can be together at long last?"
She smiled. "And because it's the beginning of always."
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